Chapter 27! Hope you guys enjoy! Thanks so so so much for the reviews from the last chapter. You guys are great. Anyway, the next installment. Happy reading and remember to tell me the good and the bad.
School is fucking dragging in that it`s not even funny. Jacob tried to make contact with me all day but I managed to avoid him. I knew I said that we would remain friends, but I knew that was a lie. I couldn`t be friends with Jacob. It was all or nothing when it came to us. Word spread fast at school that we had broken up, I heard a couple of girls sniggering that Jacob dumped me after he had gotten what he had wanted. I resisted the urge to start a fight and held my head up high. I knew the truth, that was all that mattered. Ciara Harris was practically latched onto Jacob all day, but I was happy to see that he was brushing her off. There were only two girls in his life, me and Bella.
I concentrated on writing down the notes Mrs. Connor had written on the board for English. We were studying Romeo and Juliet. What a fucking cliche. Everybody knew this story so well, so what was the point in studying it? I loved the ballet of this though. If we were tested on that then I would get an easy A for sure.
I chanced a glance at Jacob. He seemed like he was engrossed in writing down notes, but as my gaze settled on him a bit too long he looked up and over at me. Ah shit, now he`s going to try and talk to me when class, and school, is over. Truth was, I missed him, despite how he lied to me. It had only been a day and I was wishing that I could kiss him. Urggh! Get over it Sonia! He doesn`t want you. I dropped my eyes back to my notebook and began again to take notes. Fucking Jacob and his stupid fucking face!
"Essay due on Friday kids. If not typed then in your best handwriting." Mrs. Connor said over the noise of students standing up and stuffing books into their bags. I stood up as the bell rang and started to gather my things, feeling the pull I knew Jacob was coming up to me. I studiously ignored him as I put my books into my bag and put it on my shoulder.
"You can`t keep ignoring me." He whispered, trying to take my hand.
"I`m not ignoring you." I`m such a bad liar when it came to him.
"Give me a break. I though we are supposed to be friends."
"I need to go." I said, fleeing the class. Crap, I couldn`t be around him, his presence made me weak.
"Wait! Sonia..." Jacob called after me. He was following me. He wouldn`t let me leave without talking to him I knew. "Just five minutes. That`s all I`m asking. Please." He took my hand and dragged me to a halt in the hall. The skin on skin contact felt so good, so right.
"No Jacob."
"Yes Sonia! You can`t ignore me forever!"
"You think so?" I definitely couldn`t ignore how good it felt when he held my hand.
"I know so!"
"This better be important!" I said as I huffed out an annoyed breath. I led him to an empty classroom. Once inside he still didn`t let go of my hand.
"Promise to listen to me."
"I`ll promise to listen to you if you let go of me first." He gave my hand a squeeze before releasing it.
"I`m sorry Sonia. I really am. But I can`t go on like this. I can`t do this. I`m sorry about lying to you about Bella but please, don`t cut me out of your life."
"I`m not cutting you out of my life."
"You`re ignoring me!"
"What do you expect me to do Jacob?"
"To talk to me! Ask me about things, about us, about my feelings, instead of going and bitching to everyone else. Christ Sonia...I would have told you, I swear I would have. But you had to go behind my back. Leah and Kim were just blowing things out of proportion."
"Bullshit! You admitted yourself that you were still in love with Bella."
"I did. But I`m in love with you too."
"Stop saying that!"
"It`s the truth! I`m being honest with you. I hate seeing you like this and I hate knowing that I`m the reason that you`re upset." He placed his hands on my shoulders but I shrugged him off.
"You shouldn`t have told me that you loved me Jacob, you should have been the one to say we should wait. That`s what I can`t get over."
"I didn`t want to wait, I want you."
"Maybe you do. It`s the imprint telling you that you do."
"It`s my heart not the imprint." Jacob said with the utmost sincerity.
