Hey guys. Chapter 35. That`s it for today until tomorrow. Thanks so much for your reviews and your kind criticisms. I know I have been making Jacob super horrible but I promise you! there is a reason.

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"Sonia!" Billy looked shocked as he opened the front door.

"Hello Mr. Black. Is Jacob in?" I asked, peering inside the house.

"Yes, but he`s asleep. Come on in, we can talk." Billy looked so happy to see me that I momentarily felt softened by his presence.

"Listen Mr. Black...I can`t stay long, I need to be at Mr. McBride`s house in a while."

" Just for a cup of coffee then. Come on. Just a couple of minutes."

"I just needed to talk to Jacob about something."

"Go wake him up then. I`m sure he`ll be happy to see you." Billy smiled and I looked incredulous. "I just realized how that sounds. Go ahead Sonia."

"Thanks Mr. Black." I went down the small hall and stopped at Jacob`s closed door and took a deep breath before going inside.

The room was in darkness, and it smelled like heaven. So Jacoby that it made me a little weak. It took a couple of seconds before my eyes grew accostomed to the dark. I could make out Jacob`s huge sleeping form on his bed. I tip toed over to his bed stand and switched on the lamp.

I looked down on his sleeping form. He was curled up on his side looking totally beat and utterly adorable. I almost forgot for a second how much I hated him and was sorely tempted to just snuggle in beside him. I sighed and sat down on the floor, not really knowing what to do. I really should wake him and give him a piece of my mind. Looking at his face... I realized how much I was still in love with him. I didn`t want to be with him though...I was still hurting, and he was with Bella now.

There was something under his head that looked strangely familiar. It looked like one of my pillow cases! Ever so gently I hooked my finger in and pulled it out from under his head. He groaned and shifted his position but didn`t wake up. It was. It was my pillow case. The flowery ikea design was unmistakable. Maybe it was Bella`s? Somehow I didn`t think so. Poking out from under his bed was a photo of me and him, taken from before we got together, in front of Emily and Sam`s place. I pocketed the picture and gently shook Jacob.

"Wake up!" I said, beginning in a whisper. I got a grunt in reply.

"Wake up Jacob. I need to tell you something." He stirred again, grabbing his crotch and smiling. Oh dear lord in heaven.

"Wake the fuck up fuck face!" I shook him some more.

"Sonia..." He blindly threw an arm out and pulled me into him. Urghhh! NO!

"Jacob wake up!" I wailed, struggling in his unrelenting hold.

"Mmmm...I`m dreaming aren`t I?" He mumbled, with one large hand now going to caress my lower back. Shit!

"No! You`re gonna have a helluva nightmare if you don`t let go of me!" I started to trash around more now, jumping and kicking him. "Let go!" I screeched.

"Sonia?" Jacob opened his eyes fully and looked at me in shocked disbelief. He let me go slowly and I hopped off the bed and stood as far away from him as I could. He eyed the pillow case on the floor, grabbing it hastily and shoving it under his pillow. I decided I wasn`t going to call him out over that. "What are you doing here?" He asked, not sounding angry. He sat up on the bed and smoothed down his hair and corrected his boner.

"We need to talk Jacob, and we need to make this quick. I need to be somewhere soon."

"Where do you need to be? With Robbie?" He asked with no emotion.

"No, not with Robbie. But he`s the reason we need to speak."

"Oh?" He asked, standing up and putting on a pair of jeans.

"I want to make a deal with you." I hope this will work. Jacob looked at me slit eyed. He thought I was up to something.

"What sort of deal?" He demanded.

"I won`t bitch out you and Bella if you promise to leave Robbie alone." It came out all rushed and desperate.

"What`s the matter? Your little boyfriend can`t defend himself? You afraid of him getting hurt?" He taunted.

"Against you, you know he can`t. He doesn`t deserve to be hurt."

"No way. He shows his face on this rez again and I`ll..."

"STOP IT!" I screeched, punching him on the chest. "Why are you so impossible? What the hell do you want me to do?"

