Chapter 23: Hope you enjoy and thank you thank you thank you so so so so much for all the wonderful reviews from the last chapter. I`m glad you guys liked it. Anyways...this is more of a lemony chapter and not really much more. Happy reading and remember to review and criticize at the end.

Jacob and I were camped out at the kitchen table eating the rest of the cheesecake when Charlie Swan finally arrived to pick up Billy. He greeted me rather awkwardly which was not surprising and asked how my mom was. I told him she was good, that she was now dating an older man from Port Angeles who ran his own, very successful, timber yard. Michael was his name and he was quite nice. He had no kids from his first wife and didn`t know how to act around me, which was really funny. He wasn`t native, he was Irish-American, but he was cool. He knew how to treat a lady. And my mom was a lady. She deserved a good man in her life. She has been celibate for way too long.

Charlie stuttered out a "that`s nice" before heading out with Billy and leaving me and Jacob alone. I wondered what way things would play out. We both knew what we wanted to do right now, but I wanted Jacob to make the first move.

"Finally...we have the place to ourselves." Jacob said, as he watched Charlie`s police cruiser drive off from the kitchen window. He turned to me with a half smile.

"That`s true. Do you want to have a look at my car now?" I asked sweetly.

"Not now no." Jacob smiled, raising his eyebrows. He sure was cute. I felt the butterflies begin to flutter inside my belly.

"Okay. Do you want to play monopoly?" I asked, getting out of my chair and heading for the monopoly box underneath the TV. I was suddenly up in the air and held against Jacob`s hot body. A burst of excitement ran through me, making me so aroused.

"Maybe some other time Bluebird." He whispered into my ear. He began to smell my hair and neck, giving me small kisses every so often.

"Then...then what do you want to do?" I whispered out.

"I want to do lots of things, all of them involving you." He set me down on my feet and turned me around to face him. He ran his fingers and hands through my hair before cupping my face. He looked me dead in the eye with an intensity that made me get so uncomfortable that I had to look away.

"Look at me Sonia...please." He asked in a husky whisper. I swallowed and met his eyes again.

"It`s like your eyes hold all the secrets of the universe...they hold everything that is beautiful. Sometimes...sometimes when I look into them...it`s like I can see your soul, your heart, it can be overwhelming sometimes. When I looked into your eyes the first time...I felt like I was hit on the head with a boulder. Dumbstruck. I wanted to get lost in those eyes forever." Oh God...wow...Jacob had made me actually made me speechless. "You are a Goddess you know that? For me...no other woman could come close to you...I don`t deserve someone as forgiving as you...as loving as you." He looked pained and because of that I finally found my voice.

"What do you mean Jacob?"

"What I did to you. How I treated you in the beginning...it was unforgivable. All those things I said to you...to make you hate me. What a fucking moron I was! It`s just fucking things up now."

"Come on Jacob..."

"Please...please believe me. I have never hated you. Every bad, stupid, idiotic thing I said made me feel like I was stabbing myself with a blunt knife. I was afraid of you, of what you represented."

"I understand Jacob...believe me. You were afraid because I represented what you really are. Something you didn`t choose."

"I thought it was about choices, I thought if I chose Bella then something in my life would still stay normal. In my control. With you there are a lot of choices...you are my spirit wife, we could have chosen to be friends if we really felt that way, but we didn`t chose that. You fell in love with me, I fell in love with you. I want to look into those eyes of yours and see that love you have for me every minute of every day. I want to deserve you."

"I want to deserve you Jacob. I want to deserve being the spirit wife of a brave warrior, of a protector. I don`t know if I do though."

"Of course you do. You have made me the strongest I`ve ever been. You`ve given me more confidence, more insight, more strength. I don`t know what I can give you though, just my love, my protection, my everything if you need it."

"You make me complete. Less stupid. Your love is all I need." I reached up and wrapped my arms around his neck. He held me by my waist and looked down into my face, searching, eyes wandering round my features till he rested on my eyes again.

"I love you Sonia. I`m not afraid to say it anymore."

"I love you Jacob." I reached up on my tippy toes to kiss him. I needed to kiss him. My body and soul craved it. Ached for it. As soon as his lips touched mine my mind was clouded by Jacob, just Jacob and nothing else. The touch of his ever warm skin as he reached under my top to caress my waist and back. The feel of his hot mouth and moist tongue as it massaged my own was heavenly, made my body and all my senses come alive. My hands found their way under his t-shirt to touch his rock hard chiseled abdomen. He was perfection. I trailed my finger down the little trail of hair from his belly button to the waist of his pants. I felt the length of his cock through his pants and gripped it hard which caused him to groan loudly into my mouth. He lifted me up and carried me off to his bed room. Once there he placed me on his bed and began to undress me slowly.

