The smell of crisp winter air, the tree branches rustling in the wind. All the students in their uniforms walking like normal. The sweet smiles of innocent students and cheerful laughter.

I always hated it.

There I was, standing before the gate of the school. Do I really have to come back here? There's not really a point with me no longer being in my Mother's home and with me being dead. I sighed, stepping through the gate. No, I need to settle some stuff. I know what I am to do and that is to confess to Tamaki. I wonder what he'll say? What will he do? The unknown was scaring me but I couldn't run away anymore. It was about time I went forward.

When I stepped into the building I instantly felt it; the eyes of students. They were not happy to see I was still allowed back here. The area where the fire happened was all fixed up. Brand new and shiny. If anything, the accident made it better. I ignored their glares and pressed forward. I decided that after class I will go to the Host Club and confront Tamaki. Wouldn't it be hard right? To get us alone to where I could confess. I don't want anyone to see me get rejected. I went around the corner and saw the twins talking it up with some girls. This made me angry. I made sure to stay away from their eyesight. They were smiling and laughing, not a care in the world. Hikaru... How could he be so unaffected? My sister was carrying his child and yet, he will never surely know. This made me want to yell at him. Crush that perfect little world of his. How many other girls has he done this too? Seika couldn't be the only one.

I shook my head. I shouldn't be having such thoughts. Yes, I was unsettled but I need to keep a cool head. That was Seika's decision and I don't need to meddle in her choices. I walked away from them, deciding to go the long way to class. When I was going up the stairs, I head the voices of Honey and Takashi. The little blonde boy was joyful, talking with Takashi about cake. Takashi's dark eyes were on him with calm, he looked content. It was nice to see them together. I also went around them, not wanting to break their conversation.

This ended up with me going down a different hallway. Which I spotted Tamaki with Haruhi, they were heading to class together. I froze in my spot, my eyes glued to him. Something inside me felt weird as I saw his smile. His perfect white teeth and pink lips. His blonde hair that looked as soft as angel feathers. I wish I could touch it. His purple irises were on Haruhi and this made me feel a bit jealous. I had nothing to fear, is what I told myself. They were just friends.

"Look who's back." I head someone whisper in my ear, making me almost jump out of my shoes. Then I was pinned against the wall. I went from staring at Tamaki to a pair of dark unwelcoming eyes. Kyoya was close, too close to my liking. He smelled of paper and a hint of coffee. His black hair brushed nicely and his skin glowed.

I gulped, "Do you need something?" Being nice seemed like the best option.

"I'm surprised you can show your face here after what you had done." He spoke, "how about you just go home." Why did he always have to be rude to me? I've never done anything to him. I felt courage go through me as I straightened my posture.

"You know what, I haven't done anything to you. Why won't you just leave me alone."

He looked a bit taken back but his smile only widened. "Let's make a deal. I'll tell you why you've caught my eye if you tell me your secret. I haven't forgotten about that night at the cabin. " His words were like needles. I didn't want him to know. He didn't need to know. I didn't trust him and he didn't trust me, why couldn't we just stay out of each other's lives. However, I felt like I had to agree or he would only poke his nose further into my life.

I nodded, "Fine." Perhaps I could wiggle my way out of telling him. He may be really smart but I am too. I glanced at a nearby clock. "I need to get to class, we'll talk later." He grabbed my wrist tightly.

"See you later." Was all he said, letting me go and left like nothing happened. I looked back to were Tamaki and Haruhi were at but they were long gone. Hopefully, I can talk to Tamaki first.

With my classes being over for the day, I went to the bathroom to wash my face. It was hard dealing with everyone's glares but I've managed. I saw Luka earlier but she didn't see me. She looked like she always did, full of confidence. I knew better though, after the whole Tomo incident. Speaking of Tomo, I haven't seen him today. I wonder if he skipped? I left the house before he did. I shook my head as I headed towards the Host Club. I need to stay focus! Now is not the time to be worrying about him.

I stopped midway down the hall when I head a soft chuckle. I glanced around but saw no one. That's odd, I swore I heard someone. Again, I heard some weird shuffling in the shadows. "Who's there?" I asked. I received no answer as I felt eyes on me. I continued walking, trying to ignore whoever was bothering me. I felt someone touch my shoulder, making me jump. "What!" I spun around to see Nekozawa.

"Hello, Hara. Looking dead as always." He laughed at his own poor joke. I didn't find it very funny.

