My apologies...
Due to reasons varying from natural boringness, cringe and repetitive mistakes on this fic. I am forced to do a truly disheartening motive that you (readers) may find as bothersome.
But firstly, I would like to make an opinion of the fic that I progressively made this past few months.
One is that, honestly. Due to horrid things like constant schoolwork, failed projects and desperate attendance to keep up with a boring schedule just to sit in class.
I only managed to write chapters at night. And if you noticed various tendencies where I left unchecked mistakes; like grammar errors, incorrect spellings and more so in punctuations... definitely more so in punctuations. It makes it looks like the chapters themselves are quite "forced" doesn't it?
Long story short, it often leads to being half-assed or even incomplete ones.
Just being honest, when I'm done writing a chapter. I barely correct it. Since I always post it a few moments later in FanFiction without even taking a look at it. And when I do, in the means of reading it thoroughly with the said site, then it is only in that time where I see the mistakes before promptly forgetting about it completely.
In which is a very not-so-writer characteristic that I unfortunately have, I know.
I do correct some things. But the majority says otherwise.
Though some people that review often says my grammar is alright as evidenced in my other one-shot story (go check it out, though I think only one said something like that...). The feeling of satisfaction is viciously destroyed with each and every error that I see in those said other mistakes that I applied on my main story, this story.
Second is that... my imagination is as boring as I describe school itself.
I am thankful for the one who pointed it out. Not going to lie. I also think my imagination is not that vast and interesting. Since the time I wrote the first chapter, I always thought that Charlotte would be good as a Slice and Life story. Though I also planned to add action-oriented in the near future. But first and foremost, I truthfully regarded Charlotte could pass as a decent slice and life story.
In which case I was wrong, dreadfully wrong.
Now I kinda understand why almost all the Charlotte fics that I read and seen posted in that section borders mostly on darker side of the spectrum.
Because chapters that has dark and unforeseen outcome? elements, seem to make a charlotte story a good one. One that I read had evil groups and corrupt governments kidnap the main characters, mostly Tomori, before Yuu becomes somewhat insane and remembers his memories bit by bit.
Though I also think that the mindset of it as a slice of life story was born from those fics themselves. Since I wanted to write something different. Just like how Yuu remembers his past and focus more on the abilities themselves. That I mostly forgot the difference of "what I wanted" instead of "what a passable story I desired it to end up in".
And I can also admit that the first time I read a "dark" charlotte story, I hated it. Then a few minutes later of continuous reading, my eyes seem to never leave the screen even once.
It's kinda like the feeling of something you hate but you can't just leave it because of the dreadful word as suspense.
On an unrelated side note. Charlotte fanfics may or may not brought realization to me of the difference between horror and suspense.
Thirdly, the story progresses quite fast without any kind of concrete background.
I know some of you may have noticed the character development, but after reading it a few times, and I mean a few times. I immediately noticed how shallow it is.
One obvious example is how Yuu completely returns seemingly unscathed with just an effect of a "passive facial expression" and "quiet", "pause momentarily" tendencies. And you can even add the fact of feeling regret of how he killed various people. As mentioned in the first chapter? Or was it second? Before totally forgetting about it in the next following chapters just to blush and stutter...
Another one is the ability themselves.
I always said it had "developed", "merged" and "altered". But I can see that I often make it fast and hurried just to get to the next scene. They may be long and even somewhat "concrete" but after "reading", it really makes me cringe as to why I even thought of placing it in heartfelt reunions in the first place! And how it came off like a lesson more than an explanation. I don't know about you, but I always regard those two things as different.
It was like joining summer vacations and homework piled on the table. Two different things that should never be combined together...
Fourthly! Well... that's it I guess? But I know that that there are more problems that I intended to avoid so please just ignore them!
But importantly, I actually felt the natural boringness, cringe and repetitive mistakes. That I seem to repeat over and over and over again...
That is why I decided to scrap the whole thing and make something different!
So I rewrote it!
Since there is nothing as bothersome as waiting for a writer's rewrite promised date to come. I plan to change that! By never promising something in the first place!
Though it is better than giving up on a story huh? I don't know if it will apply to this one though.
But I can assure you of one thing however! A single chapter is already posted as you read this "self-complaint of my own admitted half-assed story with self-deprecating induced blows on my psyche" kind of author's note.
And I also proceeded to shamelessly wrote there the continuation of this awful rant!
So check it out please!