"You are so beautiful Bluebird...so precious." He said as he pulled off my jeans and socks.

"So soft..." He said as he removed my panties, feeling the length of my legs.

"So perfect." He took of my top and bra last, kneeling in front of me and kissing my breasts.

"Make love to me Jacob." I whispered, pulling off his t-shirt. "Let me show you how much I love you." I unbuttoned his pants and pulled them down along with his boxers. His cock stood free and erect. Something amazing and mysterious. I took a firm hold of him stroked him hard and slow while he sucked and bit on my nipples until they were tender.

"Lay down on the bed." I commanded him. He complied and lay down. Placing myself between his legs I began to lick and suck on his dick, making sure not to go too fast, I wanted him to last.

"Tell me what you want Jacob." I asked him.

"I want what you want." He replied weakly as I sucked on his cock head as hard as I could. Eventually I broke off and sat straddling him. I wasn`t sure what way I should be doing this because he was so big. One thing I did know was that I wanted him inside of me. I took my weight off my knees and sat squatting just above his cock. He helped me to balance by taking one of my hands firmly and guided his cock to my tender wet opening with his other. I moaned as I lowered myself onto him slowly. His hand released mind and joined his other on my ass, guiding me farther down onto him. I placed my hands on his forearms and began to ride him at my own slow pace. Damn he felt great filling me up inside. There was no rush, I wanted to enjoy every inch of him. I whimpered in pleasure as I took more of him inside me. Jacob and I locked eyes as I sped up. His face was a picture of pure adoration as his eyes roamed my figure.

Needing more of him, I bent over and rested on top of his warm chest and nuzzled into his neck. I let Jacob control the pace of things now. He gripped my ass as he moved inside of me. Oh man that felt like heaven. Everything he did to me felt so good. Even the sound of his grunts and groans made me get evermore excited.

"Do what you want to me Jacob..." I moaned out as he worked me with such intensity that I felt the tell tale signs of an orgasm grow steadily from deep within me.

"Are you sure?" He asked, his voice a little broken. YES! YES!

"I`m sure."

He flipped us over so I was on my back. He sat upright positioned himself between my legs. Gripping my legs under my knees he spread them apart and as wide as they could go. He entered me slowly at first, keeping eye contact with me to see if I was hurting, then, when he was satisfied that I was enjoying it as much as he was he increased the force and speed. I gripped the side of the mattress and the pillow under my head and screamed in ecstasy as the growing orgasm reached it`s height and exploded within me. My legs in Jacob`s iron hold shook as wave upon wave of pleasure flowed through my body.

"Shush shush...Jacob please...slow down...go slower..." I begged. The sensations were too much...my inner convulsions seemed in no way stopping. I jumped a little as Jacob released one of my legs and thumbed my clit softly. Oh man...oh God yes! I fisted my hair as another orgasm rocked my body, more powerful than the first. If there was anyone outside or near this place they must think that I am being murdered with all the screaming.

"Please Jacob...please..." I begged again. He grabbed my ankles and flung them over his shoulders. He then lowered his body down and balanced his weight on his arms. He began rocking into me at a slow speed.

"Tell me what you want Bluebird." He said lovingly.

"I want...ahhhhh..." I moaned out as he sped up without warning. He felt so fucking good.

"What do you want?" He asked again. I gripped his powerful arms with all my strength. What did I want?

"Ahhhh...I want you..." Like that made any sense. Jacob changed his angle slightly and hit a place inside me that felt like fucking bliss.

"You want me to what?" He panted down at me. He thrust and hit the spot again. I cried out and felt another orgasm coming to life. I groaned and arched my back so I could feel it again. He placed one large hand under the small of my back and thrust, again and again and again, making me cry and whimper with pleasure. I was so close...so fucking close. I felt it coming...Oh God...Oh yes.

"I`m gonna come Sonia..." He growled down at me. I barely registered his words as my clit started to throb and the walls of my vagina convulsed and spasmed out of control. I screamed in delight Jacob`s pounding became more and more erratic, his groans more desperate as he gave one final push and roared in pleasure, filling me with his seed deep within me.

He collapsed on top of me in a sweaty, roasting heap and nuzzled into my neck. I was light headed...not really registering his weight on top of me. My body felt like mush and I was blissfully contented. I gingerly placed my hands in Jacob`s hair and ran my fingers through it. After a while Jacob lifted me up and placed me securely at his side. I wound one heavy leg over his and placed my hand over his heart, feeling the steady thump thump thump.

"I love you Sonia." He whispered out.

"Love you too Jacob." I said as I snuggled into him more. I was spent, so was he. I shut my eyes and surrendered myself to sleep.

It seemed that I had just slept one minute before I was awoken by some gentle shaking. I barely heard my name being called softly.

