CH.03 Realization

Since she began her research it started to become clear. There was no way to escape, the fall was imminent.

Through the books she learned that her feelings would not decrease with time, she couldn't heal or return to normal behavior in the presence of her beloved gem.

At first nothing made sense, why she had fallen in love with Garnet? They knew each other for thousands of years and she never felt like this. So why that year, that time and at that season she had fallen in love?

Pearl put the book down and dove into the water, the water gently involving her.

Her heart was beating rushedfast, moving her hands she clutched her clothes against her chest

It was strange, she had never paid attention to the beats of her gem heart , not even noticed that it existed, despite knowing that she had, obviously.

Now that always reminded her that she was alive, pulsing fast, pumping her hot existence through her veins, tight into the small space inside her body.

Sometimes she thought her heart was damaged as it hit tight and sore, as if there wasn't enough space in her body.

She sighed opening her eyes and staring at the top of the room.

" I'm so tired..."

The months had passed running, all the time she felt an anxiety simmering inside. It was like her physical form didn't respond to her brain. Often emotions confused her, now she was anxious, sad and confused. Now she smiled alone and felt a strange heat in her cheeks.

Love was indeed, a roller coaster of sensations.

"It must be good to love ... " She said to herself as she thought of Garnet.

"I wonder ... she feels like this all the time ...?"

Garnet is relationship. The fusion of two gems that love each other so much that wants to be a single organism, and so she thought that her feelings would never be corresponded.

She had been in a fusion before, but couldn't remember the entire experience, however she still felt the sensation of being part of something big, bigger than herself.

"I wonder if fusions can love too ..."

She smiled sadly to herself, sadly, the answer was obvious, so why would she still did?

The gem rose up of the water picking up some papers that she had gotten fromasked Steven. The pages were marked with various scribbles, a foolish attempt to rip from her chest those repressed feelings.

She had examined the books and realized that through the writing she could express her feelings, since she couldn't say to her superior. Pearl rubbed her head feeling the wires in disarray. She knew she was a mess.

The A gem thought aboutin the past, it was important to find out when she had developed feelings for her colleague.

She had always adored Rose and devoted to at living for the sake of their battles, not finding time to develop emotions, after all, in the battlefield feelings just get in the way.

She sighed softly feeling sadness at the memory of her former leader, Rose.

She understood that she had loved Rose, but not like sheas loved Garnet. Her love for Rose was of a soldier to her superior official, a faithful servant to her master.

Rose took care of her when nobody else had. Rose helped her be who she was today, gave her a course, one cause to fight. Because of Rose she had, finally, known this feeling called love.

She smiled to herself.

"Yes ... I know when I fellfall in love ..."

It was so easy and so silly, she always loved her.

When Steven was brought into the world everyone was sad because of the death of Rose, Garnet was the only one whoat stood up to support her friends. It was she who was in front of the struggles, that made Pearl look at the world beyond the vision of a soldier.

The gem always admired her captain, different from how she had admired Rose.

Her passion had manifested shown(shown/expressed) more widely when they were on the beach trying to socialize with the pizzeria owners. Steven asked for theythem to changed their costumesclothes, and it was then that she saw Garnet's in street clothes, her attractive and curvy figure and curvy in a bathing suitbeachwear. Pearl has was been hit by her desires, hidden all this time under her own modesty.

Ever since she could not stop of contemplating to stare at Garnetthe gem with impure eyes. In every second they were together, Pearl couldn't suppress her thoughts, eagerness to be wrapped in an embrace, an almost indomitable desire to have her lips pressed together in a kiss. The delight of caressing her face, the irrepressible fever from inhaling her perfume, to feel her warm flesh against her burning slowly in a pure flame of lust.

Pearl shook her head trying to push away her libertine thoughts. The vision of the dark goddess and desire left her breathless.