Hey guys, thank you for sticking with me this far. I have enjoyed writing this story even though it has been a distraction from my main stories. Much love RSD xoxoxoxox
"Sam would you mind if I had a couple of minutes with Mal" Ben said to Sam as he went to leave Ben's limonene.
"Yeah" he said as he climbed out of the car.
"Just go up; I'll be up in a bit" I advised. I saw Sam smirk at me before he closed the door; I knew that he was happy that I had managed to sort things with Ben. I also knew that he would know that I might be a while with Ben - especially as we had just got back together.
"You could come up you know" I said turning and looking at Ben.
"If you need to talk" I added. In all honesty I didn't want Ben to leave yet; I had just got him back and I wanted to stay with him a little bit longer. However I know that we both had decided to take things slow so I don't know how this would work.
"You said you wanted to take things slow" Ben said nervously.
"Ben it's only for talking" I said nervously as I started to regret asking him to come to my hotel room. I know it would look like I was hinting for more than cuddling but I just wanted to talk and cuddle.
"And maybe a cuddle" I suggested as I prepared myself for him to decline.
"Hmmm" he said as he started to stroke the back of my hands.
"Screw it" he laughed as he pulled his phone out of his pocket.
"I'll just let my parents not to expect me any time soon" he advised as I watched as he started to text one of his parents.
"Even though it is already half one" he teased.
"Owch!" I laughed.
"Yeah well my girlfriend is worth it" he said lovingly. I couldn't help but smiling like an idiot when Ben said this. I still couldn't believe my luck in getting back together with him.
"Hmmm" he said after a moment.
"Come on lead the way" he said as he climbed out of the limousine. As we heard the limousine drive away I slid my hand into his and started to lead him towards the hotel.
"Mal" I heard Ben say into my hair.
"Yes Ben" I answered as I snuggled my face into his chest. We had been cuddling for a while now and I know that at one point he would have to go so I was savouring every moment.
"Can I ask you a question?" He asked into the silence.
"You technically just did" I teased as I looked up at him with a mischievous grin on my face.
"Oi" he said as he jabbed me in the side.
"Sorry" I said.
"What do you want to ask me?" I quickly asked.
"You said you thought I was involved with someone" he started.
"Yes" I answered.
"Who?" He questioned.
"I thought you might have been dating Rapunzel's daughter" I admitted. I watched as his brow burrowed together before he answered.
"How?" He asked.
"I read a lot of articles and it looked like you were together" I confirmed nervously. I hoped that this wasn't going to ruin what me and Ben had just achieved tonight. I didn't want him to think that I had been stalking him; but all honesty I wanted to know what to expect when I came back home. If he was dating someone then I knew that I had to keep my distance slightly; even though I might not like it.
"You read a lot of articles?" He questioned.
"I might have watched you from a far" I admitted nervously.
"I know that sounds crazy" I added as I looked down.
"A little" he said.
"But it's not that bad" he added which made me look up at him.
"How?" I questioned.
"Because I've been watching you" he admitted as he winced. I pulled one brow up at him; Ben had been watching me as well. I know that part of me should have been annoyed at Ben; but I couldn't help but smile at him. At least he cared enough to keep an eye on me and look out for me - even though he did have a motive for doing it.
"What?" I asked.
"Yeah" he said as he looked down.
"Sorry" he muttered.
"Don't be" I said as I stroked his chest.
"It looks like both of us didn't want the other one to get with anyone else" I said as a large grin spread across my chest.
"No" he said as he smiled as me as he pulled me into a tight hug so my head was now pushed against his chin.
"Mal" he said after a few moments.
"Aha" I replied.
"When I asked you whether anyone caught your eye in Schwarzwald?" he asked.
"Yes" I said.
"You said no not really" he noted.
"Yes" I repeated as started to panic as I now knew that I was going to have to tell Ben that I had kisses two lads. Of course I could lie to him; but I knew that I didn't want to start my relationship with Ben based on lies.
"Has anything happened since we broke up? You don't need to tell me I just wondered" he said nervously as I felt his fingers start to run up and down my side.
"Erm" I said nervously as I looked down.
"Something happened didn't it?" he asked sadly.
"Yes" I admitted.
"But it's not what you think" I said as I looked up at him slowly.
"What happened?" he asked after a handful of seconds of us lying in silence.
"I've kissed two lads" I admitted as I let my gaze quickly drop back down.
"That's all?" he asked.
"That's all" he confirmed.
"What about you?" I asked as I started to hope that nothing had happened. I started to feel a burn in my stomach before he answered my question.
"Nothing" he admitted.
"Not even a kiss?" I questioned as the burning in my stomach started to subside.
"Not even a kiss" he confirmed with a small smile.
"So I'm the bad one in this situation" I said sighing as I looked down.
"No you're not" he answered quickly.
