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A little over an hour and a half later the sound of the shower made my heart race, my blood head south and my mind fill with a million images of Ness. Naked. Wet. Soapy. Though we had slept in the same bed hundreds of times before, this time seemed so much more intimate, carnal and I knew I was gonna have a hell of a time keeping my hands off her. Edgy and tense, despite my own long hot shower earlier, I was unable to relax.
Peeling back the covers I settled onto the bed, inhaling deeply as clouds of Nessie's sweet, sweet scent wafted over me, and my hard on twitched hungrily. Normally I slept in very little but knowing Nessie was nearby had a profound effect on my anatomy and there was no way in hell I was going to put either of us in jeopardy by sleeping in the raw. It was just too much temptation and as much as my body craved her, I couldn't do that, couldn't take away her innocence with this threat hanging over our heads.
When the water slowed to a trickle I listened intently, trying not to imagine her rubbing a soft white towel over her naked body as she dried and dressed. Sucking in a deep breath as I heard the door open, my body went rigid.
Jake lay sprawled across my bed… his bed…our bed, one arm folded behind his head, the other resting loosely on his stomach. Nerves fluttered wildly inside me, as I lounged in the doorway, needing the courage to take this final step. This was only Jake, I told myself. Only Jake. Yeah but it was only Jake who was half naked and sprawled out across a bed, waiting for me.
I knew there was supposed to be nothing sexual about this arrangement. I just wanted to be close to be close to him in the time we had left, wanted to know what it was like to be held all night by him. I wanted to know how it would feel to wake in his arms and watch him sleep. I craved him, craved the closeness and intimacy that only sleeping with another person could give.
Though this was innocent, my body was stirring in now familiar ways, an ache beginning deep inside me, between my quivering thighs and radiating outwards as I took in the sight of him. Wearing only soft gray sweats, which hung low on his hips, he looked good enough to eat, literally.
Jacob was such a beautiful man. From the breadth of his wide shoulders, to the solid strength of his biceps and forearms. From the powerful veins visibly cording his arms to his large and capable hands with their calluses. Everything about him appealed to me and made me feel small and weak and ultra feminine.
His skin was like burnt sienna, the color of the earth itself, and I longed to stroke my hands across every inch of him. Biting my lip, I forced my eyes from the hard flat planes of his abdomen and excitement curled inside me, as I took in the dark smattering of hair low on his naval, disappearing under the wide band of his sweats.
"You okay?" he asked gently, hesitantly and my eyes flew guiltily to his.
I nodded, smothering a fake yawn, not trusting my voice and fought not to stare at the area between his hips where he would be hard. My fingers itched to touch him, to stroke him and I curled my hands against the urge. His body fascinated me but he still hadn't granted me the gift of exploring him.
He quirked one eyebrow at me, then patted the bedside him "I'm not the one who bites"
I chuckled nervously, heat breaking out across me as an image of him biting me, filled my mind. Crossing the room on shaky legs, I stopped by the bed and looked down at him. His eyes were warm and seemed to glow golden. Swiftly, before I could change my mind I perched on the end of the bed.
Swinging my legs up, I lay stiffly on the bed beside Jake. My heart was pounding furiously and I knew he would be able to hear it. Self-consciously I swallowed.
"It's only me Ness…C'mere" he whispered, his arms moving around my shoulder and hauling me against his side.
Heat, that was my first impression, the heat of his body scorching mine through the material of my nightshirt. Resting my cheek on the soft skin of his naked chest, I listened to the rapid thundering of his heart. It comforted me, made me feel safe, secure, protected and so very…excited inside.
I made a soft sighing noise and turned a little more onto my side. Instantly I became aware of my breasts crushed against the wall of his body, his leg moving instinctively between mine. My breathing grew a little quicker and my heart fluttered in my chest in reaction to the proximity of his body.
I knew what this meant now; I recognized and welcomed the feelings coursing through my body. I wanted him. I needed him to take the ache away. With each breath I took I got lungful of his deep woodsy scent, my nose tickling with the undercurrent of his soap.
"Thank you" I murmured and felt his answering kiss in my hair as he settled further down the bed inadvertently brushing against my breast.