"Sonia...come on, wake up. My dad will be home soon."

"Mmmmm okay..." I mumbled into the pillow as I lay on my stomach. The shaking persisted.

"Wake up. Come on. Don`t make me throw a glass of cold water over you." He threatened.

"Do it and die." I said as I opened one sleepy eye. I could see Jacob getting dressed. So he was serious then. I sure could use another hour or two of rest.

"Get dressed and you can sleep all you want on the sofa with me." Jacob promised, throwing my underwear at me. I sleepily sat up and pulled on my clothes and let myself be led out into the living with Jacob. He put on the TV and sat me down on his lap on the sofa. I snuggled into his warmth once more and watched what he had put on.

"When will your dad be here?" I asked yawning.

"In about five minutes. Are you hungry?" He asked.

"Not really. Do you want to have dinner at mine?" I asked him. It was about half past seven. My mom and nana would be finished dinner by now. "I could cook you something?"

"What would you cook me?" He asked smiling.

"Hmmm, salmon and avocado?"

"What`s up with you and avocados? You eat them like everyday."

"They`re healthy." I said defensively. Jacob rolled his eyes.

"Have you ever...you know...had issues with eating?" Jacob asked carefully.

"Emm no Jacob. Do you mean like anorexia or bulimia?"

"Yeah..."

"No...never."

"Good. Because you are perfect the way you are."

"It helps that I`m very active though. If I did no sport and pigged out all the time then I wouldn`t look so perfect."

"You would still look perfect." Jacob said firmly.

"Sure...whatever you say."

"It`s true Bluebird."

"Okay Coby."

"Coby? Oh man! Please don`t call me that." He whined.

"You don`t like Coby? Why not?"

"Because I was never a Coby. I was always a Jacob or Jake."

"I like Coby." I didn`t know if it was true or not. I smiled anyway.

"No no no no. Please Sonia." He begged, kissing my cheek.

"No more Coby if you promise not to call me Bluebird."

"Fine. No more Bluebird Bluebird." He grinned at me before kissing me lovingly.

"So dinner at mine?" I said again.

"Sure. You haven`t cooked for yet so I can`t wait."

"You haven`t cooked for me either." I countered, crossing my arms.

"Okay. Tomorrow I`ll cook you lunch. What would my Lady like?"

"Surprise me. What do you want tonight? We could make a trip to the store if you don`t want salmon."

"Being a wolf I kinda always have a hankering for red meat." He admitted.

"Beef stir fry?"

"Sounds great." He said, rubbing his impossibly flat belly.

"Great. Will your dad be okay here when we go?"

"Of course he will. Don`t let the wheelchair fool you Sonia. He can take care of himself pretty well."

"He`s a good man." I said honestly. I wish my dad was like Billy. Devoted to his family.

"He is...is your dad...out of prison yet?" I wasn`t angry with Jacob for bringing him up. I knew it would come up sometime.

"He is...almost a year now I think." I squirmed awkwardly on Jacob`s lap.

"And he...hasn`t made any contact with you?"

"He sent a letter about six months ago. Nothing really interesting. Just letting me and my mom know he was free and was moving up to Alaska." That was literally what the letter contained. No how are yous...no nothing.

"Wow."

"It might as well have been a letter from a stranger."

"I`m sorry." He pulled me into a cuddle.

"Don`t be. Honestly...I didn`t feel sad...maybe a disappointed but not sad. I don`t know the man and he doesn`t want to know me. It`s not exactly something I can do something about. It`s not something I can change."

"You`re pretty strong Sonia. It`s his loss for not wanting to know the beautiful woman his daughter has turned out to be."

"Thanks Jacob. That has made me feel really good about myself." I kissed him lovingly before hopping off his lap and stretching out.

"I`ll never leave you Sonia. I`ll always be here for you...giving you what you need."

"Jacob...come on..." I said as he stood up and wrapped himself around me. I felt kinda weird. And scared. What if he ever fell short of that promise?

"I promise I`ll always protect you."

"I`m almost a grown woman Jacob. Do you know what overprotectiveness does to a person?"

"What?" He asked smiling.

"It makes them less confident and independent."

"Two qualities you definitely don`t lack."

"Because I was raised to learn by my mistakes. It`s natural. I use my own judgement in things. I`m seventeen. I don`t want to go through life holding someone`s hand for fear I might fall."

"You`re feisty. I like it. I don`t mean protecting you like that. I mean protecting you from bad men and filthy leeches."

"In that case I welcome that kind of protection. You don`t need another Bella on your hands now do you." I raised my eyebrows at him. He laughed.

"Can you please not always bring her up?"

"I like making fun of her though." I pouted.

"Bad bad girl." I spanked my ass lightly.

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