Chapter 55: Hope you guys enjoy. This is just one big long lemon. Thanks so much for all your great and wonderful reviews from the last chapter. Thanks for sticking with me. I am going to make the remaining chapters as good as possible for all of you.

So, coming up next. James Island and sexy camping. Sonia`s dad visits. Bella and Edward`s wedding is approaching.

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Jacob POV

"Hey." I greeted her simply. Drinking her in. She smiled briefly before coming inside and going straight for the sofa in the living room. Something was up with her. She hadn`t been in La Push for the past couple of hours that`s for sure. She must have been doing...whatever it is she does.

"Did you find Mr. McBride?" She asked me, taking off her ancient converse trainers. I couldn`t help but notice how her nipples were showing through her sweater, tempting me, making me plan my moves carefully. At this moment I couldn`t care less about Mr. McBride and all the shit that was going on. I only wanted her.

"He doesn`t want to be found. We searched everywhere in our territory and a little way out too. No sign." I watched her slump back into the sofa and sigh. Her face was so troubled and it made me physically ache. "You okay?"

"Yeah...peachy." She wouldn`t make eye contact with me. This is going to be so difficult now. I could forget about her opening up now. But a guy could try right?

"I know you`re not going to tell me what`s going on now. He`s scared you. Right now I want to put something right that went wrong today." I watched on as her beautiful almond shaped eyes grew round in shock as I kneeled down in front of her and held up my mothers ring. "I want to give you this."

"Jacob...you..you don`t have to give me your mom`s ring." She stuttered, her eyes still fixed on the ring. I took her left hand, reveling in her warmth and the rush of emotions the simple touch of her skin could evoke within me.

"It`s yours. She would have wanted you to have it. So take it." I slipped it on her ring finger. It was a little bit loose but I would get that fixed.

"It`s beautiful." She commented, still afraid to look me in the eyes. I smiled and caressed her fingers.

"You are. Tomorrow I`m going to take you to James Island. We`ll get married there." I moved in closer to her and nuzzled her neck. I knew she was in one of her shy moods so it was best to take things slow. But when she did finally submit...it was going to be so sweet. Running my fingers over her collar bone I let my hands rest on her shoulders.

"You really want to?" She asked. The question took me aback. I made her look me in the eye. They were questioning, and a little scared.

"I really, really want to. How can you ask me that?"

"I had to ask." She said with a nervous little giggle.

"You don`t. You know how beautiful you look right now?"

"Jacob! Quit it!" She giggled some more. Putting her arms around my neck she rested her head on my shoulder. I let my hands travel down her back and permitted my fingers to dip into the waist band of her jeans.

"I`ll quit it if you promise me something." I whispered into her ear.

"What?" She asked a little shakily.

"You`ll let me protect you, like a husband should. You`ll let me love you like I want. I promise you that I`ll be so good to you. I promise you won`t regret it. Just let me." God I meant so much with those words that I wasn`t sure she got all the meanings.

"Promise me you`ll never leave me Jacob. Promise me you`ll love me forever." Why was she so frightened? She was even trembling a little!

"Sonia! This is me! Jacob! The guy who is freakin` obsessed with you! Do you really, truly, honestly! think that I`ll ever leave you? Let alone stop loving you?" I pulled her closer into me and held her tight. Her heartbeat was settling down. She was relaxing. Breathing her in deep I sighed heavily. Her smell. Her scent. Something that was so unique to her that it was like the air that was made for only me to breathe. I needed her more than she could ever imagine. The thoughts of her ever doubting that...

"Promise me Jacob." She asked of me again. She weaved her fingers into my hair and melted into me.

"Promise. I`m going to prove it to you. I`m going to show you."

"Show me then."

We locked eyes for a couple of seconds before my mouth found hers. She immediately granted me access to her sweet, moist mouth and the feeling of her wet tongue caressing my own gave me an instant hard on. Anticipating what was coming next was making my inner animal go wild.

Groaning, I lifted her up and almost stumbled in my haste to get her to my bedroom. The intoxicating smell of her arousal invaded my nostrils so suddenly that it made me slam her into the wall and grind myself roughly into her. I knew I wouldn`t last so long once I got inside her...control yourself Jacob. Make it great for her Jacob...don`t be selfish.

Why was it that she always made me feel so nervous when it came to sex? Why did I feel that I couldn`t satisfy her when she told me again and again that I did. Even when I felt the proof of her orgasms? The way she made me feel in her arms...so powerful, so strong but also so utterly in her control that it was frightening. Did she feel the same? It was a question that I was afraid to ask her.

