Chapter 43. Hope you guys like! Thanks so so so much for all the reviews. Sorry for the long wait. A lot happening this weekend. Euro Cup anyone? Sadly Ireland was crushed by a much better Croatia last night. Spain doing great which is good for the novio. Italy not so well which is bad for my dad. Anyway, enough football (or soccer) ranting and on to the world of Sonia and Jacob. Happy reading and remember to review at the end. Creepy maggot man is showing his presence in not such a good way.
Mmmmmm...I sure as hell needed that nights sleep. Can I get anymore comfy? I don`t think so...
In my blissful half awake state I snuggled into Jacob some more and kissed his neck. Poor boo, snoring away, obviously still working whatever Dr. Fang gave him out of his system. This feels so nice, just lying here with him. I never want to get up. Everything just feels so right. So perfect. Well almost.
Starting to get a slight feeling of discomfort I shifted my position slightly. I had a moist feeling between my legs that made me smile. My period. What a relief. Adjusting my eyes to the darkness of the room I looked down at Jacob. Knowing that he was the only man I wanted to have children with didn`t hide the fact that we were way to young and immature to have kids now. In a good couple of years, but not now.
I would need to go home and get cleaned up. Get some tampons as well. Then come back here and take care of Jacob. Picking myself gently up off of him he stirred and grunted.
"Come back to bed." He groaned out, catching my hand and pulling me back down.
"Can`t, I need to go back home for something real quick."
"Pffft...use whatever`s here." One of his large hands went to massage my lower back. "You smell different."
I giggled and pulled myself back up.
"Do you have tampons?"
"Pffft...come back to bed." He tried to roll onto his side but grunted as he gave up.
"How are you feeling?" I asked, rubbing his face. He didn`t feel as clammy as he did yesterday.
"Better, cause you were with me." He took my hand and kissed my fingers. "Do you really need to go?"
"Yeah, I just need to have a shower and get changed, then I`ll come back over."
"Hummppfff...come back to bed."
"I`ll come back to bed later. It will be as if I`ve never been gone."
"How are you getting home?"
"I`ll walk."
"Take my car."
"Really? You sure?"
"Course. You can use it whenever you want you know."
"Thanks boo."
"Did you just call me boo?" He asked shocked. Embarrassed laughter over took me.
"Eh, yeah." I giggled some more before hopping off the bed to strip and get changed.
"It will never get old you know."
"What won`t?" I asked, taking off his t-shirt and boxers and searching for my clothes.
"Seeing you naked. It will never stop surprising me how perfect and beautiful you look naked. You sure you don`t want to come back to bed?"
Smiling at him I bent down to give him a chaste kiss on the lips.
"I have my period Jacob." I said as I put on my underwear and clothes. I didn`t want to tell him we should take things slow, not now. Later. He knew it as well. We shouldn`t rush things, not this time.
"I know, I`m sorry. You want me to drive you?"
"Jacob! Stay in bed and rest. I`ll be back over in less than an hour."
"After all that time I spent away from you, I don`t want to spend anymore away."
"We can`t be joined at the hip all the time you know. I know what you mean though. Just...I won`t feel comfy until I get freshened up you know. You don`t want me smelling like period now do you?"
"Better than stinking of leech."
"I`m sure. Listen, I`ll go now, that way I`ll be back sooner."
"Cool. Drive carefully."
"I promise."
"Thanks. Sure you don`t want me to come?"
"No thanks. You get some more sleep. What time is it even?" I searched for my mobile and stared at the screen for a while before I was sure of the numbers. "It`s only half past six. Great. No teachers will see me driving around when I`m supposed to be sick."
"You going to school tomorrow?"
"I suppose I should. My friends will be wondering what`s up with me you know. Plus I promised my mom I would try harder this year. I`ll bring you your homework if you want."
"No thanks."
"I`ll see you soon `kay."
"`kay. The keys are in the kitchen I think. Drive safe."
"I will." Giving him a kiss on the forehead I left.
