The young woman gazing back at me in the full-length mirror has changed so much over the past year. I no longer look like the shy, skinny, little girl from Abnegation. I'm a full two inches taller, and my body is leaner and more muscular ... well except for my hugely pregnant belly. My face is a little fuller making my nose no longer look as long and thin as it once did. My wide, round eyes are bright and excited by what life has to offer. I look like a strong, vibrant wife, mother, lover, friend, and leader. I look Dauntless.

It's hard to believe that yet another visiting day is here. I remember being so excited and nervous all at the same this time last year. I didn't know if I would see my mom or dad but I hoped and prayed that I would. My prayers were answered when my mother visited, and thankfully she did. We stopped a war. Today, I don't have the same dread or anticipation since I can see my parents whenever I want. As a matter of fact, I can't wait for initiation to be over so we can go to Abnegation for a visit. It hasn't been that long since we saw them at the park but a visit feels long overdue.

It's been 10 days since Tobias and I went to Candor to witness Brody and Ana's truth serum interviews. We didn't announce to the other initiates that Brody is not a suspect in Sam's death upon our return; we just let the fact that he's still participating in initiation be the corroboration they need. Thankfully, we have had no additional problems. As a matter of a fact, it's been rather quiet the past week-and-a-half. Maybe too quiet. We still have a murderer wandering around Dauntless.

The investigation into Sam's death has had no new leads and, unfortunately, come to a standstill. As a matter of fact the only thing we have is a dark figure skulking through Dauntless around the time of her death, which may or may not be related. Zeke found him or her on surveillance at several points throughout the Pit and along the path but whoever it was disappeared just as quickly as they appeared.

Initiation is going well. Thankfully, the physical part ended yesterday with the final round of fights, which went as expected. Brody and Grant had a rematch, and it lasted a full 45 minutes. At one point, Tobias thought about stopping it but then he thought twice about it and decided that they weren't being reckless, they were just giving the fight their all. In the end, Brody edged out Grant when he knocked him to the mat and he just stayed there. After a couple seconds, he lifted his head and said no more. Bethany and Sadie's fight was evenly matched. After about 30 minutes Sadie couldn't take anymore and conceded the bout. Of all the misfits, Alec has to be the most improved. After losing his first three matches, he turned it around and won his last four. But I think the biggest surprise of the day was when Murphy took out Kevin within minutes. She must pack one hell of a punch. One minute he's dancing around the mat with her and the next she had him laid out, unconscious. Ana easily won her match against Zoey. Brody has been working with her, and it's made a huge difference. She was matched against Alec a few days ago and actually gave him a run for his money but in the end he knocked her out and Brody anxiously carried her to the infirmary but she was fine.

Brody and Ana have become a lot closer since Faith and Sam's deaths. It's hard to tell if their relationship is just a deep friendship or if it's a budding romance but there's one thing I know, they're together all the time. At first he looked annoyed by her constant companionship but now it seems like he welcomes it. It will be interesting to see what develops between the two. A relationship that is clear in nature is Bethany and Alec's who have also become a lot closer since Faith and Sam died. I've seen them holding hands and stealing kisses when they don't think anyone is watching. Another couple who has surprised me is Murphy and Kevin. I thought she would pine away for Galen because of her actions early on in initiation but she seems to be over him and moving on. I first noticed that they seem to be more than friends last Sunday when we went to the park for team elimination paint ball. Where one goes, the other follows closely behind.

Paintball was fun but it would have been a lot more enjoyable if I could have played with our team instead of being in charge of our dead area, which consisted of me sitting on a chair holding an unfired paint gun for about four hours. I found it to be a lot like capture the flag. We had even numbers of members, transfers, and Dauntless-borns split into two teams but instead of trying to find a flag, the object of the game was to eliminate all the players on the opposing team without getting hit by paintballs yourself. It was a great team-building exercise and since everyone, initiates and members alike, had such a great time it is going to remain a regular initiation activity in the future.

Tobias and I are basically off today and tomorrow to give the initiates time before fear simulation practice begins on Monday morning, which is good. I'm in desperate need of some downtime. If I had known that I was going to be pregnant during initiation, I never would have agreed to be Tobias' partner. Initiation is thoroughly exhausting both physically and mentally. We're going to the Pit for a few hours this morning for visiting day but then we don't have to be anywhere until right before supper when we're due in the dorms to tell the initiates what their rankings are, not that it matters. There won't be any cuts. They will all be good Dauntless members.

"Penny for your thoughts, beautiful," Tobias says as he wraps his arms around my waist, startling me. I had no idea he was standing directly behind me. "What were you just thinking about? You were so far away. I said your name twice and you still didn't hear me."

