"Hara?" I heard someones voice. It was calm. Smooth like a babies hair. I heard it again but it fell deaf. Was I in shock? Or did I want time to stop? I didn't want to believe what I saw. This had to be a joke. It couldn't possibly be real. Who am I to wish for this? To wish that what I witness was a dream. The awful truth was constantly in my mind. I was dead. Even if I was to convey my feelings, there was nothing that could have come out of it. He was alive. He had all right to fall for Haruhi. To experience love and to go out and explore it. I sealed my fate the moment I jumped from the roof of the high school.

"Hara!" The voice was louder. I continued to stand still. Looking in the direction of where they left. Smiling and holding hands. I wanted to be angry. I wanted to scream and shout words that were vile. I wanted to chase after him and still confess my feelings despite the scene I witnessed. I wanted to hold his hand, I wanted to be the one he was laughing and smiling too. I wanted to be the one...To kiss him.

"Are you alright?!" A hand turned me around and I was looking into the dark eyes of Takashi. His voice had a hint of panic and it sounded so foreign to me. He wasn't the person to have emotion in his tone. He looked sweaty like he had been running. I was silent, looking back, hoping to see the blonde angel. He followed my gaze confused.

My lips opened, "I wanted to tell him." I couldn't even hear myself speak. "I wanted to tell him my feelings."

He sighed, grabbing my arm and leading me away from the staring eyes. I wasn't paying attention to where he was taking me. I didn't care. If he was taking me across the world I wouldn't fight it. Leaving to someplace far away sounded like paradise. He took me to the park. The one where I always went too. Why were we here? He wiped some snow off the bench and sat me down. He looked down at me with concern.

I finally snapped myself out of it. "Sorry, I'm fine!" I smiled. He wasn't buying it. I grabbed the swing chains and began to lightly push myself. "I truly am! You just caught me dozing off. I haven't slept much lately." This was true as I never felt tired. He continued to be silent. I felt my hands shake, not from the cold but from me wanting to break down.

I managed to keep my smile from falling, "Why are you not at the club? Surely, you have girls waiting for you?" Why is he not responding to me?! It was making it much harder for me to keep my mask on. I have to be okay. I have to seem fine. Tamaki was just a crush. A hopeless love. To be upset over something as small as a confession makes me seem like a spoiled brat.

"I..." He spoke softly, his hand rubbing the back of his head. He looked away for a second, having trouble keeping his eyes on me. Why did he look so nervous? This wasn't like him at all. I swung myself harder, making him have to step out of the way.

"Come on! Don't look so serious!" I tried laughing. Please...Don't act like this was a big deal.

"I was-"

I was swinging higher and higher, hoping I would just fly away. "Everything is fine!"

"I was worried about you!" He had to raise his voice. I stopped swinging, letting it come to a stop.

My face was down, my hair covering my eyes so he couldn't see. "Why..?" He was silent once again. I saw he wasn't used to situations like this. I once again looked at him with a sorry excuse for a smile. It was cracking. My mask was falling into a million pieces. "It doesn't matter."

"What do you mean?" He managed to say.

I let out a laugh, "I'm dead!" I didn't care if he thought I was crazy. I didn't care if anyone heard me as I shouted, "I killed myself!" My gaze focused on his and what I thought I would receive was a look of shock and disgust but I was wrong. Pure concern was in his dark eyes. "Don't...Don't look at me like that."

I felt his hand on my head, He had to look away to speak. "Let's go somewhere." He spoke coolly.

I was confused, where did he want to go? I just shouted at him. I sounded like I was crazy and he's barely fazed. "What?" He grabbed my hand, pulling me off of the swing. I pulled it away, not wanting to be touched. He didn't seem offended and began to walk away. I stood in place. Why was he not responding to me? My feet began to move despite my mental protest. I was following him from behind. Not to close but not too far. Every now and then, he glanced behind his shoulder to see if I was still following. I could only glare at my shoes, not wanting to potentially see Tamaki and Haruhi.

He stopped, almost making me bump into him. He was staring at a food stand before he then waited to see my reaction. I didn't feel like throwing up again. I didn't want to be reminded of my condition. I shook my head in disapproval. We continued to walk. What is he doing?

"Maybe, I should just go home," I mumbled. Perhaps Tomo was waiting for me. I needed to forget today. It would be easier to let this all go. Like it never happened. I felt a weird sensation coming from my hands. Putting them up on my face I saw them slowly disappear. Not now! I hid them under my armpits, hoping no one noticed. Please...Not now.

