Chapter 16. Hope you like it. Thanks so much you guys for being honest about the story. Keep it coming. I need to improve. Again, thank you so much for reviewing and reading. You guys are amazing. Anyway. Happy reading and remember to review. I will try and post again tomorrow.
Jacob and I found a sort of mutual understanding during the following weeks. We hardly fought which was a big improvement from before. I was forbidden from telling my friends what Jacob and the rest of the pack really were. My mom and nana already knew which was a shock. It turned out that my great grandfather was a shapeshifter. My nana knew about her father and the Cullens. She had known about the imprint before I did. In fact, it was her that arranged the whole dinner fiasco. Her and Billy were trying to find a way to bring me and Jacob together.
Back at school things went kinda okay. Since I basically had to keep my mouth shut about the boys and Leah and I had to distance myself from my friends a little and make up excuse after excuse to why I couldn`t hang out with them sometimes. This caused some problems with Bernie and Ollie. They knew I was lying to them, they knew me too well. I began to suspect that they sort of liked each other but were too afraid to start anything. I watched as my two best since childhood would look at the other when they thought that they weren`t looking. Looking at their growing attraction made me incredibly lonely. I had Jacob but I couldn`t have him the way I wanted him. We would speak briefly to each other at school whenever we saw each other. I told him I didn`t want to draw any attention to us by always spending time together. We weren`t boyfriend and girlfriend and I didn`t want people thinking we were. He agreed with me in the end. Jacob wanted that I cut off my friends completely. I was part of the pack now he said, it was a risk to have outsiders too close. I argued that I wasn`t a shapeshifter. I wasn`t going to phase and harm anyone. It would have drawn more attention if I suddenly dumped my old group and joined his. I wasn`t going to do that anyway. My friends were my friends for a reason. I loved them. I wasn`t that heartless.
It was as if Jacob and I were having some sort of secret relationship. When we were cordial to one another at school, we would spend the evenings at my house, at his or at Sam and Emily`s. I was a little shocked when I met the other imprinted couples. They were so different to me and Jacob. Sam and Emily adored each other. Jared and Kim gave the other the come fuck me eyes all the time. Quil and Claire...well that one freaked me out. Claire was only about three. My first reaction was to get Claire away from this monstrous paedo until Jacob calmed me down by telling me that Quil thought of Claire as his little sister. I think I kinda got it after that but I am still kinda grossed out. Quil was a bit angry with me for a while. But still...the other guys were so in love with their imprints that I had to wonder whether if I was just unlovable. Jacob didn`t look at me like the others looked at their imprints. He didn`t look at Bella that way either which made me a little happier.
Ahh Bella. The problem. I learned from Leah that Bella was totally pissed off that Jacob told me about the imprint. Apparently she made him promise her that he would fight it and not tell me. She thought I wasn`t good enough for him. The fucking nerve of the bitch. She had a boyfriend! And she wanted Jacob too? Fuck no. She totally screwed up my mom and Charlie as well. She basically whined and pleaded that she didn`t like my mom or me and she needed her dad for herself at the moment. I was going to sock her in her stupid face the next time I saw her. Sometimes Jacob would try and convince me that she was really nice, that he would like it if we got to know the other. Eh..yeah right! Sometimes I think Jacob is a bit slow.
This afternoon I was over at Jacob`s house. We were hanging out before he took me to ballet class. He insisted that he drove me to and from there. I understood that he didn`t want Edward abducting me again. I hadn`t seen the leech or Bella since that fateful day almost two months back. We were watching My Super Sweet Sixteen on MTV and commenting on how horrible and spoiled those teenagers were. I had grown to be extremely comfortable in Jacob`s company over time. Maybe it was the magic of the imprint? He still bugged me to no end sometimes though.
"Why do you do that?" He asked me through a mouth full of chips.
"Do what?" I asked back, confused. He pointed at my leg.
"Stretch your leg up like that." I was doing a leg hold.
"Dunno. Felt like stretching." I shrugged and put my leg down. "Does it bother you?"
"Not in a bad way." Jacob said, smiling cheekily. I hit him playfully on his chest.
"Get your mind out of the gutter."
"You put it in there in the first place." He countered. He shifted a little bit towards me on the sofa.
"You have been hanging around Paul for too long. He has corrupted your mind."
"I never knew you made out with Paul before." He said suddenly. I looked at him in shock. He looked sort of jealous. I had come to learn that the pack shared this telepathic mind link when they were in wolf form. Of course Paul had to think of something stupid like that.
"That happened a million years ago. We were like fifteen or something." I said defensively. Jacob was so the type of person who would hold that against me.
"Hummfff." He actually pouted. I sniggered at him. "What?" He snapped. He was hurt. I laughed at him.
"What`s the matter Jakey? Jealous?" I ruffled his hair.
