Phoebe's POV

I am so excited! It's been a while since we took a family vacation. Mom and Dad have taken us to so many places. I've been to England, France, Italy, Germany, Tahiti, and most of the Caribbean Islands as well as many vacation spots in the States. They also took us to Disney World a few times, but after Natalie came along we didn't really go anywhere. This will be her first vacation. She is going to love Disney World. I know that I loved it and I'm going to enjoy seeing her reaction to the rides, the parades and the characters. I'm also excited because I'll get to spend some time with Teddy. He's been spending all of his time with Rebecca and only coming home for a few dinners.

I am all packed, so I decide to check on Teddy to see if he needs any help. I knock on his door and I am immediately welcomed in. When I open his door I see boxes and his things scattered everywhere. What a mess! Not only is he packing for Florida, but he is also packing for when he needs to go back to school. When we come home, there will only be one day before he'll need to get on a plane with Rebecca and fly back east. The thought of it makes me sad because I miss him so much when he's not here. I know I didn't get to see him much this summer, but just having him home in the same town has been comforting.

Although his room is a mess, he tries to convince me that he knows where everything is and that it is simply "organized chaos". That is the term he uses. Organized chaos. I decide to help him and finish packing the things he will be taking to school with him while he works on packing for Florida. We spend about two hours packing, and I am amazed at how much we get accomplished.

Once everything is packed, we move the Florida stuff to one side of the room and the school stuff to the other. I find a box that isn't labeled, so I open it. Teddy tries to stop me but he's too late. I open the box and let out a gasp before covering my mouth. I almost don't believe what I see. I am frozen in my spot, on my knees looking into this medium sized box that contains some pretty scary items. Why does my brother have these?

"Phoebe" he says, but all I can do is shake my head. "It's not what you think."

"How do you know what I think?" I ask him shakily.

"This probably looks really bad" he says. I'm not looking at him since he is behind me, but I can tell he is nervous, probably even embarrassed. He should be.

"Why do you have these?" I manage to ask him after some silence. I can't take my eyes off of the contents of the box. But I really want to. I don't want to see these. But my curiosity is getting the best of me.

"Phoebe…." He is now sitting on his bed and I can tell he is having a hard time getting the words out. Is he embarrassed for me or embarrassed for himself? I start to feel embarrassed and all I want to do is disappear from this room. I somehow manage to stand and start to walk out, but he stands in front of me and grabs my shoulders to stop me. "Please, wait." I can't look him in the eye. It's like he's a different person to me now. He's not my brother. He's some kind of….. sadist. "Let me explain, please."

I nod but still avoid eye contact with him. He guides me over to sit on his bed, but he remains standing. I start to find it hard to breathe as I look over at the box again. Teddy notices where my line of sight lies and he moves to stand between me and the box.

"You know me Phoebe, you know that I'm not a monster." All I do is nod at that assessment. "I would never hurt Rebecca, or any woman for that matter."

"Then why do you have those?" I ask again, this time I can hear a hint of anger in my voice. I realize that I am angry. Does he expect me to believe that it is okay to tie women up, handcuff them, beat them?

"Rebecca and I like to play while we have sex." I grimace when I hear him say this. Gross! "I have never done anything to her that she hasn't consented to. I promise Phoebe, I would never hurt her."

I shake my head and I want to cry, but I do my best to suppress it. Does he expect me to believe that Rebecca likes him to do these things to her? "She's in a wheelchair" I finally say out loud.

"Yes, she's in a wheelchair because her back injury is preventing her from walking properly. She's not paralyzed and she's not incapable of enjoying sex." Teddy's tone has changed. Instead of being apologetic he is now being defensive. "Would it help if I told you that we've been taking it easy with her injury? I haven't been rough with her, I promise."

I hold my hand up. "Please, I don't want to hear about what you and Rebecca do. That's not my business."

"It is now that you've found this stuff." He sits on the bed and I slide away from him. This is so strange. I've never felt this sick and uncomfortable around my brother. But this changes everything. "Phoebe…" his voice turns more serious now. "…have you and Trevor had sex?"

What? "How is that any of your business?"

"So you haven't." I am completely appalled and even more embarrassed now. I feel my face turn a shade of red. "That is why this is so alien to you, how two people can enjoy doing this stuff while having sex. When Rebecca first suggested this, I was still clueless about sex so I found it rather odd. But I trusted her, and then after a few times I understood it. So please, don't judge something that you don't understand."