Takashi was facing me, "Here." He was holding out a small stuffed bear. It was white and fuzzy. Where did he get that? I didn't reach out for it, afraid he would see my hands. He started to blush, having to direct his eyes elsewhere. "Honey said girls like gifts," He whispered under his breath. Is he giving me a gift? But why? I wanted to grab it badly but I was too afraid. It felt like hundreds of eyes were staring at us.

"I'm sorry!" I shouted, running away from him. My feet felt like I was running on air. Pushing past people and around corners, I didn't know where I was going. I just wanted everything to end already!

I ended up near the woods. I was crouched behind a tree. My face was buried in my arms, my hands were still missing. It was lightly snowing and I felt the winter breeze brush against my skin. I did say I wanted to disappear into the snow. I couldn't help but chuckle at myself. Look at me. I'm depressed all because of the guy I liked is with someone else. This happens all the time to other people but... It still hurts. I thought he would like me too. He was so nice. He reached out to me before anyone else. I was hoping we had a connection. I felt it. I thought he did too.

I heard something move in the snow. I didn't want to look up, afraid it was Takashi. I didn't have anything to say to him.

"Meow." I heard the deep sound of a cat. What would a cat be doing in this weather? Glancing up I saw Tomo's overweight cat staring at me with his big eyes. What is he doing here? I went to pet the cat but my invisible hands went right through him. I shot back in fear. It really is getting worse. The plump kitty wasn't fazed and went to rub against my leg. Even though he looked angry like always I could tell the cat was relieved to see me. Wait, if he's here then-

"Hara? What are you doing here?" Tomo came around the tree, looking at me with confusion. Then he saw my tear stained eyes and instantly got down on his knees. "What's wrong?!" He asked.

My hands were hidden. He already knows everything. Should I show him? I didn't have to do anything as my arms began to slowly fade too. I tried to tuck them away but to no avail. He saw them and his eyebrows furrowed. "You're getting worse." He said.

"I didn't think you believed me." I frowned.

He moved my snow-soaked hair out of my face, "Of course I do and we need to get you out of the cold."

"Just leave me here."

He replied back angerly, "What are you saying! I will not leave you here to just disappear. I don't know why you are out here but I said I would help you. Now stop feeling sorry for yourself and get up!" His voice made me flinch. The old me would have just gotten more upset and apologie for my actions but not now. I stood up, my vanishing arms by my side.

"I do not feel sorry for myself!" I shouted back.

He raised an eyebrow, his usual smirk spreading across his face. "Oh, yea?" He got me again. He always knew how to get me worked up.

"It was just a minor set back." I puffed. Even though Tamaki will never know my true feelings, I won't break down now. "I'm going to change!" With that being said, my arms slowly returned back to normal. "I need to figure out why I am here and I need to face my mother!"

Tomo put a hand on my shoulder, smiling ear to ear. "That's what I like to hear." He grabbed my hand, "Look what came back." His hand was larger than mine and had scars. Probably, from all of the fights he gets into. Which I had something I wanted to ask him.

"Tomo, can you make me a promise?"

He tilted his head, not letting go of my hand. "What is it?"

It isn't my place to ask him about this but I was worried. "Can you stop fighting?" His face got serious and he slowly pulled away from me.

"Hara..."

I stepped towards him, "I'm just worried about you and what if... You get really hurt or even worse... Killed."

"Well, if I die then I'll get to be with you forever," He joked.

I wasn't in the mood for his humor. "Please, Tomo, I want you to promise me. Soon, I feel like I'm going to disappear for good." He frowned. "I don't what will happen after that but even if there is another life, I know I will be worried about you. So for me, can you let that part of you go. I don't want to see you get hurt." He didn't answer, his eyes somewhere else. I grabbed his hands, "Please."

After a long period of silence, he sighed, "Fine."

I smiled, "Thank you!" I tugged him along and picked up the cat with my other arm. "Let's get home and get you out of the cold. Your ears are turning pink." His cheeks soon went that color.

"I should be the one saying that!" He protested.

When we got back to the house, sitting on the doorstep was the small white bear. Takashi? I picked it up gently and I couldn't help but smile.

"What is that?" Tomo asked.

I placed it close to my chest, "A gift."