3-Z OkiKagu Fanfict

Hey you guys, I was finally able to write this! Sorry for the wait, but school is really cutting out my writing time. But we had a break so I decided to finish this chapter! XD

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Kagura sprinted down the gray street, sky darkening by the second. How much time has passed since she was trapped in that closet? She didn't know, and she didn't intend to find out.

She couldn't believe that the Sadist would go as far as kissing her just to squeeze out an apology. Even if it was him, that was lower than she expected. Did he really worsen through the years?

In the beginning, when their rivalry was just blossoming, they only did little pranks on each other like drawing faces when they were asleep or dumping water on each others heads. But after all that name calling and fighting, as the years went on, the ways to get back at one another suddenly became more... intense. Now he starts harassing her to the extent of making her almost cry or blush and using little tactics to make her discover new, weird feelings like these.

The glutinous girl stopped at her house and directly went upstairs to her bedroom without even acknowledging her older brother that was making some dinner for the two of them. She quietly shut her rusty brown door and sat on her bed, looking down on the wooden floor.

This feeling... what is it...? Ever since the sports festival, she has been thinking about her rival more and more everyday. He's so confusing... first he would be his usual sadistic self, but then at times he would be somewhat caring and intimate. Like when she was done chatting with SSBastard3Z at the library, the guy suddenly got off the computer the same time as her and randomly began saying lovey dovey things! Or when she was in the nurse's office, his impromptu hug was uncalled for. And that note... how did he...

Kagura looked at her white pillow and began to imagine Okita's face on it. Anger suddenly overwhelm her and she launched multiple punches on the thing as hard as she could until her anger has drained. With every hit she gave, she kept on reciting insults like "*baka", "Sadist" or "*aho". After 5 long minutes, the greedy girl finally started panting like a dog and fell back onto her bed, staring at the cream ceiling.

She began thinking about how this all started, how she ended up in this position. How did this start? Her eyes softened as she turned to her side. Oh yeah... I remember... they were on cleaning duty and he came in late. They started fighting and... oh right... her heart was beating fast because of his face and she broke his desk.

Wait... why was her heart beating so fast because of that? Her eyebrows furrowed in confusement. Her heart ached and she didn't know why. Was this frustration? She didn't understand.

After much thought she inwardly sighed, unhappy with being unable to understand. But decided to move on.

Continuing on with the reflection, she looked back on where she had left off after being interrupted by that question in her head.

So after she broke his desk he got all angry, they began fighting and got in trouble by Tsukuyo. Which led them to Gin-chan's place and the truth or dare game.

All of these things eventually led to the closet, and the fake kiss.

An almost kiss.

The fight isn't really about the desk anymore. It's more about... what is it about?

She just suddenly got all angry because he almost kissed her when he didn't love her. What does that mean? Is she angry because her apology was unfair? No, that didn't trigger her frustration. Is it the fact that he's being such a jerk? Yeah... maybe that's why... But then again, no word can really describe how he became a jerk. But he just was...

With a 'tsk', she bit her thumb.

Feelings are really confusing...

Okita drew the last eye on the voodoo doll, completing the 4th one.

It's weird, usually thinking about plans to kill the annoying mayo lover renews him back to his old spirit. But this time, it's not really working.

With a sigh, he casually tossed the straw doll into the pile near the coffee table in his room. He decided to make one more before he stops. So he went to get some straws in front of him and a rubber band to tie them with.

For some reason, he felt as if a big anchor is pulling his heart down to his stomach. He didn't like the feeling. Did he feel remorse? As much as he hated it, it might be possible. A couple of hours back when he was trying to force a kiss on her, all he could think was winning the game. It seemed to have turned him into a whole new person.

At least, that's what he think his mind was at.

Maybe it wasn't the need to win that took over him. Maybe it was something else. But what could it have been? All he wanted to do was to just provoke her to saying sorry by doing little movements like touching her skin or hair. But after that stage... He wasn't very sure what was going on with him. And he just somehow leaned in for a kiss.

Wait... when he was about to kiss her, did he actually want to kiss that greedy, monstrous, under developed girl? And maybe more?

Is that even possible?

He wasn't sure. He's not very sure about several things right now.

But one thing he knew for sure is that once she slapped him on the cheek, everything went black. And then clear again. All he could see right now is her teared up face in his head.

After tossing the 5th one into the pile, the sandy haired boy laid back onto the floor and placed his hands behind his head to act as a pillow. He began to doze off into space, thinking about what just happened.

