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Season 1, Episode 22.
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"We should take Chin out after the week he has had." Danny said as he sat on the bench next to Steve on the beach watching Kawika's Charity surfing event.
"You think so?" Steve asked distracted, "What'd you have in mind?" He had already asked Chin if he wanted to do something and Chin brushed him off.
"Tiki Bar?"
"You talk to him?"
"He said he just wanted things to get back to normal."
Steve nodded...word for word what Chin had told him. "You get any dates?"
"Why does everything think..."
"Bunch of swimsuit models Danno...really?" He said in an attempt to lighten his mood.
"I haven't been on a real date since..."
"Really?" Steve asked surprised.
"If I had my way I would still be married Steven."
"Is Chin even still here?"
"He took off an hour ago." Danny said fiddling with his phone.
"Tell him to come to the house." Steve said standing up and pocketing his, he just wanted to go home.
"You ready to go now?" Steve nodded and stood up as Danny pulled out his phone to call Chin. After a couple seconds he slid his phone back into his pocket, "Straight to voicemail."
"Trace it?"
"Seriously?" Danny asked wondering why Steve was acting so out of character.
"Text him and tell hi we will be at the house." No doubt in Danny's mind something was going on with his partner, he hadn't acted like this since...
"You go by the cemetery since we were there?"
"Huh?" Danny caught Steve off guard blurting out the first question that popped into his head.
"Been a crazy few months." Danny said following Steve out to the parking lot.
"Why?"
"Seemed like a big deal when we went...that doesn't just go away."
"You care." Steve said sarcastically but Danny saw right through.
"Never had a partner I did anything more than have a beer with." Danny said trying a softer approach.
"I've never had a partner before, Danno."
"Its nice." It worked.
"You drive?" Steve asked, finding it hard to keep his emotions in check.
Danny looked at Steve like he had grown another head, "You want me to drive?"
"Can you?"
"You okay?"
"This...I...uh..."
"Steven?"
"I don't want to be alone." Steve said looking down at his hands.
"Keys." Danny said reaching his hand out. Steve handed them over and walked around to the passenger side of the Camaro.
Danny got in and started the car and they drove in silence up to Haleiwa to Steve's house. Danny kept an eye on his Partner and was surprised when Steve started to nod off and reached his hand over and set it on Steve's shoulder squeezing it gently, "When's the last time you slept?" He asked as he merged onto the highway, it was only a ten minute drive from the beach to the house.
"Not sleeping now." Steve mumbled without opening his eyes and subconsciously leaning his head into Danny's touch.
Danny moved his hand up and ran his thumb up and down the nape of Steve's neck as he turned onto his street, "Almost home." Danny said softly knowing it was only to himself as Steve's lips were now parted in sleep. Danny parked his car and got out walking around to the other side, opening the door and unbuckling his partner, "Come on."
Steve opened his eyes and looked up at his partner, "My dad."
In that moment Danny knew that the rough and tough partner of his at his most vulnerable. "I'm not going anywhere." Danny said reaching his hand out and pulling Steve out of the car.
"They killed him here...he should have been safe at home." He said fighting the tears pooling in his eyes.
"You are safe." Danny told him as he put his arm on Steve's shoulder pushing him towards the house.
"Safe with you. Not safe." Steve said as Danny unlocked the door for them, the devastation in his honesty broke Danny's heart.
Steve plopped down on the sofa instead of his recliner and Danny sat down next to him as he grabbed the remote and flipped on ESPN for background noise, "Come here?" Danny said barely loud enough for Steve to hear and he scooted over to him and curled himself into his partner, head on Danny's chest, right arm around his back and knees tucked around his other side.
"Danno?" Steve whispered and for a split second Danny felt like he did when Gracie crawled into his lap for comfort from a bad dream...only this was his partner, a grown man who had done things that would make most peoples skin crawl. When he had told Steve to come over he expected the man to lean his head against him...not to curl around him like he had and it worried him.
"Yeah Buddy?" He asked as he ran his fingers through Steve's hair as his partner snuggled into him. Danny could feel Steve's body shaking and knew he was crying.
