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"I don`t know Sonia. You seem to be pretty torn up about Jacob still. I think it`s too soon to be moving on to another guy."
My mom and I were out shopping in Port Angeles before my ballet class. She was feeling pretty guilty about being so mean to me before so she was trying to it up to me by being super nice.
"I need it mom. Jacob is with Bella. Why should I wait around?" I argued, picking up a royal blue sweater and examining it.
"It`s foolish to rush into another relationship too fast."
"Jacob and I have been broken up for the past two months! He`s moved on, why shouldn`t I?"
"You are just doing this to spite him. It`s not fair on the other boy."
"I was in the beginning...but now...not really. I want to move on. I want someone to love, to have fun with. I don`t want to be with Jacob any more."
"You still love him though!"
"I know! I won`t ever stop loving him either." I said sadly.
"It`s a mess I know. But I don`t want to see you get hurt again."
"I don`t think anyone could hurt me as bad as Jacob did. But I need this! I need to move on."
"I understand, but I still think you are rushing this. You don`t need a man to validate your life."
"I know I don`t. I want to do other things too. Why not date casually? It`s fun."
"Humm. What if this Robbie guy is not interested?"
"Then he`s not interested."
"He has the same name as your father. Weird isn`t it."
"How long did it take for you to get over dad?"
"A long time. I don`t think I am actually. Robert was the love of my life."
"Was I the reason your relationship got screwed." I was always afraid of asking my mom that question. She looked at me shocked.
"NO! Don`t ever think that Sonia! You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. We were too young to have a child. I`ll admit that. I was only your age, think about it. Imagine yourself with a child."
"I can`t. Not now."
"I`ll admit that after you were born, I couldn`t give Robert the attention I did before. He couldn`t handle being a dad. The pressure got to him. Nana and pop-pop never approved of him. Thinking back now...they were so hard on him. Criticized everything he did or tried to do."
"I know nana never liked him."
"She blamed him for getting me pregnant." She said with a little laugh. "Robert loved me. I loved him. We thought that love was enough but...we learned the hard way."
"Why did he rob that gas station?" I whispered to her.
"For the money. He...he started dealing...to earn extra money. Things were pretty tight back then. I told him drugs was a bad idea but he didn`t listen. Something happened, a deal went bad and he was left with no drugs and money owed to his suppliers. I suppose he was desperate." She said sadly. "He told me that me and you were better off without him in our lives. He loved us. He never thought he was good enough. Even now." To my surprise my mom started to cry a little.
"Come on mom. It`s okay."
"It isn`t Sonia. I let mom poison me against him. It is the one thing I have never forgiven her for, and myself for that matter. And for you...to grow up without a father. Thinking that he never cared. Robert may have been a lot of things...but he wasn`t heartless." She composed herself and took the blue sweater off me and draped it over her arm along with the other things she was buying for me. I knew she was finished talking for now.
That was a lot to take in. I had always thought, by the way nana spoke about dad that he was just a deadbeat who didn`t give a shit about me or mom. I wanted to forget about all the memories I had of him so I didn`t have to live with the pain of a dad who had never loved me. But here was mom telling me that he did. She was telling me things that made me think about nana in a different light. A not altogether too good of a light.
"I think I`ll skip class tonight mom...this is a lot...what you told me."
"I`m sorry baby. Please don`t hate me."
"I could never hate you mom! It`s just...sad...too late." I murmured, thinking about my now free dad who was living up in Alaska. I tried to picture his face but all that came up was Anthony Kiedis for some strange reason.
"Lets me and you have dinner in a nice fancy restaurant?" My mom said brightly. "We can order lots of fancy things then try and make them again at home?"
"I`d love that! Girls night! We can watch movies when we go home too."
"Pretty woman? Or Mermaids? We can wear face masks too!"
We both giggled and left the shop when my mom insisted on buying a beautiful top for me to wear when I go the Makah rez tomorrow. She was on my side. She always will be. We both came to a halt when we saw who were walking towards us.
"There they are." My mom said bitchily. I must have gotten my bitch abilities from her. Jacob and Bella were walking hand in hand. She looked like a dwarf in comparison to his height. Her big brown eyes grew wide in shock as she physically placed herself behind Jacob.
"Mrs. Mara." Jacob greeted awkwardly, trying to take his hand from Bella but she held firm.