Driving home gave me time to think. Jacob seemed changed. Like he was truly in love with me, and it wasn`t scary. It was right. With no Bella screwing things up we could really be together. We both knew that we needed time to get to know each other again. We need to start from the beginning, well almost. Now I wasn`t afraid to share all of myself with him. I knew now that if I told him my secrets that he wouldn`t laugh or be scornful, he would listen. And I would listen to him, I wouldn`t push him away in a fit of jealousy over some stupid girl. I will listen to him. I`m his best friend now, not her.
Seeing my mom`s car parked outside meant that she was still in bed. Seeing Michael`s car parked up behind her`s meant that he must have come over last night and stayed. Gross, I mean, Michael did kinda look like Bradley Cooper but...gross. Mom`s are supposed to be non sexual right?
Letting myself in quietly I listened for any noises. Perfect. They were sleeping away. Looks like I could have a shower and sneak back out before they even knew I had come and gone. I collected my bathrobe from my bedroom and went to the bathroom. Once inside I stripped off. My panties were bloody and my jeans were already stained. Perfectly normal...I`m not the first or the last girl to period her pants...but...what the hell?
Turning sideways I saw five long scratches running down my side, starting from just below my armpit and ending on my hip. Fuck! What happened? Fingering them they stung a little before going bright red then fading altogether. I just stood there in shock, open mouthed, staring at my reflection in the mirror.
That`s it. I`m going nuts. I should be sent to the looney bin! What just happened? I didn`t imagine that! I knew I didn`t! Swallowing my shock and fear I started up the shower and got under. Looking at my side again I saw nothing, I felt nothing. Just...just shower and go back to Jacob. Should I tell him? Should I worry him over this? Maybe it was nothing. The light or I scraped myself without noticing. Then why all the uneasiness at the moment? Crap! Jacob would be sure to feel it right?
Quickly scrubbing my body and hair I got out of the shower and got dressed at record speed. Bringing the giant box of tampons from the bathroom I stuffed them into my bag along with some clothes and other things.
"Sonia?" Jacob`s voice came from the window. Shit!
"Jacob! You shouldn`t be here!" I opened it and threw my bag out before jumping out after it.
"You were frightened!" He whispered, looking fearful.
"It was nothing." I hastened to reassure him, taking his car keys from my pocket and rushing towards the car.
"Hold up! What happened?" He asked, wrapping an arm around my waist and holding me to him. "Please tell me."
"It was just...when I got undressed to have my shower...I saw some marks on my side."
"What types of marks? Something I did? Or...or the leech?" He spat out the last bit and began to shake violently.
"NO! NO! Jacob not like that!" I backed away from him.
"Then what?" He seemed shaken and white faced.
"We can go back to yours and then I`ll tell you."
"NO! Here! Now!" He demanded, coming towards me and putting his hands on my sides.
"There...there were five scratches, they looked like from finger nails or something. They went as soon as I noticed them." I said to the ground. Gosh I sound so stupid. " I must have scratched myself and freaked out or something."
"I don`t believe that. Can I see?" I showed him. Pulling up my sweater I showed him where they were.
"They are still there..." He whispered, dropping to his knees he traced where the scars were with his finger tips.
"I can`t see anything." I said, craning my head to have a better look.
"I can...they are fading fast...but I can see...what the hell?" He asked, his tone very hard to read.
"I dunno Jacob. Come on, let`s just go back."
"Are you sure nothing happened? You can tell me."
"I`m sure. I don`t know how they got there. The leech didn`t do it. If he did then I would have told you."
"I know you would have. What if I did?"
"You didn`t!"
"If anything happened to you...if anyone ever hurt you!"
"With you around nobody could. Who would want to hurt me anyway?"
Jacob just stared at me. Eyes searching, his hands moving to cup my face.
"Let`s go back to mine." He said simply, taking his keys from me and leading me over to his car.
"I`m sorry." I said as we got in. He started up the engine. "For what?"
"For scaring you."
"Don`t be sorry for that. It`s our way of knowing when we need each other."
"True but...you`re hurt. I don`t want you running after me like..."
"I`m fine! It`s my job to see that you are okay."
"I don`t want to be a job."
"You`re not! You are the most important person in my life! I`m not losing you! I`m not going to let anything happen to you!"