Now I feel like he is reprimanding me. I have got to get out of here. I stand from the bed and he stands too. He tries to take my arm but I pull away from him. "Please don't touch me." I can feel the tears forming and my voice is trembling. "It's late, I should go to bed." I leave his room and am thankful that he doesn't follow me.

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Christian's POV

We arrive at the airport at five in the morning. Ana and the kids are tired but I am wide awake. I can't keep the excitement out of my face. It's been a while since we've taken a family vacation, and this will be Natalie's first. She has no idea what she is in for. I am going to make sure she gets to meet as many princesses as possible while we are in Disney. Ana packed her Cinderella and Rapunzel dresses that she will wear to the parks.

I remember how excited Teddy and Phoebe were every time we visited Disney. We wouldn't tell them where we were going until we were ready to leave for the airport. We would wake them up early, get them dressed and then tell them, and they would go from sleepy children to children on a sugar high. They are older now but I know they will still have a good time. We will also spend a few days in Miami relaxing. I know my family can use some time to just lounge in the sun and relax by the pool and the ocean before school starts. I lead my family through security and they allow me to carry Natalie through since she is asleep. I am grateful that they don't make us wake her. She would've had a hard time going back to sleep and we would've had a cranky two year old on our hands.

We have a few of my security with us, including Taylor and Gail. I wanted them to come along, not just for the security but because I want them to enjoy some time relaxing as well.

Once we are on the Grey Jet, Phoebe requests to sit with her mother instead of Teddy. I find it odd since I thought she would want to sit with her brother. After settling Natalie in Ana's lap I take my seat next to Teddy. My security team boards the plane and takes their seats.

After we're in the air for a while, we get the all clear to remove our seat belts. Our two flight attendants serve us breakfast. Natalie is still asleep so I offer to take her, but Ana insists she is fine. I keep an eye on her and Phoebe to make sure they both eat. It is still pretty early in the morning but when we arrive in Orlando it will be four in the afternoon east coast time. We'll have to have lunch before we land so that we can stay on a good eating schedule for the next few days. I am satisfied when I see that they have finished their breakfast. The flight attendants take our trash and I relax in my seat as I watch Phoebe rest her head on Ana's shoulder. Ana rests her head back but she doesn't sleep. I offer to take Natalie again but she still insists that she is okay.

I look at my son next to me and he seems troubled by something. Perhaps it has something to do with Phoebe not wanting to sit next to him. I decide to question him, but my approach is anything but soft. "What's going on with you and Phoebe?" I can tell he is surprised at both my tone and my question. He shrugs his shoulders and removes his ear buds.

"What do you mean?" He looks over at Ana and Phoebe nervously as he asks this, so I know there is definitely something going on. I decide to soften my tone and lower my voice. Phoebe has fallen asleep on Ana's arm and her ear buds are in, but Ana's eyes are now on us, curious as to what we are talking about.

"I know that something is going on. You and Phoebe always insist on sitting next to each other whenever we travel. So why not today?" Teddy looks away from me and down at his lap. He starts to play with the drawstring from his sweatpants. "Tell me" I whisper forcefully.

"Dad, Phoebe found…. she found something that I've never intended for her to see."

"What did she find?"

I hear him sigh and I can tell this is something that I'm not going to like. "She was helping me pack for school, and she found my box of toys."

I look at him for a moment but he doesn't look back. After a few seconds it hits me. "You let her find your…." I grab my head in frustration. I know that Ana is still looking at us but I can't worry about that right now. Phoebe must have been horrified. "What did you say to her?"

"I wasn't prepared to talk to her about it. I tried to explain to her that I would never hurt Rebecca. But she was just so shocked by what she saw, I don't think she wanted to hear anything I had to say."

"So she's avoiding you?" I ask, still keeping my voice at a whisper.

"I don't blame her. Dad, she is still so innocent. What have I done?"

I can feel my mouth form into a hard line. Teddy is beating himself up over this. I know he didn't mean for Phoebe to see that part of his life. He buries his face in his hands and rests his elbows on his knees. I rub his back in an attempt to soothe him. "Don't worry. I'll take care of it." I honestly don't know how I'm going to do it, but I don't want Teddy to have to deal with this on his own.