"Since when is my name beautiful?" I tease, turning in his arms to look up into the striking blue eyes that render me weak in the knees.

"Beautiful Beatrice," he whispers as he leans over and places his lips on mine for a tender kiss. He contentedly sighs as we part. "That sounds like a wonderful name to me. So where were you?"

"I was just thinking about initiation," I say. "I'm glad that the physical part is over."

"Me too," he says.

"I'm exhausted, Tobias," I say with a sigh. "I had no idea how taxing this would be for me."

"Are you sure you want to spend all day in the simulation room for the rest of the training? I can have Uriah or Christina help me, and you can start your maternity leave early." We decided that Tobias and I would run the practice simulations and Uriah and Christina would handle the fear landscape practice and the finals but his offer is mighty tempting.

"I need to work; I want to," I say. "Plus if I'm with you all day, every day, I'll be fine. Hey, can you have my chair taken to the simulation room?"

"Already done," he says. Of course, it is!

"Thank you," I say. "I'm sorry I've been grouchy lately. I know I have to be difficult to live with right now." I'm two weeks into my third trimester and, I could be wrong, but I've noticed a difference in my mood already. The baby hormones are back big time, as is the irrationality that accompanies them. Then again they never totally went away. We've had two fights over the toilet seat this week, and I anticipate many more remembering my first trimester. I better not dwell on that thought right now or I might end up pissed off at him for no reason at all.

"You've been grouchy?" he says deadpan serious. I put my hands on my hips and look at him. I know he's trying to make me feel better but irrational tears form in my eyes. He sighs as he wraps his arms around me and pulls me close. "I didn't mean to upset you."

"I'm sorry, Tobias," I say. I rest my head over his beating heart and feel sanity slowly return to me. "Pregnancy sucks." He doesn't say anything, he just continues to hold me.

"We should probably get going to the cafeteria," he says after a while. "We don't want Tyler seeing anything that Gunner is working on." Gunner finally got started on Tyler's room yesterday in the new apartment. Tobias and I decided to be surprised alongside Tyler so we didn't go look at what he's accomplished so far. He did tell us that he plans on being done in two weeks not only with Tyler's room but the murals also, which just happens to fall on a day off. I can't wait to move in to the new place. I'm going to miss this apartment but the new one will feel like home in no time. I'm just glad we'll be in and settled before Peanut arrives.

"Okay," I say. "I'll grab Tessa and you get Tyler." I step away from him but he pulls me back into his arms.

"Have I told you that I love you this morning?" he asks as he gently glides the back of his fingertips from my temple to my chin with a loving touch.

"Yes, you have but I wouldn't mind hearing it again," I say.

"I love you, Mrs. Eaton," he says, an intense passion shining in his eyes. "Very much."

"I love you, too, Mr. Eaton," I say. "More every day." He moves his mouth to mine and before we can get carried away, a little giggle from the doorway captures our attention. Tobias releases me and grabs Tyler and tosses him over his shoulder, making him laugh even louder.

"Are you ready for breakfast, buddy?" he asks.

"Yep," Tyler says. "I'm hungwy."

"We'll meet you downstairs, Mommy," Tobias says as he heads toward the door. Tyler waves at me with a huge smile on his face as they walk down the hallway. I start into Tessa's room then remember that I was going to put my charm bracelet on today and go to our dresser. I rummage through my top drawer where the box usually is but it's not there. I open the next drawer where the rest of my jewelry is and find the box sitting on top. Hhm. I don't remember moving it but then again I can't remember the last time I wore it. I flip the lid on the box and take the delicate bracelet out and put it on. I take a couple seconds to look over my charms, cherishing each memory then go into Tessa's room. She fell back to sleep after I nursed her earlier but she's lying on her back now, wide awake.

"Hey, little one," I say, lifting her from the crib. "Mommy couldn't find her bracelet. Are you ready to go?" She smiles at me like she understands exactly what I'm saying, and I can't help but give her a kiss. She coos all the way down the stairs and smiles at Tobias and Tyler who are patiently waiting for us by the door. "Sorry it took me so long. I had trouble finding my bracelet but I'm ready to go now." I hold my arm up, and Tessa stares at the dangling charms then raises her hand toward them. "Oh, no you don't. These could make you choke." I throw her diaper bag over my shoulder as Tobias picks up her stroller then we head out the door. We step into the hallway and run directly into Will and Christina.

"Hey, guys," Christina says. "Are you ready for visiting day?"

"Yeah," I say.

