So this is it the chapter I've been waiting for…I'm not too sure how I feel about it so please drop me a line and let me know what you think…oh and today I wrote their first kiss…I can't wait to publish that one but you'll have to wait just a it longer for that…anyway enjoy and send me some love. XX

JAKE POV

Unsurprisingly it took me longer to shift than usual after I arrived back at the Cullen's, my entire body was taut with tension. I could feel it vibrating inside me, twisting me in knots, turning my guts. Bella stayed with me for a few minutes talking to me softly, her small delicate hand a calming influence as she reassured me that it would be okay, that I was safe.

I gotta say I didn't mind that she petted me like a dog, her hand soft and gentle on my body. Her touch reminded me of another, just as calming, just as gentle but I couldn't place the owner in my mind. It was frustrating to feel this lost in my own head, unable to remember how or why any of the pieces of my jigsaw fit together. While I considered this, Edward hovered around in the background, his face twisted as he paced watching me closely, no doubt incase I got too close to Bella.

The idea made me smile and I was tempted to see just how much I could get away with in my wolf form. I nuzzled close to her, licking the hand that stroked me. Surprisingly for a leech she tasted good. I grinned.

My wolf smile faded as I looked down at Bella. There was some tension in the lines of her body too, her generous mouth was pulled tight, her shoulders a little hunched, her knuckles white. She seemed as anxious for me to shift as I was. I didn't need to be a mind reader to realize that there was something significant and important about me being here today and in my human form. It was important to them all.

Carlisle had gone inside to warn the others of my arrival and within seconds I felt the collective eyes of the Cullen family on me once more. I was right, there was something special about this meeting, they were all waiting for me, waiting for something. The pressure on me to shift was great and the anxiety I could feel coming from everyone else didn't help. I whined and nuzzled into Bella, trying to communicate with her, to tell her to calm her emotions too, I needed to shift but whilst I was surrounded by such high angst I wasn't going anywhere.

"Bella, you need to relax...he can't shift while you're so on edge…I know you're worried…we all are…they all are" he said with a wry smile at the faces watching anxiously from the window above us.

Gradually it dawned on me that whatever else Edward may be, a bloodsucker, a leech, an arrogant,pompous prick, he was also extremely adept at reading others thoughts and that's why he had responded to my reaction to Bella, he knew exactly how I felt about her.

"I can't help it…what if he doesn't remember how close they were?" I heard Bella say in a low voice "It will kill her, she's so young yet"

So this person and I had been close, closer than Bella and I? I wondered idly and began to pick up on the little signs that Bella was relaxing in Edward's arms. Her body elongated, her shoulders relaxed, her face brightening.

Suddenly a sense of calm, like nothing I had ever experienced before floated over me and I felt as though I could sleep forever. Bella seemed to be experiencing the same nirvana as she snuggled close to Edward, a dreamy sigh escaping from her lips.

Before I became a big puddle of doggy love, I remembered to disappear into the tree line to shift. As proud as I was of my human form it wasn't something I wanted the Cullen's to get to used seeing on a regular basis. Edward's mocking chuckle followed me and I growled a little in warning. I didn't find this very funny.

By the time I had shifted and reemerged from the forest, Bella stood beside Edward, their arms wrapped around each other, Bella with her head tucked against Edward's chest, his chin atop her head as he murmured words of comfort. I strained to pick them, wondering if they would give me some insight into what was going on here.

"I'm just so scared for her Edward, you know how much this means to her...she hasn't even faced the reality that he may not remember her" Bella was murmuring.

"I know love but all we can do is be there for here…she knows we love her…she may think she's all grown up now but she's still our little girl" he told her, aware I think that I was listening.

So they had a child? They had a little girl? This was the person they were worry about me meeting? Did they truly believe that I would harm a child, vampire or otherwise? Was that why everyone was so on edge and anxious about this meeting?

I briefly imagined a little girl with pale skin and wide brown eyes, her mouth curving in a beguiling and toothless grin. She was adorably familiar, and I knew I must have met her before. She must be only a baby; Edward and Bella were far too young for her to be any older. Was I some kind of favorite uncle? Is that what this was all about?

