Oh man. Oh shit. Oh crap. He`s a wolf! A WOLF! A GIANT MOTHERFUCKING MONSTER WOLF! I know what I fucking saw! People need to know. Did he eat Bella and Edward yet? Am I next? Run faster Sonia!
And I did run faster. I ran faster than I did in my whole life. The low lying branches of passing trees whipped me hard in the face, I stumbled once or twice, but I kept on going. Then I heard the howling! Hollllyyyyy shitttt. It sounds so scary. And so close. And definitely more than one wolf. I hope I don`t run into their lair. How did I get into this mess? Why did Jacob have to chose me to have some creepy wolf fixation on? I must have the worst luck in the world.
"Sonia!" I heard somebody call my name. Oh no no. Not Jacob. Please not him. I ran faster. I could hear footfalls running behind me and I pushed my legs faster. I hoped all this terrified energy didn`t run out any time soon.
"Sonia! Stop running! It`s okay! We`re not going to hurt you!" Was that Embry Call? I was afraid that if I turned around I would run into some trap so I kept on running.
"Sonia...come on.." I felt a hot hand encircle my upper arm and drag me to a stop.
"LET GO OF ME!" I screamed as I skidded to a stop of the floor of the forest. I kicked and flayed my arms and legs to no avail. Embry didn`t let go. I tried punching him which was the worst mistake I made. I felt some of my bones in my hand crunch under the impact against his rock hard body.
"AHHHHHH. SHIT MAN!" Fuck me. My hand! I felt tears start to sting my eyes.
"Sonia! Shit...you shouldn`t have done that.." Embry released my arm and cupped my hand gently in his own big ones. I seized on the opportunity at once and started to run again. I made it all but ten feet before he seized me around my waist this time.
"Please Embry...just...Jacob is a...a...wolf...he wants...to kill me...I need..to get ...away." I sobbed hopelessly as Embry started to carry me off somewhere. I had lost all energy and was shaking like a leaf from the exertion of running and the terror I felt.
"Jacob doesn`t want to kill you Sonia. He wants to protect you." Embry said calmly. He started to pick up the pace a little.
"Please...he`ll hurt you too!" Why is Embry being so cool and calm? Why wasn`t he afraid?
"He wishes." He gave a snort of laughter. Fuck...he was one too. I got it now...Sam Uley`s little-big gang of hotties were wolves. Crap!
"Don`t hurt me...please Embry...I didn`t do anything." I began to cry again. So much for showing no weakness. Embry sighed but he didn`t release his hold on me. My hand hurt like a bitch too.
"We won`t hurt you Sonia. We are here to protect you. We exist to protect you. Jacob will explain everything to you."
"NO! I don`t want to go near him." I struggled in his hold again, trying to slide out of his arms which made him hold on to me tighter.
"Stop it! Christ...it`s like trying to hold onto a fucking salmon. Stop moving around so much, you`ll hurt your hand more and I don`t want to get blamed for that one. Jake`s pissed enough as it is."
"What`s going on Embry?" I cried pathetically now.
"I`m bringing you over to Billy`s. He will tell you what`s going on. Then Jacob can explain the rest."
"Billy knows?" I hiccuped through my tears. If Billy knew then maybe I shouldn`t be afraid.
"Yeah, he knows. I`m sorry Sonia. You shouldn`t have found out this way. I can`t believe the leech actually drugged you...man Jake was furious."
"Why the hell would Jacob care what happens to me?" I hiccuped some more.
"You have no idea Sonia. Jacob would kill to protect you. The fact that Edward was that close to you...you know you kinda stink of leech." I stink? What`s leech? "But whatever, so yeah, Jake never shuts the fuck up about you. You don`t want to know some of the shit that runs through his head when he thinks of you," Embry laughed loudly, I think I missed the joke. "Seriously, I think you would chop his dick off." Oh gross. Why do guys have to talk about sex all the time to each other.
"I want to go home." Uh, I sound so wimpy.
"To Billy`s. Then you can go home." Embry said sternly.
"Please...I want to go home." I was panicking. I wanted my mom and nana. I wanted to forget everything that happened.
"Please Sonia...I`m under orders, It`ll be okay I swear, don`t freak out." Don`t freak out? Seriously? I was drugged by some freak of nature, saw Jacob Black explode into a giant wolf and was now being forced against my will to Billy Black`s house and Embry didn`t expect me to freak out? I screamed and kicked and wriggled more in Embry`s arms. At least people could say I went down fighting.
