Tears wet my eyes when Tobias tells me of Frankie's untimely demise. I knew it was coming but it's still hard to hear. I really don't know why I'm reacting this way. I didn't know the man well even though I spoke to him almost every day over the past six months. Just a nod or a hello here or there, nothing more. He lived two doors down from me, and I can't say which faction he was born into, whether he has a family, if being Dauntless' DJ was his dream job, or if Tori was the love of his life. I just know that he took very good care of himself by jogging every morning no matter the weather. I've seen him go out in snow storms when it was bitingly cold, 90 degree sweltering heat, and torrential downpours. No, I didn't know him well but I can't stop the tears.

"Any word on the search for Tori?" I ask. My voice breaks as I wipe the moisture off my cheeks. We may have had our differences from time to time but she helped me a lot during initiation learn what my divergence was. Without her help, I might not be here.

"Will texted and said they were breaking for lunch but haven't found anything yet," he says.

"Have they searched the chasm to make sure she's not in the river, too?"

"A team has been assigned for after lunch," he says. "Speaking of lunch, let's go home."

"Okay," I say. I get up off the couch and add, "Where's Avery? I don't want her left alone in Harrison's office."

"She and Callen went to the cafeteria," he says. "She's really good at her job even though she's only been doing it for a month. She scanned Harrison's desktop and laptop but didn't find anything. After lunch I'm going to have her check the rest of our devices." He holds the office door open for me and Peanut then makes sure it's locked behind us.

"What are you making me for lunch?" I ask as we climb the stairs to our apartment. He looks at me out of the side of his eyes and a pout forms on his lips.

"I'm feeling a bit used," he says. "I'm beginning to think you only want me for my culinary skills."

"Damn, you found me out," I chuckle. "I married you and gave you three children only because you keep me well fed. I thought I hid it well." Instead of unlocking our front door he grabs ahold of me and tickles my ribs.

"No, no, no, no, no, no," I squeal causing Peanut to jump then start crying. "Look what you did. You woke the baby. Now you're in big trouble, mister." Will and Christina's door flies open, and she jumps into the hallway with a cast iron frying pan held high above her head. She's about to use it on my husband when our eyes meet. The absurdity of the situation hits me like a ton of bricks, and I start laughing almost uncontrollably. I try to stop but it only makes it worse. Tears stream down my face as Tobias rescues Peanut from unsteady grip. "I'm sorry. You just reminded me of that movie Tyler watches from time to time. 'Frying pans? Who knew?'" They both look at me like I've totally lost my mind. Maybe I have. Tobias tries to quiet Teagan but she's wailing loudly now.

"Is she drunk?" Christina slowly asks completely seriously, her brows furrowed. My irrational laughing fit continues until I'm panting so hard I can't breathe. "She shouldn't be drinking when she's nursing."

"I have no idea what's wrong with Tris but she hasn't been drinking," Tobias says as he unlocks our door. "You did look very funny jumping into the hallway with the skillet in your hand."

"I'm sorry," I say taking Peanut back from Tobias. I hold her close to my chest and sway a little and she stops crying. "Mommy didn't mean to go all crazy. I think it's a combination of lack of sleep and stress." I kiss her head softly. "Firstly, thank you for not hitting my husband with that. You could have killed him." I point to the pan she's trying to hide behind her back. "And secondly, where's my future son-in-law?" Christina laughs and Tobias grimaces. He doesn't want to think of either of his daughters dating until they're 30, even if it's in gest.

"Liam is asleep in the apartment," she says motioning to their open door. "I'm sorry for coming after you with my frying pan, Four, but I heard Tris screaming, and I thought she was in trouble. I would have had a more traditional weapon but I didn't have one handy."

"Uh, he was tickling me," I say to Christina and then I turn my attention to Tobias and whisper, "which you will be punished for later."

"I look forward to it," he says.

"I better get back to my boy," Christina says. "Oh, and Tris, we need a girls day … soon. I think a full spa treatment is in order and some new clothes. Maybe some dancing at the nightclub with our husbands after."

"That sounds like a great idea," I say. "I'll let you know when Teagan is taking a bottle so I can leave her for more than a couple hours."

"I think I hear Liam," she says as she heads towards her door.

"Good to know you have my back, even if it's with a frying pan," I say with a chuckle. We say goodbye to Christina then go inside our apartment. I put Peanut in her bassinet then collapse onto the couch, exhausted.

"I'm not sure we ever decided on lunch," he says.

