Chapter 41. Not as good as I had hoped but it wasn`t easy to write. Hope you enjoy and thanks so much for all your kind reviews. Happy reading and remember to review at the end.

Sitting on the Blacks porch I waited, I waited and I listened. Poor Jacob... this was all my fault! When he gets back I`m gonna take such good care of him, I was going to help him any way I could. I would stay with him until he got better. Knowing I needed to tell him the truth made my stomach cramp painfully. It was a cowardly thing but I didn`t want to let him know I knew but I had to. Fear of hurting him mixed with the fear of him being angry at me made me a nervous wreck. He had to know! I needed to tell him! When you love somebody you tell the truth right?

Kim came out after a while and sat with me. Taking my hand her hers she gave me a kiss on the cheek.

"If it was Jared, I would feel the same...so I`m not going to tell you to stop freaking out." She said. I squeezed her hand and looked at her fully.

"Did you ever have to tell Jared something you knew would hurt him?" I asked. Kim looked at me thoughtfully.

"Are you pregnant?"

"NO! Why does everyone keep asking me that?" I huffed.

"Sorry...that was a stupid thing to say. Jacob would be happy if you were...freaked out yes but happy."

"So..."

"So...oh right! The question." Kim thought for a moment. "That`s a difficult one. I suppose...when he first imprinted on me I hurt him."

"How?"

"I didn`t believe it. One day in history class, totally used to being ignored by him, we had to partner up to do some exercises. I remembered getting so excited because maybe I would get to talk to him you know. When he heard the teacher say that he asked if he could partner up with Vanessa Bell instead." Kim looked so sad at that memory. "When the teacher said no way he was forced to do it with me. I was so pissed. More at myself than at him. It was like my little Jared fantasy had been shattered. That I realized he didn`t even want to look at me cause I was so insignificant..."

"I bet he didn`t think you were Kim."

"I know that now but...then it hurt. I promised myself I would get the hell over him. When we partnered up I just divided up the work and didn`t look at him or speak to him. He must of realized that I was hurt because of what he said earlier that he kept on trying to make conversation." She laughed. "Then...then our hands brushed...it was...like fire...not because of his heat but because of our imprint. Then we looked at each other..."

I kept silent, remembering when that happened to Jacob and me. The intense connection, the feeling of falling and finding your footing again, the crazy surge of emotions...

"The way he looked at me, the way he kept on looking, I couldn`t get my head around it. I couldn`t understand it you know? This was Jared Cameron! Looking at little Kim Carrillo like she was the most beautiful girl in the world. I convinced myself he was joking...trying to pull one over on me. I ignored him for a couple of days."

"Bet he hated that."

"Yeah...he never let up though. It was Leah who told me that after a while he changed his tactics because he figured out that I was scared, that I was shy. He took it slow from then...just talking to me when he saw me, showing up wherever I went but keeping his distance."

"He`s smart."

"I know right. A bit too smart sometimes but I love him. But...if I had to tell him something that hurt him...I called him a liar when he told me he loved me for the first time."

"You did? What did he do?"

"You know...the whole shaking bit...then he kissed me..." Kim got lost in her own memory. "But I think that you need to tell Jacob something...and you are afraid of doing it."

"I am. I kept something from him, something important, and now he`s hurt because of it."

"You don`t know that Sonia. The thing you needed to tell him...it was about Bella and her leech right?"

"Right."

"I think Jacob had that one figured out before he left. Jared told me that Jacob was starting to get suspicious about Bella, but didn`t know what was really up."

"I think that Bella and her leech were using Jacob for sex or something..."

"Using Jacob for sex?" Kim sounded like she was trying to stop herself from giggling.

"I don`t think they were really broken up you know..."

"And Jacob found out today...up on that mountain...it makes sense." She nodded her head.

"Do you think he`ll be angry at me for not telling him?"

"He might... I mean, you are his imprint. Jacob ran a sort of background check on Robbie to make sure that he wasn`t a sex criminal."

"He what?"

"Yeah...I know...He broke into Forks Police headquarters and searched their files. Then he got Emily to ask around the Makah rez about him. Turns out he is just a normal guy."

"Oh man..." I groaned, feeling horrible.

"I think you should have told him what you suspected. If Jacob would have listened or not that is a different question."