"Of Paul? Yeah right. I just don`t want to be indirectly swapping spit with some dick is all." Oh. My. God! Was he serious? I shook my head warily.
"Jacob! We kissed once. You and I, I mean. Tell me, how many times have you kissed Bella?" I narrowed my eyes at him. He shifted on the sofa.
"Twice." He admitted sourly.
"So, you`ve swapped spit with Edward then. Which is a million times worse than Paul." Jacob looked horrified. Of course he hadn`t thought of that. What a dope.
"Fuck sake." He whispered. He looked grossed out.
"But of course that wouldn`t deter you from kissing her again would it?"
"Conversation over Sonia. Don`t we have to leave now?" He got up and grabbed his keys off the coffee table.
"Sure. If you want I can drive myse..." He cut me off before I could finish.
"NO!" He said firmly.
"This can`t be much fun for you Jacob. I don`t want to be babysat." I said bitterly.
"I need to make sure that you are okay! We`ve been through this. I`ve already agreed to let you go to that party." He said as we left the house. Wait. Hold up!
"Agreed to let me go? What the hell are you? My friggin` father?" I shook my head in disgust as I got in the Rabbit.
"I didn`t mean it like that." Jacob said as he started up the engine and headed towards Port Angeles. I didn`t answer him. I just turned up the radio and sat there. Great. Forty-five minutes of angry silence. What more can a girl ask for?
When we got to the ballet studio Jacob turned off the radio and turned to face me.
"Sonia..I`m sorry about what I said."
"Forget it."
"No. I hate it when you get mad at me. Just...I can`t help it that I get protective of you." He looked at me imploringly. I sighed and opened the door of the car.
"I said forget it Jacob. I don`t care anymore." He looked at me with his puppy dog eyes. "Don`t worry `kay!" I flicked him on the nose before shutting the door. I ran up to the door of the ballet studio, but before I went in I looked back at the Rabbit. Jacob was just sitting there looking at me in confusion. I gave him a small wave and went inside.
It was getting worse I think. My feelings for him. I was falling in love more with every passing second I spent with him but the sick part was that his feelings for Bella seemed to be in no way lessening. He treated me like he would one of his friends. We would joke. We would watch crappy TV and do our homework together but I wanted more from him. More than he was willing to give to me. I felt like I was being torn in two. Sometimes I was overcome with some wild desire to just seduce him. Make him forget about that cow who held his heart for a while and make him think about me for a change. I knew I couldn`t do that though. Maybe I should go on a date or something? Find somebody else? If Jacob could do it then why not I?
When I had finished my dance class I found Jacob sitting on the curb next to the car. He stood up as I came out of the studio. I regarded him as he stood. His eyes were guarded as they held mine. Something was up with him.
"How do you not get bored sitting here?" I asked. He took his time answering.
"I brought a book with me." He said. He voice was monotone. Something was definitely up with him.
"Okay..." I headed towards the passenger door but Jacob got there first and opened it for me.
"Playing the gentleman tonight? How nice." I laughed at him. If anything he looked a bit crestfallen. Weirdo.
"Do you want to catch a movie?" He asked suddenly. I was a bit shocked.
"I have to get ready for the party. Maybe tomorrow after I finish work?" I offered.
"I`m meeting Bella tomorrow." I didn`t know that. I felt jealousy rage up in me. I kept my face a calm mask as I shrugged.
"No biggie. Maybe some other time."
"What time do you want me to pick you up from the party?" He asked as he got into the car.
"No time. You`re not picking me up! I can get home perfectly fine on my own." Ollie was throwing one of his legendary Halloween parties. I asked Jacob and the guys if they wanted to come but they all declined. No fraternizing with the normals was the councils decree. I felt so sorry for them. Jacob didn`t answer me. He looked angry as he drove out of Port Angeles. Every so often his hands would clench the steering wheel, threatening to snap it into pieces. What the hell was up with him?
"Are you on your period or something?" I said, trying to lighten the mood a little.
"You think you are so funny don`t you? Well your not!" Jacob snapped nastily. I was taken aback with the sudden change of nice Jacob into asshole Jacob.
"Thank you for that. You sure know how to make a girl feel good." I said bitterly, turning my body away from him and looking out the window.
"Yeah yeah yeah Sonia." What the hell was his problem? I didn`t answer him. He was looking for a fight. He wanted one for some stupid reason. Well not tonight. I wasn`t going to let him spoil my fun.
"You know...maybe Bella would like to see a movie tonight." He said in that spiteful way of his. "I always have so much fun with her. Not like you, who`s too stupid to do basic division." He laughed horribly. What the fuck? Why would he say something like that? He knew I had dyscalculia when it came to numbers. Of all the shit to say to someone. That wasn`t worth an answer. I couldn`t be around him. I felt a lone tear escape and trail down my cheek and I wiped it away hastily. I willed back the rest and sat there, in this shitty Rabbit with asshole Jacob, and waited until he dropped me off at my house. I felt sick at what he said. Why the hell did he suddenly turn? He was mental.
