Don't come to school tomorrow or else.

I sat on my bed, hugging my stuffed bear close. Father gave me this bear when I was just a toddler and it always was my favorite even though it was getting old. What am I to do? I can't skip school, Mother will find out but Luka isn't the one to joke around... She was serious about harming me. It wasn't like it was going to hurt physically, whatever she had in store. However, I couldn't allow her to find out what was wrong with me. If she knew, everyone would find out and who knows what would happen to me then.

The door silently opened, seeing Seika's head popped in, "Aw, look who's alive." She frowned, "I thought you finally died, too bad."

I ignored her, trying to hide my bear. I was too late, she saw it with curiosity, a plan forming in her head.

She approached me, giggling. "What do you have there?"

"Nothing," I said, "Please go away, I need to study."

It was true, the test was tomorrow; another reason why I couldn't skip school. Seika didn't like me talking back to her and yanked the bear out of my grip. She looked it over with disgust. It was small, dark brown and was missing an arm. When Seika was born, she wanted it very badly and I forced it out of her hands, she didn't want to let it go and it caused it's arm to rip off.

She didn't remember the bear.

"This thing is ugly!" She grabbed the head of the small stuffed animal, "let me fix it for you."

She began to tear it off.

My eyes widened in shock, my body becoming numb. Please... It ripped more. Don't hurt him...Even more, of it came off.

"Stop!"

I jumped at her, taking us to the floor. I desperately tried to take my bear back, but she refused. "Get off of me you bitch!" She grabbed a chunk of hair, pulling on it. She managed to rip some out but I couldn't feel it as I managed to get on top of her, rage filling my eyes. She will not harm my bear, she will not hurt it.

She will not hurt me!

I couldn't hold back as I screamed, "I hate you!" I bit into her shoulder, my mouth filling with blood. She let out a painful shriek, echoing throughout the house. I refused to let go as she forgot about the bear and began to beat my head with her fist, trying to make me stop.

I hated her, I hated Seika!

For stealing Mother from me, for making me the child who didn't matter, for being prettier than me, always shoving every good thing that happens to her in my face. Why do I have to sit here and let my little sister bully me into killing myself? Why do I have to sit and watch as Mother showers her with attention and love I deserve!

"let her go, Hara!" Mother yelled into my ear, forcing me off Seika.

She was bleeding harshly from her shoulder, "Mommy! It hurts!" It reminded me of Luka in the office with her father, trying to make me seem like the bad guy. My hands tangled in my hair, I tried desperately to block out everything. "My shoulder!" Mother picked Seika off the floor, giving me a harsh glare; not even bothering to ask what happened.

"I should have never given birth to you...You're nothing but a monster!" She snapped, helping her daughter out of the room.

I ground my teeth, trying not cry. What have I done... I lashed out at her...I attacked my sister. The blood was beginning to soak into my carpet, I was too shocked to move. The red liquid was still in my mouth, dripping out onto my legs. Why...Why am I doing this, what am I becoming?! I hurt her...I bit into her shoulder! I saw the teddy bear across from me, his head half off. I crawled to it, forming into a ball with it in my arms.

I am a monster.

I was in front of the school gates, students walking past me in their own conversations. This morning, no one woke me up and they were gone from the house by the time I left my room. Where they were, I had no idea. My fingers unconsciously touched my bottom lip. The memories from yesterday were fresh in my memory. I bit her... I ripped her shoulder open enough to were she was bleeding. Maybe, Mother was right. Perhaps, I shouldn't have been born...

"Good morning, Hara." Tamaki appeared beside me, a smile on his cheery face. I didn't have the energy to speak... "Are you okay?"

No, I wasn't okay. I was dead and currently walking the earth like I was some kind of zombie. I wasn't one, was I? I wasn't hungry for flesh and I wasn't walking around stupid. I did bite my sister though...I didn't do it on purpose though.

I smiled at him, "I'm fine. I had trouble sleeping that is all."

"Oh, then I have just the thing to pick you up!" He grabbed my arm, making me follow him.

No, I had to get to class. What if Luka saw me? She was out for me... We went into the cafeteria, making me stop at the doorway. They didn't like me in there, I always received bad looks. It was a hidden rule from the others girl. I wasn't allowed to be here.

"What?" He asked.

How was I suppose to tell him that I wasn't allowed in there, that I was hated? I fumbled with my fingers, not seeming to find the words. "Tamaki," My speech quiet, "I'm not much of a breakfast person." I lied.

He looked disappointed for a moment before his usual smile took over once more. He grabbed my shoulders from behind, pushing me into the cafeteria, "No matter, you can eat it later." He persuaded.

