Chapter 59. Some questions will be answered here. Hope you all enjoy and sorry about the miserable crap which was my last update. I am truly sorry. Anyway. This one is better and I hope you enjoy. Happy reading.

"Hi Sam."

"Hey Sonia." He greeted me a bit gruffly. So he was still mad at me. Plus Jacob had told him about Bernie and Ollie. Seems like I was bringing nothing but trouble to the pack lately. I don´t blame him for being pissed.

"Can I talk to you in private for a bit. I have something important to tell you." I asked meekly. I needed to tell him what my mom had told me about his dad. He deserved to know.

"About what? Your stupid friends or the other mess with the old shapeshifter and some evil spirit? Or is it something new?" He snapped.

"Something new. It´s about your dad. And it´s important." I stressed. He frowned in confusion and closed his front door behind him as he stepped out.

"Walk and talk." He commanded. "And make it quick because I need to go to a council meeting in half an hour."

We headed down the road that goes towards first beach.

"Yesterday my mom told me something important about my dad, and yours."

"I heard your dad has been in touch. Have you spoken to him?"

"I haven´t. She told me that our dads were supposed to phase, but didn´t." I looked at Sam´s reaction. He was staring at me in disbelief. "This happened about thirteen years ago, when I was four and you were nine. The time when your dad disappeared and mine got sent away."

"Are you serious?"

"I am. It´s what my mom told me. And she´s not lying. Your mom knew but didn´t tell you."

"I don´t believe my mom would keep something that important from me Sonia. Maybe your mom was just telling you that to make you feel better or something."

"Give me a break Sam! My mom wouldn´t lie about something like that! I thought that you would have wanted to know."

"And what´s that supposed to help? He left Sonia. Not one word in almost fourteen years! Don´t you think someone would have said something all this time?"

"I don´t know why people do the things they do. But…my dad might know something about yours. He might know where he is and…"

"AND THEN WHAT?" He roared, making me jump a foot in fright. "He´ll come back and we can all play at happy families? He left Sonia! And not a word from him since! I don´t need you coming to me and telling me some bullshit sob story!"

"Cool it Sam!" I was petrified. He looked like he wanted to fucking kill me. "I didn´t tell you the whole story…"

"SHUT THE FUCK UP!" He began to shake. And I began to cry.

"HEY!" I barely registered Embry´s voice as I ran away from Sam and towards the beach. God….I am such a screw up….I should have waited…should have told him differently.

I found a rock and sat down, trying to control my tears. Taking a couple of deep breaths I stopped crying and hugged my knees to my chest.

I hated this! It was just all too hard. It was all too big for me to handle. I couldn´t make anyone happy anymore. Jacob, my friends, the pack…..they were all angry at me. For something that is beyond my control. For something I didn´t start.

"Hey Sonia."

"Leave me alone Jared." I kept my eyes on the sea. Watching the waves.

"No. You are upset." He sat down beside me.

"Do what you want then." I got up and began to walk. I wanted to go home and forget about everything.

"You did the right thing Sonia so don´t beat yourself up."

"The right thing….sure."

"You did. I would have told Sam the same. He´s just a bit prickly when it comes to Joshua. Hasn´t gotten over it. It´s easier for him to believe that he is an asshole that doesn´t exist. He doesn´t want to know anymore about him you know."

"Whatever Jared. He hates me now."

"He doesn´t hate you." Jared said seriously. "Do you want to come over to mine? Talk to Kim for a bit?"

"I just want to go home. At least there I won´t screw things up more."

"If you´re sure. I´ll walk you."

"Where´s Jacob? Still stalking Bernie and Ollie?"

"No. He´s laying into Sam big time."

"I just keep on messing things up for him."

"For who? Jacob? You´re not. He´s just worried. And frustrated. Jacob can´t pretend that everything is fine when it really isn´t you know."

"I just want him to be happy."

"He can´t be happy when you´re not."

"I´m sorry for this rotten mess Jared."

"It´s not your fault this is happening Sonia. It´s not any of our fault. Just…..promise me that….." I already knew what he wanted to say.

"I won´t let anything happen to Kim. She won´t be harmed and she is not in danger Jared." I smiled as he breathed out a breath of relief.

"Thanks Sonia. Are you sure you don´t want to come over? Kim´s making spaghetti."

"I´m sure. I´m pretty tired."

"Jacob will come to see you in a bit anyway."

"Cool." I said without enthusiasm.

"He won´t be angry at you." Jared stated confidently. "Christ, if Sam had spoken that way to Kimi then I´d…..so yeah, Jacob won´t be mad at you."

"You sound so sure."

"I am sure. You are Jacob´s princess. As pansy as that sounds he does think of you that way. He´s just snappy because everything isn´t perfect and you are unhappy. If he´s acting like a jerk it´s not because of you."

We arrived to my house and stopped outside for a couple of seconds. I looked at Jared. His head was turned in what seemed to be the direction of his and Kim´s house.

"Tell Kim I was asking for her. And that I´ll call her later."

"Will do. Come on over whenever you want. We like having you over. Kim especially." I smiled. Jared loved Kim. And whatever made her happy, like having me over, made him happy. Why couldn´t it be the same with Jacob and me?

"Thanks Jared. I really appreciate that." I opened the front door to my house. "Bye. And I´m sorry again if I caused a big mess."

"You didn´t. See you later Sonia. Try and relax. And smile." He waved goodbye and broke out into a jog towards the woods.

Kicking off my boots I collapsed face first onto the living room sofa. I was totally drained. What was I supposed to do? Sam needed to know. I did the right thing in telling him, even if I did go about it the wrong way. I should have told Jacob first. And we could have told Sam together. Or maybe speak to Mr. Black and see what he thought. See if he knew anything first…..