"Please...don`t do this Jacob." I begged. I wanted to believe him so bad. To forget about Bella and all this shit.
"Sonia, I told you yesterday that I would be friends with you if that is what you wanted. I`m going to stick by that because...because I respect you. But I need to tell you how I feel first, how I really feel, and then you can decide if you want to stick by that decision."
"Why did you see Bella yesterday? Why did you lie to me?"
"I saw her because I needed to see her, to talk to her."
"Why did you lie to me though?"
"Because I knew you wouldn`t want me to see her. I know you hate her. I didn`t cheat on you though!"
"You did, you were."
"I didn`t!"
"Emotional cheating Jacob. You are doing it...so is she...to her leech. You get something from her that you can`t get from me, I don`t know what but you do. You lied to me. If it wasn`t cheating then you would have told me you were seeing her, there would be nothing to hide."
"You`re right...and I`m sorry." He hung his head and stared at the floor.
"I hate her Jacob. And I can`t understand why you can`t see her for who she really is! If this was a normal relationship...if none of this imprinting crap had happened, don`t think for one second that I would be standing here talking to you." He snapped his head up at my now spiteful words, his normally dark brown eyes now blazing coal black.
"You mean that?" His tone was low and angry. Good.
"Oh yes. Nobody threats me like a doormat Jacob. The only reason you are getting the pleasure of my company now is because I can`t cut you out of my life. It`s impossible. But believe me, despite the fact that I love you, I can`t stand the look of you, if there was some way to break this thing, I would do it."
"Well it can`t be broken, never Sonia." He stepped in closer to me and bent his head to have a better look at my face. "We are meant to be and I will have you again, I`ll have you love me again." He placed his hands on my shoulders and placed his mouth to my ear. "I`ll have you in my bed again...I promise you that. I will also promise you that when you are there...you`ll wish you never broke up with me, because you know that nobody, no man, could make you feel how I make you feel. I promise you as well, that I will prove to you how much I love you, but on my own terms. If I want to see my friends, meaning Bella, I will see her."
"Even if it means that you are hurting me?"
"That`s something you have to get over. You told me that Bella will never choose me, well I don`t care if she chooses me or not, I want her to choose humanity. That`s what I`m fighting for when it comes to her. I`m not going to lie to you, she has a special place in my heart, the way Leah still does in Sam`s, but you own me Sonia. You have my soul, you have me."
"Fuck you! You are still in love with her!" Jacob let out a frustrated growl and backed away from me.
"I know!" He almost roared. "Stop punishing me for that! Christ Sonia! I can`t help it!"
"That`s why we can`t be together now."
"I`ll prove to you. I vow I will. That I`m the only man for you, that I love you with everything that I am."
"Do what you want Jacob."
"I will, because I want to. And another thing. If any guys come sniffing around you don`t think for one minute that I will be happy with that. If I so much as smell another man on you I will tear his throat out."
"Psycho much Jacob?" Christ he was scary.
"That`s what you don`t understand Sonia. We mated. You`re mine now, as I`m yours. When I`m with Bella and I smell the leech on her, it bothers me. But when I smelled him on you, when I saw him near you, I lost it, I would have killed him with a song in my heart. Are you starting to understand now? I`m battling for Bella`s humanity. But for you, it will be an all out war. I think my five minutes are up now, don`t you?"
And with that he left the classroom, leaving me breathing heavily. Fuck that was intense. And I knew he meant every word of what he had said. He was never going to give up on me. Never. And I didn`t know how I felt about that. One thing was for sure, Jacob was just as strong willed as I was. He was no fucking pushover, that was for sure. He wouldn`t give up on something he deemed as important enough to fight for. Bella`s humanity for example. Me as another. He would never let me go. He was sure of us being together. Well I wasn`t so sure. This is all just one big, stupid, fucking, mess. And I was in the middle of it all. Tangled up in a fantasy world of shapeshifting teen wolves and forever young, sparkling vampires. And the other things...no! Don`t think about the other things! Don`t think about it! It was just a dream...
