Skyfall

Chapter Forty-Five

Rebecca woke up the next morning with Harvey's arm around her. His hand was on her stomach and she couldn't help but smile. Although last night didn't go how she would have liked, she hoped that he was happier about the news now.

His words last night cut her like a dagger. It had been quite a while since he had lashed out quite so viciously at her. Honestly she thought those days were behind them. She thought they had learned how to argue without acting like that. But apparently she was wrong. Apparently in times of extreme crisis he was going to be more likely to lash out at her.

She tried to blame it on his grief about seeing Marcus at the rehab center, like he said last night. But something didn't feel right about it. Her gut told her there was still something he wasn't saying, something else that was bothering him. While she was sure seeing Marcus and having to identify him right after he died was rough, she didn't think that was the only thing weighing on him. Getting him to talk to her about it was going to be tough though because she could tell he didn't want to get into it.

It was a mess and she wasn't sure what to do other than to continue to be there for him and let him know that she would listen to whatever he had to say.

She turned slowly so that she was laying on her back. It was then that she noticed that Harvey was asleep. Sleep was something that had been alluding him for the past couple of nights so she didn't want to do anything to wake him.

Instead she simply watched him sleep. It was one of her favorite things to do on the weekends if she was lucky enough to wake up before him. She had to make up for the lost time on the weekdays that she didn't get to see his face. In the past, there was usually a hint of a smile on his face while he slept. But over the past few weekends, the smile was replaced with an almost pained look.

He had that same pained look this morning and she wondered what he was dreaming about.

Harvey walked down the corridor slowly, making his way towards Marcus' room at the rehab center. When he reached the door, his hand hovered over the door knob. He hesitated for a moment before turning the knob. Once the door was open, he walked in a few feet. That's when he saw Marcus standing on a chair with a bed sheet wrapped around his neck.

"What the hell is going on here?" He asked.

"What does it look like, dumbass?" Marcus scoffed. "I'm killing myself."

"But why?"

"C'mon Harvey, after everything that has happened, do you really have to ask me that?" Marcus laughed. "I've been a loser my whole life. You can't deny that. You've been following me around the whole time, cleaning up my messes. And everything I have done, except for Ethan and Olivia, has turned out to be a disaster. Those two kids are the only good things I've ever done and I'm not about to mess them up any more than I already have."

"But this…killing yourself…it will destroy them." He pointed out.

"No it won't." Marcus argued. "They will have you and they will also have Rebecca, unless you drive her away. I actually hope you don't drive her away because she's perfect for you…but let's be brutally honest. Isn't that what you decided we should be with each other now? Brutally honest? Anyway, you probably will drive her away sooner or later. It's only a matter of time."

Marcus paused. "Us Specter men…we are doomed to be alone and doomed to be unhappy by things caused from our own actions. My actions caused Katie to die, leaving me alone and unhappy. And just look at dad. He left mom alone all that time being on the road, practically giving her a free pass to cheat on him left, right and sideways. He was in so much pain for a long time because of the break up with mom. He dealt with it, but he never started a new relationship. You can't tell me that wasn't because of what happened. Maybe you should do Rebecca a favor and just cut her loose now. Save yourselves a bunch of time and heartache. Because you know once she finds out everything she won't stay around. She'll leave you just like everyone else."

"Look, this isn't about dad or Katie and it certainly isn't about my relationship with Rebecca, which you know nothing about by the way." He argued. "It's about you and this crazy, rash decision to kill yourself."

"It's not crazy and it's not rash." Marcus laughed. "I have thought about this for weeks. It's the only decision that makes sense to be since you told me exactly what you thought about me."

"I was wrong. I was so wrong." He admitted. "Marcus, just come down from there and we can talk about this. Please. I didn't mean what I said a few weeks ago. I was angry but I crossed a line and I didn't mean…"

"You said what you believed to be the truth." Marcus pointed out. "And I happen to think you were right. I've caused nothing but pain to everyone. So this is my way of making it right. This is my solution to everything."

"You're just going to cause more pain though."

"Maybe at first." Marcus admitted. "But then you will all get over it."

"That's not true!" Harvey argued. "We're never going to get over it."

"Maybe it is and maybe it isn't. But I'm doing this because of you big brother." Marcus explained.

"No!" He yelled. "Don't!"

But at that moment, Marcus jumped off the chair.

Harvey woke up, covered in sweat and out of breath. He looked over to see Rebecca staring at him with worried eyes.

"It was just a nightmare. It can't hurt you now." She touched the side of his face with her hand.

He scoffed. It may have been just a nightmare but it felt so real.

"Harvey…are you ok?"

He looked at her face and sighed. The worry was evident in her eyes and he managed to paste a fake smile on his face. "I'm fine."

"I call bullshit." She whispered.

"Ok. I'm not fine." He admitted. "But I will be."

"Do you want to talk about it?"

"No." He shook his head.

"Harvey..."

"I would much rather talk about something else…anything else." He interrupted her.

"Ok. Well since you don't want to talk about what is really bothering you, what do you want to talk about?"

He placed his hand back on her stomach. "How about this because it is a much happier topic?"

She gave him a smile and placed her hand over his. "Ok."

"How are you feeling?"

"Exhausted." She chuckled. "The morning sickness is bad. When it hits, it hits hard."