"NOT SEE HIM!" He yelled right in my face.

"You don`t have the right Jacob! You`re seeing Bella!" I accused. His face hardened.

"Yeah...because the girl I wanted gave me the cold shoulder for too long." He accused back, pulling on a t-shirt this time.

"You could have waited...but it seemed you were happy enough to go jumping back into her arms."

"You`re right. I got sick of waiting."

"You`re with her. You...love her. I get it...then why are you doing this to me?"

"What the hell am I doing to you?" He asked quietly now.

"Please Jacob...please promise me...you won`t hurt him...if I promise not to see him again...will you promise me you`ll not kill him...please...p-p-please..." I choke sobbed out, clutching at Jacob`s t-shirt. "He doesn`t deserve to b-b-be hurt...please promise me..."

"Sonia...stop it...it`s okay...please, it`s okay." Jacob wrapped his arms around me and rocked me gently, back and forth. "I won`t hurt him...I promise I won`t. I was just angry when I said it."

"Then why did you say it! Why did you scare me like that!" I released myself from him and wiped my tears away.

"You know why I said it! The thoughts of someone else...kissing you...touching you..."

"You are so selfish. You`re a selfish jerk!"

"I know I am." He whispered, hanging his head.

"Why are you the only one who gets to be happy? Why won`t you let me try?"

"Because I`m selfish. I can`t help it when it comes to you."

"That`s a poor excuse."

"I won`t hurt Robbie. If you think...if you like him that much...I could never hurt you by hurting him. I promise you." He looked so pained, so full of regret, that with his eyes he easily communicated all his feelings to me.

"You swear." I pressed.

"I swear it. Hand on my heart." He placed his right hand over his heart and smiled weakly.

"Right then...good. I promised you I won`t bitch out you and Bella anymore so...I`ll stick by that."

"Sonia...don`t leave yet. Please."

"Why?"

"Just...I know saying lets be friends has gotten kinda old with us but...I miss you. I miss having you in my life."

"I miss you too Jacob. But maybe in a different way to you missing me." I whispered at the floor.

"Please...don`t hate me." He begged. "I love you Sonia...I swear that too. I can`t stop hurting you and I don`t know why! Everything...I know I`m a selfish dick. I just...I need you near me. I can`t make you happy...I want to so bad and I don`t know how! I`ll keep out of your`s and Robbie`s way. It doesn`t stop me being jealous though. Just don`t think the worst of me." He begged, dropping to his knees and burying his head into my abdomen. I hesitantly placed my hands in his hair.

"You should have been honest with me before Jacob. But it`s too late for that. What`s done is done. You...you have the one you always wanted. You know I love you...and want the best for you. If you love your imprint you will want the best for her too, don`t you think?"

"You`re right. I`ve hurt you long enough. It`s not fair on you. Demanding you don`t see anyone else...who am I to say that? I`m the least deserving guy in the world." He got up and rubbed his thumb across my lips, seemingly lost in thought. That felt so good and so right that I wanted to weep again. I was surrounded by him. Only him. Everything else seemed to vanish until all I could feel was Jacob`s thumb on lips and his hand slowly tilting my chin up. Warm breath fanned across my face as he moved in closer.

"If I don`t stop myself now..." He said in a strained voice. "I won`t be able to stop ever." He made no effort to pull away though. He was leaving the choice to me. Do I pull away or do I move in closer. I pulled out and away from him, trembling and shaken by the experience. No man could ever make me feel like he made me feel.

"I need to go now. I`m late." I said in a daze, fumbling with his door handle and fleeing his bedroom. I ran out of the house and drove as fast as I could away from there. Oh God! Oh Shit! Jacob...ah crap! No one could ever compare to him.

Getting to Mr. McBride`s house, I threw myself into scrubbing the bathroom and then to cleaning out his bedroom. He was just as grumpy as ever today.

"Girl. Why are you all teary eyed?" He demanded, while I stacked chopped wood next to his back door.