"I`m such a bitch."

"You`re not. You did what you thought was..." Kim didn`t finish. A flashy black Mercedes raced down the drive and stopped in front of the house. What the hell? Oh right... Dr. Fang was coming.

A tall blonde and extremely good looking pale man stepped out. The leech doctor. I remembered him from the hospital when nana died. Kim squeezed my hand painfully and stood up, forcing me along with her.

"Hello girls." He called over. We just stood there speechless. A vampire, a cold one on the reservation by invitation. It was unheard of. But if was to help Jacob then...

"Hello." I called back, swallowing my fear and my pride. Dr. Fangula approached the house as the others came filing out. Mr. Black wheeled forward, hesitantly shaking his hand.

"Thanks for coming." He said gruffly.

"For what the pack did for us today, there was no question of it." Dr. Leech replied solemnly.

"When will they get here?" Mr. Black asked.

"Two more minutes." Dr. Leech said.

"Two minutes!" I yelled, before taking off and sprinting into the woods. Taking the direction I hoped they would be coming from I ran.

"Wrong way Sonia!" I heard the leech yell after me. SHIT!

"Sonia come back! Wait for him here!" Mr. Black yelled as well. Then...then I could hear other yells. Screams of pain! JACOB! I ran back to the house and shadowed Dr. Fang as he purposely strode over to the other side of the house. Coming out of the woods I saw them.

"JACOB!" Running forward to meet them I was met by Seth and held back. The rest were carrying him, I couldn`t see him properly. He was crying out in pain and my heart clenched painfully.

"Please Seth...let me go..."

"No Sonia...he`s in too much pain...he doesn`t want you to see him this way...he`s too badly hurt."

"Bullshit! He needs me!" I whined, wriggling in Seth`s hold.

"I know he does but...he made us promise." Seth argued, his hold loosening a tiny bit.

"He didn`t make me promise though." Looking at them disappearing into the house.

"Go on then..." Seth let me go and I ran.

Bounding into the house and towards Jacob`s room I was stopped this time by Sam. The rest of the guys were squeezed in and Jacob`s cries were getting louder.

"Later Sonia, the doctor is working."

"I won`t get in the way! I can help!" I argued, trying to get past him.

"No! Not now!"

"Let me in Sam!"

"Jacob won`t want it!"

"Sam!" It was Emily who spoke. "If that was you in there, would you want me to stay out?"

"It`s not me though!"

"If it was me? You wouldn`t stay out."

Sam and Emily looked at each other for a long time before Sam nodded and led me in. I mouthed a thank you to Emily before going. Sam tapped Paul and Jared on the shoulder and told them to leave. Paul gave me a tight hug and Jared a kiss on the top of my head before leaving. Swallowing I looked at him, at Jacob. I looked at all of him.

"Oh my God.." I whispered out. Sam placed his large hands on my shoulders to steady and comfort me.

"I told you it was bad Sonia."

Jacob face was contorted in pain as Embry and Quil held him down on the bed. The whole left side of his body looked like it had been mangled. His leg and arm were stuck out at odd angles, broken ribs clearly visible through bruised skin. The leech doctor was busy filling a syringe with something.

"You can wait outside, you don`t need to see this." Sam whispered again. I shook my head.

"I`m staying..." You gotta take the good with the bad don`t you? When you love someone...

"If you want." Sam sounded proud in a strange way.

"What can I do to help?" I asked Dr. Fang. He looked at me with his golden eyes. They were soft as they regarded me.

"You can comfort him. I wouldn`t suggest holding his hand though, he might crush it."

"Anything else? Like hot water or towels or something?"

"He`s not giving birth Sonia." Embry snapped.

"I`m trying to help!" I snapped back.

"His bones need to be re-broken and set again! He doesn`t need you here freaking out!"

"I`m not going to do that!"

"STOP IT!" Sam whispered furiously. "Both of you can get out if you are going to act like this!"

"I`m staying!" I whispered again, stepping around Dr. Fang and sitting on the floor by the head of Jacob`s bed. They had moved it a couple of feet from the wall so Embry and Quil could stand there and hold him. "I`m staying here with you Jacob." I whispered into his ear before kissing his forehead.

