At least, a week flew by. I didn't know where the time had gone, maybe I was experiencing that part of my life, where everything becomes too much and time just becomes a blur. I told Tomo everything. From my childhood, my Mother's abuse, how I tried desperately to become perfect. All to the point to where I jumped off the roof and ended my sorry excuse of a life. He was speechless at first and then, the unbelievable happened.

Tomo cried.

I thought that was something I would never see him do. The tough kid in school, the ring fighter, and gang leader. Crying over my life story, At that moment, he looked innocent. Like nothing in his life mattered but me, the person who had jumped into his home. He didn't have anything to say like words were something he never learned. All he could do was hug me. I couldn't remember how long he held me.

For the moment, I was sitting at the park. Listening to the snow crunch under my feet. I needed to get out and just relax. The week had been very stressful and overwhelming. It was hard to get out of Tomo's place this morning. Ever since I told him everything, he's been really cautious of me. Like I would break at any moment. I reassured him I was fine and he eventually let me go.

It was a calm day. People buzzing around and the sky was clear. I knew I needed to get some stuff done, but I just wanted to breathe. I needed to approach Seika, talked to Tamaki and confront Mother. It didn't sound like much, but all of it was weighing on my shoulders.

"Hara!" I heard the voice of Honey rang out. He ran up to me, his smile as large as ever. I didn't see Takashi with him. He was dressed up with a nice scarf, shielding him from the cold. "Nice to see you!" He positive energy helped pick up my mood.

I nodded, "Likewise."

A sudden question popped into mind. What if I was to ask him about Hikaru. Takashi was with him the other night, surely Honey would know some information. Like why were they there? "Hey, may I ask you something?" I said.

"Of course!"

"Well..." I wanted to be kind about it. I didn't even know how to come across this. "What does Takashi do with his spare time?" Oh wow, that was smooth.

Honey didn't even flinch, he was probably asked this quite often from girls. Takashi is a well-known host member. "He likes to play with me! and he likes to read." I didn't see him as the book kind of guy. That was more of an image for Kyoya. "Are you curious about him?"

"I would suppose so." I was wondering what he was up too. Why he would go to such a place to fight others. He seemed like the kind of guy who wanted to keep the peace. Then again, I didn't know anymore.

He winked at me, "Don't worry, he likes you too." This left me flustered,

"Huh?!" This wasn't what I wanted at all! What did he mean?

"Do you wanna go grab a slice of cake! I'm starving." I didn't see sugary foods as appropriate for hunger, it was more of a treat. I wasn't the biggest fan of cake, but now, I couldn't remember the taste and would have gladly eaten a whole one to myself if I could. However, I couldn't. I didn't want to vomit black sludge anymore, not since that one night. What should I tell him?

I sighed, "I just ate actually. Thank you though." He frowned, tears forming in his eyes. "I'll go with you though."

"Yay!"

We were sitting in a very fancy cafe. He was munching down on a slice of orange creme cake. It looked much too expensive for my standard. The atmosphere was nice and everyone around us looked high class. The scent of sugar and freshly baked dough filled the air. When I was younger, I would have given anything to be in a place like this.

"You sure you don't want a bite?" He asked. I only shook my head with a smile. "Well, okay." Despite all the questions I wanted to ask him, I felt relaxed. Maybe it was the cafe? Maybe it was his kind nature. Honey had this feel to him, like everything in the world was positive. At this time, I needed it more than anything. He had some crumbs on the side of his lips but he didn't notice. I thought it was cute.

I wanted to continue questioning him, I had to know more for Seika's sake. "Is Takashi close with Hikaru?"

"Yea, they seem to be hanging out more. I don't mind though, we're all friends!' He smiled. Recently, huh? I wonder what made them suddenly do this. Being friends is one way to see it but being together in a fighting environment doesn't seem like the friendliest thing to do together.

I sighed, "I see."

"What's the matter?"

Could I tell him? No, if he didn't know. I didn't want to be the one to shatter Takashi's perfect image. "It's nothing." A flash of seriousness went through him, he quickly recovered though.

"Well alright, Hara. Don't be afraid to talk to me though, I may look young but I can be very reliable." I knew this. He also had that trait to him, but I didn't want to ruin his innocence as well. I didn't have the right too.

