Oh snap dragons, change of pace. Can you figure out what the hell is going on? If you get confused, I'll explain in the next chapter. But I don't think it'll be too hard to figure out OTL Oh, and I hit 100,000 words. OHMAHGOD

Things have gotten hazy…I can't remember which way is up or down. And it's too hot. It feel like it's burning my skin.

How long have I been here? What day is it? Is it even day time? Maybe I'm directly under the sun. Maybe that's why I feel like I'm melting…and choking on my own breath.

I can't breathe. It hurts to suck in the air…or is it smoke? Maybe I am on fire, and my clothes are burning off and smothering me. It feels too heavy; too labored. I feel like I'm drowning…

…Someone save me…

"Tsu-chan!"

Somehow I manage to open my eyes, but instantly regret it. The light is too bright and hurts my head. I groan and try to turn over, covering my face with my hands. I hear someone pout next to me and grab my hands to try and pull them away from my face.

"Stop hiding! It's a beautiful day!"

"It's too bright…"

There was that cheery giggle again. Normally those kinds of sounds grate my ears, but for some reason…I don't mind it this time.

"Come on, it's ok, you can do it!" the voice cheered again. I sigh and finally crack them open, adjusting to the dazzling light…

W-where the hell am I?

I've never been here before. Hell, I've never even seen a place like this before in my life! I'm standing in a field that seems to go on forever. I'm surrounded by colorful flowers, and I can't help but stare at one for a moment. I had never seen a flower like that before. This place is so calm…and soothing. And I…I feel….

Warm. I'm not burning up anymore. It's just a comfortable warmth spreading over me. I look up and see that the skies are a perfect shade of blue, with big white cotton clouds and a sun that shines down on me. I don't even have to squint anymore to stare at it.

"Isn't this place perfect?"

That sweet voice catches my attention. I turn to face the stranger, and feel a surge of irritation crawl up my spine.

"Flea?"

No…that person can't be the louse…I mean, first off there was are his eyes. They are wide and friendly and…pink? They are practically glowing as the man stared happily at me. His hair is a lot like Izaya's, but I don't pay attention to that much. My eyes are stuck on the weird pink and white headset.

I look down to see that his fur coat - which also reminds me of the flea - is pink and white also. What is with this guy and the color pink? It's not even a flattering colo-

"Tsu-chan, what are you staring at?" He giggles, stepping forward to grabs my hands. I look down at our hands, and gasp in surprise at the tingling warmth spreading up my arms…

Wait, what the hell am I wearing?

I stare at my body to see a long blue and white yukata blowing around me in the gentle breeze. I can't help but smile at how comfortable I feel in it. As if it was made for me.

"I…I'm just confused." I reply, my voice coming out much softer than I would have expected. It's as if anger didn't live within me.

"Don't be confused! This is a place just for us. A place where we can be together forever with no worries." The man in front of me laces his fingers with mine and smiles so bright…I think I'm going blind.

He's…he's really…beautiful. The way his hair falls around his face, and how flawless his skin is. His pink eyes are unique and tender. And his lips…there wasn't a single thing wrong with them. This…this person is just so…

Perfect.

"Don't you think this is great, Tsu-chan?" He giggles a little and steps closer to me, bringing that radiating warmth and joy with him.

Tsu-chan…That was the nickname for Tsugar-

Oh my god.

"Psyche?" I whisper, my voice refusing to work. When he nods and pulls me close into an embrace, I can't stop myself from hugging him back. I'm actually shaking…I can't believe that he's really here. This person I've fallen for and have been trying to see is finally in my arms. He keeps whispering my name, over and over as we sink to the ground, sitting on our knees. Surrounded by flowers, basking in the warm sunlight, holding him close to me - this is paradise.

Psyche pulls away for a moment, looking at me with the gentlest eyes I have ever seen. His smile is radiant, and his voice rings in my ears.

"I'm so happy we're together, Tsu-chan."