"Anything is fine," I say as I let my eyes slide shut. "You know maybe we should consider giving Peanut a bottle to see if she'll take it. It would be nice for us to go out to dinner just the two of us. Not now of course but in a month or so."

"The bottle or the dinner?" he asks as he covers me with the fuzzy gray throw.

"The dinner," I mumble. When I wake up the apartment is quiet and there's a note next to a sandwich, chips, and bottle of water on the coffee table. I sit up and get my bearings then pick up the note.

VI

I hope you had a good nap. Peanut's with me in my office. I left you some lunch. I'll see you soon. I love you.

IV

That man is such a gift. I pick up the turkey sandwich with Swiss and savor every bite. I'm surprised that I was able to fall asleep now that I know how hungry I am. I quickly work my way through the delicious food he left me then drain the bottle of water. After I put the dishes in the dishwasher, I freshen up in the powder room then go downstairs to Tobias' office. I slept for a little over two hours so I imagine Peanut will need nursed again soon. I knock on his door and walk into his office. It's a lot more orderly than it was the last time I was in here. The floor is clear of all debris and everything is in its place except for the mountain of paperwork on his desk that needs to be sorted through.

"Thanks for letting me sleep and for having lunch ready when I woke up. That was very thoughtful. I have the best husband in the world. By the way, I didn't only marry you for your cooking skills," I chuckle as I look toward the portable sleeper but I'm surprised to find it empty. When Tobias stands up I notice the sling stretched tightly across his chest with Peanut's head sticking out of the fabric. "You look good with our daughter on your chest." I caress her head then give her a soft kiss. "I doubt that will ever fit me again." I run my fingers along the sling.

"I'll buy you a new one," he says, kissing my head.

"Has Avery been through your computer yet?" I ask. "I don't look forward to going through this stack of paperwork without it."

"No, she's in Will's office right now," he says. "And before you ask, she assured me that she didn't need a babysitter because she was the babysitter." He chuckles a little then sighs. "Will called and the chasm has been thoroughly searched. The only thing found was a leather jacket. Will thinks it looks like the jacket Tori wears all the time but since so many woman have the same jacket, it's hard to tell."

"Tobias, where does the river go?" I ask. He takes my hand and leads me to the couch. Peanut starts whining so he takes her out of the now stretched-out sling and hands her to me. "Are you hungry, Peanut?" I caress her cheek, and she tries to capture my fingertip between her searching lips.

"She's definitely hungry," Tobias says as he gets up off the couch. He goes to the door and flips the lock as I start to nurse her. He sits back down next to me and puts his arm around me, and we watch our daughter.

"So do you know?"

"Oh, the river," he says. "I don't think anyone knows. If you go too far, there's a whirlpool that will pull you down. That's why swimming isn't advised. Apparently there have been problems in the past with reckless members risking their lives in the water."

"Hhm. I didn't know that," I say. "Have there ever been any disappearances here in Dauntless related to the chasm or not that have gone unsolved?"

"Not that I know of," he says. "According to the people I've talked with and some reports I've read, from time to time over the years members have gone missing but they've all been accounted for. Some have suicided into the chasm, some have left of their own accord to become factionless, and a few have died throughout the city while being reckless but there's always been an explanation."

"Where is she?" I sigh as I put Peanut up to my shoulder to burp her. She holds her head up and looks at Tobias.

"I wish I knew, love." He pulls his phone out of his pocket when we hear it ring. He looks at the caller ID and frowns. "Unknown caller." He stares at it as it rings three more times before finally answering it. "Who is this?" he says, not kindly. "Edward? How the hell do you have this number?" He sighs then listens intently. "I'm going to put you on speaker. I want Tris to hear." He holds his phone between us and hits a button. I hear a whoosh of air like he's on a train. "Go ahead."

"I need to meet but I can't come there," he says. "They might be watching me."

"Who might be watching you?" I ask.

"Molly and her lap dog," he says. "The bitch is crazy." That I figured out on my own. "I have some information for you but I think meeting face-to-face would be safer … for all of us." I look at Tobias and know he's thinking the same thing I am.

"How do we know this isn't a trick?" he asks.

"You don't," Edward says. "But I owe your wife a debt of gratitude for helping me after that snake Hayes stabbed me in the eye. I'm tired of hearing how much of a saint he was. I have some information that you might find helpful. Do you want it or not?"

"Yes," I say. "Where shall we meet?"

"Tris!" Tobias says putting his hand over the phone. "I'm not sure this is a good idea and you are not meeting with him even if I decide to go."