As soon as my presence was inside the building, all the girls looked at me like I was the plague. Being with one of the most popular guys in school didn't make it any better. I tried to hide my face with my hands, trying not to make eye contact with anyone. He stopped me in front of the vending machine, pulling out some yen. He looked over the choices before pressing some buttons. I was too concerned with myself, feeling all the eyes stabbing into my back.

He nudged my arm, making me look at him. "Huh?" I blinked, seeing a small chocolate energy bar in front of me.

Tamaki was smiling from ear to ear as I slowly took it from him. I have never received anything from anyone before... I held it close to my chest; it was something special. I tried my best not to smile, glancing at my shoes.

He spoke, "I get those when I'm tired so eat up, you will be full of energy!"

I had all the energy in the world, despite being dead. I nodded at him, pulling a piece of my hair behind my ear, "Thank you."

"It's nothing, we are friends after all."

My body stopped, looking at him with huge eyes. Did he just say, friends? I've...Never had a friend before. He must be playing with me. He can't be serious. "Well, class starts soon so I'll see you at the Host Club after?" He tilted his head, his purple irises looking into my brown ones. It was like he was silently begging through his gaze.

I was powerless.

I blurted out, "Of course!"

"Okay, see you then, Hara." He waved, leaving the cafeteria.

I remained there, smiling at my energy bar. A gift and a new friend all in one day, maybe killing myself wasn't so bad. I began to hear the students gossip about me, pulling me back into reality. The first pair of eyes I landed on was Luka's and she looked satisfied, seeing me here was exactly what she wanted.

she mouthed the words 'Told you not to come.'

My mind went into a full-blown panic, all feelings of happiness now gone. I ran out of the cafeteria, not caring I dropped my school ID.

I hid in the school's garden, knowing no one would come out here cause of the cold. I was sitting behind the lily bushes, staring at my chocolate bar. My lips naturally formed a smile even if it was such a simple thing.

It meant a lot to such a lonely person.

He said we were friends, actual friends. This means...I wasn't alone. I had someone who wasn't against me. My brain was telling me to be rational, what if he was playing a cruel joke on me. I didn't care, he said it and I took it to heart.

"A friend..." I let the words warm my inner soul. I never thought this day would come. I felt tears run down my cheeks, I was so happy. I never knew I could be so happy, this feeling; I wanted it to last forever.

I didn't want to eat it, I wanted to treasure it. I wiped my tears away, my smile still going strong. I got off the snow, wiping my dress clean. I needed to head to class, I didn't want to be late for my test. With me in such a good mood, I knew passing would be a breeze.

Once I was in class, I took a seat with a small grin; I couldn't get it to go away. The bell rung, everyone rushed in. The teacher made a quick introduction and passed out the papers; It was easy and I finished first. The teacher knew I did well, giving me a thumbs up. I returned to my desk, glancing at the energy bar in my bag. I was excited to go to the Host Club after school, I haven't been this pumped for anything in a long time. One by one, students turned in their papers and before I knew it class was over. I walked out of the room last, taking my time. The results would be ready by tomorrow morning, hopefully, I got first or at least in the top ten.

I knew I got first.

I felt someone tap my shoulder, "Yes?"

"I'm Sakura, nice to meet you." It was a girl, a little shorter than me. She had short brown hair and green eyes, she was adorable and her voice slightly high. "I saw you at the Host Club, I wanted to say hi cause I thought you were so pretty."

I glanced at the floor, not use to complements.

Did she call me pretty?

What should I say to her!? "Y-You're adorable!" I blurted out, making me look ridiculous.

I wanted to slap myself, why did I do that?!

Her cheeks turned pink, "Oh, I"m not like 'that' or anything but you are pretty cute." Her smile was bright. Nice to know there is some nice people here...However, I wasn't use to this and wanted to walk away. "Do you wanna be friends? Like, hang out after school?" She continued.

Friends? My day was getting better and better. The thought of me being dead was gone, my smile the biggest it has ever been. I could be friends with another girl! What about the Host Club and Tamaki? He wanted me to go after...But this could be my chance to make another friend. How could I pass this up?

"Yes, I would love too."

She cheered, "Good! Do you wanna meet up at the burger place close from here? We could eat and talk."

I was overfilled with joy, "Okay, I'll see you then."

I waved her off, my entire being feeling light as a feather. Something was telling me that something wasn't right but I didn't care. I could actually hang out with someone. I had the chance to make friends with another student and a girl at that. My mind filled with images of her and me spending the night with each other, gossiping, doing our make up together; being teenage girls.

I loved the idea of being a normal teenage girl.

I felt nervous and excited all at the same time. I've never had this opportunity before. I wasn't about to pass it up. For once in my life, I walked through the halls.