Pleasure shot through me, white lightning streaking from my heart to my already sensitive core. I sucked in a strangled gasp of air, my heart literally stopping it felt so good.
A low groan rumbled in my ear and my stomach clenched, as liquid pooled at my core.
The smell of Nessie's need hit me the same second her choked gasp did. Since the second she had appeared silhouetted in the doorway, my body had been fighting my brain. My body was victorious as I felt my blood pool hotly between my hips, my pants becoming more uncomfortable with each rapid heartbeat.
"Jake?" I heard her breathy voice, heard the unspoken question and I knew what she wanted, knew what she needed from me.
Moving slowly, not wanting to shock her, I stretched out, pulling her closer still and buried my face against her throat. She was trembling and shaking in my arms, her breathing ragged and I couldn't turn away from her now. I could deny her nothing. Neither of us would get any sleep being on a ragged edge and though I tried to pretend this was for her benefit, I would take any excuse to touch her, to make her feel good.
"Nessie…can I touch you…. I can take this away, I can make you feel good"
She shuddered in response and moved against me restlessly, a sexy little whimper coming from her.
Levering up on my elbow to look down at her, I could make out the soft flush of desire on her cheeks, her eyes sparkling and I felt a hand against my chest flex.
"I want to touch you" her hot breath tickled my skin.
I needed her touch too but this wasn't about me, this was about me taking care of my Ness, giving her some relief, giving her what she needed, what she deserved.
"Not tonight Ness, this is for you…let me love you". Please let me touch you Nessie, let me do this for you, let me give this to you, there may be a time when I can't.
Her nose scrunched as she stared up at me, a look of disappointment across her delicate features. It was almost comical but I couldn't laugh at her, not when I needed her so badly.
Her tremors intensified and I prayed it was with need not with fear.
"Can I touch you Nessie?"
God let me touch you.
She shifted against me, pressing her now quivering breasts closer to me and she nodded, her lip caught between her teeth nervously.
"Don't be scared honey…I can make you feel good," I breathed my promise against the skin of her throat as my fingers tangled in the soft baby curls at the nape of her neck.
Gently, slowly, I slid my hand across the skin of her collarbone as I opened my mouth against her throat, kissing her hotly. Groaning at the taste of her skin on my tongue, I slid my hand into the valley between her breasts, trailing slowly back and forth. Tormenting her, teasing me.
Nessie whimpered as my finger caught the edge of her nipple and she went rigid, breathing in sharply.
Feeling the teasing stroke of Jake's callused finger against my tight nipple, sent ripples of pleasure through me. I felt like I was going to come apart at any moment and he had barely touched me, I needed to him so badly. I wanted to touch him but knew he wouldn't let me. Settling instead for feeling rapid beat of his heart under my hand I tried to get closer to him.
Surprised I heard a mewling sound and realized it was me, as Jake's large hand cupped my breast, palming me through my clothes.
"Take it off…please," I breathed, staring up at Jake who watched me, his eyes narrowed.
Uncertainty flickered across his face and I knew he was thinking of protecting me, not wanting to push me into something he thought I wasn't ready for.
"Baby, this isn't a good idea" his raspy voice tickled my ear.
"Please Jake…I trust you, please"
He was still above me for only a second and then I saw his large, dark hands grasp the hem of my nightshirt.
"Lift your head," he ordered gently.
Screwing my eyes shut; embarrassed I sat up a little feeling the chill of the air against my skin as he pulled off my nightclothes, leaving me clad only in my panties. Instinctively my arms reached up to cover myself, nervous. Though it was dark in his room, with his super wolfy senses, darkness meant nothing to him. I knew he would be able to see all of me in a way no one had since I was an infant.
"Please don't Nessie…don't hide, not from me...you're too beautiful, don't cover yourself" I heard him plead and jumped a little as he lifted me to rest against a mound of pillows, his hands resting on my hips.
Peeking, I stared, fascinated, able to see every nuance of his handsome face. My stomach flipped as I saw the way he looked at me, devouring me, looking more like a wolf now than he ever had as human.
His jaw was clenched, his nostrils flaring and his chest was rising and falling rapidly. Feeling the heat of his eyes I slowly lowered my arms, letting them fall against the bedclothes. Resting on his knees, he knelt above me, simply staring down at me.