I couldn't help but cower from his presence. He reminded me of what was wrong; how I was no longer alive. "Nice to see you too..." I spoke. Even though it wasn't the full truth. He was in his usual black robe and he had his cat puppet on his hand.

He looked me over, "I can sense your time cutting short."

"I... Know." I agreed. I too could feel something. I knew my time was running out and that's why I needed to hurry up and finish my plans. I needed to talk with Tamaki as soon as possible but Nekozawa was getting in the way of that. "Hey, I hate to be rude but I really do need to go."

He only smiled, "I'll be seeing you around, Hara. Don't forget that I'm here to help." It seemed like he melted into the shadows, leaving me with a weird feeling. I could only shake it off as I continued to the Host Club. When I was In front of the door, I heard all their voices. It was kind of nice. I opened the door and it was packed with girls. Then again, it has been a long time since school started back up. I saw Tamaki talking to a group of three. I don't know how I'm going to get him alone. I bit my bottom lip as I contemplated on just coming back later.

That wasn't an option as I felt someone tap my shoulder, looking behind me I saw Oten. She had her cheeks puffed out and her hair up in a short ponytail. I couldn't help but smile immediately. I was so busy with everything going on, I forgot to go find her. She had her hands on her hips, "I had a feeling you would be here."

"Well, there's something I need to do," I said, glancing back at Tamaki.

She noticed and chuckled, "I see." Then she pushed past me, walking straight into the Host Club. No one paid her any mind. I followed her, worried she was going to do something crazy. She was stopped however by the devil, Kyoya. He crossed his arms, letting out a short sigh.

"May I help you?" He said rather smoothly.

Oten peeked behind him, trying to get a good look at Tamaki. "I need to speak to the blonde boy."

"I'm afraid he is busy at the moment, how about talking to our other blonde." He then looked at Honey who lit up after noticing his gaze.

He rushed over, "She wants to talk to me!" He was just blooming with happiness. Oten was taken back, not knowing what to do. You could tell by her reaction that she wasn't used to talking to boys. I have to do something. I proceeded to walk in but stopped when I saw Tamaki was leaving with Haruhi. Where are they going? They were leaving from a different door, I went to follow.

"Do keep her busy," Kyoya said, noticing my retreating figure.

Honey grabbed onto Oten, "Okay!" He then dragged her away despite her protest. Kyoya grabbed me by the shoulders. I looked at him with a glare. I was running out of time and I didn't want to spend any of it with him.

"Let me go," I whispered through my teeth. I didn't want to make a scene in a room full of people.

He smirked, "Remember our deal?" I was hoping I could avoid him completely. Tamaki is getting away and I need to talk to him! I brushed off his hand.

"I do but I have more important things to do than talk to you right now," I said.

"Oh really?"

I quickly turned away and ran. He was shocked by my sudden move and watched as I went the way Tamaki went. Then a small hint of realization flashed in his eyes. "Too bad she has no chance." He chuckled to himself.

Where did they go? I was down the street, trying to spot Tamaki's golden hair. He was nowhere in sight. They couldn't have gotten far. What are they doing anyway? To leave the club early? I began walking towards the main part of town, hoping they would be there. My thoughts drifted towards the thought of my confession. What if he likes me back? I know I'm dead and have no idea when I might disappear. However, because of that reason, I feel like I have to tell him. I'm not asking for us to be a couple. I couldn't go that far. That would be cruel.

If he did return my feelings? What would I say back? My mind was becoming a mess. Maybe I should have looked into this more. Perhaps, I should take more time into thinking. Wait, I don't have all the time in the world anymore. I've never had a boyfriend, never been kissed, and I haven't even held hands with a boy before. It's too late for all of that. The least I could do was confess. I should be allowed that much.

Then I saw it. Tamaki's blonde hair shown through the crowd. My mood perked up immediately. There he is! I rushed after him as he passed a corner. I stopped at it, peeking over to see Tamaki and Haruhi talking to each other by a coffee shop. I looked away, resting against the wall. Come on, don't back down now. Who cares if Haruhi is with him. It doesn't matter. Now is the time to do it. Taking one last deep breath, I stepped away from the corner.

What I saw broke me. My legs froze, my face shocked. Standing there in front of me was Tamaki and Haruhi.

Kissing.

They broke away, smiling at one another. What? I don't understand. Haruhi is a boy, why would Tamaki do that with him. I watched as they held hands and walked off. Laughing about something while I was left behind. Not knowing if I should cry or scream. People passed as I was like a statue. The world around me felt small. So small like I was suffocating.