"Sonia? You okay?" Ollie`s voice snapped me out of it. He was standing in the doorway holding hands with Bernie.
"Yeah, why wouldn`t I be?" I forced a happy smile on my face. Ollie raised his eyebrows and Bernie shook her head.
"What did Black want? To fuck with you some more?" He asked.
"He just wanted to talk about things."
"Don`t go back to him Sonia. He`s not worth it." Bernie said, a sad smile on her mouth.
"I`m not. Don`t worry."
"Urghh. I knew he brainwashed you. Like the others."
"He hasn`t brainwashed me."
"Okay...not brainwashed...but he has sucked you into his little gang."
"They are not a gang!"
"Then what are they Sonia? I thought they were a bunch of closet homosexuals for a while." Ollie said seriously. I laughed. Oh man that was classic.
"Why did you think that?" Bernie asked, interested.
"Think about it. They only hang out with each other. Shunning all female contact. I mean Paul Lahote! He was getting laid left right and centre before he disappeared and suddenly reappeared all he-man. Then he was basically Sam Uley`s bitch, along with Jared Cameron. They were..are..running around topless in the woods, wearing nothing but cutoffs. I was expecting to see assless chaps next." Me and Bernie were snorting with laughter by this stage. "What! It`s true! Then they started coupling up with the most unlikely girls ever. No offense Sonia."
"None taken."
"Come on. I don`t want to stay in school longer than I have to." Bernie said, dragging Ollie out of the class. I followed my two best friends, now lovers, down the hall and out of school. I scanned the parking lot and found that Jacob`s bike was gone.
"I`ll catch up with you guys later." I said as Ollie started to nibble on Bernie`s ear. "Don`t forget to use protection." I giggled at them.
"Hmmm, I sure won`t." Ollie said as he looked down at Bernie adoringly. Ahhhh...cute.
"See you later." Bernie called after me.
"See you babe." I called back. I walked up to my car and Embry materialized out of nowhere beside me. I jumped a little.
"Don`t sneak up on me like that Call!"
"Sorry. So...Bernie and Ollie seem pretty tight now." He said, casting the two, who were by now making out, a look.
"Yeah, they are. So...what`s up?"
"I have to tell you, because Jacob didn`t, Sam wants everybody over at Emily`s now for a meeting."
"Okay." I said, inwardly rolling my eyes. "You need a ride?" I liked Embry, he was so nice, and super cute. I never told anyone about the little crush I had on him in the eight grade.
"Cool, thanks." I got in the drivers seat and lent over to open the passenger door for him.
"So what`s the meeting about? Anything interesting?" I asked as I pulled out of the school`s parking lot and took the road to Emily`s.
"You could say that. We have found out what the red headed vamp wants."
"Really? What?" I was all ears now. Red had been a permanent fixture in Olympia now for a good couple of months.
"Bella." Embry said quietly, watching me from the corner of his eyes. I let out a disgusted noise.
"Of course. Who else?" I tutted and shook my head. "Is she going to be there?"
"Eh...I think so. Jake has gone to collect her." Embry said with no emotion in his voice. He was being careful.
"I`m sorry Embry, but isn`t this the Cullen`s problem? The pack shouldn`t be involved."
"When there is a human life at stake then it is the packs problem."
"But she wants to be one of them!"
"I know...I know Sonia. Just...try and understand. Bella is a human. We exist to protect them. You don`t really want her to die now do you?"
"You right...I don`t. I wouldn`t wish that on anyone. I just don`t want any of you to get hurt."
"I know you don`t Sonia. But we are not made of glass, we are built to kill them."
"Okay okay...I get it, you are all supermen `kay." I laughed a little, so did Embry.
"We are tough."
"So...Bella is going to be there...Ahhhh Bella Bella." I sighed which made Embry laugh some more.