"We weren't together" he said as he tried to reassure me. I pursed my lips together; I needed to explain more to Ben; even though neither of us was going to like it.
"Ben I know you are not going to like to hear this" I said slowly as I looked up at him.
"Right" he replied slowly.
"Yes I have kissed two lads however I don't want you to think they meant anything to me" I admitted as I pursed my lips together.
"How?" he immediately asked.
"I was very drunk at the time" I admitted.
"Oh" he said.
"Yeah" I said as I looked down.
"What makes it worse is that I don't even remember their names" I admitted as I rolled my eyes.
"Oh" he repeated.
"Yeah" I repeated also.
"Ben after we broke up I reacted badly and I stated drinking all the time" I admitted. I knew that this was going to hurt Ben and I didn't want to do that but at the same time I didn't want to lie to him.
"So when you were drunk that's when you kissed them?" he asked.
"Yeah" I replied.
"I see" he said.
"I'm so sorry" I said as tears started to gather into my eyes.
"If I didn't drink then it wouldn't have happened" I said sadly.
"I guess I was trying to deal with the situation and I dealt with it badly" I added. Ben tightened his arms around me and pressed a kiss to the top of my head to try and reassure me.
"Yeah well I might not have drank but I didn't react well either" he admitted.
"How so?" I asked as I looked up at him and wiped a stray tear from my cheek.
"I wouldn't come out of my room for days and when I did I wouldn't speak. It hurt so much to lose you" he admitted sadly.
"I know it did Ben" I agreed.
"It felt as if my heart was ripped out" he continued as I saw the tears start to gather in his eyes as he started to relive the memory of losing me. I slid up the bed slightly and pulled him close to me. I pressed a kiss against his cheek and snuggled into his hair as I felt his arms tighten around my waist.
"And when I did go out with our friends I felt that they were keeping tabs on me and they would always mention you and it would hurt" he said as he started to stroke my back.
"But all that is in the past" he said looking up at me.
"What matters now is that we are both together now and we are never going to break up again" I said with a smile.
"Agreed baby" he answered with a smile.
"I love you Mal" he said lovingly as he stared into my eyes.
"I love you too Ben" I replied and I couldn't help but smile down at him. Ben inches his face closer to mine and he pressed his lips to mine for a long and loving kiss.
"Ben there is something else I want to tell you" I admitted. I knew that I didn't need to tell him this but I thought that this would help both of us move on from our break up.
"Yeah" he said as he brushed his nose against mine.
"I know this might sound crude" I muttered.
"Right" he said slowly.
"But I still kept my other promise" I admitted.
"Other promise?" he questioned.
"Ben you are my first boyfriend" I stated.
"Correct" he agreed.
"But you are not the only man I've kissed" I added sadly.
"Unfortunately" Ben noted.
"But my other promise-" I started hoping that Ben would click on without me having to say much more.
"Oh that one" he said as his eyes widened as he realised what I was trying to tell him.
"Yeah" I confirmed,
"Everything more than kissing is you" I admitted with a smile as I felt heat start to rise into my cheeks.
"And everything more than kissing is you too" he stated proudly.
"So don't worry" I replied.
"It's always been you and it always will be" I added.
"Oh Mal" Ben answered as he pulled me to him and he started to snuggle into my shoulder.
"So what are you doing?" I asked after a few seconds of us staring at each other.
"What do you mean?" he asked.
"Are you staying and we'll talk well into the night and cuddle?" I clarified. In all honesty I didn't want him to leave; but I would understand if he wanted to.
"Or are you going to leave and I'll ring you tomorrow?" I quickly added.
"Hmmm" he said as he started to think about it.
"What are you more comfortable with?" he asked.
"In all honesty-" I started.
"I'm fine with both, I want to make sure that we are both ok. And not rushing it because one of us thinks we are going along with what the other one suggests" I stated.
"Mal what do you honestly want? Whatever it is we can talk about it and make sure that we are both ok about it" he said as he started to stroke the bottom of my back.
"I would like you to stay" I admitted.
"Then I'll stay" he quickly said as a large toothy grin started to spread across his face.
"Really?" I asked.
"Really" I said as he nodded his head.
"Mal I don't want this to sound too much but I don't want to let you go at the moment" he admitted as he tightened his arms around my waist as if this would help him get his point across.
"Then don't let me go" I teased.
"Fine then" he said and he started to tickle my sides.
"Ben!" I shrieked.
"What?" he teased.
"Sam is only next door" I muttered as I nodded towards next door.
"And?" he teased as he fingers crept a little bit more up.
"If he hears any noise he'll be putting two and two together and getting three" I stated.
"Well we don't want that do we?" he said as his hands dropped back to my waist and he pulled me to him. I started to giggle at him and I couldn't help it. Ben knew where I was ticklish and by the looks of it - he was going to make best use of this information no matter what Sam would think next door.