"I don`t know what to say to that." I whispered into my lap.
"Don`t say anything. I know...I know I`m going off as intense and Edward style creepy big time but..."
"You can never be as creepy as he is."
"Thanks. Christ...what the fuck could have caused those marks?" He muttered, more to himself than to me.
"Lets...lets just talk about something else."
"Like what?"
"Dunno, like us for example. What we are going to do and...stuff." I ran my fingers through my wet hair and stared out the window. Awkward much?
"Where do we start?" He asked quietly.
"Our status?" I ventured.
"Imprinted."
"No duh! I mean...friends? Boyfriend and girlfriend?"
"I...I want to prove to you that I`m worthy."
"You saw Bella for who she really is. That`s proof enough for me."
"I don`t mean her. I mean...how I treated you before. How I was an asshole to you. I`m not really like that...I...I used to be nice you know."
"I know, I remember." I patted his knee and sighed. "I don`t know what you mean by proving yourself though."
"I mean like treating you good, doing things for you, helping you out when you need me, things like that you know?"
"You already do those things though."
"But I`ll do more."
"And what do you want me to do?" I asked.
"The same as you are doing now."
"I mean, I was pretty bitchy to you before."
"Pufff...A little. But that was because I was mean to you."
"Okay. Starting now we are nice to each other `kay? We get to know each other. Talk to each other."
"Sounds perfect Bluebird."
"You can call me that, but only in private."
"Cool, and please don`t call me boo in public."
"Hmmm, we`ll see."
"Sonia...come on." He laughed, turning into his drive.
"What? My boo hurting?" I pouted at him with baby eyes.
"You know, you are going to make things very difficult for me." He said, parking and getting out of the car.
"How?" I asked as I followed suit and got out.
"Being so damn cute like that. It makes me wanna just kiss the crap out of you."
"Kiss the crap out of me?" I laughed as I swung my back pack over my shoulder. He stood in front of me and placed his hands on my shoulders.
"And other things." He added before taking the bag from my shoulder and holding it by the strap on his pinkie.
"You want breakfast? I can make pancakes."
"Mmmmm pancakes. Sounds great." He opened the door and let me go in before him.
"I hope you like them though. The first couple I make always turn out crap."
"I love everything you make. You know that."
"Ha! You said my cauliflower curry looked like diarrhea."
"It tasted good though! Plus, it was the first time I had eaten curry." He defended. I wrapped my arms around his waist gently.
"I`m just playing with you."
"Ha ha ha. Come on." He patted my ass a little. "Let`s make breakfast."
"I want to make them for you."
"I want to help you to make them. I don`t want to stay in bed more."
"Okay then. We`ll make breakfast. Then go back to bed and relax."
"I like your way of thinking."
"Stop ass licking!" I giggled, searching his cabinets for flour.
"You know yours is the only ass I would ever..."
"Jacob!" I almost shouted, remembering Mr. Black was probably still sleeping. Finding the flour I grabbed a fist full and flung it at him. He dodged it in time and I ended up dusting the breakfast bar instead.
"Oohhh! I`m not cleaning that up!" He laughed.
"Shut up." I said, throwing more flour at him. I got him as he had flung back in laughter. "Ha!" He looked shocked.
"You are so gonna pay for that." He said as he backed me into a corner. I burst out laughing at the sight of him.
"You...you look so funny." I snorted.
"Huh? Let`s see how funny you look with the entire bag poured over your head." As quick as a flash he grabbed the bag of flour and poured it over my head.
"Jacob! Oh man!" My hair was still wet and everything.
"Don`t start things you can`t finish." He chuckled as he picked me up and held me to him. "Do you want to have a shower?"
"Looks like I have to now. Do you...want to have a bath with me instead?" I asked shyly.
"Isn`t that moving a bit fast?" Jacob asked gently. Okay embarrassing.
"Forget it." I must have went red faced. "Go shower, I`ll clean this up." I rubbed some flour off my face and shook out my hair.
"Hey...Come have a shower with me. I mean...since we are not officially going out I thought that the whole touching each other naked thing was out of bounds."
"Since when are we ever shy of seeing each other naked? Or touching each other?"