A smile on my face and my head held high.

I glanced up the stairs that led to the Host Club, feeling guilty that I wasn't going to go. He wouldn't be mad, I was going to make a new friend after all. I took the energy bar out of my bag, grinning at it. Tamaki would understand, I can talk to him tomorrow. With an eased conscious, I walked away. I went out of the school, the snow coming down rather hard. I didn't care, it wasn't cold to me and I was too happy to care. Once I was out of the gates, I saw the burger place not too far away. Was she already there?

Waiting for me.

I peeked through the window, seeing customers getting their food. No matter how hard I looked, I couldn't see her. Was she not here yet? Was she still at school?

"Hara! Look a poor puppy!" Sakura appeared behind me, pointing to the alleyway. Where did she come from? She looked worried, begging me to help the animal I couldn't see. I rushed with her to back to the alleyway, I looked everywhere.

There wasn't a puppy.

I looked back at her, "I can't find-"

My mind went blank, standing there at the entrance of the alley was Luka and her two friends. Sakura was behind them, smiling like she had successfully committed some kind of crime.

I'm so stupid, why didn't I see it.

How did she know my name when I have never told her? Why would she walk up to some stranger and immediately want to be their friend? There were signs and I ignored them like an idiot. I knew someone wanting me to be their friend was too good to be true.

"Sorry Hara, but I don't like you." She grinned, "I hate people like you." I dropped to my knees. The innocent adorable girl in front of me changed into a demon.

Luka turned to her, "Thank you, here is your reward." She handed her a few hundred yen. Sakura grabbed it with greed, counting it. Are you trying to tell me, that I was worth a few yen? They are showing me, that I am some item they can trade and do whatever they pleased with. I scratched my face, tears staining my cheeks.

Is my being really worth... Nothing.

Sakura ran off with her earnings, leaving me behind with the devil. She grinned, bowing to pick my face up with her long fingers. She made me look into her cruel eyes, I tried to look away but she wouldn't let me. "I told you not to come," She laughed under her breath. "But little miss perfect just had to show up." Her friends laughed with her.

"Let us go at her already," One of them said impatiently.

Luka held up her hand, silencing them. She saw my tears, her tongue licking them up; making me want to vomit. The way it felt on my skin as if she was rubbing me with sandpaper. "I love it when they cry." Her face turned a rosy shade. What is she doing? My body was shaking. She was toying with me. Her finger touched my lips, her eyes becoming lost in lust. "Leave me, I'll deal with her."

"But Luka-"

"I said leave!" She growled.

They flinched, "O-Okay, we will see you tomorrow." They fled the scene.

Luka's attention was on me, once again her eyes becoming lost. I was confused, scared and I felt like I was going to wet myself. Her hand cupped my face, being frozen in fear kept me from pulling away. "I love it when you shake with fear," She breathed, "Crying from whatever I could do to. I could do anything."

Stop...I begged silently. Please, get it over with. She stood up, her finger in her mouth, tasting my saliva. I've never seen her act this way and I didn't ever want to. She was acting like a completely different person. Someone who enjoyed seeing others in pain for their own pleasure. It was twisted and sicking, knowing she was pleasing herself with my pain.

"The sweet taste of horror." I saw her move her legs back and forth.

She went back down to me, and what she did next shocked me. She slapped my face hard. Trying whatever she could to get an arousal.

"Cry harder!" She grinned, her white teeth showing.

I cried out, "Stop!"

Her hand went to her breast, "Louder!"

She kicked me over, love seeing me curl into a ball. She continued to kick me, my tears falling not from pain but the heavy feelings inside me.

I was betrayed.

She said she was going to be my friend but she sold me for yen, I was worth a few yen. I didn't feel like a person, I wasn't worth the title of a human being. How dumb was I to believe her? I deserved this, I needed someone to teach me a lesson. I wasn't going to learn on my own. Someone needed to remind me.

This world was cold.

No one was there for me. Sakura turned her back on me, wouldn't Tamaki do the same? He was using me too. They all were! No one in this universe would love me. I died and it still wasn't enough to finally let me rest. Killing myself didn't release me from this pain.

Luka pulled me off the ground, her face red and sweaty. "Does it hurt? You are shaking like crazy."

I began to blank out. This was too much...

"God, I love it. I want more." She threw me down, looking satisfied. "However, I will have that later." She spoke words that left me feeling dead, actual death. "We will be seeing each other much more often, little miss perfect." She winked.

I laid there in the snow as she walked away. I didn't have the energy to move. I wanted to disappear, to die all over again. I didn't have that option.

I was already in Hell.