"Are you ready to give the initiates a pep talk about their families?" Tobias asks. Instead of reminding the initiates of faction before blood in a threatening way like Eric did with us last year, Uriah and Christina are going to tell the initiates to have a good time this morning and to not take it too hard if their families don't show. I anticipate visitors for everyone except for maybe Brody but I could be wrong. The rules have eased some about fraternization between factions but faction before blood is still a founding principal of our city and is taken seriously, especially by the older generations.

"Yeah, Uriah and I are going to try and not freak them out like Eric did with us," she says as we move down the path closer to the Pit. "You look tired, Tris."

"I'm exhausted actually," I say. "I'm looking forward to our time off so I can rest."

"Let me know when you need some time off and I'll help Four out in the simulation room whether it's for a couple of hours or a couple of days."

"Thanks. That's so nice of you," I say. "I'll let you know if I need to take you up on your offer."

"So other than tired, how are you feeling?" she asks.

"Excited, nervous, anxious," I say. "I'm counting down the days until I get to meet the baby. Isobel has me coming to see her every two weeks now instead of once a month. She's still worried about my blood pressure. It elevated some since I went back to work but it's not as high as it was. At least I don't have to be on bed rest."

"That had to suck, especially with two small children," she says.

"It did but I'll do anything for this special little girl." I move one hand down and lovingly caress my swollen abdomen. "She means the world to me."

"I understand," she says, throwing her arm around my shoulder and hugging me. "How did your dinner with Isobel and her husband go last weekend?" Tobias and I finally found the time to get together with Isobel and Carter last Sunday night after being in the park all day with the initiates.

"We had a wonderful time," I say. "We left the kids with Zander and Stella and met Isobel and her husband, Carter, at the Italian restaurant downtown. We talked and laughed throughout the entire meal. For being a doctor he wasn't pretentious or snobbish. He spoke on our level, and we had a lot in common. He's hilarious. He had us in stiches most of the evening. After we ate, we stopped at the ice cream parlor next door for cones then took a walk. It really was a lovely evening but we stayed out too long considering we had to be in the training room the next morning. I think my body is still trying to catch up."

"I'm glad you had a good time," she says, sounding like she honestly means it. I was afraid that she would be jealous of my friendship with Isobel but it doesn't seem like the case. "I meant to ask you, what in the world are they doing in your new apartment? There was all kind of noise until sundown." Tyler's ears perk up at this question.

"Gunner is installing some furniture," I say.

"Mine?" he excitedly asks, interrupting me.

"Yes, your room is one of his projects," I tell him and he smiles from ear to ear. He's been talking nonstop about his new room since we told him we were moving. I turn back to Christina and say, "He's also doing some decorative painting. He told me we should be able to start moving in in two weeks."

"That's exciting," Christina says.

"I can't wait," I say. "I'll miss the old place but I'm looking forward to growing our family in the new one."

"Are you going to have a housewarming party when you get settled?"

"That sounds like fun," I say. "What do you think, Four?"

"Think about what?" Tobias asks with genuine confusion on his face. He must have been deep in conversation with Will.

"I'm sorry for interrupting," I say. "What do you think about having a little get together on our rooftop deck when we get settled into our new apartment?"

"That's probably too much work for you," he says, always the worrier.

"Nonsense," I say.

"That's right," Christina says. "I'll help you with anything you need, Tris. We could even have it catered, which would be the most time consuming issue."

"How about we discuss it later?" Tobias asks as we walk into the cafeteria.

"Okay," I say. We sit down at our regular table, which is surprisingly mostly empty, and Tobias and Tyler go to get us each a plate. "Do you think you'll see your mom and Rose today?"

"I think they'll come to see Liam," she says with a laugh. "I don't really rate with them anymore since he was born, especially with my mom. For giving me such a rough time when I told her I was pregnant, she fawns over him."

"Apparently becoming a grandmother changes a woman," I say thinking about how much my own mother has changed since Tyler and Tessa came into her life. A warm smile transforms my face and a deep loving feeling fills my heart.

"You are so right," she says. "Who knew that the straight-laced, uptight woman who raised me could be transformed into a big ball of goo just by looking into a baby's face? It's kind of comical."

"What's so funny?" Tobias asks as he sets a plate full of blueberry pancakes topped with blueberry compote and whipped cream and two large spicy-smelling sausage patties.

"Thank you," I say. "Christina and I were talking about how much the kids have changed our moms."

"Mine, too," Will says. "She used to be even more uptight before Liam was born if you can believe that."

"I wish she'd mellow out even more," Christina mumbles under her breath with a scowl on her face. Maybe I'm not the only one who doesn't like her mother-in-law.