"I'll only meet if she's there," Edward says, although his voice sounds muffled.

"I'm not putting my wife at risk," Tobias snarls into the phone.

"Four," I say, enunciating the name he hates coming from my lips. "I have an idea of where to meet that won't put anyone in danger. The Ferris wheel." He stares at me for a moment while I put Teagan to my other breast.

"Do you think you're being followed right now?" Tobias asks.

"I've been jumping on and off trains all day making sure I haven't been tailed."

"Go to the Ferris wheel," he says. "Tell the operator your name. He'll put you in a car and you'll stop at the bottom when Tris and I get there."

"What do I do if I see Molly, Drew, or their new redheaded lackey?" he asks.

"Leave immediately," Tobias says. "How long before you can get there?"

"Um, half-an-hour," he says.

"We'll meet you soon after," Tobias says. "And, Edward, your life depends on this not being a trap." He gets up off the couch and hangs up then immediately makes another call. He repeats the same information he gave Edward to the mystery caller. When he hangs up I know I'm in trouble. He stands with his back to me, running his hand through his hair. I study him carefully. His posture is stick straight and his neck and ears are bright red. He's pissed.

"Can I say anything to make you not so mad?" I ask. He stiffly shakes his head. Peanut finishes nursing, and I put her to my shoulder. After a couple pats, she burps. I get up and gently lie her on the couch then go to Tobias. "If you don't want me to go, Tobias, I won't." He slowly turns and looks my way, obviously confused. "I shouldn't have told him we would meet without talking it over with you first."

"You don't want to go with me?"

"Of course I do," I say. "I have a strong desire to see this through. I don't exactly know why and I could be crazy but I feel like you and I are personally under attack, and I want to put an end to it. I'm not going to go as far as to say I trust Edward but he's never given me a reason to mistrust him."

"He isn't as innocent as he seems," he says.

"What's that mean?" I ask.

"I only know rumors, nothing concrete," he says. "It really doesn't matter. What are we going to do with Peanut?"

"You're letting me come?"

"Do you need my permission?" he asks. "I'm your husband, not your father. I wish your first instinct was self-preservation but we both know it's not. You do what you want. So what are we going to do with our daughter? We've got to be quick about this. She'll need nursed again in less than three hours."

"Christina," I say. I pick Peanut up off the couch and Tobias gets the diaper bag and we hurry upstairs. I knock on her door and am about to do it again when she opens it.

"Are you alright?" she asks.

"Can you watch Teagan for a few hours?" I ask. "I wouldn't be asking if it wasn't important. I wish I could take the time to explain but we really need to leave now if I'm going to get back in time to feed her."

"Of course," she says. "Is it about Tori?"

"I think so but I'm not entirely sure," I say. I kiss Peanut who is sleeping peacefully in my arms. "Mommy loves you. I wish I didn't have to leave you but I'll be back very soon. You won't even notice that I'm gone." Tobias kisses her temple and caresses her head while he tells her he loves her then I hand her off to Christina. "Don't let Liam and Peanut get married while we're gone." I give her a one-arm hug then head out the door followed closely by Tobias. I don't remember having these suffocating feelings when I left Tessa the first time. I feel like something heavy is sitting on my chest.

"Hey, wait up," I say having to jog to keep up with him. "Where are we going?"

"The train," he says. He stops in his tracks, and I run into him then stumble backwards. I'm sure I would have fallen if he hadn't immediately reached out and caught me, keeping me upright. "Are you up for it?"

"I think so," I say. "You'll help me right?" He sighs. It's long and drawn out, a bit melodramatic. Then he grabs me and crashes his mouth into mine for a too short fiery kiss full of pent up frustration, desire, rage, worry, and so many more emotions. He releases my lips as quickly as he captured them and I sway against him, dazed.

"Sometimes you are absurd," he says, rolling his eyes. "Of course I'll help you. Not only do I love you more than anything but I don't want anything to happen to you." He runs his hand down my face then takes my hand. "Come on. We need to get there and back as quickly as possible." He practically drags me behind him. My legs are moving faster than they have in a long time, and I start to feel pulling and discomfort in my lower abdomen. I silently pray that when we make it to the tracks that we'll have to wait for the next train but I'm out of luck because there in the distance a headlight stares at me like an evil cyclops.

"I hope I'm up for this," I say as we start running when the front of the train speeds past us. Tobias jumps on with minimal effort then holds his arm out to me. I push my body nearly past its breaking point then grab ahold of the handle on the side of the train with my left hand and Tobias with my right. He practically lifts me into the car singlehandedly. I hold onto him while I feel my hammering heart begin to slow.