"Both of my parents were murdered." Steve said after taking a shaky deep breath and it still came out barely above a whisper.
"I know." He responded, resting his arm over the top of his partners.
"The baby will grow up without a Dad now..."
"That is what started this?" Danny asked and with a slight nod Steve started to hyperventilate and Danny pulled him closer into him and held him as if his life depended on it. He rocked his Partner gently until he calmed again, at least he understood the trigger now. He wished that his partner could see that he didn't have to keep everything locked in until it exploded out. Danny knew that Steve could not control what got to him and what didn't...that was the nature of PTSD after all. He did know his partner well enough that if there was anything he could do about what he was feeling he would not be feeling it and he certainly would not be curled up in his lap crying. That just was not the Steve McGarrett that most people knew...but Danny wasn't most people.
"I hate being scared in my own skin." Steve mumbled.
"You aren't scared all the time."
"I am." Steve said wrapping his arm tighter around his partner, "You make things...easier...but I...I don't like to be here alone...and cases with kids...I just..."
"Have you talked to one of the counselors we talked about?"
"I talk to you."
"Steven." Danny said admonishing him, of course he wouldn't go to an actual psychologist.
"Don't leave me." Steve said, his voice cracking.
Danny wrapped his arms tight around his partner and held the mans head into his shoulder so his mouth was next to his ear, "I promise you...until the day that I die if you ever need anything I will be there." He felt Steve nod and promised, "I got you." as he held his partner.
It didn't take long for Steve to relax and fall asleep and once he was relaxed Danny relaxed back and turned his focus to the basketball game that was on the television.
A couple hours later Chin walked through the front door, nearly dropping the bag in his hand when he saw Steve curled around Danny, snoring softly. "Something I should know Brah?" Chin teased.
"Baby will grow up without his father." Danny said quietly.
"Ah. Was wondering where his truck was."
"How did stuff go with your uncle?"
"I took care of it."
"What did you do?" Danny asked quickly noticing the change in his teammates demeanor.
"I've got it covered." He said carrying his bag in and setting it on the counter before grabbing two long boards. He handed one to Danny as he sat down in Steve's recliner. "He been sleeping since you got home?"
"Not too long after."
"PTSD must be pretty bad if a photographer and models unborn baby set him off."
Danny shrugged his shoulder and passed the cold beer from one hand to the other letting it rest against Steve's shoulder knowing Steve would want to be woken, "It has to be okay to talk about...mental health anything...keeping it all locked in...we cant do that...I am glad that he trusts me enough to be vulnerable." Danny said knowing that Steve was now awake, even though his eyes were still closed.
"The two of you practically the same person." Chin said with a smirk.
"We are a team...we have to trust each other." Danny said looking over at Chin.
"Its more than that with you two. I knew Steve when he was younger...he was not affectionate with anyone...obsessed with sports and impressing his father...but other than his sister...no one got close enough to touch him."
"He was a chick magnet...star quarterback...cant tell me no one touched him." Danny said shaking his head.
"Eh...maybe sex but he never let anyone in...not like how he is with you and a little bit with Kono."
Danny felt Steve squeeze himself into him before taking a long slow breath and opening his eyes looking over at Chin. "After losing my Mom I tried to shut off." Steve said with a calculated tone. All fact, no emotion in his voice but Danny could feel his shaky breath as he admitted the fact.
"Clearly that method did not work." Danny said sarcastically as he held his partner a little tighter.
"The two of you are doing it now...you sound like you are fine and you sound sarcastic but there is a whole different conversation going on between the two of you."
"I want to surf...do you want to surf?" Steve said sitting up quickly, staying close to his partner but talking to Chin.
"You two surf. I will barbecue." Danny said squeezing the back of his partners neck.
"A shrink could totally write a book about you two... translation of the last thirty seconds, 'if I don't get out of this house I will freak out again' 'your good buddy I got you.' You want to surf let's go surf." Chin rolled his eyes at his teammates.
"Don't know what you're talking about." Danny and Steve said in unison.