We fly in silence for a while until I hear my wife's beautiful voice, catching my full attention instantly.

"Christian, could you help me?" I stand and walk over to her. Phoebe is still asleep with her head on Ana's arm and Natalie is still asleep in her lap. "I need to change her." I take Natalie from her so that she can stand. She helps Phoebe rest her head against a pillow. She stirs for a moment, but she doesn't wake.

"I'll come with you" I whisper and then follow her back to the bedroom. I decide I should discuss the problem our kids are having since this will probably be one of the rare moments we'll spend alone this week. I close the door behind me and lay our sleeping daughter on the bed. Ana starts to change her but I stop her. "I'll do it." Ana smiles at me and plays with our daughter's hair while I change her. We decide to dress her in regular clothes instead of her pajamas since we'll be landing in Florida late in the afternoon.

"What were you and Teddy discussing?" she asks me before I have a chance to offer the information.

"I actually wanted to talk to you while we're alone" I start. First I move Natalie to the top of the bed so that her head is rested on a pillow. I then walk over to the foot of the bed to sit with my wife. "Phoebe was helping Teddy pack, and she found Teddy's sex toys."

Ana gasps and brings her hand to her mouth. She looks away from me and puts her hands on each side of her face. "Oh no, Christian, this is bad. This is so bad. Well, what did he say to her?"

"Apparently not much. He said he explained that he would never hurt Rebecca, but Phoebe was in shock. I mean, you remember how you felt when I first showed you my playroom." It pains me to have to compare my wife's introduction to BDSM to Phoebe's. Ana was an adult, but Phoebe is still just a kid. She's my little girl and I hate that she has these images in her head now. God, what she must be thinking.

"We have to do something. I've gotta talk to her" Ana says nervously and stands, but I take her hand and stop her.

"Not now" I tell her and get her to sit down. Ana's first instinct is always to rush to Phoebe whenever there's a problem, but right now I want Ana to think about what she is going to say. I have her sit on the bed again and take both of her hands in mine. "Do you even know what you're going to say to her?"

Ana thinks it over for a moment and then shakes her head. "No, but I have to say something. I can't just let her deal with this on her own. And I don't want her to spend the week feeling awkward around her brother. They rarely get to spend time together."

I rub Ana's hands with my thumbs and turn to see Natalie stir a bit. Once she's settled I turn and face Ana again. "She's going to have questions" I explain to her. "And you'll need to know how to answer those questions. She's going to figure out that you have some experience with this."

Now Ana is smirking at me. "Teddy found out. It was the only way to get him to not be ashamed of what he was doing. Maybe Phoebe needs to know a little bit about it so that she doesn't have any ill feelings toward her brother."

I sigh with exasperation. "I want her to know as little as possible about this. I want her to keep as much of her innocence as possible."

Ana gives me a look that tells me to 'get real'. "Christian, think of what she's been through. "Jay, Harold Braxton, Caleb..."

"Caleb never did anything to jeopardize her innocence, the fucker just lied to her about who he was" I shoot back, but Ana doesn't seem to be backing down. But then she surprises me.

"Okay, we'll tell her as much as she needs to know so that she'll understand. I'll try to grab a moment with her before we land."

I nod and run by hands through my hair. And here I thought we would have a nice family vacation free of all of the drama that seems to find us at every corner.

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Ana's POV

After we've been in the air for a while, I have Phoebe join me in the bedroom so that we can have our chat. Natalie is awake so I leave her with Christian to eat her bagel since she slept through breakfast. I start to feel nervous when we are alone. I didn't think I'd feel this way, but now that I'm confronted with my daughter and what I need to talk to her about, I feel myself shrink.

"Mom, are you okay?" she asks me.

I offer her a light smile. "I'm fine Sweetie. Have a seat." We both sit on the bed and she looks curiously at me. I take in a breath and try to relax. I try to tell myself that this is my daughter, and that there's nothing to be embarrassed about.

"Are you sure you're okay? Should I get Dad?"

I put my hand on top of hers to assure her. "No, I'm fine, I promise. I need to talk to you about what you found in Teddy's room."

"He told you?" she asks angrily.

"Not exactly. He told your father."

Just like her father, she runs her hands through her hair. "Oh my God, this is so not happening."