In the same moment I wondered how the hell they had managed to conceive and then just as quickly, found I didn't want to think about Bella and him… together… like that. I heard Edward snicker as he followed my thoughts and I stamped down on the prickle of irritation I felt.

The anxiety we should have felt at meeting this tiny fragile child of theirs did not appear, just the sense of calm I'd felt earlier. This I could handle, make a few funny faces, bounce her on my knee and it would be all over, I could leave. Job done.

"You put her anywhere near your knee and I'll will take you apart piece by hairy piece" Edward said over his shoulder as I approached them.

"Lets get this over with, you may not need to sleep but some of us do...I'm exhausted" even to my own ears I sounded extremely lucid.

Bella took a deep breath and reached for Edward's hand, I could see her own trembling and I felt bad.

"Bells, please don't worry I won't hurt her…I couldn't hurt a baby, even if she is part of him" I told her gently.

A smile appeared and she giggled, sounding absurdly happy "Jake, you have no idea"

Puzzled I followed them inside, hearing the hushed voices of the gathered Cullens, listening for the tell tale baby noises which would give away her presence. I sniffed the air but couldn't smell anything remotely child like, but over sickly sweet leech scent there was something else, like clean linen in the summer and peaches and sunlight. It comforted me and evoked a tugging sensation in my naval, as though I wasn't where I needed to be. Part of me longed to climb the stairs, to follow whatever instinct told me to go there but I followed the Cullens instead, eager to get this over with and get back to La Push.

I followed the others into what I assumed to be the brightly lit living area and felt a defensive growl escape as I took in the assembled Cullens all watching me warily. The tension in the air was palpable and I found I would have given anything for that Zen like calm to suddenly appear again.

Like before there was Barbie and Gigangtor Vamp, this time holding hands, their knuckles both white and I wondered if they would be left with broken bones. Next to them Tinkerbell Vamp, her own face serious and I got the feeling this was not usual for her, she toyed with her fingers nervously. At the end of seemingly never ending sofa, a blonde haired male, had his arm protectively around Tink. He stared at me mutely, his eyes guarded and faintly threatening, yet he seemed to exude a calm I was grateful for.

Lastly there sat Dr and I assume Mrs. Cullen, their fingers entwined, their entire bodies alive with tension. I swallowed audibly, and wondered what to say to them. Bella and Edward flanked me on either side and I felt somewhat reassured, by Bella's presence at least.

"Hi" I said, unsure what else I could say and I rubbed a hand through my hair, frowning as I felt the grime and dirt against my palm.

"Jake this is our family" Bella said to me, the use of the word 'our' wasn't lost on me, was she trying to include me in that description?

"This is Rosalie, Emmett, Alice, Jasper and of course you've met Carlisle and this is his wife Esme" she introduced us one by one.

Their faces remained drawn with tension; only Carlisle and Esme attempted a forced smile.

"Hey everybody…so this is it then? Roll call over?" I asked turning to Bella, who shifted from one foot to another, looking more nervous than I had seen her before.

"Not exactly…Jasper is Renesmee still sleeping?" she asked, tension lacing her tone.

He nodded, not saying a single word but his eyes narrowed slightly. I didn't get the feeling he was annoyed just that he never seemed to smile.

"Do you think you could…" she trailed away and I pondered her meaning for a few seconds until suddenly I was filled the strongest sense of excitement and stimulation I had ever felt. One by the one the Cullens shifted in their places, restless and I knew they were feeling what I was.

Energy sufficed my entire body and my heart rate picked up, adrenaline coursing though me. I felt as though I could run the length of America and back in seconds. I wanted to run, to find an outlet for this sudden burst but just as it began it abated again, like a head rush after a carnival ride. All this had taken place within a matter of seconds and I was still struggling to get my around just what I was doing here with them.