"Ms. Mara. I was never married." She corrected him. "You have some nerve."
"I`ve done nothing wrong." Jacob defended, red faced and guilty looking.
"Really? Breaking my daughters heart is doing nothing wrong?"
"Come on mom. He`s not worth it." I tried to drag her away.
"He isn`t Sonia. I`ll tell you this now Jacob Black. If you ever come sniffing around my daughter or try to sabotage her life again you`ll have bigger problems on your plate than vampires!" She hissed, pointing a ringed finger at him. "Come on Sonia. I`m sure the restaurant will be able to find us a table if we get there early enough."
"And for you princess." She stopped as she passed them and squared off with Bella, who looked terrified. "Don`t think for one minute you have anything on my Sonia. A lot of people might be fooled by your butter wouldn`t melt in your mouth act but I`m not. Try and hurt my daughter again and I`ll be on you like white on rice."
"Mom! You are such a bad ass!" I said in wonder. She was smirking to herself and strutting a little. Shit she was the most awesome mom ever!
"You had to get it from somewhere baby girl." She said, flicking back her long black hair and grinning.
"Act cool. Don`t be all over him when you see him. Vinnie told me that he doesn`t like girls who seem too eager or slutty or dumb." Bernie advised me as we drove to the Makah rez along with Ollie.
"Thank God I`m not any of those things so I should be safe." I laughed.
"You are totally slutty!" Bernie play corrected me.
"Can`t change that. Did Robbie really ask about me to Vinnie?"
"Yeah! He told Vin about some really hot chick over on the Quileute rez who`s mother scared him away with a rolling pin. Said that he had never met a girl like you."
"Oh My God!" I squealed, red faced.
"I just hope he`s better than Black. He`s such a boring loser!" Ollie piped in.
"You`re right." I agreed, feeling like I was betraying him a little but soon snapped out of it.
"I look okay?" I asked Bernie.
"For the millionth time YES! God!" Wearing my new white chiffon top my mom bought me and skinny jeans I felt a little dressed up. To compensate I wore my brown moccasins and parka. I left off the make up too except for mascara and some lip gloss.
"Sorrryyyyyy. Ohhh...I`m so excited." I gushed, jumping on the seat.
"Good. I hope Robbie actually has something interesting to talk about." Ollie said smiling. He sure did hate Jacob with a passion. I was beginning to wonder if Ollie knew something about the pack but for the sake of not giving anything away I didn`t bring anything up. Ollie didn`t either but he was making a lot of insinuations lately. Calling them a "Pack", "freaks" and "Dogs". I tried to laugh when he said them but I knew he saw it in my face that I knew it was more than a joke.
We got to the beach when it was just twilight. The air was a mix of smoke and salt and I had never felt more excited. Was I pinning too much on Robbie? Was I building him up to be the answer to all my dreams of getting over Jacob? What if I didn`t remember him correctly? What if I made him out to be cuter and nicer than he actually was?
"Hey Bernie!" I heard a guy shout out. It was Vinnie, just a year older than us we were casual friends.
"Yo Vin!" Ollie shouted out, taking Bernie by the hand and heading over to him near the fire. I followed them carrying a bag full of chips and soda, too nervous to look around for Robbie.
"Dude!" He greeted Ollie.
"Bernz, Sonz." Vinnie hugged the both of us and then we all sat on the sand.
We started to talk about nothing and everything. Vinnie kept on giving me knowing looks and winks which made me blush scarlet but didn`t mention Robbie yet. Bernie must have told him to play it cool. I was starting to get a bit impatient though.
"Hi Sonia." A familiar voice came from my left. Robbie! Oh God Oh God!
"Oh Robbie! Hi!" I said brightly. He held out his hand to help get to my feet and I took it. I knew I shouldn`t compare his and Jacob`s hands but I couldn`t help it. It felt nice, strong, but it didn`t feel right. He held my hand for a couple of seconds when I stood up before letting it go.
"Great seeing you here." He said. His dark, red-brown skin glowed in the firelight. His smile and dark eyes were illuminated beautifully. I felt my heart skip a beat just looking at him. He looked kinda like Michael Greyeyes.
"You too. I`d like to say it was a surprise but..." I left it hanging and we both laughed a bit.
"I was debating getting in touch with you again after your mom ran me off your property but last I heard you had a boyfriend."
