Hatsune Miku was Len's best friend ever since that term existed. Known for being tomboyish back in their childhood days, they instantly clicked for liking the same shows from cartoon network and for playing the same games. Although she was boyish, she grew up becoming a girl, but that hardly mattered because they were good friends. By 'that hardly mattered' - it meant that Len never developed stupid feelings for her, not even when puberty kicked in. So up until today, Miku and Len were homies. Nevertheless, that fact wasn't consistently true all throughout their years together.
Len could still recall it vividly; her aqua-blue hair quite made Miku's reputation back in high school. She was labeled emo and treated like an outcast, like all other kids with weird hair color were treated, but being her cool self she ignored people and their say. Miku was less tomboyish during their teenage years, and though she was thought a class freak, she was really sweet and pretty chill. She supported Len with every girl he liked and tried dating, giving him wise advice of what girls liked and hated. She was always there: talking to him, arguing with him, beating him down, tagging along his road trips, jamming with him, watching weekend band shows with him, and eating nachos with him. He was thankful for having a great buddy like her, so that was why when he noticed that he was liking her, Len refused to tell her what he felt.
It was during their last semester in college when he finally understood why he was always looking for her company. They took the same program and entered the same university, believing that they should stick together or else one of them would have a ruined college life. And it worked out though, yes, and he was grateful. But Len couldn't bring himself to confess his real feelings, because all the while they were together, Miku never showed any interest towards him. She had boyfriends before, but they were all short term relationships. They were just the same, couldn't stay with someone for a long time. Miku and Len talked about it, and it was agreed that both of them were feeling like they hadn't found their right pairs. This, however, disappointed Len. She was right there, Len could have her for all he wanted and all he got to do was try asking...but he was a pussy. He couldn't show his boldness to her. So without telling her what he really felt, Len remained being homies with her.
Len tried to divert himself from liking her - no, from loving her, and he met Gumi. She was a great lady, a good distraction from Miku, but Len never loved Gumi the way he loves Miku. Whenever Miku would help him to fix his on and off relationship with Gumi, it would break his heart more, because he was hearing the love of his life urging him to fix his mess with another girl. He wanted to tell her that she was all he wanted, that Miku was the only girl he could love. However he was too afraid to try, too scared to risk their friendship, because she never showed any hints that she was harboring the same feelings, ever. Brokenhearted once again, he found himself enjoying Gumi's company more...and this continued until he and Gumi decided to marry. When he handed Miku the invitation, her smile never faltered. She never looked affected. That day, he decided to forget his feelings for her.
"This wouldn't change the fact that you made me eat some weird vegetable dish," Len's forehead wrinkled as he watched Miku crouch down to get some kitchen supplies. She was currently putting some goods in her cart, flipping her long hair back as she pushed her cart to the other side. "I should be going back to my hotel room, resting and chilling out. I thought you're going to buy something more important than...groceries."
"Are you saying these goods aren't necessities?" she instantly replied, sending him a glare. "You aren't cut out for a husband, you know. Stop complaining because you'll do this a lot once you live under the same roof with Gumi. You enjoyed the meal, sucker. I saw it!"
"Oh come on, stupid," Len tutted, running to her side. "You know how much I loathe veggies," he perked up his head and peered on her cart, it was entirely random supplies she was buying. "You're lucky I'm your sucker. Or else I could have left you here all by yourself."
"Ew, gross. Don't word it that way," she shrugged, and he chuckled. Miku pulled her woven bag to her and brought out a box wrapped fancily with a special paper. Without looking at him, she shoved the box to his chest and murmured, "You can go now. That's my advance gift to you. By 'you', I mean you, Len. Open it tonight and don't let others to see it, not even Gumi. Burn it. I'm pretty sure it won't change anything."
Len watched her walk ahead, leaving him behind. "Hey, stupid. Why can't you act at least sweetly? Haha - come on, I'll walk you home so finish this shopping already -"
"No, my boyfriend's going to meet me here. You wanna meet Yuu? I mean...his name is Yuu. But you have to rest now, the sun's glaring outside. Shoo!"
Boyfriend. Len chuckled, surprised with what he heard. He never knew she got one. And though he wanted to ask her about this guy she was dating, he was tongue-tied. Again, he felt so coward. Pathetic. Hopeless. Triumphant. Relieved. Len moved on. He lifted his head and watched her move away.
His feet moved on its own. Funny, thought he. Everything felt like it was a part of a silly romantic-comedy show. Len's hand seized her arm and yanked her back to him, gently holding him in his arms. "I have always loved you," he whispered low for it was a secret he wanted her to know. "Loved you more than a friend, since college years. I loved you. I did. But you know, things changed. But hey," Len pulled her away to see her face. She was gaping at him, eyes widely opened. "Thanks for being my first love, okay? I'll see you tomorrow, homie."
Len stepped back and waved a goodbye. He lost all guts to face her now. Pretty sure that her shocked expression would remain until tomorrow. Well, at least his business was done. He could marry without regrets tomorrow. All that was left to do now was to see her gift.
"Gosh, that confession went on too easy. I guess this is what they call 'moved on?'" Len exited the grocery store, unaware of the crying girl he left inside. Miku and her tears trickling down her face. Len was so clueless. "I got over her, wow."