All he wanted was an apology. That desk meant a lot to him. Many events happened with him and Kagura on that desk. It's kind of like a prized possession that was passed down by a loved one. So when she broke it, it felt like she just erased them all. Treated it like trash.

It was kind of funny actually. Getting angry at the china girl who broke his desk when she was the reason why he loved it so much.

Oh the irony.

But what could he do now? Should he pretend like none of this happened? Or maybe pull a big prank on her to let her know that what he did meant nothing to him. But if he did that, he gets this feeling that things still wouldn't be how it was before. Oh how much he regretted it. How he wished he could turn back time and do it all over again. The only thing he didn't regret doing was being able to stare into her big blue orbs, and to touch her soft fair skin.

But at this moment, it seems that he'll never be able to do it again...

"C'mon Kagura, eat up," coaxed the older brother, still having a mouthful of rice in his mouth.

The redhead just poked around the beef with her chopsticks along with a bored look on her face, "I'm not hungry."

He swallowed down his second serving of rice, "But you only had a mouthful of your rice!" he exclaimed, astonished, "And it was a small mouthful too, not like how you sometimes gobble it down with one gulp,"

Her sea colored eyes met his, "I have my period, so I don't feel good," as much as she loved him, she really didn't want her brother to get involved with this kind of business. Knowing Kamui, he will probably try to beat up whoever is bothering her. So she decided to keep quiet about it.

"Well that's even a better reason why you should eat!" her brother conveyed, "You need the iron! Here, eat some vegetables,"

"NII-SAN!" Kagura cried while getting up from the table, "I said I'm not hungry...!"

"Well-"

"Just leave me alone," she finally declared.

Kamui opened his mouth but gradually closed it. He reluctantly let her go as his little sister slowly went up the stairs.

What's up with her...?

She sat on her gray swivel chair near her wooden desk. Was she too harsh on her older brother? Should she apologize? She didn't know... Kagura gave out a loud sigh. She remembered when everything was much simpler back then, when she first transferred to Gintama High...

Two years ago...

"...Mina, please welcome Kagura-chan to class 3Z," the curly head teacher presented in the usual dull voice.

The students clapped as the redhead smiled passionately, "Since I'm here this year, I'll make this the best year you guys ever had, uh huh!"

"That's great, now go to your assigned seat over there," Ginpachi sensei pointed at a desk not too far away from him.

She was seated on the second row. On the left of Kagura, who was sitting next to the window, was a dull looking student. The second she laid her eyes on him, all she could see was his round glasses because that seemed to be the only exciting thing about him.

On the right of her however was a sandy haired boy with crimson eyes. He seemed to be dozing off everytime she looks at him. She actually kind of thought that he was a bit cute. He was the one that stood out to her because of his hair. Although probably not as much as a redhead like her.

When the bell rang for break time, she peered over to her right again. The boy was out of sight. Instead, she saw a brunette that tied her hair up into a high ponytail. She seemed to be looking around and stopped when she noticed Kagura staring at her.

"Hi," she greeted in a comforting tone, "You're the new girl right?"

"Yeah." was all she could say.

"Your name is Kagura, yes?" the girl asked.

Kagura nodded her head, "That's correct," she paused for a moment, "And yours...?"

"Shimura Tae," replied the brunette, "I really liked your greeting this morning," she smiled, "it was very strong and confident!" It seemed that her eyes brightened up right there.

"Really?" the new girl went up a desk to lessen the distance between them, "Gee, thanks! Nobody had ever told me that before!" she confessed.

"Well then everybody are idiots," Otae expressed resiliently.

Kagura smiled, "You're cool," she announced, "You're like an older sister I never had!"

"Well then I can be yours if you like," Shinpachi's sister offered with a grin.

The glutinous girl mimicked Tae's expression, "Yeah! Okay!"

The two of them both kept on giggling and chatting. Kagura was very happy that she had already made a new friend on the first day. She thought that she might've been a lone wolf for the rest of the years in high school. Not that she would show that. Being the wallflower is so not her style.

"Oi," called out a deadpanned tone.

The redhead thought for a second. Was that voice calling for me?

"You," said the same, dull voice.

Kagura paused for a moment before casually turned around to find the sandy haired boy in front of her. Oh, it's him... She wondered what he wanted with her.

"What? Do you need something?" the greedy girl asked innocently.

He pointed at the desk she was sitting on, "Get your ass out of my seat, ugly," he demanded expressionlessly.

She widened her eyes and cocked her head backwards, "Um, excuse me?" she couldn't believe what she was hearing, "What did you just say to me?"

