"Do you saw Clarke?" Bellamy was running around camp all morning and asking people about Clarke. No one saw her at least five days. And until today no one even noticed. No one cared.

Abby wanted to talk to her daughter and sent him to find her. How is he supposed to tell her that Clarke has just disappeared. He cannot lie her again.

Last time Abby asked about her daughter he said that Clarke was just busy around camp. But he cannot say that 3 days in row. On top of that he was starting to be worried as well.

What if Clarke is dead or worse what if grounders keeping her as prisoner.

He made his way into medical. Abby was currently talking with Kane about things around camp.

When Abby saw him she didn't even bother with greeting. "Where is Clarke?"

Bellamy scratched back of his neck "Well…um…she is not here.

"Bellamy I'm just weak not blind. I can see she is not here." Abby knew something is wrong.

"She is not in camp Jaha." Abby looked at him like he had second head.

"So where she is?"

"No one know that." She started to feeling sick. No, this couldn't be happening. Clarke did some questionable decisions but that doesn't mean Abby didn't want her to be save. Clarke was still her daughter after all.

Abby turn to Kane. "I told you to keep her in camp."

"She couldn't walk thru front gate. Guards were watching it."

Abby started to be desperate. What if someone kidnapped her or what if she is already dead. "We need to send a search party."

Kane always practical. "We don't have enough men."

"I believe few of the hundred could go." Bellamy isn't currently Clarke's biggest fan but he don't want to see her hurt or dead.

"Fine. I will say to guards to give you some weapons and let you go."

With that Bellamy was on his way to find someone who will help him to find Clarke.

Few days after Clarke's arrival Lexa made her way into Clarke's tent. Clarke was currently sitting on bed and talking with Karliah about Clarke's lessons in stealth and trigedasleng. Lexa cleared her throat and both girls looked at her. Karliah immediately got up and bowed. "Heda."

"Leave us." Karliah nodded and exited tent.

"What do you want?" Clarke wasn't happy that Lexa disturbed them but on the other hand she was happy to see Lexa again. They were avoiding each other from their first talk in Commander's tent all that days ago.

"I heard that you have nightmares. My people know herb for peaceful sleep." She took vital from her coat and handed it to Clarke. "You just give few drops of this into water and drink it before you will go to your furs."

Clarke took vital from her hands and looked at it.

Lexa turned around and walked to exit. When Clarke spoke "Do you have them?"

Lexa froze on spot and turned around. She saw Clarke looking at her with sadness in her eyes. Lexa averted her eyes and simply nodded.

Before Clarke could stop herself she asked. "What are they about?"

There was long silence. Clarke thought she crossed some line. Right when she wanted to say something like it actually doesn't matter, Lexa spoke. "Costia."

Clarke found Lexa's eyes and looked at them. They were full of regret.

Clarke didn't know why she said what she said after this. Maybe it was because of look in Lexa's eyes or maybe because she knew that Lexa will understand. "I see them all dying in front of me. There were children, you know. And I killed them all without second thought."

Lexa felt pang of pain in her chest. "If I could I would pull the lever instead of you."

Clarke know what Lexa means by that. That she would take the pain and guilt for her. But sadly reality was different.

"But you weren't there, were you?" It went out harsher then Clarke wanted.

"I'm Commander, Clarke. I cannot just drop everything and do what I want like Lincoln." Lexa took a deep breath to calm herself. "I just hope that one day you will be able to understand it and forgive me."

And with that Lexa was outside of tent. Clarke thought that when she will be hurting Lexa long enough it will make her feel better, but it didn't. It was actually worse.

That massacre was her fault not Lexa's. She decided to pull that lever and now she has to live with it. Lexa would take her pain if she could, she would be there with her if she could. But she was Commander that night same as Clarke was leader of Sky people that night.

Raven was currently talking with Octavia in engineering room when Bellamy rushed inside. "I need you O. Me and few other delinquents are going to look for Clarke into woods and TonDC. And you know grounders best from all of us. Lincoln cannot go to TonDC, so I need you to go with me."

"Maybe I don't want to find her." O said looking at Bellamy

"You have something better to do?" Bellamy asked.

After a moment Octavia replied "Who else is going?"

Bellamy just smiled.

Clarke was on her way to Lexa tent. When she met Indra.

"Sky girl." Indra wasn't looking at Clarke with her usual hatter. It was more like awe. That took Clarke by surprise. She completely lost words.

Indra sighed "Is Octavia alive?"

"Yeah she is ok. As Lincoln…She fought well in mountain." Clarke couldn't believe what she saw next. Indra actually smiled. When she saw that Clarke is watching her she composed herself, nodded and then she was gone.

Clarke was looking after her with disbelief. "Well, that was weird." She said to herself.

When Octavia and Bellamy left engineering room Raven took radio and tried to reach Clarke. "Clarke, it's Raven…C'mon…Bell is looking for you….So, you know… if you are around TonDC you should probably know that…Where the hell are you anyway?" She sighed and switch off the radio. "I hope you are not dead, Griffin."

When she get to commander's tent guards didn't even looked at her and let her go inside.

Lexa was leaning over maps. She didn't even rose her head when Clarke entered. She could recognize her footsteps everywhere.

"I understand it." Lexa looked at her. "I always did. It's just…You left me standing there, after you kissed me, after you invited me into Polis, after I thought I could be happy again or at least have normal life." Clarke tightened her fists.

Lexa opened her mouth to say something, but there was nothing. There was nothing she could possibly say.

Luckily for her Indra rushed into tent. "Heda. Skaikru are waiting outside and wish to speak with you."

"Let them wait for a moment and then let them in." Indra bowed and left.

Clarke's eyes were wide open. "Lexa, please, don't tell them I'm here.

Lexa opened her mouth to say something but Clarke was faster. "I will explain it to you later. Just please don't tell them."

"All I wanted to tell you was that you should hide behind that curtain, in my private quarters. They will be there soon." Clarke gave her thankful little smile. Barely there but Lexa could still see it and that make corners of her mouth rise as well.

They were looking at each other for a moment before Clarke turned around and hid behind curtain.

Lexa quickly painted warpaint on her face and sat on throne. Moments later Bellamy, Octavia, Monroe, Indra and few of grounders entered tent.

"What are you want in my village, Skaikru?" She took her dagger from its sheath and started to play with it.

Bellamy and Monroe looked a little scared. "We don't want to start a war. We are just looking for Clarke."

"How you can see, she is not here." Lexa gesticulated around her tent. "Now, if it's everything, leave my village and for your own safety stay away."

Bellamy wasn't really convinced. "I want to see your prison, if Clarke is there."

"How dare you to want something from Commander." Indra was ready to slit his throat when Lexa's voice stopped her "Indra will take you there and then you leave."

Octavia was first to talk this time "Yes, commander."

Indra wasn't happy. Why it's always her who have to deal with Skaikru.

All skaikru and grounders followed Indra outside.

"Thanks." Lexa turned her face to see Clarke standing in front of curtain separating her private part of tent.

"I owe you explanation. I lea-" Lexa raised her hand to stop her.

"You don't need to explain anything to me if you don't want to." There was silence for a little while.

"Tomorrow we going to Polis."

Clarke just nodded and made her way to exit. She stopped at door and without turning she said. "You know. Everyone deserves a second change. It just take time."

"I can be patient Clarke."

They both missed big smile on each other's faces.

When I was planning this chapter I thought there will be Clexa kiss and well, this happened. I'm probably not good in planning. So! In next chapter I don't planning any kissing – so you'll have to wait (same as me :D ) until next time=)