Need twisted deeper when he licked his lip and unconsciously I arched towards him, wanting to feel the heat of his mouth on my breasts. Surprise caught me as I watched his pupils dilate, his eyes appearing almost black.
Feeling more like a predator than I ever had before, I stared down at Nessie, unable to comprehend that this beautiful vibrant girl wanted me enough to bare herself to me. She was stunning, beautiful, a vision. Wearing only a delicate scrap of white lace her body cried out to me, her hot musky scent calling to my animal side, demanding I touch her.
Her full creamy breasts pouted at me, her nipples puckered begging me to touch her. Unable to stop myself I licked my lips, desperate for a taste of her, praying I had the control not to hurt her, not to devour her like the animal I was.
Wordlessly I bent and closed my mouth around one soft tip, tugging gently, feeling like a conquering warrior as she whimpered, her back bowing. She tasted like innocence and perfection rolled into one and as I kissed my way to her other breast I wondered if she would taste this good everywhere.
Laving her nipple, tasting her on my tongue I cupped her, bringing her closer to my mouth, loving her soft panting breaths, the way she twisted unselfconsciously on the bed.
I was almost mindless, the pleasure of his mouth on my breasts too much for me to bear. My hands reached out blindly and tangled in his hair, tugging his face to mine. He kissed me, his tongue delving into my mouth, dragging across mine, and stroking me even as he continued to stroke my breasts. Writhing in his arms, I felt him pull away from me and turn his attention to my neck again; placing hot wet biting kisses along my shoulder and down my arm. His tongue snaked out and he licked along my wrist where my pulse beat rapidly.
"More" I demanded breathlessly.
Breathing raggedly I caught hold of his hands and slid them from my breasts down, across the skin of my stomach and down to the lace of my panties. We both froze. Jake had never touched me there before and I had never invited him to. But right now I would give anything for that touch.
"Baby...are you sure about this" he asked me, looking tormented and guilty.
"Just touch me…I need you"
Her breathless plea went right to my groin, where I already pulsed thick and heavy and needy.
I wasn't sure if I had the control for this, I wanted to feel her, to skim her softness and feel the scalding wet heat I knew would be waiting for me…
Man up Jake, Nessie needs this. Looking down my hands were shaking and before I could stop myself I slid my fingers gently over the lace on the edge of her panties.
"Tell me if I hurt you…or you don't like this…I promise I will stop baby," he groaned, pressing another kiss below my ear.
I felt all the muscles in her thighs contract, as my fingers slid over her mound. Even through the material of her panties I could feel her heat as I cupped her.
"Fuck Nessie, you feel so hot" I moaned imagining that heat bathing my throbbing erection.
The feel of his large fingers skimming over me, stopped my breath and unconsciously I let my thighs drift open. I knew I should feel more embarrassed but I couldn't, not when I wanted him this much. I knew when he finally touched me there; he would be able to feel my wetness, the same wetness which now soaked my panties.
"Open your legs a little more honey…that's it" he encouraged me as I opened myself to him.
I gasped as I felt him press a finger against me, hitting a spot between my thighs that made me see stars and I whimpered, my hips lifting, trying to make him do it again.
"You like that huh" he smiled wolfishly and my stomach clenched.
I nodded my head falling back against the pillow, my lip caught between my teeth as pleasure burst again when his other hand returned to my breasts and he caressed me in turns.
"Ready for more?"
I couldn't answer, could only nod, frantic, as his fingers skimmed the edge of the lace and I felt the first contact of his finger against my naked flesh. We groaned together and I stiffened.
"Too much?"
"No…more please Jake"
His finger slid over my slick flesh and I moaned loudly, feeling out of control of my own body.
At the first touch of her scalding heat against my finger I moaned. She was so fucking hot, and wet and her scent was driving me crazy. Looking down at her I felt driven by some primal force I didn't understand. Her head was thrown back, her hair loose across the pillow, her lip caught between her teeth, eyes half closed as she whimpered and mewled. It was the hottest, sexiest thing I had ever seen. I couldn't stop myself capturing her mouth, kissing her hard, my tongue thrusting into her in the way I wanted my body to.