I gently grab her arms and get her to lower them from her head. "Honey, it's okay. We don't want you to be embarrassed about this. That's why I want to talk to you."

"Do you have to?"

"Yes, I do. Honey I don't want things to be awkward between you and your brother, especially while we're on vacation…."

"Mom" she interrupts me. "He has handcuffs and chains and… and paddles…." She shakes her head and starts to get upset. "How is that okay?"

"It is okay. You have to trust me on this" I try to assure her. This is going to be harder than I thought.

"How is it okay to hit women?"

I sit closer to her and take her hands. "Phoebe, calm down" I say to her sternly. She avoids eye contact with me. I can't lose her in this. I need to be able to explain to her why this is okay. "Phoebe, it is not okay to hit women, but what Teddy does is okay."

"I don't understand" she says with tears running down her face. I reach up and dry them with my thumb before I continue.

I take a deep breath and let it out. "It's hard to explain. But when people have sex, they like to do things that excite their partner. And those things excite Teddy and Rebecca. Honey, as long as they both agree and consent to those things, there is nothing wrong with it."

I can tell she is thinking about this and letting it sink in. She nods and I leave go of her hands when I notice she is calmer. She doesn't look at me so I just sit and wait for her to say something. When she doesn't, I decide to speak up. "Do you have any questions?"

She looks in my direction but not at my face. "You and Dad?"

Oh Shit. I offer a nod, bite my lip and then offer an explanation. "Your father and I have had a very gratifying relationship, and anything we've ever done has always been consensual. But that's all I'm going to say about that."

She nods and I get the feeling that she understands. I take her hand again and squeeze it. "Phoebe, Teddy is kicking himself for allowing you to find those things. You shouldn't have any of that in your head right now. Just please, try to understand that Teddy is in an adult relationship. And he loves Rebecca. He cherishes her. He could never hurt her." She nods again and this time she looks at my face. I smile and she smiles back. "Okay?"

"Yeah, okay." I lean over and kiss her cheek. I know that this isn't entirely okay, but maybe just enough to get her to enjoy this week with her brother.

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Phoebe's POV

A few hours later we are in Hollywood Studios having dinner. I'm not very hungry since we just had lunch before we landed, but Dad insisted that we eat something little so that we aren't hungry later. Mom, Teddy and Natalie have finished so they are a few yards away meeting with some characters. Dad is sitting with me, big surprise since he's probably just here to make sure I finish my dinner. He hasn't said anything yet but I know what he is thinking. I find out soon enough that I'm wrong.

"Can I ask you something?" he asks and I nod since I have a little bit of food in my mouth. That should make him happy. "I need you to take it easy on your brother."

I scowl since I know what he is referring to. I swallow my food and keep the scowl on my face. "You're really not going to talk to me about this, are you?" Please God, let him say no.

"I know this isn't the easiest thing to talk about, but once upon a time I promised you that I wouldn't avoid talking to you about the hard stuff." He did promise that. Dad and his promises. He does keep most of them. "You and I have had our share of embarrassing talks. Remember, I had to be the one to talk to you about your period."

He is smiling, but it isn't a smile that says he's enjoying my discomfort. It's a smile that tells me he's just as uncomfortable about this as I am. I decide to relieve him a little and smile lightly. "Mom and Aunt Kate were both out of town." I fork some more of my salad and eat it.

"That they were. But I did okay, didn't I?"

"I guess"

"Okay, so give me a chance to do okay again." I can't help but giggle at him. He can be funny sometimes. He doesn't seem to mind my giggling. "I'm glad you find me humorous."

"So, you know about what Teddy does?" I ask him, but I don't know where that question came from.

"Yes, I've known for a while now." This takes me by surprise. "And I can guarantee you there's nothing wrong with it. As long as they both consent."

"That's what Mom said." I feel like rolling my eyes but I don't. I put some more salad in my mouth to stop myself from talking. I know far too much now about my brother and my parents than I've ever wanted to know.

"Your mother is a very smart woman" he says with a smirk, but I keep my eyes on my plate. I put some more food in my mouth, and he finds it amusing. "You know, I ought to talk to you about embarrassing things more often if it gets you to eat." I almost feel appalled by this, but I know he's kidding when I see him chuckling. I can't help but chuckle myself as I cover my mouth to avoid spitting any food out. After a few seconds he turns serious again. "I know it doesn't make sense to you now, it's not supposed to. But someday it will. Do you think you can make your peace with that?"