"We going?" He asked standing up and walking out without waiting for an answer.
"Danno I..."
"Not going anywhere Steven. Go." With an anxious look towards his best friend he slowly nodded, "You are safe. I will get the steaks going. I am staying here." Danny said pushing his partner towards the backdoor. "Go. Surf. We got you."
When the two returned an hour later the steaks were waiting for them on the table. They ate in companionable silence and Chin left shortly after. "Tell me, where is your head is right now." Danny said as he cleared the empty plates from the table knowing very well that Steve's eyes had not moved from the spot his father was murdered.
"Can't." Steve struggled to get out.
Danny walked over to his partner and put his hand on his shoulder. "Go get out of these wet clothes and take a shower. You smell like turtle poop."
"Turtle poop huh?" Steve said with a small smile.
"Yes. Turtle poop." Danny smiled, squeezing the back of his best friends neck, "Shower. Now." Steve turned around to look at his Partner and Danny saw the fear in his eyes, "I am right behind you."
Steve turned around four times between the kitchen table and the base of the stairs to make sure Danny was in face following, it wasn't that he didn't trust his partner he just was on a level ten freak out. "Right here Babe." Danny said pushing his way passed Steve and walking into the master bedroom.
As Danny dug around in the dresser for clean shorts Steve walked into the bathroom, leaving the door wide open as he stripped down and got in the shower. A few minutes later Danny heard the water shut off but no movement from Steve to get out of the shower, or even reach for his towel. "Steve?" Danny asked before walking over to the bathroom door.
Getting no answer Danny walked in and found his partner sitting on the floor with his knees to his chest and his arms protecting his head. "Steven I am going to put your towel around you." Danny said quietly and watched as his partner stiffened as he dropped the towel around his shoulders.
Danny dried his back and arms before forcing Steve to lift his head. When Danny found tear tracks from both eyes he used his thumb to wipe them away. "Come on Babe." Steve did as Danny instructed and he got his partner dried off and out of the shower, even going so far as to help him pull up his clean shorts before leading him over to the bed. "Say something."
"Stay." Steve whispered, looking up at his Partner with fresh tears falling from his eyes.
"Already told you I was you goon." Danny said walking around to the other side of the bed and laying down.
Steve laid back and rolled to face his best friend. "Don't know what I would do..." He said yawning.
"I'm tired. Think you can shut up long enough to sleep?" Danny smiled at the man before draping his arm over him. "I'm not going anywhere, get that through your thick skull." He said as he closed his own eyes.
As Danny relaxed into the soft bed he felt his partner move closer to him, holding his arm to his chest like a security blanket. Less than thirty seconds later Steve's breathing relaxed as he started to fall asleep. Danny moved so his hand was cupping Steve's ear and he stroked his thumb on the side of his face, "You need to talk to someone Babe."
"Talk to you." Steve mumbled sleepily.
"Need to talk to a psychologist Babe." Danny said sadly.
"Only Danno." Steve said opening his eyes and staring into his partners.
"I will go with you."
"I am scared."
"I know."
"I dont want this to keep happening."
"By this you mean your PTSD?"
"Where I cant keep myself in check...you can see right through and then I just...but..."
"You cant talk about your past."
"I...I dont want other people to see me like this."
"Chin and Kono?"
"Different."
"Your Navy Chick?"
"Friend."
"She has been there when you have lost people."
"Couldn't drop the walls."
"Everything since your Mom...just locked in?" Danny heard Steve take a shaky breath and knew his answer, "Not tonight, but we are going to get it all out."
"I cant Danny." He whispered.
"We will." Danny said, pulling his partner into his side, cradling his head in the crook of his neck.
Steve curled into his side and draped his arm around Danny. "You really wont leave?"
"Does it look like it?" Danny asked sarcastically as he ruffled Steve's hair, "We are going to find a psychologist for you in the morning."
"Okay."
"Okay?"
"Okay." Steve agreed and he instantly felt the weight lift. It would be a challenge but knowing Danny had his back...he knew he could do it.
