long time coming, I know and please forgive me. I have not given up on this story or the one to come and my others. The past couple of monts have been really really busy with work, weddings and new members of my family coming into the world, as well as a lot of traveling home to my country to visit my family. You will be seeing new chapters being posted more frequently. Stick with me on this. I am planning on about ten more chapters until the first part of Sonia and Jacob´s story is finished.

This chapter is short. But I had to write. Even if it isn´t up to standard. An important twist is hinted at here. Something that is crucial to the story.

So anyway, enjoy and sorry for my ramblings.

It was a lot to digest. I mean, Bernie and Ollie, my dad and then….Jacob. My poor Jacob. With some unknown guy as his father. Could I even tell him what I knew? Not now obviously, but sometime in the future. I would have to. But I would need to speak to Mr. Black first. Well, my own dad first, or my mom, then Mr. McBride and then Jacob. Broach the subject in a more gentle manner than my blunt and idiotic encounter with Sam. It seemed the more I discovered the more questions needed answering. What in the hell was going on? I mean, what is really going on? Whatever it was seemed like more than an almost eighteen year old girl could handle. I am not strong enough for this but whatever I had to do I will do it.

I decided to go find Jacob after I left Bernie and Ollie. I needed to see him. To look into his eyes. To see his face. He needed me more than ever and I needed now more than I could ever let on. Of course he would know something was up with me the moment he saw me. I did nothing wrong but I was racked with guilt. Jacob never deserved any of this. None of this shit should have ever happened to him in the first place.

I got to my car and the radio came on. I sat motionless for a while listening to Don´t go by KC and The Sunshine Band. He wouldn´t go. He´d never go.

I drove about for almost an hour before I worked up enough courage to message Jacob to see where he was. A minute later he told me he was at home and did I want to come over. He ended it with a wink. I would go. Go to him and pretend like nothing was wrong. I was getting so good at pretending nowadays.

When I got to his I spent about half an hour chatting with him and Mr. Black before Jacob literally dragged me to his room for what he was aching for. I couldn´t get into it though. With his head between my legs, doing things with his tongue and fingers which would normally would have me screaming in ecstasy was making me clam up and feel totally unsure. I couldn´t even muster up anything fake.

After a while he stopped.

"What´s the matter?" He asked as he settled lightly above me, his head directly above mine, inches away. He thought it was him. He was hurt. Well it was about him but not in the way that he thought.

"I´m just tired Jacob. Seriously." I smiled weakly and he said nothing for a while. He searched my eyes, his expression serious. I knew he was running through the possibilities of what could be up with me. Weighing each one against another until he came to his own conclusions.

I wrapped my arms around his neck and drew him towards me. I let out a deep sigh as I looked up at his dark ceiling. The moonlight cast a little sliver of light onto it. Otherwise it was quite dark.

Eventually he moved to the side and drew me into his chest.

"I spoke with my dad today." I told him quietly. Maybe in a way of an explanation for my not being in the mood for sex. He started a little in surprise.

"You did? What did you talk about?" He was understanding and kissed my forehead in such a tender way that it brought me on the verge of tears. I controlled myself though.

"He wants to see me. Me and mom. I am going to go. Maybe tomorrow after school." So that plan was made.

"Am I coming with you or is this a solo thing?"

"I should do it on my own."

"Where is he?" He asked. Don´t lie Sonia. I knew if I did it would come back to bite me on the ass.

"The Spokane rez. Visiting my grandpa."

"Is this what you really want?"

"It is. I have to. Even just to satisfy my own curiosity. I have no expectations of the man Jacob. I am not expecting some tearful, joyous reunion. So…"

"So…? He prompted.

"Don´t worry." I snuggled into him some more.

"Whatever you say baby."

"So, how´s everything in the pack?" I asked, wanting to talk about anything else.

"Okay I suppose. Although….Do you talk to Leah much?"

"The same amount as always I guess. Why?" Sensing something than normal gossip I propped myself up on my elbow. Jacob´s tone didn´t have it´s usual bitter edge like all the times he spoke about her.

"It´s just. Kinda crazy."

"What is?"

"Sam and Emily had sex a while back. For the first time…you know."

"They did? What happened to her whole ´pure until marriage´ thing?"

"Don´t ask me what goes on in her head. I just have access to Sam´s already disturbing thoughts."

"So what´s crazy about them finally giving in to their baser instincts?"

"Ever since…it´s like…their bond is weakening or something."

"Are you being serious Jacob?"

"There is no other way to describe it. I know every imprinting is different and all but….there is something not right there anymore."

"You´re freaking me out."

"Don´t. Trust me." He held me closer. "Having sex brought us closer together."

"So what has Leah got to do with all this?"

"You know Sam still loves Leah right? His imprint didn´t change his feelings. Just dulled them down."

"And?"

"They are starting to resurface again."

"You can´t be serious! What the fuck?"

This shit was starting to freak me out.

"Weird right?"

"Putting it mildly." I muttered.

"So Leah hasn´t spoken to you?"

"No. How does she feel about all this?"

"Confused. Angry. Hurt. Hopeful. The usual Leah mix."

"What do you think will happen?"

"No idea baby."

"Jacob?"

"Yeah?"

"That won´t happen to us right?"

"No way. Never." He promised solemnly.