Chapter 45: Kim and Sonia have a long awaited for chat. I suck at writing action/scary things but I did my best and I hope you like it. I`m trying to make it as realistic as possible. Thanks so much for your reviews from the last chapter. I do listen to everything you say. All of your feedback is really helpful. I mean it when I say I welcome criticism so fire away. Anyways happy reading.
Coming up next: Sonia and Kim do a little investigating and Mr. McBride lets something important slip. Jared and Kim spend a little alone time away from each other and Jacob gives Sonia something special but Bella (true to form) spoils things a little.
"Hey Kim!" I sang, knocking and opening her back door that led into her kitchen.
"Hey Sonia! What`s up?" She was sitting at a desk in the corner, doing something on her laptop. She got up and gave me a hug.
"Nothing much, just wanted to send some time with you."
"Really?"
"Yeah, I feel that I`m the closest to you out of everyone...you know?" Kim smiled her adorable dimpled smile. No wonder Jared was so obsessed with her. She was so good and sweet and it just shone through. She was not overtly sexy but she had that sort of appeal that showed what a great catch she was when you took the time to really look. It was kinda indescribable. If I were a lesbian I would totally have the hots for this chick.
"I feel the same. I mean, we can talk so naturally, something I can`t do with Emily or Rachel." She sounded a bit guilty admitting that.
"I know right? So..how`s Jared?" I asked, sitting down at the kitchen table.
"He`s fine. It`s such a relief having him back safe and sound." Kim sat down as well and crossed her legs.
"Bet the return sex was amazing."
"It was." Kim blushed a little. "He was so gentle that night, he always is but...that time, it was like the first time all over again." Kim`s blush deepened and she fiddled with her engagement ring. I felt so jealous of her relationship at the moment. "I`m sorry if I`m making you feel bad." She rushed to apologize.
"What? No no no! I was just thinking."
"About Jacob?"
"Yeah...I`m...I`m just so confused."
"I understand. A lot of shit has gone down. A lot of stuff that`s really difficult to forgive or forget."
"I love him...I really do but...I feel like I`m losing myself. My whole identity. I feel like I`m being absorbed into him."
"What do you feel like you`re losing?" She asked gently.
"I always thought that I was strong. A strong woman. Like my mom or my nana. The fact that I`m forgiving him so easily is...it`s not something I would have done in the past."
"He`s your imprint."
"I know. But...if Jared done the same to you, what would you have done? Not that Jared would even look at another girl but you know what I mean."
"If Jared would have pulled the same shit as Jacob had did...You think you`re not strong Sonia but you are. If I were in your shoes, from the very beginning, knowing or thinking that the guy you`re in love with, that you are bound to, is in love and wants another girl, is mean to you, treats you like shit, lies to you...it would have made me just pack my bags and leave."
"That`s the strong thing to do."
"Is it? Running away from your problems? You are strong staying here and confronting it head on because you know that it was wrong. Your problems, they only end up following you. The thing about these guys is that, once they imprint, they would never let their imprint go. If you had left, Jacob would have followed you like you had a tracker device attached to your person."
"That sounds so creepy."
"It is creepy. I had always wondered how Jared knew where I was. If I suddenly left and went somewhere far away, say Siberia or something, I would bet everything I had that Jared would find me."
"Jared would never hurt you Kim. I wish Jacob had been like him from the beginning."
"Every imprinting is different. It might have been so easy and clear for Jared from the beginning but it wasn`t for me."
"Tell me about it."
"You remember us from high school right? You remember the type of girls Jared used to hook up with?"
"Yeah...they had nothing on you." Jared went for the obvious lookers back then. Girls who gave it up easily. Kim didn`t fall into that category of girls.
"Thanks but...come on Sonia. There was one girl in Forks high that Jared used to date before he changed, and a little after as well and she looked like frickin` Mischa Barton! I mean, how the hell am I supposed to compare to that? The girl looked like a model!"
"Kim! How many times do you have to be told? You are so beautiful!" Kim giggled a little.