A soft beautiful sounding gasp from behind me met my ears and my entire body came alive. Goose bumps spread slowly across my flesh, the hairs on the back of my neck standing up, prickling with awareness. My heart thumped, my jaw locked and I turned. My entire world span as I met a pair of wide, startled brown eyes……………….

REN POV

"So is this it then? Roll call over with?" I heard him say in my dream. This was new; I thought as I awoke, I didn't always hear his voice in the state between waking and sleeping.

Stretching under the sheets I couldn't understand why I felt so full of energy in the middle of the night. I sighed, Uncle Jasper must be up to his tricks I decided. I attempted to listen to why he felt the need to wake me from the most restful sleep I'd had in over a year.

All the long I'd known Jasper could have influenced my sleep but perhaps he hadn't wanted to keep me doped up all the time, which meant he too would have suffered the pain and desire of my dreams. What I felt, he felt.

In a second it came to me, I remembered. Jake had been here. He had left with my parents and I had been reduced to a snoring, slumbering mass to prevent me from seeing him.

I took a deep breath and in that instant my heart stopped, the most delicious smell ever known to womankind was emanating from my den. Only a heartbeat later I was on my feet and flying down the stairs towards the source of the smell, my heart racing as I skidded through the doorway and came to a stop. There, between and dwarfing my parents stood Jake. Jake. My Jake.

My heart sang and my breath trapped in my throat, emerging as a strangled gasp, tears filling my eyes. I barely had time to take in the gleaming russet of his skin, the taught corded muscular line of his spine, the powerful muscles of his shoulders, which bunched and shifted. Time seemed to stand still and he began to turn towards me, I was hyper aware of everything about him. His smell, his body, the way he looked as he turned to greet me.

I was about to hyperventilate and everything in me yelled for me to fling myself into his arms before he had even fully turned to me. The entire room faded away and there was only this moment in time, as he stared back at me in amazement, his full mouth gaping a little like a fish out of water.

I wanted to laugh out loud with sheer relief, sheer happiness and at the look on his face. It was as though he was seeing me for the first time, as though the sun rose and set in my eyes. Shivers chased along my spine and I trembled in reaction to his expression. I suppose for Jake, he was seeing me for the first time and it was with this look I knew he did not remember me. Yet I found I wasn't upset or heartbroken in the way I expected to be, I was just thrilled to have him back. My eyes watched greedily as his magnificent bare chest rose and fell rapidly as he attempted to suck in air and his nostrils flared as he took in my scent. Suddenly, stupidly, the only thought in my head was that I should have showered.

"J- Jake?" I whispered, my entire body trembling from head to foot with the effort it took not to fling myself into his arms.

Jake POV

The second my eyes met those of the trembling girl before me; I was lost, floating in space and time. All thoughts of Bella and the watching Cullen's forgotten. It was as though gravity had moved and the entire purpose of my life was changed forever. I was no longer on this earth to kill bloodsuckers, I was sent here for her, to protect and love this woman with everything in me.

I couldn't breathe, I couldn't speak with the depth of the emotion running through me, all I could do was stare at her, my entire being weightless against the look in her eyes. That bizarre tugging sensation pulled at my naval and I wanted to step to her and pull her against me to feel the soft weight of her body against mine. I wanted her crush her to me, protect her, love her. I would be whatever she needed me to be; I would no longer be able to function without her.

She just stared back at me; so beautiful that it actually hurt me to look away from her. Her skin was creamy alabaster, tinged with a faintly creeping pink flush as she carried on staring at me. Her eyes were like rich deep bittersweet chocolate, molten and brown and gazing at me with such emotion, my throat closed over.

My own eyes raked over her, taking in her tousled, untidy auburn curls, falling around her shoulders, the tips teasing and caressing the upper swells of her creamy quivering breasts. I knew I had never seen anyone quite so beautiful in all my life and never would again. All the blood in my body began to head south and my heart rate increased rapidly. I couldn't help it and I continued to gape at her, my mouth hanging open.

"J-Jake?" she breathed, her face wreathed in smiles and her voice was like angel sighing, so beautiful that my gut tightened in reaction.

