Hi, fellow Clexa fans. Before i let you read another chapter (not that I can stop you to jump right on the story) I have some issue. I could really use beta. So, if there would be someone so nice and kind it would be great and I would really appreciate it. =)
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Clarke woke up screaming at medical next to her mother's bed. Nightmare. She really hate them. Luckily no one noticed. When she calmed her breathing she let out sigh of relief. Her mother survived the night and that means she will be ok. She was still unconscious. But her mom will be ok and that is all that matter.

That means she can finally do what she wanted right after defeating mount Weather. Maybe defeating isn't right word it was more something like massacre. Yes, it was definitely a massacre.

Clarke would make her way into her tent, but her only tent was in TonDC. Well it was Commander's tent but they never slept in same time so they shared a bed. She was planning attack all the time with Lexa, so there was no need to have some tent in Camp Jaha. It doesn't matter now anyway.

She really miss moments with Lexa. When they were alone in her tent and for a minute stopped planning. That were the moments when she saw behind Commander's mask and she could see real Lexa. Young girl with her own problems and insecurities.

She really shouldn't be thinking about her in this way. They are enemies now. Lexa betrayed her and that's it. She has no feelings for Commander. Not at all.

On her way out of medical she took her backpack and went to mess hall for some food. She will need food.

Her plan is perfect. People in camp don't want her here so she will not be there. She need time for herself.

There was just one problem. She need to get away without being seen. Kane made clear that she is not to leave camp in any circumstances until Chancellor decide otherwise. So she will need Raven and Raven probably hate her. Anyway she have to try it.

When Clarke get into Raven's room she saw Raven repairing radio.

"Hey, Raven."

"Griffin. How is mom?"

Clarke cannot believe that Raven doesn't thrown any screwdriver her way yet. "She will be fine."

They looked at each other for a while before Raven sighed and said "Well, you are not here because I'm pretty and you want to look at me all day. So spill it Griffin."

"I need your help."

Raven set radio aside "Will you give me more information or am I supposed to find them by myself?"

This sounds almost like normal conversation. Clarke smiled. It was little smile but it was there.

"I stopped believe that I ever see that one ever again." And Raven smiled as well.

"Why you even talk to me Raven? You are supposed to hate me as others. Hell. Maybe even more. I killed all these people. I killed… I killed him." Clarke drop her head.

Raven get up from her seat and make her way to Clarke. "I understand why you killed him. They would…" Raven gulped "…You saved him."

Clarke looked at her with surprise in her eyes.

"You know Clarke. I killed many people as well. All that grounders on bridge and flares we send to warn Arch. That's all on me." With that Raven get to Clarke and hugged her.

Clarke was surprised but after second she hugged back. Next word Clarke whispered so quietly that Raven just barely heard them. "Thank you."

"No matter what you think, Clarke. We are still friends."

They stayed like that for a while. Then Raven let go. "So stop this sad crap and tell me what you need."

Clarke sighed. "I need you to stop electricity in fence so I could get away."

Raven wanted to ask why, but by look at Clarke's eyes she already knew. "It's not your fault. You know? You save us all."

"I just…I cannot be there anymore. Seeing their faces everyday…that's killing me."

Raven nodded. "Will you come back?"

Clarke looked into Raven eyes and answered truthfully "I don't know."

Raven took talkie from her table and handed it to Clarke. "Take this and call me sometimes. It's long range so no matter how far away you will be I will hear it."

Clarke took talkie from Raven. "Thanks. And please don't tell anyone about this."

"And get killed by Abby for helping you? No, thanks."

Clarke laughed and started to walk to door.

"Clarke" Clarke spin around right in time to let Raven hug her again. "Good luck. And try to not die." With that Raven let her go and Clarke walked from door.

Clarke was waiting around fence until Raven called her that it's ok to go.

She heard beeping from talkie so she knew she can go. Clarke was running all the way into forest. She knew where she have to go. There was cave nearby.

It was dark outside but every minute should sun start to rising. Hopefully. Clarke leant against cold stone in her cave and waited.