Trying not to rip anything of her clothes I undressed her in the hall and freed myself of my jeans and boxers. I was going to take her here, right up against this wall. She said I could love her the way I wanted to and I wanted her this way. I wanted to control this because I...I don`t really know why.

Christ she is so tight! I couldn`t help but draw it out while entering her. So slowly. It was, physically, the most beautiful feeling in the world for me. And Sonia`s long moan of pleasure was music to my ears. If she kept on making noises like that then...I thrust up into her again, harder this time, making her cry louder, making her hold on to me tighter. That was all the encouragement I needed. Her arousal, her heat, her heatbeat, her passion, her love for me...everything that she was...everything that I was...came together in this one, very primal, very natural act. It is all so simple...there is no question about anything anymore...

Fire coursed through my veins, fueling me with even more happiness and pleasure as Sonia orgasmed. Watching her face as she did so was breathtaking...I can make her happy...

Will it always feel this way? The feeling of overwhelming love and protectiveness that I felt looking at her sleeping face. Her content face. She had her hands tucked under her cheek as she slept on her side. The picture of innocence. Smiling, I smoothed her hair from her face and behind her ear. Snuggling into her I kissed her brow. I knew I had worn her out with our love making. She had fallen asleep as soon as her head hit my pillow.

My girl...what was going on in the part of your life that you keep so secret from me? Why can`t I know? What is so important that you can`t tell me? You know when you hurt I hurt? Things can`t be right between us if you don`t tell me what`s going on you know. Why are you so afraid that I`ll leave you? Stop loving you. How could you even think that?

Me stop loving Sonia. That was the most bullshit stupid thing I had ever heard in my entire life. The minute I had laid eyes on her in that hallway I knew I couldn`t bear to be away from her, no matter how much I had lied to myself in the past. If something even attempted to take her away from me then...I held onto her tighter. Careful not to wake her I pulled her into me and cuddled her against my chest.

What was happening was seriously getting to me. Getting to all of us. We could all feel it. It being something that put us all on edge and nervous. Maybe it was something got to do with animal intuition? We could sense the danger...undefined as it was it was still there. Ever present, ever threatening. And Sonia knew. She knew something but she was holding strong. If she was brave enough to face whatever the hell this is then I`m brave enough.

She was beginning to stir. I hope I didn`t wake her up. She sure as hell needed some sleep. Lately she has been looking quite worn, a little ashen.

"Jacob..." She mumbled out against my chest. Stretching out against me like a cat for a couple of seconds gave me a good look at her breasts, which made my loins start to stir. Ever so casually she let her small, soft hand rest on my semi-hard penis, making me breath faster. With a feather light touch she let her fingers trail along its length. God this felt great...man I`m so lucky...

"You awake?" She asked me, gripping me harder, causing me to moan gently.

"What do you think?" I replied, letting my greedy hands feel her breasts. She giggled softly and lifted her head up to look at me. Her eyes were two black inky pools. Filled with love, filled with fire. How could she ever think that I would leave her? I was totally hers.

"I think that some of you is for sure awake." She continued her massage of my aching cock, igniting the fire inside me farther.

"How are you feeling?" I asked as I nibbled on her neck. Delicious.

"Great...you?" She inquired before peppering my jaw with little kisses. Sure enough everything external started to melt away so all that was left was me and her, on my bed, naked, both ready for more.

"Never better." I whispered as I rolled onto my back and placed her on top of me. The soft length of her body stretched luxuriously on top of mine again before she straddled my hips and rubbed her warm pussy against my cock. The warmest part of her body. Her heat. My home forever. Oh man that feels so fucking good...

She slowly lowered herself onto me, taking me by surprise. Her tight channel gripped me, making me breath faster. So sweet...So warm...So

I watched her as she rode herself to orgasm on top of me. I loved how her skin would flush, how her nipples hardened and how her silky black hair fell about her face as she moved. She was every bit the graceful dancer. As she came down from her high she quietened down but didn`t stop. She movements started up quicker now...as if she was savoring every fluid motion. I felt my own orgasm build up...she was moaning desperately now, gripping my hands that were placed on her hips tightly. I could feel her walls grip me repeatedly and she came...her own orgasm swiftly bringing on my own...here it comes...Gripping her hips hard I thrust up and came hard...am I actually seeing stars? She was the only thing that could make me breathless.

Light headed I held her against me panting. Christ that was intense! That was a bit different than before. I ran my hands up and down her sweaty, trembling back. I was getting such a flood of emotions from her that it was difficult to separate my own from hers. Why was she still trembling?