When we got to the Black`s house we were met outside by Quil Ateara and Paul Lahote. Paul? Seriously? You are supposed to be my friend. Traitor. By then I had spent all my energy fighting against Embry`s unrelenting hold. I let him carry me into the Black`s kitchen where Billy was waiting with Quil`s granddad and Sue Clearwater and Leah Clearwater. Once safely inside Embry put me gently down on my feet. My jello legs let me stand for about three seconds before I collapsed on the floor. Looks like whatever Edward gave me was still working. Either that or I ran too much. Embry immediately picked me up and sat me down at the kitchen table. He gave me an awkward couple of pats on the shoulder before fleeing outside. He was probably glad to be rid of me.
"Sonia. You know the truth now." Billy said, wheeling towards me and taking hold of my hand. It was calming. I couldn`t never remember what it was like to hold my fathers hand. Maybe it was like this? Protecting, full of strength and security. I couldn`t meet his eyes though. I was still too scared.
"I know. I saw..." I said weakly.
"And how do you feel?" Billy pushed.
"Terrified..." The panic was setting in again. I clutched at Billy`s hands suddenly and looked into his face. "Please...please don`t let him hurt me..." I was crying again? Oh Sonia. Billy pulled me into a warm hug and patted my hair.
"Don`t worry. Jacob won`t ever hurt you or let anything hurt you."
"That`s the only answer I`ve been getting!" I wailed into Billy`s chest.
"Sue...get some whiskey...it might do the trick." Billy said over his shoulder. I heard some cabinets being opened and bottles and glasses being clinked around. A while later a smiling Sue Clearwater was pushing a glass of about three inches of whiskey into my hand. I drank a couple of sips and let the liquid warm my insides and calm my nerves a little.
"Sonia...I know all this shit has been...well...terrible. But believe me, we are not going to hurt you. We like you. You are part of us." Leah Clearwater spoke. Oh man not her too!
"Are you all...wolves?" I asked the room at large. I was met by silence for a while.
"I am, and so are the rest of the boys...but mom and Billy and Mr. Ateara aren`t." Leah spoke. She looked a little sad.
"So...if you`re a werewolf...and the rest...does that mean that I am too?" Oh God. Oh God. Oh God.
"No no no. You are not a wolf. Well, we are shapeshifters not werewolves. We don`t harm people. We don`t eat people. We protect people. We protect La Push." Leah explained.
"From who?" I asked.
"From the cold ones. The blood drinkers. The leeches." Leah whispered, looked carefully for my reaction. Wait...hold on a minute...Jacob called Edward a leech...Edward was cold...I stood up quickly which caused my chair to toppled over and everyone who was in the room to jump suddenly.
"Oh my God! Jacob...Jacob...Jacob was...the Edward freak...he`s a cold one...Jacob called him a leech...Jacob went for him! He could get hurt!" I hurtled for the door and ran smack into a hard chest. Oh man what the hell! I felt warm liquid drip from my nose. Oh please no. A broken hand now a broken nose? What unlucky star was I born under?
"Jesus Sonia!" It was Jacob! Oh no...I recoiled away from him and backed into the kitchen holding my hand against my nose. For every step I took back Jacob took one forward with his arms outstretched, fear and confusion and relief were written on his face and in his eyes.
"Sonia...I`m sorry..." When he realized that I didn`t want to touch him he dropped his arms to his sides and went and stood a safe distance away from me. I felt Sue Clearwater leading me towards the bathroom.
"Lets get you fixed up now dear." She said kindly.
Turns out I didn`t break my nose or my hand. Sue cleaned up my face and bandaged up my hand and brought me back into the kitchen. Only Jacob was there. The rest had gone. Oh shit...I was scared of him. I didn`t want to face him. I didn`t want to face the truth.
"Can we talk Sonia?" Jacob asked me softly. I couldn`t answer him. I couldn`t look at him
"Please Sonia..." He whispered. He sounded so pained. "I`m not going to hurt you."
"Tell me what`s going on." I demanded quietly, leaning against the Black`s breakfast counter. Jacob stood opposite me, leaning against the kitchen table.
"You know now...my secret. I`m a shapeshifter. A wolf."
"I know. I saw. Not very hard to forget." I said, looking at the floor. "I just want to know how I fit into this mess."
"You..you are my imprint." Jacob said, his normally husky voice broke a little.
"Your what?" I was perplexed. "In plain English Jacob."
"My soulmate. My spirit wife. My mate." What? What? What? No way.
"What?" I said a bit accusatorially. Don`t provoke him Sonia! You saw what he can turn into.
"Sonia...I wish there was some easy way to explain this. But it`s true. We are...destined for each other. It was destined since we before we were born."
