Chapter 51. Sorry for such a long wait. I was working intensively in July and I was on holidays for the first half of August. Anyways. Hope you guys enjoy. Not really an interesting chapter but something important happens, I promise. It`s difficult getting into the swing of writing again. Happy reading and remember to review. You guys are great for sticking with this for so long.

"Which one do you like though?" Jacob asked me for the millionth time. Intertwining his fingers with mine behind my back he nudged me a little.

"I told you! I like them all!" I giggled at him. Both me and Jacob loved this little game. He huffed at me, pretending to be annoyed, and looked afresh at the glass display case that held the jewelry.

"If I had the money I would buy them all for you bluebird...but unfortunately your wolf is kinda broke at the moment." He lamented with a fake sadness which got me instantly guilty.

"Don`t worry Jacob..." I hastened to tell him. "...I have a silver bracelet already. You don`t need to get me a new one."

The saleswomen in the jewelers gave us a distasteful glare before stalking off to the other end of the counter.

"But I want to get you a new one." Jacob pleaded. "It`s not everyday I get you gifts you know."

"But you got me lots already!" I wrapped my arms around his waist and looked up at him.

"Correction. I made you lots. I should at least buy one of your presents. Besides. I need the bracelet for something else." He dropped his voice to a conspirital level.

"You have more things for me?" I questioned, maybe a little bit too enthusiastically.

"One more thing." He admitted, a smile curving his mouth. He traced his thumb along my cheekbone and kissed me on the top of my head. "Come on! Choose! And not the cheapest one either. I know you."

"Okay okay...this one." I pointed at a thin silver bracelet with small loops. It was pretty and not too expensive, something Jacob could afford and feel proud of.

"You sure?"

"Yes. It`s the nicest one."

"Okay then. Excuse me." He called over to the snotty saleswoman. She slowly made her way up to us.

"Has the lady finally chosen something to her taste." She gave me a long sweeping look and smiled thinly. Who does the bitch think she is? This isn`t Cartier for fucks sake!

"The lady has. We want to see this bracelet." Jacob said gruffly, pointing to the one I had choosen. The woman unlocked the glass display case and took it out.

"A good choice. In your price range at least." She said smoothly, laying the bracelet out on the counter. I looked at her in shock because of her blatant rudeness. I could feel Jacob tremble a tiny bit beside me.

"Meaning?" Jacob accused angrily. Her eyes widened as she regarded Jacob fully. Let her feel scared. Serves her right. We waited for her to respond.

"Meaning...two teens can`t possibly afford something..." She looked around desperately. "...like this for example." She gestured towards an ugly ruby necklace in the wall cabinet. She smiled weakly. Jacob picked up the bracelet and studied it.

"This isn`t you Sonia. We should look somewhere else." He handed back the bracelet to the saleswoman and practically dragged me out of the jewelers and into the rainy street.

"Where else can we get a fucking bracelet?" He growled angrily.

"Forget it Jacob. Come on! Don`t let her get to you!" I pleaded with him.

"Nobody talks to me like that! Or looks at you like you were something..." He didn`t finish what he was going to say. I sighed and pulled up my hood against the rain.

"Looks at me like I was something stuck to the bottom of their shoe you mean?" I asked lightheartedly. "I`m used to it Jacob so don`t get all bothered."

"Used to it? People should treat you with respect."

"Not everybody is going to look at me through your eyes Jacob."

"They should." He said simply. I smiled at him and squeezed his arm.

"You wanna grab a coffee? I`m freezing out here."

"Whatever you want. And food too?"

"Sure. I`m starved. I`m totally craving a cheese burger at the moment. And a milkshake! Yumm!"

"I thought you wanted a coffee?" Jacob laughed. His face bright as he looked down at me.

"Meh...food sounds better. So. Where to captain?"

"That diner near the pier? What`s it called?"

"Greg`s? No...The Seafront Diner! Cool."

"Sonia."

"Mmmm?" I grunted at him with a mouth full of burger. He was looking at me seriously. Swallowing what I had in my mouth hastily I took a sip of my milkshake and cleared my throat.

"Is everything okay...you know...your problem I mean." He looked at me intently. I knew he wouldn`t be content with a simple shoulder shrug.

"I don`t know how to answer that question Jacob. It hasn`t gotten any worse if that`s what you want to know."

"What I want to know is that you`re handling this." Jacob answered a bit short. He reached over the plastic table and took my hand. "I`m sorry that my dad refused to invite Bella and her dad over." This time I shrugged.

"It wasn`t the best thought out plan anyway." I popped a french fry into my mouth and stared out the window.

Mr. Black had refused to invite Bella over without a proper explanation of what me and Kim were up to. Jacob didn`t seem so sorry though. I knew he was glad that his dad had said no. That was two weeks ago now and me and Kim were no closer to figuring out this mess. To top it all off Mr. McBride was gone. Just gone. His place abandoned. I still went to his place everyday to see if he came back but...nothing. The nightmares had toned down a lot also. They were just creepy now. Or maybe I was just getting used to them?

