Hi people. =)
So I'm giving you this sooner because I'm just writing chapter 14 and...well, I think you don't need that kind of pain right now (for more pain you just need to wait two more chapters...) :D
Plus my other story is just full of problems so I will update it next week instead of this. =)
Kudos as always to my beta mini .moogle5 =)
Bellamy grabbed Clarke by her wrist and spun her around so she had to face him. "You're not going with her."
When Lexa saw what was happening, she dismounted and made her way to them.
"Let me go Bellamy." Clarke tried to get free, but at same time, tried not to hurt him.
Lexa grabbed Bellamy's wrist and pushed him away from Clarke. "Touch her again and I will slice your throat right now." She growled at him.
Bellamy started getting mad. "You would do that to everyone in camp if she would have chosen us. That's the only reason why she chose you." He was pointing at Lexa. "She's protecting us!" Lexa moved closer to him and growled again.
Before Lexa could do anything, Clarke made her way between them to prevent any bloodshed. She faced Bellamy. "It's my decision, not hers."
Raven got closer to them as well. She tried to get Bellamy to go back to camp. "Bellamy, we should go." He didn't move an inch.
"I don't know what you savages did to Octavia and Clarke but you will not get more of us." He started raising his gun. Luckily, Raven stopped him and dragged him back to camp. She sadly looked at Clarke before she and Bellamy disappeared into camp.
Their way back to TonDC passed in silence. Anya was a little in front of Clarke and Lexa to give them some privacy, Lexa wanted to give Clarke space and Clarke just wasn't in the mood to talk.
When they got in, the village soldiers looked at Clarke with surprised faces, which later transformed into awe.
Clarke didn't pay them any attention. She just wanted to get back to their tent and stay there for some time.
Octavia was going after her but Lexa stopped her.
"Later." Octavia simply nodded at her Heda's order.
Lexa made her way to their tent after her lover. She saw Clarke with head in her hands, crying on their bed. Lexa silently sat next to blonde girl and looked at her. It was breaking her heart to see Clarke like that. She put her left hand on Clarke's thigh and started doing small patterns with her thumb in an effort to calm her soon-to-be-wife.
They sat like that for a moment before Clarke broke the silence. "You know, she was right. My father would be disgusted by me now." Lexa looked at her. That was why she was crying, not because that she is in a war again nor that she choose Lexa, but because she thought that someone dead would disapprove. For Lexa, this was beyond all understanding. "Then he would be foolish."
Clarke raised her head from her hands and looked back at Lexa. "You did nothing wrong, Clarke." She moved her hand to Clarke's cheek and wiped her tears with her thumb. "What you've done was necessary, otherwise more of our people would be dead." Clarke just started crying harder. She knew that Lexa was right. She said similar things to her mother. It's just hard to live with the fact that she killed someone who was once her friend, again.
She wrapped her arms around Lexa and cried into the crook of her neck. Lexa just held her tight and stopped talking.
After a moment, the sobbing slowly stopped. Lexa retreated her arms and slowly pulled away from Clarke. "You could stayed in Camp Jaha. How I said, I would understand."
Clarke looked her in the eyes and shook her head. "When I was thinking about my people. I thought about the people in Polis, people here and you. There was no one from Camp Jaha. I saved them once. Now it's their time to take care of themselves."
Clarke got up from the bed. "We have a war to plan. The Azgeda can attack soon." Lexa nodded. After that, Clarke got up and made her way to the war table with Lexa close behind her.
Octavia came into their tent some time later. The two other girls looked at her. Octavia shuffled her feet. "Heda, I apologize for the interruption." She turned to Clarke. "Can we talk?"
Clarke looked back at the maps. "It will have to wait. We have work to do." Lexa looked between Clarke and Octavia and then stopped at Octavia. It looked like they were having a conversation without words. After a moment, Lexa spoke. "I'm tired anyway so I will go get some food for us and look around camp so you two can talk."
Clarke sighed but didn't take her eyes off of the maps. So she didn't see Lexa's sad look at her face when she looked back at Clarke before she exited tent.
Octavia sighed as well and moved closer to Clarke. "Clarke, you don't need to do this. I understand what you did. Hell, I did the same. Remember? Staying with Grounders? That's Octavia style." She grinned at end of her sentence and looked at Clarke. But Clarke still didn't even acknowledge her.