He looked at her coldly, "I said..." he knows that she is a new student. So she doesn't know the rules he has around here. Best if she knew them early, "'Get your ass out of my seat, ugly',"

Kagura twitched and then bolted up from his desk, "KORA!" she bellowed, "WHAT GIVES YOU THE RIGHT TO SAY THAT?"

Otae slowly stood up to try to calm the redhead down, "K-Kagura-chan-"

She placed a hand in front of her, "Wait one second Anego!" she brought her eyes to a glare towards the red eye boy, "Let me finish this with that bastard..."

"No, I think you should listen to your only friend," the guy suggested menacingly, "She knows that nothing can get in my way,"

He seemed to be pretty proud of his speech. Normally all the newly ones, especially the girls, would back down about now. So he wouldn't be surprised if she did the same. Ha, wonderful. Now I can add another girl into my frightened list and-

Without a second thought, the girl stood on his desk and grabbed him by the collar, "Ha! Well think again you bastard," she uttered, "Not only will I get in your way from now on, but I will crush your bones until they turn into dust," she beamed into the boy's shocked eyes.

Huh? What is with her? Normally they would bow down to me by now. So why is she is doing the complete opposite...?

"Heh, feisty girl huh?" he commented, slightly grinning.

"Are you mocking me because I'm new?" this guy is seriously annoying her.

A few seconds past and he said nothing which angered the glutinous girl even more.

She shook him, "Kora! I want an answer damn it! Why're-"

...pthu!

Her movements stopped and her eyes gradually tried to look what was on her forehead. With her free hand, she moderately touched the dead center of her forehead and brought it down to eye level to see what was that wet and gunky feeling. She rubbed her thumb and pointer finger together to feel the slime.

...spit.

Her right eye began to twitch in an inconsistent pattern as she looked back up to find the red eye boy with no guilt shown on his face.

"...You..." the girl uttered as she clenched her fist.

"...What?"

Almost immediately, the girl swung back her free arm and brought it forward with full force directly to his face. His whole body flew all the way back to the end of the room and with a loud crash, he was smushed in a pile of newly made rubbish.

Kagura ambled towards her new enemy who was miraculously just scratched as she heard a girl from the other classroom screamed "OKITA-SAMA!"

The red-head abruptly stopped to look at the girl who ran away after seeing her. Once that girl was completely out of sight, she faced herself back at the boy.

"So..." she began in a dark voice, "Your name is Okita?"

He began to rub his forehead in pain. What is wrong with this girl? She is no one like I had ever met before. And what is with this monstrous strength? It's even scarier than the brunette's. He looked up to see her glaring down at him. He won't show his fear, he will glare at her back.

"That really hurt you monster..." he deadpanned.

A vein popped on her forehead. She closed her eyes and clenched her fists, "Let me tell you something..." she opened her eyes and pointed a finger at herself, "My name is Kagura and from now on, I'm going to be here in your class. So you better get use to the fact that I will not follow your stupid rules!" she used the same hand to point at Okita, "You got that?"

A few minutes passed to let him recollect his thoughts. He began to smirk as he looked at the girl one more time, "You're an interesting girl, you know that?"

...

Kagura spun around her swivel chair once again in thought. Those times, all she felt was anger towards the sadist. But now, her feelings are much more obscure. She gave out a loud sigh as she booted up her computer. She needs answers, and she only knows one place that she could get it right now. The redhead typed in the social chat site and signed into her account. She wonders what the future will bring her.

She began typing.

SwirlyGirl3 has entered this dorm

SwirlyGirl3: Hello? Are you here?
SwirlyGirl3: Hellooo?

Kagura waited for a few minutes until she just began to stare disappointedly at the screen. Well, that person can't always be there when she needs it.

SSBastard3Z: Yeah, I'm here. What do you want?

She widened her eyes which lead to a faint relieving smile on her face.

SwirlyGirl3: Nothing, just wanted to tell you a story.
SSBastard3Z: Okay, tell.
SwirlyGirl3: … Well, a teacher of ours made a devious plan to lock me and Rokita up in a room and...
SwirlyGirl3: well...
SSBastard3Z: And what? Say it already

Kagura took a deep breath. Typing down the letter one by one. I wonder what he's going to say...

SwirlyGirl3: And he tried to... kiss me.

…

Okita widened his eyes in surprise. Is he not reading this wrong? Does he need to get his eyes checked?

SwirlyGirl3: And he tried to... kiss me.

He read it over about 5 times to make sure that wasn't misreading it. This girl... why is it that it's always somehow similar to the things Okita and that china girl did? What should he say? Should he say whatever or give her a joke? Maybe some helpful advice might suffice...