"Hey, little bro," Zeke says ruffling his hand in Uriah's hair as he sits down next to him. "You guys ready for visiting day?" The rest of the meal I listen to everyone at the table talking about visiting day during their initiation. There is laughter and soberness in the many stories. Just before 8 a.m., Tobias and I excuse ourselves from the table and take the kids to the daycare center. After kissing them goodbye, we make our way onto the Pit floor where we see people wearing blue, black and white, and red and yellow trickle into the sea of black. A twinge of disappointment twists my stomach when I don't see any gray. Until right now, I didn't know I was hoping to see my mom and dad today.

After saying hello to numerous Dauntless members standing around the Pit, we make our way to the chasm. We lean up against the railing and watch the reunions playing out in front of us. Sadie hugs an older woman who looks just like her and dutifully ignores a young boy who looks like he wants to be anywhere but here. He obviously is her little brother. I'm surprised to see Grant and Jesse talking to two older men who I've seen at Candor during public interrogations. Maybe I shouldn't be surprised. A lot of Candor members witness the interviews. Zoey runs over to a boy who looks to be a year or two younger and hugs him tightly. It looks like her parents didn't make it though. Kevin is animatedly talking with an older gentleman who is looking around the Pit with a mixed look of fascination and disgust on his face. A strong desire to wipe that expression off his face washes over me, and I turn my head toward some movement to my left. Alec is leaning up against the stone wall beside Bethany. They are searching the crowd with anxious eyes but obviously not liking what they see. Apparently, no one came to visit them.

"I'm looking for a Tris Prior," I hear someone say from about 15 feet away. I automatically turn when I hear my name and see a pink-haired Dauntless member point my way. I study the Candor man walking toward me, and I know I've seen him before but I can't quite place him. "You're Tris?" He looks surprised. "I think I spoke to you last year about my son." I go through my memories and nearly choke when I realize who he is.

"Hey, are you alright?" Tobias asks, noticing my sudden distress. His rough Four persona slips momentarily while his eyes flit from mine to the stranger before him and back.

"Yeah, I'm fine," I say to Tobias, trying to swallow with my suddenly dry throat. "Yes, I'm Tris. Four, this is Al's father. We met last year." He stands a little straighter and puts his arm protectively around my waist, pulling me closer to him.

"What can we do for you?" Tobias asks, anxiety in his voice.

"Don't worry, I know about Al," he says, a thick melancholy turning the sides of his mouth down. I study his face and realize he's aged drastically in the past year. I guess losing a child does that to you. I hope I never find out. "He sent me a letter before his death telling me and his mother goodbye. He also asked me to do something for him. He wanted me to give this to you today." He lifts his hand, and I notice an unopened plain white envelope with my name on the front. A letter from Al? I start to lift my hand but notice it trembling so Tobias takes the letter from him for me.

"As you can see, my wife is pregnant, and she has had some complications. I'm not sure she should read this. I don't want her getting upset." Tobias' Four facade is back with a vengeance.

"I'm only fulfilling my son's last wish," he says. "I will leave it up to you, Tris, if you wish to read his letter or not. He wrote that you two were friends. Is that right?"

After a slight pause I say, "Yes." I hope my guilt isn't coming through in my voice. "We met on Choosing Day and were good friends until the stress of the second stage of training got to him then he pulled away."

"That's too bad," he says. "I wish he had been stronger. Well, I won't take up any more of your time today." He turns and walks away from us without another word. I stare at the envelope in Tobias' hand.

"Should I read it?" I ask, never taking my eyes off the letter. What in the world could it say?

"How about you read it when we get home," he says. "I don't want you getting stressed out, love. You know his death wasn't your fault." Wasn't it?

"Okay, I'll read it at home," I say. He kisses my temple as I see a streak of black run into the arms of a man wearing black and white and see that Bethany's family has made an appearance. That means Alec, Ana, and Brody are the only ones who haven't had family visit.

"Four, Tris?" Ana says. "Is it okay if I go back to the dorms?"

"Of course," I say, "but what if your mom and dad come and you aren't here. They would be disappointed."

"They're not coming," she sadly says. "They made it perfectly clear the night of my aptitude test that if I didn't stay in Candor that I was dead to them, too, so I've always known this day would be tough."

"I'm sure they didn't mean it," I say. I can't imagine telling your own child something that horrible. That's not my idea of a very good parent. "Maybe they just need some time."

"It's alright, Tris," she says. "You don't need to make excuses for them."

"Go ahead and go," Tobias says. "Don't forget to be in the dorms at 5:30 for reading of the rankings."

"I won't," she says. "Thanks." I watch as she walks across the crowded Pit floor to where Brody is waiting, and they both head toward the dorms. I notice a hand land on Tobias' shoulder, and we both turn and freeze.

"Hello, son."