That pissed Octavia off a little. "Look, what's your problem? I heard everything from Anya. I would do the same thing. The Trikru love you as much as they love Heda. After how those assholes in camp Jaha behaved to you, no one can be surprised by your decision." For the first time, Clarke raised her head and looked at Octavia, but said nothing right away.
Clarke averted her eyes from Octavia. "But you didn't start a war."
Octavia sighed once again. "They deserved that from moment they allied with the Azgeda."
Lexa came inside of the tent with two plates of food. No one noticed her. "Could you just leave me alone?" Clarke really didn't want to talk with Octavia right now.
But Octavia wasn't backing down. "No."
Lexa made her presence known. "Leave." Octavia looked at her.
"But Heda…" Lexa interrupted Octavia before she could end her sentence. "Now!" Lexa glared at her. Octavia gulped and looked at Clarke for help but she was looking at the maps once again. So Octavia sighed once again and left the tent.
Clarke raised her head and sighed. "Thanks." Lexa just nodded and moved beside Clarke. She put one of the plates in front of Clarke on the table. Clarke caught her retreating hand. Lexa looked at her surprised.
Without taking her eyes from table, Clarke murmured. "Please don't leave me." Lexa was surprised by that, how could Clarke think that that was even possible.
Lexa put the other plate on the table as well and wrapped her arms around the other girl. "Never." She kissed the top of Clarke's head.
Clarke wrapped her arms around the other girl and breathed in Lexa's scent.
"You know what?" Clarke moved her head and raised eyebrow at Lexa. "Eating is a really calming action. I think you should try it." Clarke chuckled and shook her head.
They untangled from each other and made their way with their plates to another table with chairs.
Clarke and Lexa were in their tent in TonDC looking over the maps once again.
"Can you do something for me?" Clarke was nervously playing with her fingers and slowly looked at Lexa.
"Just say what you want from me and consider it done." Lexa didn't pull her head up from the maps, but with corner her eyes she was watching Clarke's every move.
"Can you teach me your mask? I want to look like I don't give a damn about anything in the world." That got Lexa's attention.
She looked up from her maps to look at Clarke. "Why? It will not stop what you really feel, Clarke."
"Just do it." She really wasn't in a mood for another lecture right now.
But Lexa wasn't someone who backs down easily, not even with Clarke. "I will as soon as you tell me why."
Clarke sighed and averted her gaze. "If I wasn't so happy around you, Jasper would have never aimed at you. He maybe wouldn't have even aimed at me. Now I understand why you doing it. This." She gestured between them. "It's dangerous. And I don't want anyone to aim at you again just because I love you. All this war is because of me." She looked at ground.
"That's why you were avoiding me on our way back here?" Clarke nodded but still didn't raised her head.
Lexa made her way to her. She put her hand under her chin and raised Clarke's head so they were looking at each other. "I will do as you wish but next time when there is something that's bothering you tell me right away."
Clarke smiled at her with a sad smile and whispered. "Thanks."
Lexa nodded and let go of her chin. She turned around and she took a few steps to put some distance between them. Without turning to Clarke, she talked. "Do you wish to cancel our union ceremony?" She knew she couldn't look at her and ask Clarke this question without crying.
"What?" Clarke didn't think that Lexa would ever ask her this. "No, of course not." She made her way to brunette and wrapped her arms around Lexa's middle from behind. "I love you. That will never change." She whispered into her ear.
Lexa turned around in her arms to look at her and nodded. With that, Clarke smiled a little and kissed her on the lips. "Actually I would like to have our ceremony before we go into war."
Lexa was surprised by this but not in bad way. "I will send a messenger to Polis to tell Aleena to prepare a few things." She smiled at Clarke.
Clarke moved little away from other girl in surprise. "You don't mind?"
Lexa shook her head. "Even if you were my houmon from this very minute, it wouldn't be soon enough." Clarke shook her head in disbelieve at other girl.
"You are such a sap." When she saw Lexa frowning, Clarke continued. "Why do I even want to marry you?"
Lexa smiled at Clarke and spoke. "I would like to know the answer to that question as well." Clarke just shook her head once again and kissed her soon-to-be-wife.
houmon - wife
No cliffhanger - yaaaaay :D