I didn`t even wait for him to stop the car when he came to my road. I unbuckled the seatbelt, grabbed my bag and fled from the car while it was still moving. I slammed the door shut just as Jacob hit the breaks.
"Sonia! What the hell were you thinking?" He shouted after me as I ran to my door. He better not follow me in. I would kill him.
He didn`t follow me in. But I could see him parked outside for a good hour looking all furious before he finally left. My mom and nana questioned me on what happened. I just told them that we had a fight over something stupid. I said not to worry about it cause I sure as hell wasn`t. They left me be after a while when they realized that I was done talking about it.
Bernie came over just after Jacob left and we both got ready. When we were doing our make up she admitted that she liked Ollie. It was nice acting like a normal teenager for once. We squealed and giggled and joked around. It was normal. It was safe. She asked me about Jacob. I told her that we were just friends. Hanging out. That he was sort of cool. Most of the time anyway. She left it as we helped each other with our costumes. I was going as a pirate and Bernie as a clown. We both got our inspiration from Alison Goldfrapp, who was super cool. We had a little sneaky drink of vodka while singing to Ride a white horse. I wanted to forget about Jacob. What he said. How dickish he was. I found that with every passing gulp of alcohol the pain lessened.
When we got to the party Ollie greeted us dressed as Jack Sparrow. Not very original but he looked good. His parents always went to some big Halloween party up in Seattle so his house was always, luckily, free this time of year. I looked around for any cute guys. None that really matched up to Jacob. He had frightened all of them off anyway. I would get drunk tonight. And stoned. I would get so out of it that I would just forget. I danced. I took pictures. I laughed. I had fun. Plain fun.
I left the party giggling and hiccuping and wobbling in my high heels. I took my plastic sword from my belt and swished it into the air, pretending I was stabbing Jacob.
"Sonia?" Who was that? It sounded like Quil.
"En guard." I pointed my sword into the darkness.
"Oh my God." I heard a throaty chuckle come from the darkness before Quil emerged wearing nothing but a pair of ugly cut-offs.
"You should paint yourself green." I said to Quil, who looked at me like I was crazy.
"What? Why?"
"And go as the incredible hulk." I bust out laughing at my own wit, which was lost on Quil. He came towards me and took my arm.
"Come on Sonia. Let`s get you home." He said sternly. I shook myself out of his hold angrily.
"Don`t fucking tell me what to do!" I whacked him with my fake sword and wobbled off.
"Sonia, you`re drunk. You could get hurt." Quil just had to follow me.
"Leave me alone Quil."
"If you want I could get Jacob..." He started. Eurrghh.
"Fuck off Quil! I`m sure Jacob has his head too far into Bella`s ass by now to even find his way back to La Push."
"Gross Sonia. You know he`s upset."
"Let him be then. I don`t care."
"Liar."
"Pants on fire Quil. Don`t you have vampires to slay or something?"
"I promised Jake I would see that you got home okay."
"Yeah? Really? Oh gosh that`s so kind of you. And him. I`m sure that he`s soooo worried about little old me." I drawled sweetly. Quil just looked at me a bit annoyed.
"You`re fucking wasted." Quil actually shook his head.
"No shit. What other mysteries have you solved recently?"
"You don`t have to be so mean Sonia."
"You`re right I don`t."
"Jake is sorry about what he said...about your maths problems and that." The poor guy sure didn`t know when to shut it did he?
"Quil, I am telling you to leave me alone. And shut up about Jacob. I don`t want to hear about him."
"I`ll shut up. I`m not leaving you though until you get home." Of course he didn`t. I was about five minutes away from my house anyway. Maybe Quil could carry me the rest of the way? My feet were fucked.
He stayed true to his word. He kept his mouth shut the rest of the walk back. Now and again he would look off into the woods, listening. There were others out there. I knew it. Lurking. Watching. Protecting.
"Goodnight Quil." I said as I fumbled with my keys. I turned and gave him a salute.
"Night Sonia. Sweet dreams." He said and turned back down the road and disappeared into the trees.
I crashed down on my bed, fumbling with my clothes until I was left only in my panties and long socks. I curled up under my dressing gown and surrendered myself to blissful half sleep. I didn`t know whether I was fully awake or dreaming but I had the lovely sensation of someone placing me under the duvet and stroking my face. I moaned in response to whomever it was. I felt a soft kiss being placed on my forehead and my hair being smoothed.
"Mmmm Goodnight.." I said sleepily.
"Goodnight Sonia." I was sure it was Jacob`s voice but I was too Goddamn sleepy to care.
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