"She`s not that bad. I mean, I`m pretty angry with her for what she did to Jake, but I dunno, she has always been nice to us. She`s just a bit dumb."
"I have better words to describe her." Bitch. Whore. Retard being some.
"I could guess. So...you and Jake...how`s that going?"
"Fine."
"Come on! He`s pretty determined on getting you back."
"Okay."
"Okay! Man Sonia..."
"What?" I laughed.
"You two...you are worse than each other. You should hear Jacob...it`s so fucking annoying sometimes. "Sonia hates me...she`ll never love me again..." "I`ll get her back...I love her so much.." "Wah wah wah." It`s worse than the Bella shit from way back."
"Jacob knows what he is doing." I said with a note of finality in my voice. We were approaching Emily`s house and I was feeling angry at the fact that Jacob was bringing Bella. Well, if he was looking for a fight, or a fit of jealously, then he wouldn`t get it. I would ignore them. Or maybe I would kick her ass. I really didn`t know at this point and I would like to say I wouldn`t care.
The whole back was there minus Jacob...and her. The kitchen was stuffy from all the guys here, and noisy. Sam grimaced at me when he saw me, Emily was being overly nice. I roped into making sandwiches for "The boys" and chatted with Kim a lot, ignoring Emily. I hadn`t forgotten that Emily and Sam thought that I wasn`t doing my bit.
"So...how long left?" I asked Kim, who was sitting on Jared`s lap.
"Not long, one month, more or less."
"And you still don`t want to know the sex?" I asked, carefully placing the ham perfectly on top of the cheese, for Emily`s benefit.
"No, we want it to be a surprise." Jared answered, running his hand over Kim`s bump.
"Names? I`m partial to Sonia you know." I giggled.
"We were thinking of either Sophia or Olivia for a girl."
"Ahhh...so pretty." I gushed, still ignoring Emily as I cut the sandwich into perfect rectangles.
"And if it`s a boy, Ryan or John."
"They are good names." I said, as I heard the unmistakable rumble of Jacob`s motorbike.
"We are happy with them." Kim said kindly, seeing the change in my mood.
"What about you Sonia. Have any baby names?" Jared asked, ignoring Jacob and Bella as they came into the kitchen. I looked at Jacob, his face unreadable. Bella was hovering behind him, looking out of place as usual.
"I dunno, I like Michael for a boy, or Ben. For a girl, maybe Hannah or Sarah." Shit...Jacob`s moms name was Sarah. I felt my cheeks flame and the kitchen grow silent for a couple of seconds.
"They`re great names." Kim said, trying to save me. Don`t look at Jacob. Don`t look at him.
"Yeah...I have dibs, nobody can touch my names." That earned me some awkward laughs. Somebody change the fucking subject already!
"So. How`s school? Ciara Harris still a slut?" Kim came to my rescue. I love you Kim!
"Still. She`s be calling her kids Gonorrhea and Clyamidia." I could hear Paul and Quil snigger at that. Emily looked a bit po faced.
"That`s gross." Bella`s quiet voice said. I gripped the butter knife in my hand for a couple of seconds. Ignore her Sonia. Don`t kill her.
"Where`s Leah?" I asked the room at large.
"She`s trying to register at community college. She should be here soon." Seth answered.
"Good for her!" I declared happily. Leah needs something besides the pack in her life.
"Hey Embry!" Bella said brightly as Embry came in after a quick phase.
"Hey Bella." He said dully. I was glad to know which side he was on. "Sonia...toss me a sandwich?"
"Get your own damn sandwich! They are like right in front of you!" I handed him a sandwich anyway. Embry was nice. He winked at me as he took it.
"Did you get any of that maths today?" I asked Embry as I sat down beside him, finally finished with the sandwiches. I could feel Jacob looking at me.
"God no...I zoned out I was so tired. Thank God Mr. Sharp knows better than to ask me anything in class."