"Here we go again" I heard Edward murmur and there was a collective laugh from the rest of the Cullens, relief probably, the audible release of tension. My eyes flicked to Bella's for a split second. She stepped closer to the woman and I felt a warning growl emerge from my throat.

Before the sound had even completely left my chest, a huge brick wall appeared between us, the muscles bunching as he placed a hand against my chest to restrain me. I growled again, this time with menace as the wall, Emmet, pushed back against me and I began to tremble, the violence of my reaction surprising me.

"Mine" I growled, more animal than human in that second. They were trying to take her from me and the moment I could no longer see her, pain wracked my guts. I shoved Emmett roughly, my shudders warning of an impending shift and within seconds I was flying through the air, landing with a thug against a wall.

Barely registering the pain or the cries of the people watching, I shifted in a second, baring my teeth and growling at the Cullens as they stood between me and my mate. For that's what she was, my mate. She was mine and they could not have her, they would not hurt her. Crouching low I snapped at them, anger growing within me as I heard her cry out in fear. Bella appeared before me, kneeling a little.

"Jake, please don't do this…you have to calm down…we don't want to hurt you but we have to protect Renesmee" she said to me, her voice calm and even.

I whined. Renesmee. So my mate had a name. I whined again, relaxing my aggressive stance, sniffing trying to catch her scent amongst all the others. It was easy; she was smelt like purity, sunshine and innocence amongst the sickly sweet smell of decaying fruit.

"Let me go to him" I heard her snap and immediately I relaxed a little more, she was safe, for now. Whining again, I moved to see around Bella, surprised when the pack of Cullens moved with us.

"Emmett, go and get him something to wear for when he shifts and take Nessie with you, she can't see this" Bella murmured and once more I felt the panic set in. They were taking her from me, I howled, my claws scraping the floor as I tried to get to her. I couldn't be without her, missing her presence was like a physical ache inside me. For the first time I was grateful I could not remember my past, if I had felt like this every time I was away from her, I would rather not know about it.

"Jake, we need to talk and you need to shift…Renesmee will be back soon but if you continue in this manner, you will get hurt…she will be back soon...trust us" Edward came and knelt beside Bella looking into my eyes.

She was his young; his child and I knew he could not hurt her anymore than I could. He loved her, maybe as much as I did.

"No Daddy, I want to stay here," she was protesting. Hearing the pain in her voice caused a ripple of pain to explode through me and I yelped, whining again.

"Renesmee, please... you're distressing him…it's only for a few minutes and I want to speak with Jake…to stop this happening again" Edward said to her, his tone gentle and persuasive.

"Can I see him again?" she demanded sounding slightly worried.

"I promise Renesmee but you need to leave just for a little while...minutes even"

"C'mon Ness" I heard Emmett say and I knew she had followed when I began to get dull stomach cramps.

Barely a second passed before Emmett returned holding a pair of gray sweats and a gray hooded sweater, putting them on the floor beside me. Unsure if I wanted to shift with Bella and the rest of the Cullens beside me I whined. I hated the fact that they were constantly getting an eyeful of me naked.

Edward laughed, surprising me, in remarkably good mood considering what had just happened. I had felt certain that he would have ripped me a new one but instead it appeared he understood. Nothing made sense to me anymore.

"Why don't we take this outside?" he said to me and I gingerly followed him back out to the edge of the forest, wondering if I was doing the right thing. Was this where he would suddenly turn on me, do what he promised he would do if I caused a problem for his family. I would say that wolfing out and trying to attack Emmett Cullen was a problem for him. Still he seemed mildly amused rather than pissed. I wallked beside him baffled by this recent turn of events but i couldn't get Renesmee's face out of mind, I flet like i was a blind man seeing for the first time and i knew that I would do anything to make her happy.

The first time ever I saw your face
I thought the sun rose in your eyes
And the moon and stars were the gifts you gave
To the dark and the empty skies, my love,
To the dark and the empty skies.