SSBastard3Z: I see...
SSBastard3Z: Doesn't that mean he loves you?

Huh...?

SwirlyGirl3: But this guy would NEVER in his life love a girl like me!
SSBastard3Z: … Didn't he just try to kiss you?
SwirlyGirl3: Yeah...
SwirlyGirl3: But... I don't know... maybe...

The red head leaned back on her chair.

Love?

She knew about family love, and friendship love. But never the love between a guy and a girl. That word... she never knew what that word meant and how it felt like. And yet she hears it everywhere she goes. From Kondo-san, from that purple-haired masochist, and even from all those lowly fangirls that drool over a guy like the Sadist. She never wanted to get involved in such a complicated feeling. But here she is, wanting it more than anything. Wanting to understand so she can know how Okita feels. How she feels towards him. And how love has anything to do with the feeling she is having right now...

SSBastard3Z: Oh yeah, I have a question to ask you

Kagura stopped her thoughts to stare at the screen. This guy? He is asking me a question? Well this is the first.

SwirlyGirl3: What's the question?

I'm usually the one that is asking for advice...

SSBastard3Z: Okay... so what if you liked someone so much you just can't get your hands off of her. And you tried your hardest to pull back but when you finally started to touch her she pulled you away?
SwirlyGirl3: ...What a weird question.
SSBastard3Z: Just answer it
SwirlyGirl3: Well...
SwirlyGirl3: I guess I would ask her why she pushed away the kiss. Then I would apologize.
SSBastard3Z: What? Why would I have to apologize?
SwirlyGirl3: Why?
SwirlyGirl3: Cuz it would be the person's fault for touching her and not treating her right even though it is uncomfortable for her. That person probably rushed it too much.

Okita's eye twitched. He gets what this person is saying... but he shouldn't apologize!

SSBastard3Z: Okay, I'll think about it

Like hell.

SwirlyGirl3: Okay then. I have to go now. Bye
SSBastard3Z: Cya

Sougo slowly closed his laptop shut and kept his hand on the top of the device. This girl gives bad advice. In whose world should the one making the move apologize? I should be given props for having enough courage to do such a thing!

Out of frustration, he clenched his fists and sat up from his chair. He walked over to his bed and fell on top of it, he let out a loud sigh. He shouldn't apologize. He knows he is right but the words keep on ringing in his head...

It would be the person's fault for touching her and not treating her right even though it is uncomfortable for her. That person probably rushed it too much.

He should apologize.

Should he...?

Kagura turned off her computer and began screaming around the room. When she released most of her energy, she fell face front on her pillow in her bed. Her heart suddenly began to beat fast. Him? The Sadist? Might like me? I mean, it's possible... But... No! It can't be! Although, am I just denying it...? Does he actually like me? ME? The one who drew on his face? The one that drenched his sleeping mask? The one that stole his gym clothes? She took a big gulp. The one that threatened his life...?

The glutinous girl took a big waft of smell and let it out through her big mouth. How can so much change happen in so little time? She looked around the room and kept on debating whether she wanted to know the truth about Okita or not. Is she too afraid? That he'll say he loves her? That he doesn't? Which one was she afraid of? The real question is, why is she afraid of it?

The girl kept on squeezing her pillow tighter and tighter until she could feel as if she was hugging herself. Her eyes were clouded with confusement. A few minutes passed until she finally got up to get her japanese dictionary. She looked up a word.

Definition of Love:

To have strong affection towards another.

She then grabbed a thesaurus.

Synonyms for Love:

affection, fondness, adore

Kagura slammed the book on the ground and scruffed her hair hastily. She has no choice. No choice except to ask the Sadist. That chat dude's prediction was good, but now she needs to know. Not just a little prediction. But an actual answer.

She knew what she had to do.

The greedy girl shot up from her bed and scurried out of the door shouting "I'm going out!" and ran through the streets of the sparkling, crisp night.

The fog in her eyes were beginning to disappear.

...

She made a left and stopped at a relatively normal sized house. Sweat trickled down her face as she walked up the little steps and to the front of the door. When she was about to press the square doorbell, the door suddenly swung open and almost hit her face. Her heart skipped a beat at the sight in front of her.

She swallowed a whole lot of spit, "What are you doing here...?" she questioned loudly.

He gave a smirk, "I should be the one asking that, since you're the one who is in front of my house," he stated.

She flinched, "Oh... Right..." she can't think right now. "...Where are you going?"

Her question surprisingly made him blush but he tried to cover it with his bangs, "N-Nowhere really... just out... to go somewhere..."

"You're stuttering."

"I don't need you to tell me that, china."