"I did."
"As in past tense?" He asked hopefully.
"Past simple. Not anymore." I smile bashfully at him.
"Wanna go for a walk?"
"Sure."
We left the bonfire and walked down the beach. Our arms kept on brushing but neither of us moved away. It felt so nice. No normal and so natural. So unforced.
"What have you been doing with yourself?" I asked, breaking the silence.
"Working and studying. Looking after my dad too. He had a stroke a month back."
"Oh no! I`m so sorry."
"It`s okay. It was mild. But he can`t get around as well as he used to. My folks are divorced and mom has another husband to look after so it`s up to me to take care of him."
"It`s a good thing what you`re doing."
"Thanks. He`s my dad after all. He wiped my shitty ass when I was little so I guess I should re pay him a little." We both laughed again. "And what about you?"
"This and that. Busy with school. Busy with dance."
"Ballet right. I remember Vinnie telling me."
"You asked about me?" I ventured, blushing.
"To be honest...yeah. When he told me you were coming tonight...You have been in my mind a lot since then. I had always wondered about you. What you were doing."
"Me too." I lied a little but it was a white lie.
"Why wait so long?"
"My nana died and I had a lot on my mind since then."
"Wow. Sorry about that. When did she die?"
"Just two months ago."
"Were you guys close?"
"She practically raised me with my mom. So yeah...we were close."
"Sorry."
"Don`t worry."
"How did it happen?"
"Heart attack." Caused by me but I wasn`t going to tell him that.
"Rough."
"Yeah...let`s talk about something different."
"Sure...sure. So Sonia...would your mom kill me if I tried to take you out for a date again?"
"No she wouldn`t."
"Cool. I didn`t get the chance to woo you the first time round so I`m counting on second time being the charm."
"Woo me? I know you are older than me but I didn`t figure you were that old!"
"You know what I mean."
"I`d love to go out with you, if you want."
"Course I want. There`s something special about you...not just because you are beautiful but...I dunno how to say it without sounding corny." I could see him blushing in the moonlight.
"Thanks Robbie. I think you are pretty special yourself."
"So...you wanna go on a date with me?" He asked hopefully.
"I`d love to. I already said so before."
"Just confirming. Oh man!"
Robbie insisted on driving me home that night. We starting talking about Game of Thrones with turned into a full blown discussion on who was the best character. For me Daenerys was the best but for Robbie it was Jon Snow. That lasted for over an hour.
I was beginning to get freaked out as we entered La Push. What if Jacob saw me with Robbie and heldtrue to his word he would kill him. Was I really putting him in danger? I looked over at him. His strong jaw had the subtlest hint of stubble. I wondered what the would feel like against my cheek. I checked that thought as we came onto my street. No one was there.
"So, next friday? Can I take you out?"
"I`d love it. I have ballet class until eight. So after?"
"Perfect. Do I need to ask your moms permission first?"
"No. I`ll tell her."
"Cool." He looked at me steadily for a long time before leaning his head in towards me. Feeling as though my hammering heart would leap out of my chest I lent in and brushed my lips gently against his. He smelt amazing. Not wanting to take it too far I pulled back.
"That kiss was short but it was sweet." He smiled, cupping my cheek.
"Just a taster." I whispered as I unbuckled my seatbelt and opened the door.
"See you next Friday."
"Next Friday." He smiled happily.
I waved at him as he drove away. Smiling to myself I rooted my keys out of my bag.
"So that was Robbie."
I yelped and clutched at my heart. Out of the shadows emerged Jacob. His eyes flickered in the direction which Robbie took to leave.
"Leave him be Jacob." I snarled. "You hurt him and I`ll never forgive you."
"You kissed him...I saw it..." His voice was deadly calm. It was scary. His face was scary. Eyes that were now pure black were filled with a quiet fury were burning into me.
"I`m...I`m happy for you Jacob." I couldn`t believe the lie that left my mouth. "Why can`t you be happy for me?"
He didn`t answer me. Just looking at me with a red hot anger he brushed by me and stalked off into the night.
"Don`t hurt him Jacob!" I called after him. "Please...I begging you!" I ran after him but he had already disappeared into the woods.
"Shit!" I cried. I prayed that Jacob wouldn`t go after Robbie. I am such a selfish bitch for getting him tangled up in this shit.
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