"But Jacob...we don`t even know each other."
"That doesn`t matter Sonia! Once a wolf looks into the eyes of his imprint it...it...doesn`t matter any more." Jacob looked agitated, pained. Don`t push him!
"So...when you looked into my eyes...that`s what happened?" I said gently.
"Yes...I knew then that it was you." He searched my eyes with so much intensity that I had to look away.
"Maybe there was some sort of mistake?" Is there any way out of this?
"No mistake." He shook his head.
"How do you know...what did you feel?"
"It was glowing. It was right...perfect.." He began.
"Everything that made me who I was - my love everything grew dimmer as I looked at you. You were something newer. Something that I knew and know now and will know forever that I must keep safe." He looked at me with what I thought was adoration. Did he really mean what he was saying? He couldn`t!
"You became the centre of my universe. My destiny in life." He stepped carefully close to me and cupped my cheek. Oh man no! Was I crying again?
"I could see that now - how the universe swirled around this one point, you. I'd never seen the beauty of anything before I looked into your eyes, but then it was plain." Jacob smoothed my hair and traced my lips with his fingertips.
"The gravity of the earth no longer tied me to the place where I stood." He bent his head lower.
"It was the girl standing in the hall who was in trouble that held me here now."
"Sonia." He whispered my name against my lips. It was too much. To much to handle. No way Jacob Black felt that way about me. No way. He was so close to me. Standing too close. I wanted him to kiss me and I wanted him to be away from me. Before Jacob could kiss me I choked out a sob.
"If you felt that way, why do you want me to hate you?" Jacob pulled away from me and looked out the door and into the woods.
"Because I`m in love with Bella. And I`m sorry I keep saying that. I thought that if...you hated me..you rejected me...that it would be easier. There is no way to break the imprint, but, I have to be whatever you want me to be to you. A friend, a brother...a lover. If you don`t want me to love you, if you hated me and wanted me away from you...then I could be with Bella."
"Man Jacob...you really do complicate things don`t you?" I said sadly.
"I know I do."
"Listen, I know you love Bella. I don`t know why, but you do. I don`t want to stand in the way of that."
"But you already are! I can`t be away from you, it hurts! You feel it too Sonia. It`s not just a one way thing. We are in this together!" He said angrily.
"What the hell Jacob! Don`t blame me for this! I didn`t do anything! You want to be with Bella? Go ahead! You have my full blessing." I crossed my arms and turned away from him.
"And what if I want to be with you?" He put his hands on shoulders and slid them slowly down my arms. That felt so good. Get a grip Sonia!
"I want you to be with me for me. Because you like me. Not because of some supernatural force that you can`t control. I deserve better Jacob. I don`t want a relationship full of resentment because I wasn`t your choice."
"Then what should we do? It`s up to you." Jacob said, pulling his hands away.
"The pain. The pulling feeling. It has been driving me insane...I had no idea Jacob. But..when I`m with you it goes away, no matter how much you bug me I get a kind of relief."
"I know the feeling."
"We could be friends? Hang out every once in a while." I offered but Jacob shook his head.
"We need to see each other everyday." Really?
"At school, at the weekends, like normal friends do."
"Yeah...friends." I knew what he was suggesting.
"No Jacob. I`m not some slut, no matter what you think."
"I know you`re not Sonia. But I feel things for you...you do to for me.."
"No Jacob!" I looked at him sternly. No way he was getting my golden ticket that easily. I wanted him to love me. To actually have some sort of romantic feelings for me before we had sex. Not some primal animalistic urge.
"Whatever you want Sonia." He whispered. He looked disappointed.
"So...what happens now?" I asked, unsure.
"I can take you home?"
"My car!" I shouted. Shit! It was still on the road! And my bag was in it too.
"Jared has gone to get it. It will be waiting for you at home."
"What happened to Bella and the freak?" I whispered. Jacob looked hard. And angry.
"Bella has gone back to Forks with him. He won`t come near you again, I promise. If he does then I will kill him!" He vowed. "I would have killed him then, I almost did before Sam stopped me. Edward would love if I were the one to break the treaty."
"What treaty?"
"There is a coven. The Cullens. Vampires. They live in Forks but don`t hunt humans. Only animals. We have a treaty with them that we will leave them in peace so long as they don`t bite any humans. Bella is...Edward`s...girlfriend..." He looked so hurt and bitter at that. How could she date a vampire? I knew the chick was fucked up. "If we attack them then the treaty is void too. Then they could do anything...bite anyone..."
"Oh wow! That`s nuts."
"Yeah...nuts. Come on. I`ll take you home."