"How are you, love?" he asks. I take a quick physical inventory then groan.

"Sore, tired, stiff," I say. I think he's leading me to the bench but instead he goes to the end of the car. He slides down the wall then pulls me down until I'm straddling his lap, facing him. I stare into his eyes for a moment before I wrap my arms around his neck and lay my head on his shoulder. I feel his hands on my lower back through my nursing shirt, and I feel safe and loved. "Do you know what this reminds me of?"

"The last time we were of a train?" he asks.

"The date and the lovemaking are very nice memories but the labor kind of overshadows them both," I say, pulling back to look him in the eye. "I was thinking about the first time we were on a train alone. We were trying to figure out a mystery then, too."

"I remember this," he rubs his hands up and down my thighs, "and the making out more. I think I'm just going to remember the good times from now on."

"I hated leaving Peanut," I blurt out. "I don't remember feeling that way about Tessa."

"You did though," he says. "You hated leaving her. It made you feel selfish." Those feelings do seem vaguely familiar. "How are you feeling now? I hope that I didn't push you too far and set back your recovery. If you start hurting, let me know and I'll get you to the hospital." I take his face between my hands and draw his mouth to mine. I thrust my tongue between his parted lips and tangle it together with his. When the train dips, we know we're close to the Navy Pier, and we get to our feet. I'm standing by the open door wondering what the best way to jump would be when Tobias sweeps me up into his arms.

"Oh, my God!" I say. "You scared the crap out of me, Tobias Eaton."

"I'm sorry, love," he says, trying to hide a chuckle. "I'm going to get us off the train." I immediately wrap my arms tightly around his neck and this time I not only hear his laughter but I feel it, too. "I remember the first time I tried to get you to do this. You were being very stubborn."

"In my defense, I did think you were cheating on me," I say, pouting at the memory of the day I met his mother. He kisses my cheek bringing me back to the present. "I like jumping out of the train with you. It's like flying."

"Well, hold on tight because here we go," he says. I tighten my grip around his neck and he does the same with me. He takes two steps back then hurls us through the open train door. That moment of weightlessness as we hang suspended in midair is just as exhilarating this time as it was the first time we did it. He lands on his feet without a stumble, being carried forward a few steps by momentum. He sits me on my feet when we finally come to a stop and takes my hand then we head toward the popular destination. "We need to do a good job of making anyone who sees us think that we're just taking a break this afternoon." I move my hand up and wrap it around his arm and rest my head against his shoulder.

"Is this casual enough?" I ask. He chuckles and kisses my temple. We hurry to our destination but an onlooker would just see a happy couple who can't wait to be alone. I scan our surroundings for familiar faces or strangers taking a particular interest on our way to the Ferris wheel but don't see any, and I'm sure that Tobias is doing the same. When we reach the operator he nods at us in knowing.

"Hello, Mr. and Mrs. Eaton," he says. "I'll have your favorite gondola for you momentarily."

"Thank you," Tobias says.

"I think this was my favorite wedding present," I say, although I'm mainly thinking out loud. "Mom and Dad paying for the wedding was generous, the hair clip was sentimental and I look forward to handing it down one day, the infinity jewelry was perfect but the Ferris wheel is something we get to enjoy again and again. Every time I look at it I think of you following me the night of capture the flag."

"Best decision I ever made," he says, kissing my temple. "Looks like our ride is here." While the wheel slows to a crawl, my eyes scan the small crowd but thankfully I don't see any factionless members.

"Does the control room have eyes on the trio right now?" I whisper as the gondola stops right in front of us. I look toward the basket but it looks empty.

"They're supposed to," he says. "Come on, love." He takes my hand and leads me into the car. When we sit down opposite the door, movement catches my eye, and I see Edward crouched down behind the metal door. We don't speak until we're at least a couple stories up.

"Thank you for coming," he says. He stands up and stretches his legs then sits on the bench opposite up.

"What information do you have for us?" Tobias asks, very much Four right now. He has one arm protectively around me, and the other is caressing the knife handle sticking out of his boot. Although I don't think we'll need a weapon, I'm glad he brought one.

"You're not pregnant anymore," he says pointing at my flat but still soft midsection.

"We don't mean to be rude, Edward, but we don't have time for chit chat," I say. "I've got to get home to our baby."

"What do you want to tell us?" Tobias asks.

"You have a leak in Dauntless," he says.