"Sonia?" I panted out into her hair. "You okay babe?"

"Mmmhmm..." She mumbled out from my shoulder. Was she...crying?

Shifting my position and sitting up a little I tried to get a look at her face.

"Sonia...what`s the matter?" I asked. Okay...why was she crying? What did I do? She got off me and buried her head in my pillow, sobbing.

"Please tell me!" I implored, kissing her shoulders. "Did I hurt you?" Did I? Oh my God what if I did? I could never forgive myself.

"Nnnnoo" She sniffled, drawing the duvet over her.

"Tell me then." I asked gently. "What happened?" This is the weirdest thing ever to happen. I thought we were having fun. I felt fucking terrible now.

"Jacob..." She choked out, reaching for me. I took her hand and kissed it.

"What sweetheart?"

"Just hold me...please..." She begged. And I did what she asked. That`s what a good imprinter does, doesn`t he? Hold his imprint when she needs him. Spooning her I held her tight and didn`t say anything. What could I say? I understood that she had went over to Kim`s just after I left her at Emily`s. I knew Kim had told her not to tell me anything more. I also knew she had left La Push not soon after. Where was she going? What was she doing? Is she ever going to put herself out of her own misery and tell me?

Sonia`s POV

I knew getting out of Jacob`s place without telling him why I had suddenly burst into tears after sex would be hard but I did it. He must think that I`m totally mental now! I mean...who the fuck cries after sex? Smooth move Sonia.

It was just...that whole fucking day got to me. Knowing Bella had set Utlapa free. Having this seed of doubt in my mind that Jacob could leave me and stop loving me was quickly turning me into a mess. What we had...what I felt for him...what he was to me...it was too much to lose. And I came to that realization pretty quickly while fucking him cow girl style. He gave me his mothers engagement ring. He was taking me to James Island to get married and I was still doubting him. I wasn`t this pessimistic before so why am I now? Should I really put that much store by the evil words of a traitor to my tribe? Why was I so ready to believe him?

But Mr. McBride freaked me out today as well. He was coming to terms with our fate. No! It hasn`t happened yet! IT WON`T HAPPEN!

"Sonia? Do you want more green beans?" My mom asked.

"No thanks." I pushed my remaining food around on the plate and sighed.

"Pretty ring." She commented, taking my hand. My insides turned ice cold.

"Yeah..."

"This was Sarah Black`s wasn`t it?"

"Jacob gave it to me." I took my hand from hers and hid it under the table.

"I hope you aren`t planning on doing something stupid Sonia. You`ve been skipping a lot of school."

"I`ve had a lot on my plate with all this Utlapa bullshit." I defended. Mom pursed her lips and fixed me with a stern look.

"That`s not what I`m talking about and you know it. Listen...it`s always going to be hard for me to see you as nothing more than my little girl...as a little girl. I know that you are...sleeping...with Jacob. I accept that. It`s normal. But...God I don`t know what I`m trying to even say. Just take care of yourself."

"I am mom. I`m taking my pill don`t worry."

"I know. I`m checking that myself." Really? She was? I rolled my eyes and pushed my plate away.

"Even if I did get pregnant Jacob would take care of me." I stated childishly.

"Uhmm...yeah he would. You don`t have to worry about that." Okay. First, she took too long to answer and second she didn`t believe a word of what she was saying. I stared at her through narrowed eyes.

"He would. He loves me. If I get pregnant he`d be happy! Is there something you know that you`re not telling me?" I accused.

"I don`t know what you`re talking about." She picked up the dinner plates and threw them into the sink.

"Don`t lie to me mom!"

"I`m not lying to you!"

"It`s so obvious that you are!"

"STOP IT NOW!" She yelled. We stared each other down.

"I`m getting sick of this. Sick! Do fucking nothing? That`s the best you and Sue could come with?"

"What can you do?"

"Fight! That`s what I can do! Fight for what is right! Don`t you believe in that mom?"

"You are just like your father. That temper will get you into serious trouble one day Sonia."

"What?"

"Go to bed now."

"But mom!"

"No buts. Go to bed Sonia." She repeated in a tone not to be contested. I didn`t even bother to say goodnight to her as I stormed to my room. I was going to have to do something about our relationship. I knew she was lying to me about a lot of things. For what reason I`m not sure but she was.

And Jacob...I`m to be his wife tomorrow after school. He wouldn`t have given me his mothers ring if he wasn`t committed to me right? I knew I needed to make it up to him because of my creepy behavior over at his earlier on today. I wonder how he`ll be when he comes over tonight.

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