"Thank you." I smiled. Even though the atmosphere was pleasant, it was starting to make me feel out of place. It was nice talking to him but I needed to be on my way. I had too many things I needed to fix. It was better to finish what needed to be done quicker than let them sit. What was I to address first? Seika? Tamaki? I knew Mother had to be last. I would be too drained to handle anything else. I got up, pushing in my seat. "I had a great time, thank you, Honey."

"Leaving already?" He frowned.

I nodded, "I have things to do, sadly." He could only frown more as he waved me off. Once I was outside, I breathed in the cool air. Something told me I needed to see Seika first. She needed to know about Hikaru. I didn't trust him to be a good father and if he was as a violent person then he didn't need to know about the child.

I was at my front door, every fiber in my being told me not to knock. I rather lay in bed or joking around with Tomo. I didn't see Father's car and if he wasn't here then most likely, Mother wasn't either. I sighed, raising my fist to knock. However, the door opened wide to reveal Seika. Who gasped when she saw me. Quickly, she shut the door behind her.

"What are you doing here?!" She half whispered.

My head tilted, "I came to talk to you."

"Well not here! Mother is inside!" My insides froze. Was she here? "We need to leave." Then we heard her heavy footsteps behind the door. Before I could react, Seika pushed me to the side of the apartment, making me duck behind the corner.

Mother opened the door, "You almost forgot your lunch." She handed her a small bag, "You have a good day, sweetie." She kissed her forehead. This stung me. To see my Mother look so content with life even though I was gone. It's not like she cared if her children ran away. It was more like it was a blessing. The urge to get out of hiding and tell her a piece of my mind grew but I knew now was not the time. Seika didn't need to be around for it. Once Mother returned inside, Seika grabbed my hand and we got safely away from the apartment.

I was walking with her as we headed towards her school, "You almost got caught!" She hissed.

"I know but I didn't so it's okay. I need to tell you something." I said.

She sighed, I could tell she was already highly stressed and didn't want any more bad news. "I want you to know that I'm keeping the baby," she spoke. "I want to give it a life full of happiness. I want to raise it to were it knows love. I see our family and it's nothing but a cover. Everyone sees perfection but I see nothing but corruption." I was surprised to hear her say that. Seika seemed like the type to not pay attention to those details. She got everything she wanted. Why would she care about our family image?

"You see it too?" I asked. Still not believing what I was hearing.

"I've noticed everything, Hara. I too am afraid of Mother. If I stop being the favorite and act the way I do, I'm afraid she'll treat me the same way she does you. I can't handle it. I don't know how you did it. Surviving all those years."

I stopped, my face scrunched up into a frown. "Then why were you also mean to me! Mother wasn't the only abuser!" I wanted to shout but I kept my voice to a minimum.

"She was always listening! If she heard me being nice, she would hurt me too!" Seika wasn't afraid to yell back at me. I could tell her everything. Tell her she was one of the reasons why I killed myself. She wasn't innocent and the only reason I was trying to help her was for the baby. I needed to calm down. I didn't come to fight her, I needed to tell her the truth.

I breathed, "I'm sorry. It's okay now, I forgive you." I may have not fully forgiven her for years of torment but I knew I could learn. "I came to tell you about Hikaru."

"What about him?" Her face went pale.

"A few nights ago, I saw him in a fighting ring."

She had a glance of denial, "You sure it was him? Not Kaoru."

I nodded, "I approached him and he confirmed it." Seika looked like she wanted to break down all over again but she kept her tears inside, only biting her lip for comfort. I wish I could have told her that he was the perfect guy. We both wanted him to be happy about the news about becoming a father but we both knew that wasn't meant to be.

"I... Can't tell him." She spoke up. "He'll deny it anyway." I didn't know what to say. I felt like he should know, take some sort of responsibility but this wasn't my choice. She took a deep breath. "Well, thank you for telling me."

"Of course." I frowned.

"Did you hear? School starts back up for you tomorrow." My body froze. I didn't hear about this? Then again, I wasn't home to find out. I didn't want to go back. Luka would be there and I didn't think she would leave me alone even after Tomo's threat. I didn't want to go back to the bullying and long hours teaching. It didn't matter to me anymore. I would have to see Hikaru there as well and I would have to try my hardest not to tell him the news and punch him again.

"It'll be nice to go back." I fake smiled. I didn't want to worry her.

She laughed, "You always did like studying."

I wanted to tell her I hated it with a passion, but now wasn't the time to talk about my dislikes. "I sure do."