All my focus was on Kyoya, I swore my head was pounding from the tension in the air. I can't tell him! All alarms were going off. So many things were flying through my mind. Run! Hide! Fight if you must! Just get away from here! He kept his eyes on me as I straightened my back, trying to look like I wasn't scared. I knew it wasn't helping, you could even smell the fear off me.

"What are you talking about?" I tried to play dumb.

He wasn't buying it. He got incredibly close to me, I could feel his breath on my face. "I know something is up and now I've seen proof, tell me what is going on or I will look into it." He got even closer, his dark irises digging into my brown one, trying to find any sort of information. "And if I have to dig into your life, there will be trouble."

Right then, Honey ran into the cabin. "Tamaki did it!" Kyoya was far from me, like we never talked in the first place. I glanced at the sink, making sure all the black sludge was gone. Tamaki came in shaking like crazy. Which Haruhi fetched him a cup of hot chocolate. I was still pretty shaken up from the experience, trying my best to fake a smile. Takashi kept a close eye on me as I moved to a couch to sit down with everyone. I needed to collect myself, I couldn't show them I was afraid. Kyoya didn't even look at me, talking with Tamaki about how he could have gotten hypothermia. The twins sat to the side of me, snickering. They must have something up their sleeves.

"Okay Haruhi," Tamaki tried to say. "Truth or Dare." Then suddenly, Kyoya raised a hand.

He spoke calmly, "I would like to take this turn." Everyone was surprised he wanted to be apart of this and it only sent more fear through my veins.

"Go ahead?" Tamaki said, confused but with a smile.

He looked straight at me. I gulped, wanting to run away. "Truth or dare?" He asked smoothly. I didn't know which one to pick. I couldn't refuse either because I didn't want to look suspicious from the other Hosts. I was scared to pick truth, he wanted to get information out of me and that was a easy way to do it. Even if I was to lie, he would see right through it. As for dare, I had no idea what he would make me do. Not knowing what he would say made me tremble. Thankfully, the twins didn't notice.

"I choose.." I breathed, "Dare." I had to pick it. Going with truth would have been to risky.

Haruhi glanced at Kyoya with worry, "Do be nice, Kyoya."

"Hara, I dare you to eat all the food in the cabinet." What? What was he trying to get from me? And I couldn't possible do it! I would vomit that black stuff again and in front of everyone! I've never ate so much food before in this state of mine either. I didn't know what to do.

"She can't eat all of it!" Tamaki said.

Hikaru laughed, "Look how small she is."

"There's no way she can eat it all." Kaoru agreed.

He spoke, "I know, she will just have to consume as much as she can" We all went into the kitchen and he opened the cabinet. Inside was so many canned food, from vegetables to expensive looking soups. Other than that, there was boxes of crackers and other food I've never seen before. The twins started opening the cans, pouring them into bowls for me and heating them up. I sat at the table, everyone crowed around me. I was so nervous, I thought I was going to throw up already.

"You don't have to force yourself." Tamaki said with concern.

Haruhi placed a hand on my shoulder, "You really don't. Kyoya is just picking on you." I wish it was just mindless fun. However, he wanted to know everything about me and I wasn't about to let him find out. They placed three bowls in front of me, I didn't care what they were and picked out the one that was full of soup first. I picked up the spoon, stopping at my lips. I closed my eyes, shoving it into my mouth. I felt only the liquid go down my throat as I kept putting more into my stomach. I wanted to cry, getting done with all three bowls rather quickly.

"Oh wow! That was fast!" Honey gasped.

"Are you okay?!" Haruhi asked.

I placed a hand on my tummy, pretending to feel like I was really full. "I don't know if I can eat another bite." Placing a hand over my mouth, I tried to hold down large quantity of food. Kyoya didn't look satisfied and placed down a slice of cake in front of me.

Tamaki frowned, "Hasn't she ate enough?"

"She barely put a dent in the cabinet so this will be the last thing." It was a chocolate cake and Honey was drooling over it. I wanted to just push it to him, let him eat the monster that threatened me to vomit. However, I couldn't. I had to prove nothing was wrong with me. I picked up the fork, taking a chunk of cake. I felt everything wanting to rise. Consuming so much food was not a smart idea, but I will not back down. I will not let Kyoya win.

I gulped down the cake quickly, I had to rush to the bathroom right after. I heard everyone's concerned voiced behind me. I slammed the door behind me, I was bent over the toilet. Why did it hurt?! Why did my stomach hurt so much?! I felt like my insides were being ripped apart. I covered my mouth tightly. I can't throw up now! I have to hold it in! I heard someone walk in. I forgot to lock the door! I felt tears threaten to spill as the pain was becoming unbearable. I haven't felt pain in so long, I forgotten what it had felt like. I wanted it to go away. Why did I agree to do this stupid game!? The person stopped behind me, I could barely glance over my shoulder. Kyoya looked down at me with curiosity, like I was some kind of animal he was testing on. My vision was becoming black and the pain was fading. I... Need... To...