I am so stupid! He must have known! Of course he knew! Then why all the fucking secrecy?

With the feeling I had stumbled upon something big, I sat up. Mom…..she knew some things but not everything. She must have been told to keep it a secret. Allison Uley as well. But for what reason? There was no reason that I could see? But why did mom tell me? She must have felt guilty. She loved dad. She still does. Hearing his voice the other day after not hearing from him in so long must have made her snap. She doesn´t want me to think of dad as some dead beat when he really isn´t. She knows something is not right and wants to make amends. For us. Me and Sam. We had effectively lost a parent to whatever the hell it was that went on.

And I still had his number…..I could call him….I could ask him….I could get to know him…

"Sonia." Jacob scared me from the doorway.

"Sorry Jacob." I whispered. He had a black eye that looked like it must have hurt like hell. I stood up but was afraid to approach him.

"Don´t be sorry Sonia." He came over to me and hugged me. "You did what you thought was right." He sighed. I knew he was annoyed at me. His tone of voice, the way he held me. It told me everything.

"Do you think I did the right thing?"

"I think you should have waited to tell him something like that."

"Can´t undo that now."

"I just…I don´t know what you were thinking. You know how he feels about his dad! You could have gotten hurt! He was going to phase right next to you, you got him that angry!"

"It´s not my fault Sam has some daddy issues Jacob! All I did was tell him the truth! What the hell was I supposed to have done? Sweep everything under the rug and pretend like things don´t exist? Never happened? I can´t do that!"

"Jesus Christ Sonia! He could have hurt you!"

"And that would have been my fault? Huh? Are you saying that I provoked him?"

"Don´t twist my words like that Sonia."

"I´m sorry Sam got mad OK! I´m sorry you got into a fight with him. I´m sorry about my friends! If….if you never would have imprinted on me then this would never have happened. You deserve someone better who isn´t a walking disaster."

"You can´t mean that Sonia. Not really." Jacob said gently.

"I love you Jacob….but I just keep on screwing things up."

"You´re not. What´s happening. It´s nothing we can´t handle. I won´t let anything come between us Sonia. Never. You just have to believe it will all work out in the end."

"I want so bad to believe you Jacob."

"Then believe me! It tears my heart out seeing you this way. I feel so fucking guilty. All I want to do is to make you happy."

"You are the only person who can make me truly happy."

"And you me."

"I don´t know what to do Jacob." I mumbled into his chest.

"You know you can come to me….tell me what´s on your mind. I can give you advice if you need it. Don´t try and take everything on on your own, you know? It´s okay to ask for help sometimes."

"I know it is. Will you help me if I ask for it?"

"Of course I will! I´m always here for you."

"Then can you help me find out what happened to my dad, and Sam´s?"

"I´ll do it. I´ll help you."

"Thanks Jacob."

"And what about your other problem?"

"The other one?"

"The one you won´t let me know anything about."

"That one…I´m still figuring out how to deal with it but…..it´s not getting any worse." I half lied. Jacob made an annoyed noise.

"Are you sure?"

"Yes."

"Then okay then."

I took his hand and sat down on the sofa.

"I´m going to try Jacob. I mean, really going to try. The way I´m acting, so miserable all the time, it´s not fair on you, and not fair on me neither. I want to be the fun, happy Sonia I was before."

"You could never not be those things princess."

"But, what I mean is, I shouldn´t let these things rule my life right?"

"That´s true. There is nothing more that I want than for you to be happy."

"So that´s why I should go to dance class more often. Try and rejoin the soccer team. Learn flamenco."

"Flamenco?"

"Yeah! Start living again. So we can start living. And move on from this rut that we are stuck in. We already took the first step, getting married and all, now we have to take the next ones."

"This is the Sonia I love so much." Jacob smiled. "The one who can´t sit still. The one who is a fighter. The dreamer. You are the sweetest person ever you know? And I´m sorry I have been acting like a real asshole lately. Really I am. You don´t deserve that type of crap, especially not from me. Later, I´m going to have a proper talk with Sam. Make him fucking understand that nobody talks to my imprint the way he did."

"Thanks Jacob."

"For you, anything."

After Jacob had left I logged onto msn chat to see if Kim was online to chat. What I didn´t expect was an instant message from Ollie.

´Sup Sonz? Jacob still following us?

It felt like my heart had stopped beating. With shaking hands I wrote a reply.

What are you talking about? Why would Jacob follow you?

Because we know about him Sonia. Him and the rest.

There is nothing to know about him Ollie. Stop being such a nutcase.

You have got the wrong idea Sonia. Seriously. We are not going to blab to the world media or any shit like that. We just want to keep you safe. Keep La Push safe.

I don´t know what you are talking about.

You do. But I realize you are scared. You don´t need to be. I am your friend. Bernie is too. You have more people looking out for you than you realize. Teen Wolf isn´t the only person who wants to protect you.

Ollie you are freaking me out so just stop it! Just forget about it!

Who would have guessed that those Cullen freaks over in Forks are really vampires? I just thought they were rich mormons.

Ollie come on!

Or that the legend of Utlapa is real?

I didn´t answer him for a long time after that. I just stared at the computer screen in shock. How did he know all this stuff? What was really going on here? I was just paralyzed. Ollie sent me one last message before logging off.

We are not your enemies Sonia. We are your friends. And it is important that the Wolf Pack doesn´t know about us. Not yet anyway. They are suspicious but that´s it. When you are ready to talk just message me or Bernie. We will answer because we love you. As corny as that sounds. Your dad wants to talk to you by the way. And Mr. McBride. We´ll be waiting and we trust you.