Nessie's arms wrapped around me, holding her to me as I kissed her fiercely while my fingers continued the slow teasing stroke against her heat, barley skimming her, letting her get used to the feeling of me touching her. I longed to spread her wide, open her up and feel her against my fingers, feel her silken walls clutching me, milking me.
She was panting wildly in my arms and I pressed all my weight down on her, my fingers trapped beneath our bodies, my leg between hers. Gently I lifted her leg, placing it carefully over my hip, opening her even wider to my touch as my fingers glided, spreading her heat and wetness. Beneath the material of her panties my fingers were trapped, making the movements of my fingers small but still very significant.
"Tell me if I hurt you" I begged, kissing the skin of her neck, tugging it gently between my teeth, knowing I couldn't hurt her here.
Gently, slowly and desperate not to hurt her, I slid my finger through her silken curls, to move slowly inside her. My breath stopped and I sucked in air desperately. I was inside her. Fuck me. She was tight and wet and so so soft I thought I would go crazy. Beneath me she jerked, her hips tilting towards me and she caught her breath, before moaning long and low.
"You're so small baby…and tight…tell me I'm not hurting you baby" he growled against me.
"You're not hurting me Jake…it feels amazing"
The sensation of being filled by Jake, even by his long thick finger was enough to bring tears to my eyes. He was inside me, touching me in a place where no one ever had. I felt full and stretched, but not in an uncomfortable way and caught my breath on a gasp as he added another finger.
"That's right baby, you can take them…good girl"
His words made my need burn hotter and I flinched as he pushed in deeper.
My eyes opened and I caught Jake watching me, a gleam in his eyes. Heat flowed over me as I stared back at him, feeling an overflow of emotion inside.
His eyes on mine, he moved his fingers, sliding them out of me almost all the way before gently pushing back inside me. A million starbursts of pleasure errupted inside me at the feeling and I gasped, emotion forgotten in the face of my need. His fingers moved slow and deep, yet still so gently, curling inside me and all I could do was moan and thrash as he hit the spot, which almost sent me reeling.
"Ssh it's okay baby, I'm here…I've got you" he groaned as I cried out, moving my hips needing that feeling again.
As his finger moved slowly, gently inside me, his mouth skimmed down my body and clamped over my nipple, tugging gently. I felt that answering tug between my legs. I was burning up, unable to take the pleasure as I moved against his hand, my hips pumping of their own accord.
When I felt the touch of his thumb against the bundle of nerves at my opening I almost came off the bed.
"Jake" I whimpered, barely recognizing my own voice as all the feelings inside me suddenly pushed me higher.
His big fingers were on me, in me, gliding inside me, stealing over me, pressing firmly and I felt my muscles begin to contract as I cried out.
Then I was falling, coming apart as I fractured in his arms, my stomach pulling in tight, my thighs quivering, my eyes screwed shut as I gasped and jerked and bucked against him. Wave after wave of pleasure crashed over me, as Jake's clever fingers teased and tormented me again and again.
Feeling Nessie clench around my fingers, feeling her scalding wet heat on my skin made me almost manic with the need to bury myself inside her but I fought back the beast. Seeing her pant and moan and shiver and fly apart as I touched her intimately, made me feel like the worlds best imprint.
I had done this to her. I had made her feel this way. And despite the heavy pulsing ache between my legs I would have done nothing differently. As her shivers slowed and her heart calmed, I gently removed my fingers from inside her panties.
My nostrils flared as I was over powered with her scent, her sweet musky scent. Mouth watering I fought the urge to lick my fingers and taste her. Instead I concentrated on pressing gentle kisses to her face, her lips, her neck, telling her how beautiful she was and how much I loved her. Seeing her, feeling her around my hand as she came was the hottest most beautiful thing I had ever seen. I was honored and proud to make her feel that way.
Jake's words reached me as I floated down, on a cloud, feeling limp and boneless. It amazed me that he seemed to know what I wanted before I did, was that the power of the imprint? I opened my eyes, surprised to feel the sheets cocooning us, over our heads, wrapping us together, and keeping the rest of the world out. We lay so close that our noses touched, his sweet breath mingling with mine, making me somewhat lightheaded. He was smiling at me, his eyes so full of love that mine prickled in response. I loved him so much. It was just him and me, alone, together; the rest of the world and our problems could wait.