"Lucky you. He seems to always call on me." I said through a mouthful of cookie.
"I fucking hate maths." Embry said.
"Language Embry!" Sam growled. "There are ladies present."
"Sonia is a lady and she has a mouth like a fish wife."
"Fuck you! Do not!" I said, playfully punching him on the arm. Ouch! I had to remember that they were super human hard.
"Do too!" Embry stuck his tongue out at me.
"Whatev!" I said with a smile. "Did you catch the new episode of Game of Thrones?" Embry was a fan like me.
"Couldn`t. Patrol."
"I`ll record it for you next time if you want."
"Cool...thanks Sonia." Embry gave me a perfect Colgate smile.
"Wow...those two are really flirting aren`t they." I heard Bella say to Emily. I looked at Embry, who looked as horrified as me. Flirting? What planet was this girl living on?
"Are you serious?" I asked her.
"Yeah Bella...Sonia is my friend." Embry said annoyed.
"Bella doesn`t know how to be friends with boys." I said smirking. "She probably thinks that being friendly means being in love." I heard Kim stifle a giggle.
"Give it a rest!" Sam commanded. I was glad he stepped in when he did. "This is not the time nor the place for all this childish crap." What happened to not swearing Sam?
"Sorry Sam. I didn`t start it though!"
"Finish it then! You are not a child Sonia." He snapped. Is this what it felt like when your dad is angry at you? I pushed that thought out of my head and pouted a little.
"Sam!" Jacob said dangerously. The two men stared each other down before Sam broke it and wrapped an arm around a nervous Emily.
"Shit stirrer." I whispered at Bella.
"Sonia!" Both Sam and Jacob growled.
"What?" I asked innocently. "I can`t speak the truth?"
"Leave it Sonia." Embry whispered. "Leave it for later."
"I always get blamed for everything." I whispered. It wasn`t fair. Nobody ever dared call precious Bella out over the crap she causes.
"You don`t...believe me." Embry said kindly.
I fucking hated her! Stupid fucking Bella and her stupid fucking lost little girl look. Sitting there beside my imprinter, like it was her right or something. Eurghhh I wanted to reach across the table and hit her with a good right hook. Stupid bitch, looking up at my Jacob like that. And Jacob, sitting there with her. So this was how he was going to prove to me how much he loves me? Jerk! Swine!
I finally snapped when Bella made Jacob laugh loudly at something she had said. I jumped up from my chair so quickly that it toppled over. I grabbed my coat and made for the door, but before I got it open I heard Bella say.
"What`s her problem?" In that stupid, sickly sweet yet boring tone that was so typical of her. I stopped and turned around to face her.
"You are my fucking problem!" I spat at her, pushing her into the table. "You!" I grabbed at her hair and yanked it hard which made her cry. I was pulled off her eventually, I wouldn`t let go of her hair.
"Get the hell off of me!" I yelled. I was eventually let go and taken outside by Sam.
"What were you thinking Sonia?" He asked. He didn`t sound angry, strangely enough.
"How can you say that? You heard her!" I sobbed back at him. I just had to cry didn`t I? Sam sighed and pulled me into a hug. It felt safe, fatherly. I let myself cry a little into his chest.
"You are the better person Sonia. That`s what I meant. I know you are hurting, believe me I know. But that doesn`t mean you can take out your anger like that. You can`t go around beating up people who annoy you. It will just get you into trouble."
"It`s not fair!" I whined like a child.
"I know it`s not. I know Sonia. I knew it would have been a problem with you and Bella in the same place. Jacob wants to talk to you. Are you okay with that?" Sam asked.
"No. I want to go home." I looked over to the house and saw Jacob standing in the doorway.
"I`ll take you then."
"I`ll take her." Jacob said, coming up to us.
"No Jacob. Stay with Bella. It`s what you want isn`t it?"
"Don`t tell me what I want Sonia!" Jacob said angrily.
"Leave me alone! Just give me some space!"
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