"I'm sorry." He apologized. "Who else knows about the baby?"

"The doctor and Donna…and Donna only knows because she figured it out when I stopped drinking coffee." She explained.

"You didn't even tell my mom?"

"No. I wanted you to be the first one I told." She replied.

He leaned in and kissed her. "Our lives are never going to be the same again, are they?"

"No." She shook her head.

"We're going from zero kids to three in the blink of an eye." He laughed.

"It's going to be interesting to say the least." She smiled.

"I'm just glad that I'm doing this with you because there is no one else I would want to go through this with than you." He told her.

"I feel the same way." She reached over with her free hand and caressed the side of his face. "I love you."

"I love you too."

"Are we going to tell anyone else about the baby yet?" He asked.

"I figured we could tell your mom." She explained. "But I don't really want to start telling everyone until we hit the second trimester."

"Are you worried about it being another ectopic pregnancy?" He asked, knowing her history. Honestly he was a little worried about that.

"No." She shook her head. "The doctor did an ultrasound and it isn't another ectopic pregnancy. I just still don't feel comfortable telling everyone until we are past the first trimester just in case something happens."

"Ok. Good." He nodded. "Then we will tell my mom but no one else."

"Are you ok with that?" She asked.

"I am if that is what you want." Honestly it didn't matter to him when they told their friends about the baby. But if waiting would make her more comfortable, then he would wait.

"It is." She nodded. "Thank you."

"You don't have to thank me for it."

"I kind of feel like I do since you aren't going to like what I say next." She sighed. "I have something I need to run by you."

"That sounds serious." He pointed out, noticing that she looked nervous.

"Well I don't think you are going to like it." She explained. "Your mom is going back to the city tomorrow so she can get her next treatment. I was thinking about going back with her instead of staying longer."

"So you're leaving me?"

"No, not exactly." She shook her head. "I'm going back so I can try to find us a new place to live. I figure the sooner I do that, the sooner you and the kids can leave Boston and we can finally go back to living in the same city again."

He listened to her explain it and it made sense. But he wasn't sure he was ready for her to leave yet. "Ok." He sighed.

"Trust me…" She leaned in and kissed him. "The very last thing I ever want to do is leave you. But I need to be back in New York City to get the rest of the plans settled. Does that make sense?"

"Yeah." He nodded. "It doesn't mean I have to like it though."

"I don't like it either." She explained. "But hopefully I can find a place for us to live quickly and then you can help the kids move in."

"It would be nice to live in the same place as you again." He chuckled.

"I agree." She nodded. "I miss waking up next to you every morning."

"I miss that too."

"It won't be too long before we are back in the same city and the same bedroom full-time." She smiled.

"I can't wait." He managed to put a smile on his face.

Harvey stepped into one of Marcus' restaurants later that day. He had called Colton earlier and arranged for them to meet. It didn't take long for Colton to emerge from the back hallway.

"Hey Harvey." Colton greeted, coming over and shaking hands.

"Thanks for meeting me before the restaurant opens." He said, motioning for them to go sit at the bar.

"No problem." Colton shrugged as they sat down. "Though I am curious about why you wanted to meet."

"I have something I want to run by you." He pulled papers out of his jacket pocket and slid them over, watching as Colton started to read them.

"Wait…you want to sell me both of Marcus' restaurants?"

"I want to sell you half of the interest in the restaurants." He clarified. "So you would own 50% and the other 50% would be split up between his kids. I'm splitting it up into 25% ownership for Ethan and 25% for Olivia, putting it into a trust that I will be executor of for them until they hit the age of 21. But it's all outlined in the papers."

"I don't know…"

"I know that you love these restaurants." Harvey interrupted. "You told me that when I came here after Marcus went into rehab and I believe you. You've done a wonderful job of managing everything through the chaos and you are the only one I trust to carry on the restaurants. This is Marcus's legacy. It's his chance to give something back to his kids once they are old enough. I want it to still be around and I feel like you are the only one who stands a chance of keeping the restaurants going."

"I appreciate the faith you have in me." Colton told him. "But I am worried about Marcus' actions…"

"I have paid the money back and everything will be fine." He assured the man. "You will have control over every day to day decisions. I just ask you consult me before the major decisions, like if you decide to expand or downsize. I'm not going to come in and micromanage everything."

"This is a big decision." Colton sighed. "Can I think about it?"

"Of course." He nodded, getting up. "Take as much time as you need to think it over and give me a call when you have made your decision."

Later that evening, Rebecca sat outside with Harvey and Lily.

"Ok. What is going on now?" Lily chuckled softly. "We only seem to meet up out here when something is wrong."

"Well tonight something is right and we want to tell you about it." She smiled.

"Good news?" Lily scoffed. "I think I've forgotten what it is like to hear that. So please, tell me."

"Well, mom, the thing is…Rebecca is pregnant." Harvey told her.

"Really?"

Rebecca watched as Lily's eyes got wide and a smile formed on her face. "You mean we finally have something good to celebrate?"

"Yes." She smiled.

"This is wonderful news!" Lily said, getting up to hug her first and then Harvey. "Congratulations!"

"Thank you." She replied. "We aren't telling anyone else until I reach the second trimester though so please try to keep it quiet."

"Of course." Lily nodded. "Well this is certainly exciting news!"