I think about it for a moment. Teddy's words come back to me. I shouldn't judge something that I don't understand. He's right. Trevor and I haven't done it yet so there's probably so much more to sex that I'm not even aware of. "Okay"

"Really?" he asks, almost not believing me.

"Yeah. Really. I can make my peace with it." I can't look at Dad at the moment so I concentrate on my food again. I hope Dad was kidding about using embarrassing topics against me when he wants me to eat.

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Christian's POV

After we are finished with dinner, we collect Ana, Teddy and Natalie and walk around the park for a little bit. I keep an eye on Teddy and Phoebe to see if things get better with them. I get nervous when we walk a long way without them saying a word to each other. I am pushing Natalie's stroller and Ana has her arm around me, and I can tell that she is also keeping an eye on them. When we arrive at The Tower of Terror they suddenly come to life. They both want to go on it. Phoebe challenges Teddy to a race to get in line and he takes off before her. She catches up to him and I can see that they are laughing. Ana and I both breathe a sigh of relief and wrap our arms around each other as we watch and wait for our kids to be finished with the ride.

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Phoebe's POV

We board the bus that will take us to our hotel. We came straight to the park from the airport so we haven't been there yet. I sit next to Teddy and he pulls Natalie into his lap. Strangely I feel a little better after hearing what Mom and Dad had to say about Teddy's extracurricular activities. Although I wish I never had to learn about them in the first place. I take Mom and Dad's advice and make my peace with it. After all, I know my brother, so why should this change things? He's still the same fun, loving, goofy brother he's always been with a hint of Dad in him at times.

Mom and Dad sit a few seats away from us. The bus takes off and the lights go out, but I can still see them. They are holding hands and laughing together. I like seeing them like that, as long as my friends aren't around to see it. It can be a bit embarrassing since other people's parents don't act like that.

Teddy looks over at me and catches me smiling at them. "I know that Dad talked to you about me. Was it horrible?"

I shrug my shoulders and continue to watch my parents. "Sometimes I feel like Dad likes to make me squirm, take pleasure in my discomfort. But it wasn't like that. He only said enough to make me understand that you're not doing anything wrong."

"So am I forgiven?"

I look over at Teddy and he is looking intently at me. I smile and can't help but chuckle at him. I look away and shake my head. "You were right. This is all alien to me and I shouldn't have been upset with you in the first place. Can we stop talking about it now?"

I see him nod as an idea starts to brew in his head. "Sure, we can stop talking about it. Besides, I want to talk about you and Dad."

I immediately raise an eyebrow at him. "What about me and Dad?"

This time Teddy looks over at our parents. "I know that you two have had your issues. I also know that you and Dad could never stay angry with each other for too long."

"We're not angry with each other."

Now he looks at me. "So what's the problem? Why are things still awkward between you two?"

I look at my parents and Dad is whispering something in Mom's ear, which makes her laugh. I feel the tears coming but I manage to suppress them. "I really hurt him, Teddy." Teddy looks at me with confusion but I keep my eyes on my parents. "I hurt him as bad has his birth mother, maybe even worse."

"He said that?" Teddy sounds appalled, but he really should be appalled with me, not Dad.

I nod and continue to keep the tears at bay. "I'm having a hard time getting over how much I hurt him."

Teddy looks over at our parents briefly and then looks at me again. "Do you think he's still thinking about that?"

I shrug my shoulders. I really don't know what Dad is thinking right now. All I know is that things are not the way they used to be, and I'm not sure if they ever will be. I can feel myself sulk.

"I don't believe that."

"He doesn't call me Peanut."

"Even if he doesn't say it, you will always be his little Peanut, Phoebe." He looks at our parents again and then at me. I realize I am sulking now. "It means that much to you, doesn't it?"

I nod and wipe away a few tears that have escaped. Good thing the lights are out and people can't see me. We both watch our parents and they are laughing about something. "Look at them. They are acting like horny teenagers" Teddy says out of the blue. This makes me laugh and I have to cover my mouth so they don't hear.

"I think it's nice" I say. And I mean it. I like seeing my parents happy.