"Never." Jacob smiled and rubbed some more flour off my face.
"Go have your shower."
"When you come with me I will. It will be quicker and it will save water."
"You sure?"
"Yep, get your ass in that bathroom before I spank it."
"Is that supposed to frighten me or turn me on?"
"Both?"
"Do you think I should cut my hair again?" I asked Jacob while we finished cleaning the kitchen after making the pancakes. We left Mr. Black a plate, which I had to beg Jacob not to eat.
"I like it as it is now."
"I kinda like it short."
"Whatever you want. I like it longer."
"Do you want to talk about what happened up on the mountain?" I asked, looking at him from the corner of my eye.
"I thought the guys already told you." I knew he was trying to make himself sound light hearted. It wasn`t working though.
"I know it`s bothering you."
"It is. If you really want to know. It`s very simple. She is either so deluded that she thinks I`ll father her children...but you know, I don`t think she even wants kids, I bet that was the leech`s idea...or that she has no respect for me that she thinks I`ll do what she wants."
"Why...why did you love her in the first place?"
"Because I thought she was sweet. I mean, she shows up here all of a sudden, wanting to hang out, getting these sweet bikes for me to fix up. It was like woah you know. It started out as a crush you know."
"It`s natural."
"Yeah, but, then...then I changed. I knew the truth. I knew the legends were true. I knew who the Cullen`s really were. Then I knew that Bella knew. I was mad at her."
"Why?"
"Cause she thought that we were behind all these leech murders that were going on at the time."
"Crap, I remember all those hitch hikers going missing. I can`t believe she thought that you guys were killing those people."
"Yeah but...I forgave her that. I liked her, changing didn`t change that. Then, the leeches came back, and she ran back to them." He shook his head and looked so angry. "The time we spent together. Everything I did for her, and she threw it back in my face."
"But still, it didn`t stop me from liking her. It just got more intense. She was innocent, she was a human! What the hell was she doing with him? I convinced myself I needed to save her."
"I understand that."
"Do you?"
"Yeah, course."
"But then you came into my life. You made me question everything."
"Is that good or bad?"
"I thought it was bad at the time, but now, so good." He smiled at me and took my hand over the breakfast bar. He fingered the friendship bracelets on my wrist.
"Thanks for telling me all this stuff." I said.
"How did you feel? You know, in the beginning."
"Freaked out." I said a bit too fast. "I mean, Jacob Black, resident La Push Tribal school hottie takes a not too friendly notice in me. How was I supposed to feel? Don`t take that the wrong way. It was like I discovered a deeply repressed crush or something...it just made sense, but it also didn`t. I realized I liked you, or loved you, and I felt so foolish for it `cause you didn`t like me, or so I thought."
"So you liked me?" He smiled cheekily.
"Eh yeah! You knew it!" I nudged him with my fist. "I also hated Bella the minute I set eyes on her. Eurrghh."
"It`s over now. It`s just you for me now, and forever."
"And you me."
"You know, if you want to spend time with that Robbie douc..guy, then you can."
"He`s nice. Real nice but...he`s not you, and I don`t want to play him. He doesn`t want friendship Jacob. You know that and so do I."
"If you want to date him..."
"You will be okay, really okay, if I wanted to date Robbie?"
"If that`s what you wanted..."
"Great! Gosh thanks! You know I was really scared about telling you but I think I really like him." I gushed. Jacob was wide eyed as he regarded me. It took everything I had not to burst out laughing.
"Sonia...you`re not serious...are you?"
"Jacob...Jacob? Come on! What the fuck? Of course I`m not serious!"
"Don`t try and trick me like that!" He breathed out in relief and smiled a little.
"You are too easy."
"Crap, how did you stand me going on about Bella for months? Just the fucking thought of someone kissing you.."
"Maybe I`m just better at hiding my feelings?"
"No. I knew you were jealous. But since you can`t morph into a wolf you had different ways of acting out."
"Like what?"
"Shutting yourself off when you felt threatened. The whole mega bitch face." He made a fairly good impression of my face when I was angry. I rolled my eyes.
"You love my face and don`t even deny it."
"I fucking love your face."
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