I suddenly woke up on the couch, all the lights were out and I no longer felt pain in my stomach. I must have blacked out.. No one was in sight, they must have went to bed in the bedrooms. Then I suddenly saw Haruhi asleep on the other couch. He looked peaceful. Maybe, he was taking care of me? I saw it was snowing outside. Now was my chance! I had to leave no matter what, staying here wasn't safe. Kyoya was my enemy now and anywhere he was, I shouldn't be. I quietly got up, making sure not even to make a single sound. I slowly opened the front door and slipping out.

The snow beat down on me, but I didn't care. I wasn't cold and I was more concerned with Kyoya waking up. I took off with high speed, wanting to distance myself from the cabin. Once I was surround by nothing, but trees, I felt tears run down my face. Why? Just why..? I thought everything was going so well. I was having so much fun. I was laughing and everything felt okay for once.

The tears came down harder, so was the snow. I tripped against a tree. I laid against it, trying to steady my breathing. I wiped at my tears, but they kept coming. For once, I thought I could let loose, have some fun and maybe think I had friends. I was upset, I was crying and I felt pain. I didn't care what was to happen to me at this moment. I knew I had to return to Tomo's side, but what I wanted to do even more was curl up and hope the snow would cover me from reality.

Why wasn't allowed to feel ease?! Why must I constantly suffer!? Right when I thought everything was going to be okay, I had to be reminded I wasn't normal. Even when I was alive, I wasn't normal. I just wanted to have a good life...A loving family, friends and I could be myself. I had to end it all before I knew it could ever get better. I could have moved out as soon as high school was over, but I was just so tired. I didn't want to wait any longer.

The bright smile of Oten appeared in my mind.

I wonder what she is doing right now.. I miss her. She always made me feel better. She was filled with so much energy. I was jealous, but she was still my friend. I smirked past my tears. Friend... I wanted to see her again. Then Tomo's face appeared too. He smooth smile and eyes. He wasn't such a bad guy. He even offered me a place to stay. I need to get home...

Pushing past the worsening weather. I felt my stomach turn. It's coming back! I just want to go home...To Tome. I wanted to see Oten's smile again. I gulped it back down, trying to see past all the white. I swore I saw someone in the distance. It must be my mind tricking me from all this stress. Oh god... Suddenly, black shot from my mouth and nose. I fell to my knees, black sludge pouring out of me. It stuck out like a sore thumb in the snow. It wouldn't stop coming out. I tried to get back up, but only tripped again and landed in it.

My eyes widened, seeing the all the black cover my hands and clothing. It slowly came out of my mouth as I was choking from all the tears and sludge. I heard crunching and shot my head up. A short distance from me was Tomo. He was wearing a thick jacket, caked with snow. He looked drained and cold. How long had he been out? The tears came even harder. Why is he here?!

"What are you doing?!" I choked, black sludge spraying out my mouth. Tomo looked terrified and didn't move. I must look like a monster right now...Covered in black goo. "Go away!" I screamed. I didn't want him to see me this way. What was I to say to him? How I could I explain myself to where this all looked normal.

He took a step forward, "Hara?" He wasn't certain it was me.

"STOP!" I cried desperately. Why must he always see the worse in me?! He didn't stop. I was so tired... I tried to wipe some of the black away from my mouth, but it kept coming out. He was in front of me now, not caring about all the sludge, he dropped to his knees.

"What's happening?! Are you okay?!" He looked pissed off and scared at the same time. "I've been looking all over the place for you! We need to get you to a hospital!" He tried to help me up, getting black all over his hands and sleeves.

I pushed him away, "I can't go to a hospital! They won't understand and neither will you!" I made it back on my feet, backing away from him. He must be so cold and tired from looking for me. I had to make him leave, I wasn't worth all this. "Go away, Tomo."

"What are you talking about?! Look at you!" He argued. I know.. I must look so awful.

I hid my face, "Just leave me here... I'm nothing but trouble anyway. I'm all messed up and I knew it was a done idea, thinking everything was going to work out. Please, just leave me here..."

"I refuse."

I cried, "No! Forget that you ever met me!"

Suddenly, he opened up his arms. "Look, I don't know what is going on with you and I may not ever know, but I don't care! If you are a monster or just really sick. I don't care about any of that! I know what it is like to be alone and afraid. I don't want you to feel like that so I'll do what you want me to do. We don't have to go to a hospital, but I will not leave you here!" He was filled with such determination, that it made the tears stop.

"Please, let's just go home." He begged.

Everything happened so fast. I ran right into his arms. Wanting to feel protected and that everything was going to be alright. He didn't care that I covered him in sludge. He hugged me tight, burring his face in my snow caked hair. "Thank god, I found you..." I heard him whisper.