She wake up with screaming. Great, another nightmare. When she look to exit she saw some grounder girl with her swords ready to fight. Clarke immediately got on her feet and take her gun. "Go away or I shoot you."

Girl gave swords back on her back and said "I mean you no harm Clarke kom Skaikru."

Clarke didn't lower her gun. She know how dangerous grounders can be. "So why are you here? And who are you anyway?"

In this moment there was nothing she could lose. Heda will probably kill her anyway for this foolish mistake. So she can as well tell everything. "My name is Karliah. And I'm here to protect you. When I heard you screaming I thought that someone attacked you."

Clarke finally lowered her gun but kept it in her hand. "Who send you?" She already know that but she wanted to be sure.

Karliah just kept looking at her.

Of course Clarke should saw that coming from mile away. Lexa was always overprotective of her. She just didn't think that will continue after mount Weather.

Karliah sat on floor. There was few sticks lying around so she started making fire

"What are doing?"

"Making fire to keep us warm" Karliah didn't even look from her work.

"Oh hell no. You are going back to your Commander and you will tell her that I can protect myself."

"When you was on your night trip here I killed two wolfs. They were going after you." She finally looked at Clarke.

Clarke gulped and tighten her jaw. She turned her head away from Karliah. "Thanks. I guess."

Karliah just nodded to that.

Both of them were sitting in silence by fire. Clarke didn't mind. She was actually happy that there is someone who don't judge her.

They stayed in cave few days. Clarke was trying to hunt with Karliah. It wasn't big success but they managed to get some food. They occasionally talked about anything. Clarke was enjoying Karliah's presence.

One day right when they were eating delicious squirrel. Clarke stood up and broke the silence. "Take me to Commander."

They were standing in front of Commander's tent. Karliah was talking with guards in trigedasleng. Then one guard disappeared into tent and after moment came back and let Clarke go inside.

"So we meet again after all, Clarke." Lexa was standing in front of her throne without any war paint.

Clarke's heart jumped when Lexa said her name. Why she has to keep saying her name like that. It's making it really hard to be pissed on her.

"You send someone to keep me alive even when you was ok with letting me die at mount Weather." It was more statement than anything.

Lexa wasn't surprised by this. "I wasn't 'ok' with you dying. I told you that I care, Clarke" Lexa made few steps closer to Clarke. "I did what I had to to protect my people."

Clarke didn't move. "I understand why you did it. Hell. I did the same thing after all. But it doesn't make it any less painful" Clarke looked at Lexa's eyes for a first time. There wasn't pity or hatter what she saw at eyes of her people. There was just understanding.

Clarke could feel tears on her cheeks. She couldn't hold it anymore. She started crying.

That took Lexa by surprise. She wasn't someone who was good in comforting. So she just stood there awkwardly. It was breaking her to see Clarke like that so after few moments she got closer to Clarke and patted her on shoulder. After that Clarke started crying even more and Lexa retreated her hand.

Lexa coughed awkwardly and decided to help with saying the truth "Your people are alive and that is all that matter. Mountain men weren't innocent, Clarke."

Lexa was happy when Clarke slowly stopped crying.

Clarke composed herself and asked: "Do your invitation to Polis still stand?"

Lexa was surprised by this question. She was expecting anger, hate even her own death but not Clarke wanting to go to Polis. "Of course. But I need to stay there for few weeks for rebuilding."

Clarke gulped. "I want to help."

Lexa nodded. "You should go back to your camp befo-"

"No. I will be staying there." Clarke was hoping that Lexa will not ask more questions. This is something she don't want to talk about now, maybe never.

Lexa wanted to ask why. But Clarke was talking to her without aiming gun on her at same time and asking her about it could stop that, so she just nodded. "Very well, I will say to my people to build you a tent."

Lexa wanted to say more but before she could Clarke turned around and get out of tent.

So yeah. Finally Clexa - even when one hate the other at least they're talking. Right, right?
And I just love awkward Lexa. :D
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