(Rivers view)

I go to school, sleep-deprived, hungry, and high.

I took some surf wax, the pills, that I crushed into powder, which I packed into my nose.

I rush to school in a grumpy mood.

My day passes by uneventfully.

But I get to the Literature Club.

A girl walks to me, "Hi! I'm Monika! You're Rivers, right?"

"Yeah... I thought you..." I stuttered.

"We met at the party, remember? Me and Evan and Sayori..."

I was very creeped out, but I forced myself to be nice.

I just don't understand. I thought Monika killed herself so Project Libitina would never happen.

The memories.

I hate those.

The girl screaming for the mother.

A child forced to die in a basement.

49 children in a nursery at a religious camp.

Nevermind, happy thoughts, happy thoughts, happy thoughts!

That's what I tell myself every day.

Everyone seems chittery and happy, except, of course, Yuri, who's in the corner reading a book.

I sit next to her and talk.

"What's up?" she asks half-heartedly.

I hesitate for a few seconds, then I just sigh, "My life sucks."

"Can't say I haven't been there..." she says as she flips a page, "...or I'm not there now."

"I just don't get it. I feel like everyone hates me." I tell her.

"Well, I sure do."

"Oh, thanks, Yuri." I thank in a sarcastic manner.

"Are the antidepressants even working?" she asks after a few moments of silence.

"I don't know, I still hate myself."

"Well, how do you take them?"

Now, I could just lie and say I take one a day. But, for a split second, I look at Yuri, who I feel could just tell I'm lying. So I don't.

"I fucking inhale them." I say.

A bit too loudly, as Sayori and Natsuki both perk over to where I am.

So, as I do a bit too much, I book it out of the school.

But I don't go home.

I go to my friend Evan, who's dating Monika. I know a window he keeps open 24/7, so I hop the fence and get in.

"Who the fuck is there?" Evan yells.

"Bro, it's Rivers!" I call out. He comes in and sits down.

I tell him everything. I tell him about the drugs.

I tell him how Sayori now knows.

"Shit, man, that's harsh... want some pizza?" he asks.

I eat some pizza, but then I burst into tears on the couch. Luckily, Evan is a great guy, so he comforted me. I was just overwhelmed.

Sayori knows about the real me. The Basket Case. The drugs.

She probably doesn't wanna be with me anymore.

"She probably just wants to look out for you, man," he tells me.

"But how? How does anyone want to look out for someone like that?" I ask.

"Well, sometimes people just love each other that much, I mean, she did give you hea—" Evan explained.

"Dude! What does that have to do with that?"

"Nothing, just saying."

In a bad mood, I get out and walk home.

Clem says hi, but I don't listen. Back to my room, where I go to do some more surf wax, when who else do I see?

Sayori.

Waiting for me.

I feel like she's going to chase me at any point, so I run.

And in a spur, I find a window.

I punch the screen off and jump.

Because of how awkward I was when I landed, a searing pain flushed both my knees.

The last thing I see is Sayori looking out the window as I face plant on the pavement.

I come to and I see Sayori's face.

"Okay, we need to talk." Sayori tells me.

She walks me inside and to my room.

She sits me down on the bed. Then she sits down.

"How come?" she asks.

"How come what?" I respond.

"How come you snort these?" she asks, with a certain anger in her voice.

"I just get... upset sometimes..." I say, quietly."

"Upset?"

"Okay, I'm suicidally depressed! I want to kill myself! What do you think?" I practically shout.

She sits there in utter shock.

Then, she just walks out without a word.

Normally, she would try to help me more.

I guess not.

I guess she doesn't really love me anymore.