There was a long awkward silence. Kagura's heart started beating triple its normal speed. Why does this always happen? When she is with this guy, her mind becomes all fuzzy. Her mouth slowly opened.

"I..." she paused for a moment to reassure herself, "I have a question..."

The sadist quickly glanced at her and leaned his back onto the door frame. He's dying to hear the question that china ran all the way here for. He stayed there, waiting for her to go on.

Kagura took the silence as a sign to continue, "Don't laugh at it, but..." she clenched her fists, "Why did you try to... kiss me...?"

Okita widened his eyes and his face started to turn red. The question was so reasonable to ask and yet why did it surprise him so? He knew it would be coming at some point but he never knew it would be so soon. He turned to look at the bushes at the sides, "Why you ask..." he began, "...I'm not so sure either..."

The girl's eyes looked down on the ground and frowned, "I see..." she took a deep breath, "Then..." she started to get all jittery all of a sudden,

"... do you love me?"

Sougo's heart skipped a beat. L-Love...? Did she just ask what I think she said...? He froze, but kept his face normal. What do I say... to that...? Do I tell her the truth? Should I toy with her? Or maybe lie...?

He crossed his arms, "For me to answer that, you need to answer my question first," he declared.

"Wha-" Kagura's eyes furrowed, "That's not fair at all!"

"Then I just won't answer that," Not that I wish to...

The redhead gritted her teeth for a moment and then let off some steam, "Fine..." she grumbled, "What's the question?"

He averted his eyes and paused before revealing it, "...Why did you push away the kiss?"

Kagura flinched for a moment and shuffled around as she twiddled her fingers. She contemplated for a moment as the anxious sadist waited for an answer. There was a long silence.

"Well..." she began, "to be honest, I don't know why I pushed away the kiss," she confessed, "I mean... I guess maybe because I thought you don't like me. And that if you did kiss me, that my... that my heart would explode," she squeezed her eyes shut, "Cuz recently... my head gets all weird around you. I can't think straight and my heart starts to beat faster than usual. You confuse me with all of your actions so I can't help but to push you away when you did that,"

I can't believe I just said that...!

After a few seconds, she slowly pried her eyes open to see the sadist staring at her, astonished. Out of embarrassment, she swung her right arm back and flung it towards his pretty face, leaving a big red bump in place "D-Don't look at me like that!" she exclaimed.

The sandy haired boy flew backwards and crashed onto the cream colored wall. Barely scraped, he massaged his head which seemed to be the only thing that hurt at the moment. "Ow..." When he had the guts to look back up, he saw Kagura's distressed face looking down at him, "...What do all of these feelings mean?"

He couldn't help but just help but stare into her bright blue orbs. He was speechless. He didn't know what to say. All of these words she just said almost sounded like a confession. But he knows she doesn't know what all of these signs meant. When he heard a wall fragment crumble down to the wooden floor, he snapped out of his thoughts and realized that Kagura is waiting for him to respond. He thought long and hard what he should say.

"From what you said... doesn't that mean..." he smirked, "you love me...?"

Kagura widened her eyes and took a step backwards, "L-Love...?" Kagura uttered in shock. She held her breath for a moment before speaking again, "I don't love you..." she stated, "How can I love you?" her eyes wandered around while saying this and her hands started to become fidgety, "I don't even fully understand what love is..."

Okita stared at her in wonder. So she hasn't realized...

The redhead looked down on the floor, confused. Is this how she really feels? "I guess that's your answer..." She looked back up and found Okita walking towards her. He stopped, only a few inches apart from the girl. And as he neared his head towards her face, it was more like an inch apart.

He kept his poker face, "I'm guessing you want mine as well...?" he said casually.

Kagura's face was surprised as she timidly nod her head. She could feel his hot breath on her face and the soft sound of his breathing. Okita didn't move an inch as he continued to speak, "I don't love you,"

Kagura froze for a moment, and let out a breath of relief. Okay, so it was all just in my head. Now, everything-

"But," he conveyed, "I'm very close to liking you,"

Kagura's blue orbs were popping out of her face. Wait, what?

"To have me fully love you, I need you to like me back," he explained. He knows she is very close to realizing her feelings towards him. So just a little push is all she needs. "So from now on..." he smiled as he slowly extended his arm to caress her left cheek with his thumb. Her expression was priceless.

"I'm going to make you realize your feelings towards me,"

Just do you know... *Baka means stupid; *Aho means idiot

Author's Notes: Sorry for the OOC ness. I didn't know else how else to do this while connecting it with my future chapters I am thinking of doing! ^_^ll

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-Sahara