"Thanks Sonia. But you understand right? Jared goes from dating Miss OC to declaring his love to me. In a normal world, what guy would go from a tall, blonde, skinny and unfairly beautiful girl to a short, dark, and unremarkable girl like me? It was such a mind fuck."
"I felt a bit like that about Bella. I`m not calling Jacob a self hating native but...I always felt that he thought I was inferior to her."
"You`re not though. It takes time to get used to this imprinting stuff. With Jacob constantly going on and on and on about Bella it would affect you."
"I still don`t think he`s over her Kim."
"Why not?"
"It`s just a feeling. He`s angry at her, I know he is but what if he`s just wanting me now because...I don`t know..."
"That`s not it Sonia. I`m going to tell you something but you have to promise not to say it to Jacob or to anyone else."
"I promise...tell me."
"Jared tells me everything...you want to know something he told me about Jacob?"
"Eh...yeah!"
"Jared told me that Jacob was acting like such a dick when he first imprinted, not because he hated you, but because he wanted to keep you out of this shit, out of harms way."
"What?" I whispered.
"Yeah, he`s such an idiot but...he was convinced that it was the right thing to do. The second he imprinted you owned him, forget about Bella, he was lying to himself because he was afraid. Jacob likes to complicate things, he tired to scare you away, he tired to stay away from you but that`s like trying to keep a fly away from shit, forgive the comparison. He treated you like shit and tore himself up in remorse afterwards, he promised himself time and time again to just stay away and then invented excuses to see you or talk to you."
"Fuck me..."
"At that time, he did love Bella, but that love faded with every moment he spent with you. He cared for her, he wanted to keep her safe and he convinced himself that she was who he really wanted."
"I kinda know that. Jacob should have known better than to fuck with peoples emotions like that. It was exactly what Bella did to him and he did it to me. If he really had hated me I would have accepted that. But to lie about it...to treat someone so horribly for a stupid fucking reason just boggles the mind."
"It`s the truth. Jacob isn`t a bad guy, but no person is entirely good or entirely bad you know. You are it for him now. Whatever happens now is up to you."
"Did Jared tell you anything else?"
"Jacob is still holding back from you because he`s terrified of losing you, like he lost his mom. That kind of loss really affects people. Especially when it happens when you are so young."
"Do you think he`ll ever let go and just accept me?"
"Yes. That`s a definite. Jacob is nearly there. He is serious about you Sonia. Jared says that he doesn`t have any romantic feelings for Bella anymore. But don`t think that just because you are imprinted that your fears aren`t valid. They are. He needs to regain your trust again."
"He does because...I don`t trust him one hundred percent."
"Give it time."
"When`s Jared getting back?" I asked.
"He has work until six then patrol when I go to bed."
"Kim...can we talk about...the dream?" I whispered out with my heart hammering. Kim looked suddenly pale and took in a deep breath.
"Have you been having them again?"
"Not as bad as the first one."
"Me neither...but...weird things have been happening." Her hand went to hold her upper arm. An unconscious reaction but one I noticed.
"The marks? The scratches?" Kim looked at me wide eyed.
"Not scratches...but it was like a hand print was branded onto my arm...as soon as I felt it and looked at it it went."
"Did you tell Jared?"
"No." Kim whispered. "What could I have told him? It had gone by the time he had come back home."
"But he felt you were scared right?"
"Yeah, he felt it. He kept on and on at me to tell him what was up but...I just screamed at him to leave me the hell alone."
"Holy crap. How did he take that?"
"He was pretty upset and a bit angry at me but he understood that something was up. He tried his gentle approach when we had gone to bed which just made me cry. To shut him up I made him make fuck me."
"Wow. Has he mentioned it since?"
"No...He`s waiting for me to bring it up again."
"Did you tell him about the dream? What you saw when you were a kid?"
"Yeah...I don`t think he really believed me though...it was just a dream after all."
"We both know now that it wasn`t Kim."
"Sonia...I don`t know what to do...whatever that thing is..."
"It`s trying to hurt us."
