Chapter 06: I can't love her (Part.1)
NT.: Hello everybody, I apologize for the delay in updating. My time in college are very complicated.
Anyway, this chapter you will know what is going on in the head of Garnet, nothing too revealing because I don't think we got to this point yet.
Another thing, this chapter was rather large and I'm too lazy to translate it all, so I decided to put in two parts. I'm out of beta, so if you see an error report to me, please.
I was thinking of putting this story in a universe Omegaverse(ish), what do you think?
But instead of common stories omegaverse I will not put mandatory use of extended clits to sexual involvement. It would be more like a conscious choice of the parties involved. Let me know via comments or private messages what you think. I'm still very uncertain about this.
The door closed behind her body, heavy and annoyingly loud, reminding of what had left behind the concrete, the discovery that struck so hard it left her disoriented.
Pearl is in love with me …
This could not be happening, not with her best friend, her companion gem of years of battle.
Amethyst was staring, her mouth moving quickly but the sound didn't reach her brain.
Pearl is in love with me …
When did this happen? How had this happened?
Her stomach - illusion or not - was heavy in concern.
The violet gem kept talking, probably wondering why her leader was silent, standing like a statue - which wasn't so different from an ordinary day, and yet ... -.
Quietly walked to the wrap pad and transported from the temple, leaving the youngest of the gems looking shocked.
She would deal with it later, when her head wasn't confused with the swirl of a repeated thought.
Strolled to the fountain of Rose Quartz and took a seat on the edge, the noise of the waters bringing a light calming effect to her turbulent state.
Pearl is in love with me …
The phrase circulated in her mind endlessly in a infinite motion.
She didn't know what feel, didn't know how to react. All wisdom and knowledge of the future right now was useless.
What to say to someone who is in love with you? How to react when one discovers the feelings that are printed, engraved in the eyes of the person who looks at you with admiration?
Stars …
That was impossible, pointless. Something no logical,something... Oh, what should she do?
Strangely Sapphire and Ruby chose that night to stay silent. They know much more about love, could know what to say, how to deal with this mess.
What am I thinking? It is obvious that this is impossible. I'm not able to love someone else romantically!
She was loved, she was the love of two people, she couldn't give love to someone else even if wanted.
What were you thinking, Pearl?
Why you fell in love with me !?
The other gem should know, right? She should know that she had no love to give to others. But then, why? Why fall in love with her when she knew this feeling couldn't be reciprocated?
And yet, she knew the answer to that. More than anyone, she knew that the heart doesn't be controlled.
Brought a hand to hair and rubbed it in a gesture of exasperation, all is situation was making her confused.
Couldn't stop remembering of the lost face of Pearl, of the unguarded and surrendered expression that she wore.
What Pearl would have done if she continued in the room?Would the pallid gem confess her feelings? Would she done a move? Would she kissed her?
Stars…
Sighed deeply closing her eyes, if gems slept she could blame it all to a dream, or rather, a nightmare.
Now she had to figure out how deal with this situation, how to solve this mess and reaffirm her lead in the group.
Yes, because Pearl having feelings for her changed everything. It was her fault, observed, for being too weak as a leader had opened breaches that have made the gem create illusions.
Rose never had this problem, was a flawless captain for the group and even being very close to the others didn't encourage or implied any other intention except to a friendship and companionship.
Had certified to be gentle but firm with the group and yet ... Somehow, she failed. And now her all team was compromised because of this, because she had been incapable.
Her treacherous brain remembered the sharp blush on the cheeks of the short gem, she blushed so much that even the tips of her ears had become blue. Garnet faintly smiled remembering the graceful look of a blushing Pearl of the tip of the ears to the collarbone.
Couldn't think of another time when the gem had been so incredibly blue before and she tended to blush easily. It made her heart beat a little off the pace, knowing that was the reason for such a reaction in another being. However, great as her entertainment and interest was to the reactions evoked in the warrior, couldn't get involved or feed the behavior. It wasn't fair, not when she couldn't love her as the other wanted.
She rested her face into the hand and breathe out audibly, feared the return to the temple, the confrontation.
She still didn't know what to say, how to act. However, the mere thought of hurting Pearl made her chest constrict, burn feebly as if irritated, scratched, injured.
That should mean something? This hesitation about hurting Pearl?
No ... That's what friends feel …
I can't love her …
She slid her hands over her face letting them fall beside her body, squeezed between the fingers the cold stone surface of the fountain - the solid rock steadying her in place, reminding her the present, where she was.- and tilted her head back. The sky was black above her head, the few stars adorned it, no cloud was in sight.
Inspired slowly exhaling through the mouth the air uselessly consumed.
And if I wanted to love her ... I could? ... I would be able to?
She closed her eyes tight and sighed loudly.
What with so many sighs today?
Garnet felt eccentrically empty, the absence of something that left her melancholic. Were not the voices of Sapphire and Ruby, analyzed. Often the two passed weeks without a word inside her.
So what? What made her feel hollow, empty?
Why the revelation of Pearl triggered all these thoughts and mysterious symptoms?
I wish I'd never have discovered this …
The night sky that rises above the foutain of the Rose Quartz is still black, lacking from the sparkling stars and moon. She lost track of time, the celestial vault above her head didn't help to find the time. Not that it matters, really. Not when what she expected back home was intimidating enough to wish never again to set a foot in the place.