"Sonia..." He grunted out.

"I`m here...try and relax, don`t strain yourself." I caressed his face.

"I`m sorry...I`m so sorry..." He whispered before yelling out in agony. "ARRGGGHHHH FUCKKKKK!"

"I`m giving you an injection of morphine Jacob." Dr. Fang said as he flicked the needle gently. "Embry, could you please hold down his arm." He asked. Embry did as he was told and held Jacob`s arm down on the bed forcefully. The doctor then injected Jacob with the morphine. His breathing calmed and he stopped jerking about.

"You`re gonna be okay baby. I promise you." I said, smoothing his sweat soaked hair.

Then the doctor got to work. Jacob`s system burned up the morphine fast and every painful snap of bone made him scream and me jump but I held strong. He needs me...he needs me to be strong. It was nauseating, watching the leech touch him and break him but I had to remember that he was helping him. The worst part was the ribs and hip. They took the longest and were the most dangerous part. I could only crouch at Jacob`s side while he swore and screamed. I made a promise to myself that I was going to break Bella the next time I saw her...break her like she broke him.

Then it was over. The doctor was done. He drugged Jacob up some more and bandaged him to ensure that his bones set properly. At this stage he was totally knocked out because he was so doped up. I stayed by his side though, holding his hand and not taking my eyes off his face.

Jacob never deserved any of this! He was just a kid, an overgrown kid but a kid all the same. He had fought to protect a girl he had loved. A girl who never deserved his love in the first place! I had to tell him, when he got his strength back. He will make it through, the worst is over. The bruising on his ribs was already starting to fade rapidly, but his face...despite his drug induced sleep it was troubled, pained.

"Sonia?" Embry whispered to me.

"Mmm?"

"I`m sorry I snapped at you, I was just..." He mumbled.

"It`s okay. I understand you were scared. Jacob is your best friend after all." I looked over at him. I couldn`t really make out his face in the darkness of the room.

"And he`s your soul mate."

"He is...Embry?" I ventured.

"Yeah?"

"What...what happened that made Jacob so angry?" I asked hesitantly.

"How do you know he was angry?"

"I felt it."

"Really? Wow that`s a new for the imprint manual..."

"Well?"

"You know he was up on the mountain with Bella and her leech. Well...when it was time for Jacob and Edward to leave for the fight Bella kinda broke down and begged Edward not to go...not to leave her."

"Seriously?" I whispered furiously.

"I know right? Jacob was like 'What the fuck? I thought you guys had broken up.' And then Bella told him everything."

"And what is everything?"

"That she thought that her and Jacob, because she supposably loves him, could have a physical type of relationship for a while until she changes into a leech. Edward doesn`t want to have sex with her in case he kills her. Then...then Edward suggested that Jacob father Bella`s children."

"Oh my God! That`s fucking gross Emb!" The only children Jacob will be fathering is mine!

"Jacob was so mad! So fucking furious! Not because he loves Bella, not now anyway...but because of the way she tricked him...because of what he gave up for her...what he fucked up."

"He didn`t know Embry..."

"So then he left but Bella tried to convince him to stay too, kissed him and all but he pushed her away and left. He was thinking about you...how much he loves you...he thinks that he doesn`t deserve you."

"We were made for each other. How can he even think that!" I looked down at Jacob`s face again.

"He was so fucked up he wasn`t even thinking straight! He just went into the battle, all claws and fangs, and let rip. I had never seen anything like it!" Embry sounded awed.

"How did he get hurt?"

"He was protecting Leah."

"Oh... I hope you guys don`t blame her for this." I said warningly.

"We won`t. There`s only one to blame."

"So...I wonder when she`ll show her face."

"Soon I think. You know she can`t resist the drama. She`ll be down here crying and begging for understanding." A note of bitterness ran through his voice.

"She won`t find it here. She`s not seeing him!"

"You gonna kill her aren`t you? Remember Sonia, her dad is a cop!"

"I`ll try not to mark her face then."

"Jacob needs a girl like you."

"I don`t know what that means."

"He needs someone who is not afraid to fight for him. To challenge him. You fit him perfectly."

"Thanks Emb."

"Hey Sonia?"

"Yeah."

"He`s gonna prove to you how much he loves you."

"And me him."

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