"It can hurt us Sonia!"
"What do we do? Tell the guys?"
"No." Kim said shaking her head. "Jared and Jacob would go on freak out mode, either that or they don`t believe us."
"Are you sure? I mean maybe they could help or something?"
"We don`t even know what it is."
"The day my nana died...I asked her about that day when I was a kid and went missing...she got terrified...so terrified that she had a heart attack."
"Oh Sonia..." Kim came over and gave me a hug. I breathed in her fresh smell and hugged her back.
"She said...just before she died that...I awoke him...and that when I remembered then..."
"Then what?" Kim whispered.
"Then she collapsed...she never finished what she was going to say."
"So she knew..."
"She knew and she didn`t want to say. She never told me. She didn`t want to."
"Did she say anything else?" Kim asked gently.
"She said that old things exist or something. Something about balance between good and bad...like the wolves can`t exist without the vampires. When the bad becomes too dominant...it threatens the yin and yang. You know what I think..."
Before I could finish a loud crash came from one of the bedrooms followed by Noah crying and Kim and I screaming.
Kim tore out of the kitchen to Noah`s nursery and I followed with my heart hammering.
"Oh my baby...my little baby...it`s okay...it`s okay..." Kim had Noah in her arms and cradled to her chest. With a tear stained face she kissed his little head. She was shaking, and Noah wouldn`t let up screaming. I went over ushered Kim out of the room. Turning on the light I saw nothing out of the ordinary, but that bang, that crash, it came from in here didn`t it?
"Shit..." I whispered out. What the fuck just happened. It was him...I knew it was...he was making his presence known...we were getting too close...he was trying to scare us. Taking one last look around the room I decided to leave and check Kim and Jared`s bedroom out. Before I turned off the light I looked over at the window. The baby blue curtains were still drawn.
Trembling, I made my way open and took hold of them. With the feeling of knowing that you are about to see something bad I sucked in a deep breath and opened them.
"Oh my God." I covered my mouth with my hand and backed away.
The glass was cracked and blood and some feathers were stuck to the pane. A bird must have hit it...
"Sonia? Kim?" I heard Jacob`s voice yell from outside. I drew the curtains and ran out of the room to meet him.
"Jacob..." I had to stop myself from running and flinging myself into him. He bounded towards me.
"What happened?" He asked, putting his arms around me.
"We heard a crash from Noah`s room is all." Kim answered for me. Noah had stopped crying but she was still rocking him.
"Is that what happened Sonia?" Jacob asked, giving me a stare.
"Yes, that`s what happened." I said, looking him straight in the eye. I knew he didn`t believe me.
"Jared`s on his way Kim." He told her. "Are you okay?" He asked her kindly.
"I`m fine. Can you tell him he doesn`t have to leave work?"
"You know he`s gonna come so there`s no point. He`ll be here in `bout two minutes. Enough time for you two to get your stories straight." Jacob said, before leaving us to check the nursery. Kim and I stared at each other guiltily. Do we tell them? Kim shook her head. I understood. Just talking about it aloud caused a fucking bird to fly into the window! It was no accident. It was a warning. He can hurt us. He could hurt innocent little baby Noah if he wanted to. He could hurt our imprinters. The people we loved.
"Holy crap!" We heard Jacob say from Noah`s room. Sounds like he saw the window. Kim lay Noah down on the sofa and undressed him.
"What are you doing?" I asked, kneeling beside her.
"He pooped." She said. He did, I could smell it. Once she had everything off him she ran her fingers over his skin. I understood. She was checking for any marks on his skin.
"Do you think?" I asked.
"I hope not." She whispered out. There was nothing there. We both breathed a sigh of relief.
"KIM!" Jared yelled from outside. Noah jumped and started to cry again.
"I`ll take care of him." I told her, grabbing the diaper bag from the side of the sofa.
"Thanks." Kim said quickly before standing up and meeting Jared at the door. He looked so worried, just wearing a pair of jeans, meaning that he phased real quick to come here.