"I am too." I think my voice cracked again, but I really don't give a damn. Because Psyche's smile grows wider and he throws his arms around me. We fall backwards, buried in the tall flowers and grass. If I could die right now, I would be happy.

"Tsu-chan, I have a surprise for you!" He giggles cheerily, although I think his voice has that teasing tone in it like Izaya's.

Izaya…where is the louse?

I look around, wondering where the pest would be, but Psyche tugs my hand to pull me up onto my knees, and makes me look at him again. He pulls off his headphones and sets them over my ears.

Suddenly, everything is silent. The gentle breeze, the sound of the field swaying, the birds chirping. It's all gone. I can't even hear myself breathing. Only a soft heartbeat echoes through. It can't be mine, because mine is racing 100 miles a minute.

"Psyche, what are you…?"

I can't even hear myself talk, but apparently I'm still making sounds, because Psyche leans forward to press his finger against my lips to silence me. He smiles again and starts talking, but nothing comes out. These headphones won't let me hear him.

I try to tell him that I can't hear but my lips won't move. The muscles in my face won't respond. I can only watch as he speaks too fast for me to read. And then all of a sudden he leans forward and kisses me.

It shocks me, but I don't complain - not like I can anyways, since I can't speak. Still, it feels good, I can't help but melt into it. My eyes slip closed, and the heartbeat soundtrack playing through the headphones is picking up speed. He cups my face in his hands and kisses me passionately as I wrap my arms around his waist, pulling him closer.

I feel him whimper, the sound vibrating through me, and I loosen my grip. I…I hurt him. He's so fragile…I could break him into two….

He pulls away, and I open my eyes -

- only to see the louse sitting in front of me; that signature grin on his face and his eyes narrowed.

"Izaya?"

I think my voice works, because I see him laugh in response before rambling words I still can't hear.

I rip off the headphones - or rather, I try to. But they won't come off! It's like they are glued to my head!

"Flea, you had better explain!" I bark, reaching forward to grab him by the shirt. But he pulls me forward till I'm practically in his lap.

"Shizu-chan~" he purrs, and I'm caught off guard as I hear his voice echoing over the heartbeat. I narrow my eyes and look down at myself quickly. I'm back in my normal clothes. I'm not Tsugaru anymore…

"Izaya, tell me where Psyche went! Right now!"

He leans forward, brushing his lips against mine. I feel my face burning up, and suddenly everything is getting hotter again. Like the sun is getting closer to the field. I'm afraid the flowers will burst into flames…

"Wouldn't you like that, Shizu-chan?~" He whispers, staring at me with those garnet colored eyes that reflect…something deeper in them. Something I can't put my finger on. "Am I not good enough for you?"

His question throws me off, and I open my mouth to yell back at him, but he closes the gap and kisses me firmly, his tongue slipping into past my lips to brush against my own.

This feeling is so familiar to me. It's nothing like Psyche. Psyche was gentle and warm…too much like a stranger. No one had ever shown me that kindness before.

But Izaya…he was fierce and daring. Something I've grown with and know how to handle. I can kiss back as hard as I want, and not feel like I'm going to hurt him.

Izaya…is strong. Familiar. With him, I don't have to hold back. I truly feel at peace.

"Izaya…" The name rolls off my tongue before I can stop it. It happens again, and again. Izaya, Izaya, Izaya….I can't stop myself.

He's whispering my name too. "Shizu-chan…" It makes my body tingle, and…that heat is coming back. That unbearable warmth that makes me feel like I'm on fire.

"Shizu-chan~"

I groan, unable to make my mouth move. The field is fading away, and I feel like I'm falling. I cling to Izaya tightly, hoping he'll somehow save me. I don't want to fall.

"Shizu-chan, wake up."

Wake…up?

Izaya dissolves from my grasp. I scream out his name, but my voice gets eaten up by the wind. I'm falling faster and faster. Everything turns dark around me and goes silent.