"I`m not. It`s nothing."

"Humpf. It`s a boy ain`t it?"

"No!"

"Humpf. You are a bad liar."

"Okay."

"What`s this boys name anyway?"

"There is no boy!" I stressed, as I cover the wood with some plastic then weighed it down with some bricks. Mr. McBride just stood in the door giving me a stern look. I sighed then rolled my eyes. "Jacob Black." I muttered.

"Jacob Black. Jacob Black. The new Chief?"

"We don`t have Chiefs anymore!" And if anyone was Chief it was Sam.

"Humpf. He is the Chief. Or his father is then. What`s a little bastard like you doing with the son of a Chief anyway?" I had to laugh at him. Bastard daughter. Always.

"None of your business."

"You pregnant girl?"

"WHAT! NO!" This old man is unreal!

"He break your heart?"

"Something like that." Just shut up old man.

"What family you from anyways? If you are from the same clan as him you can`t marry."

"We don`t follow that rule anymore. Not since...a long time ago."

"Humpf. The Quileutes have lost a lot of their ways." He gazed out into the woods.

"Seems so."

"Wolves seem to be howling more often don`t you think. Seems to be more of them."

"I didn`t notice." I said as I came inside and tried to light a fire in the kitchen fire place.

"So this Jacob Black." Mr. McBride pressed, causing me to become increasingly annoyed. "He`s a good man?"

"Overall yes. But nobody is perfect I suppose."

"Only a very special girl gets to marry the Chief. You are easy on the eye but I don`t know if you are strong."

"Jacob is not the Chief and we are not getting married." I growled.

"Ho ho ho. Got a temper have you? Easy girl. You don`t know who you`re shouting at." He gave a strange weezey laugh and pottered back into the living room. Crazy old man.

I eventually got the fire going and sat on a low wooden stool warming my ice cold hands. I looked around the kitchen. It seemed the more things I cleaned or fixed the more I found that needed to be done. This place should be demolished. How could he live here and not die of exposure? I was broken out of my thoughts by a knock on the door.

"Who in damnation is that?" Mr. McBride`s angry voice boomed from the living room.

"I`ll get it."

"Send them away. I don`t want more fuss pots telling me what to do."

"I`ll tell them." I said warily, opening the door.

"Jacob!" Just leave me alone already.

"Sonia...I need to tell you something." He looked agitated.

"Who`s that? Tell him to go away." Mr. McBride ordered. I stepped out onto the porch and shut the door behind me.

"What are you doing here." I asked. I was kinda glad to see him though. I felt warmer.

"Listen." He pulled me away from the porch and down the drive. "There is more vamp activity going on. We have chased at least four from our territory and killed two of them."

"Holy shit!" I must have looked scared, Jacob placed a large warm hand on my shoulder.

"Promise me you won`t leave the rez or go out into the woods. Warn your friends too. We are not taking any chances. Promise me Sonia!"

"I promise...I won`t." Shit I was scared. "Why are they coming into our territory? They usually stay out."

"We think it`s because Bella is spending so much time here. Red has is figured out probably." Of course it all came back to Bella! Stupid bitch. Putting the tribe in danger.

"I know what you are thinking...but remember...she`s human."

"I know Jacob."

"When are you done here? I want to make sure you are safe home." He looked around, assessing how safe this place was.

"In an hour more or less." He nodded.

"I`ll send Brady to come home with you." Why not you I wanted to ask but bit by tongue.

"Okay, sure. What about Mr. McBride?"

"We are running the border. No one will be left unchecked or harmed. I promise you that. Stay safe Sonia." He said again, smoothing my hair.

"I will...I told you I would didn`t I?"

"I don`t mean to scare you but I..."

"Thanks for telling me. Now go. What`s the pack going to do without their best fighter?" I said. He looked at me strangely for a while before nodding and running off into the woods.

"Be safe Jacob." I whispered to his back. He stopped and turned, nodding at me again before disappearing altogether.

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