"Kimi!" He ran towards her and picked her up, holding her up flush against him.
"Jared...it`s okay..." She mumbled out, trying to get him to let go.
"It`s not...just tell me what happened?" He said, putting her down and running his fingers through her hair.
Deciding I shouldn`t be watching them I gave Noah my full attention. Taking off his soiled diaper and cleaning him up, I tried to get his wriggling body into a fresh one.
"Nothing happened Jared!" Kim said for the fifth time. Jared seemed like he wasn`t going to let it go anytime soon. I cringed. This was so uncomfortable.
"A bird hit the window in Noah`s room Jared. Must have made one hell of a bang. They were probably just freaked out `cause of the noise." Jacob said from the doorway of the nursery, trying to calm Jared down.
"Bullshit!" Jared yelled. Taking Kim by the hand he dragged her into their bedroom and slammed the door behind them, making me jump and Noah start to whimper again.
"Fuck..." Jacob whispered. "Sonia, just tell me what happened."
"The bird hit the window." I said, putting Noah`s tiny arms into the baby grow and buttoning it up.
"Just let it fucking go!" I heard Kim scream from the bedroom. I have never felt shittier. Why did I have to talk to her about it today? With the baby here and everything?
"DON`T GIVE ME THAT FUCKING SHIT!" Jared yelled at the top of his voice. "STOP FUCKING LYING TO ME!"
"LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE! I FUCKING HATE YOU!" Holy crap Kim!
"Get Noah and Kim outta here quick!" Jacob said urgently before bounding into the bedroom and dragging Jared out forcibly. He was red in the face and shaking horribly. Once they were outside I picked up Noah and went to get Kim. She was backed into a corner and bawling uncontrollably. Taking her by the hand I dragged her outside and to my car. Spotting Jacob wrestling Jared into the woods, and Sam and Paul in wolf form circling them, I took the chance.
"Kim, you and Noah are coming over to mine. Just until Jared calms the fuck down." Kim nodded and took Noah and got in. She seemed a bit spaced. I hopped in and drove the fuck outta there.
Holy hell I had never seen Jared and Kim fight like that. I would never have expected Kim to tell Jared that she hated him. And I sure as hell knew it took all of Jared`s self control not to fucking phase so close to Kim. Shit that was nuts. I sure as hell hoped that Jared lived up to his reputation and was smart enough not to follow. The pack wouldn`t let him but...Kim was his imprint...and neither of them seemed in their right mind right now.
"Mom!" I called as I opened the front door of my house.
"Hey honey." My mom came out of the living room and balked at the state Kim was in. "Kim, honey, how are you?" She came towards her and led her inside and sat her down on the sofa.
"Take Noah mom." I whispered in her ear. She nodded.
"Kim, do you want me to take Noah for a little bit? Put him down to sleep?"
"Yeah...yeah...I forgot to take his baby bag..." She mumbled, before bursting into tears again. Mom swiftly took Noah and left me and Kim alone. I knelt before her and took her in my arms.
"Sussh Kim, it`s okay." I cooed.
"It`s...not...I...said..I..hated..him..." She hiccuped and wiped her nose on the back of her hand. Oh God poor Kim. She looked devastated. "He..was..so..angry...he..never..gets...angry at...me."
"Come on...who doesn`t get angry sometimes huh? It will be okay."
"What if he never wants to talk to me again?" She asked.
"Are you talking about Jared Cameron?" I fake laughed. That was one horrible fight I heard. "Listen Kim, I`m sorry for starting all this."
"You didn`t start it Sonia...it started a long time ago...now it`s just...starting up again." She took a couple of deep breaths.
"You want one of my mom`s anti-anxiety pills?" I offered.
"Thanks...but no...still breast feeding you know."
"Listen, go to my room and lay down with Noah for a while."
"Thanks Sonia...I just need to clear my head a little...Jared too I suppose." She got up off the sofa and hugged her arms around her. "I can`t tell him Sonia. Not until I know what it is."
"I know...I`m behind you Kim."
"I know you are. I`m behind you too."
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