"If you want me to help you with anything..."

"No Jacob." I said quietly, shaking my head. A gloomy silence hung between us, completely killing the mood. Continuing eating my burger I stared at the sparkly specks of gold on the table top. I knew Jacob was still looking at me.

Something had happened to him. He was more...careful around me now. More forgiving. Sometimes I would catch him eyeballing me strangely. A look I couldn`t put my finger on. After the last time we made love I thought he would try and get our boyfriend/girlfriend status back but no. If anything he acted like it didn`t happen. He didn`t even kiss me fully anymore. Just chaste pecks here and there. I didn`t really know how I felt about that.

I knew he was still 'proving' himself to me. To be honest I loved him this way. All the attention, all the little gifts he made. He was even fixing up my house and repairing things neither me nor my mom knew needed repairing.

I didn`t really know why he wanted to get me a bracelet though. Maybe he noticed that all my jewelry was mostly cheap crap and wanted to get me something nice?

"Jacob?"

"Yes?"

"Do you...do you think...that if I told you about what`s going on...that you could like...mentally block it from the pack or something?" I chanced a glance in his direction. He had his hamburger halfway to his mouth and looked a bit shocked. Shit! Should I have said that?

"I don`t think I could Sonia. No matter how much I wanted to."

"Okay then. Don`t worry."

"Don`t worry...I`ll try not to. Just tell me Sonia. The pack will help you and Kim. I`ll fix this."

"Jacob! Do you think that this is easy for me? Not being able to tell you? Not knowing what the fuck I`m doing sometimes? Not knowing what I`m supposed to do next! What makes you think that you have all the answers?" I was getting pissed now. "What makes you think that you can make any difference?" I stood up and fished ten dollars out of my bag and put it on the table. I fled the diner.

The rain was really coming down by the time I made half way up the boardwalk. The water was churning angrily and spraying me with salty water. I felt so hopeless at the moment. I had no fucking answers. I hadn`t solved anything. It was like I was waiting for the solution to this shit to fall magically into my lap. Or for some magic spell like in Harry Potter. But Utlapa was not Voldemort. He couldn`t be killed with a wand. It would be cool if he could though.

"Sonia!" Jacob came up from behind me but I kept on walking. He matched my pace and walked beside me. "Why are you crying?" He asked after a couple of minutes.

"Because I`m angry!" I yelled.

"I`m sorry I made you angry."

"You didn`t! It`s just..." I stopped and lent on the wooden railings with my head in my hands.

"I`m listening. I`m here for you." Jacob pulled me up and held me close to him. "Please baby."

"It`s too much Jacob. I don`t know what I`m doing...and I`m scared shitless." Jacob`s hold tightened on me for a second.

"Are you in physical danger?" He asked.

"No...I don`t think so."

"You don`t think so?"

Jacob tilted my head up and pulled back my hood. He looked so pained. Running his hands through my wet hair he bent down and kissed me passionately.

"Jacob..." I murmured as he pulled away.

"I`ll protect you. Always. Nothing will hurt you. Not while I`m still standing."

"I need you Jacob. I love you. Don`t leave me please. Don`t leave me again." I begged. Not knowing where this sudden fear sprang from. Jacob looked horrified.

"I`m never EVER going to leave you Sonia. Nothing can make me leave your side. NOTHING!"

"Promise me."

"I promise you Sonia. I`m never going away."

Jacob drove us back to his from Port Angeles. And of course we ended up in his bed. I was struggling out of my wet undies as he was bending me over onto all fours. I was so fucking hot for him right now. I jumped slightly as he explored my inner thighs lightly with his finger tips.

"Sonia...tell me you`re mine." He demanded, as he freed me from my panties.

"I`m yours." I replied easily and happily as he pressed his cock into me slowly. I couldn`t control the long moan of pleasure that escaped me.

The sex was rough and claiming and utterly exhilarating. I had trouble coming but I did in the end. When I did I came hard.

When we were finished I lay contented in Jacob`s arms. He was braiding my hair while I was spread over his chest. I didn`t want to leave him and go home. I didn`t want to go back home without him. Maybe my mom would be cool if Jacob slept over?

"Phone`s ringing." Jacob said, getting up and kissing my back.

"Come back soon."

"I will. You don`t have to worry about that." He promised cheekily.

I spread out luxuriously on the bed and closed my eyes. Jacob surely had me spent.

"Hey Sonia." Jacob said as he came back into the room. He switched on the main light and sat on the bed next to me.

"Yes handsome?" I smiled at him.

"I...on the phone. There was a call." Huh?

"A call? Are you sure?" I laughed at him but his expression remained serious. "From who?"

"From...somebody. A man who says he`s your father."

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