"Hi…feelin okay?" he teased quietly.
I stretched beside him, surprised by how tired and lethargic I was suddenly, all my muscles were relaxed and I felt all floaty.
"Better than okay but I…think I could do with a nap actually" I murmured and shifted closer to him, making the sheets billow a little.
I flushed when I felt the evidence of his love for me brushing against my leg. Desire sparked to life inside me…again?
"Jacob" I began in a singsong voice "As my imprint you have to give me what I need right?"
"Thought I just did"
I smirked and stuck out my tongue, catching his bottom lip accidentally, yet still loving his reaction "What if I need you?"
He drew in a deep shuddery breath "Ness…don't ask this of me, not yet...please"
I felt the pout I knew was on my face "Why not? Don't you want me to touch you Jacob?"
"Nessie you don't know how much I want you to touch me baby…but when that happens I need to be in control…and Nessie I'm not in control, not after seeing you come apart for me" he stroked a finger alone my cheek and across my lips.
I fought the urge to bite him and instead settled for letting my tongue steal out of my mouth and lick him gently.
I shivered at the image his words provoked at the same time as I marveled at his self control. Now I knew what it felt like to want someone, to need him, to feel the burn of desire inside, I marveled that he could resist me.
Then an awful thought occurred to me, maybe he didn't want me as much as I wanted him. The doubts were back, the old Nessie taking me hostage for a second.
"No baby…I want you more than I want my next breath…don't ever think that I don't" his voice took on a harsh edge and I realized the strength of my release had opened the connection between us and he had been privy to my most private thoughts.
I flushed, embarrassed, guilty.
"I just feel like you're pushing me away again"
"Never doubt that I want you Renesmee" he murmured moving to whisper in my ear, the evidence of his feelings pressing insistently against my thigh once more.
Shivering I pressed against him a little, testing my boundaries, pushing my luck, unsurprised when he carefully moved away from me.
Forcing myself to move away from her was the hardest thing I had done in a long while. It would be so easy to give in to her and take what she offered but not now, not like this. So desperate for her touch, I was about a hair's breadth from embarrassing us both and cumming in my pants again.
When Nessie finally touched me, I wanted to have all the time in the world, wanted to enjoy her as she enjoyed me. Her face took on a mulish look and I bit the inside of my cheek to prevent a smile, she really was so adorable, all flushed from my touch, her hair spilling across my pillow. We were cocooned together under the sheets, making us the only people in the world that mattered for now.
"Soon, Nessie I promise baby" I pressed a kiss on the tip of her nose.
"You can't keep me away forever Jacob…I want you and I mean to have you"
My body pulsed at her words and I hoped to fuck she kept her promise. But already I could see her eyes were growing heavy, her breathing and heart slowing to a more even rate. I knew without a doubt she would be asleep in seconds. The hand against my skin went lax and I heard the gentle sound of her breathing, her soft breath tickling my skin.
Awake she was beautiful, in sleep she was stunning. My very own sleeping beauty, the beauty to my beast. I only hoped we would get our own happily ever after.
Coming up
Thought I would break with tradition and give you a sneak peak of what's happening next………..
"She's fine Jake, you're just overreacting as usual, making this so much more fucking dramatic than it has to be… besides she's not my fucking imprint, she's yours…if you're really that worried then you stay behind all the time…listen to her moon over you" Leah snarled and I felt the answering stirring of rage.
Leah had endangered her and she was lecturing me about staying home. She better than anyone knew my duty was to the pack, I was trying to protect us all. But Leah being Leah was acting up to her reputation as pack bitch and it was then it hit me. this wasn't about Nessie or me…it was about imprinting and her being jealous of our relationship.
"That's what this is about? You're what jealous of her now?"
" Jealous? No I'm just sick of being a fucking baby sitter Jake…this has nothing to do with you being together-"
"So why in the hell did you talk to her about imprints?" I growled, feeling the tell tale trembling begin deep in my bones, the urge to attack.