Chapter 4:

HEY GUYS! Soooo here's the next chapter! I'm hoping to have updates every week or so but I can't say for sure since I'm going to be starting a new cosplay. ANYWHO onto the next chapter! NOW THAT CATORI'S BEEN EATEN, WHAT SHALL HAPPEN?! *dun dun duuuuun* Reviewing and Favoriting is appreciated! ^-^

Roy's POV:

Keep on going. Just keep on going.

That was all that was going through my head. I kept on looking. I had to find her. My greatest fear was that she was lying on the ground somewhere, dead.

…It's dark…she has to be exhausted in the state she's in!...dangit Catori where are you?!

Looking ahead, I saw a few survey corps members talking on the roof of a building. They're probably trying to devise a plan on how to take out the rest of the titans now that the wall has been sealed by that boy.

Today has all been a blur. Between fighting titans and looking for Catori, the last thing I expected was to find out there was a boy who was able to turn into a titan.

As I got closer I recognized the people that were there. Kiwi, Hanji, Levi, and a few other members where all huddling and planning what to do next.

Oh gosh should I stop and tell them about Catori….but if I don't it will just lessen Catori's chances of being found alive.

Landing I had to keep myself from losing my footing.

"ROY!" I heard Hanji cry out.

"I'm sure glad you're alright! Hey you ok?" She said walking up to me adjusting her glasses.

I opened my mouth but nothing came out.

Oh gosh what do I say?

Kiwi then seemed to notice me so she walked up and said, "What are you doing here Roy? Shouldn't you be watching my sister?"

I seriously felt like the worst person in the world.

I want to die. I want to die…..

Before I could even speak Levi stepped forward and said, "She left didn't she?..."

Kiwi's eyes widened as well as Hanji's. There was then a small moment of silence.

"W-what? She couldn't have gone anywhere! She was in no condition to do anything!" Hanji said raising her hands in the air looking at Levi.

"That's just ridiculous," Hanji said in hopes of calming Kiwi down as well as herself, "Roy probably has her safe and sound back at the station…right?"

Hanji then looked back at me with hopeful eyes.

I opened my mouth yet again to try and form words, but was interrupted…again.

"Corporal Levi!" A stationary guard shouted from up above being followed by another stationary guard, who seemed to be carrying a person.

They both landed near us and the stationary guard who wasn't carrying the boy continued to speak.

"We found this trainee and he said he needed to speak to Kiwi immediately. That's all he's been saying. We tried to take him back to in infirmary but he refused. He's still in a state of shock. He won't say anything else."

They were right. He definitely seemed to be in a state of shock. His eyes were wide. His hair was a mess, but I guess everyone is going to be in a state of shock after what they've seen today. Before they could set the boy on the ground he scrambled out of their grasp and started looking around everywhere.

"H-her sister! I have to tell her!" He exclaimed grabbing onto my jacket.

"Whoa slow down, slow down! Kiwi's right here…" I said motioning over to Kiwi.

Wait…."her sister"?...oh god….

My eyes went wide.

Kiwi then walked up to the boy and put her hand on his shoulder.

"Are you alright? What do you have to tell me?"

I could tell by the sound of her voice she was getting nervous as well.

As soon as she asked her question tears welled up in his eyes.

"I COULDN'T SAVE HER!" the boy said sobbing into my shoulder.

My heart dropped.

No….It couldn't be….he could be talking about anyone.

"Who?!" I asked in desperation.

His only response were a few sobs.

"WHO?!"

"I DON'T KNOW!...I don't know her name….but …"

He then looked up at me and continued saying, "She saved me…but I couldn't save her…"

I was getting more nervous. I prayed to God he wasn't talking about her. But who else could he be?...

Kiwi's eyes were wide with worry was well. She was holding back tears that were about to be spilled. Hanji and Levi just waited in silence.

"But she made me promise…to talk to you….her sister."

Kiwi let her tears fall.

I couldn't talk. I couldn't respond. I felt like there was a gaping black hole in my chest. My breaths were short and my eyes were wide. My entire mind was at a stop.

It can't be….It can't be…oh God no!

But I'm sure what I'm feeling is 10 times worse for Kiwi. I couldn't even imagine her pain.

"What?" she choked out.

"She said to find her. She said that she'd survive. She made me promise to tell you to find her! But-"

Grabbing onto his shoulders (or more like the sides of his arms since Kiwi was so short) she looked him straight in the eye.

"Tell me what happened."

"Sh-she saved me, but s-she was hanging from the tower. She told me that I couldn't hold her up and to let her go, but I didn't. Then she told me to tell you to find her. She said she would survive….a-and she fell….and the t-titan swallowed her whole-a-and I couldn't do anything to save her….

"What did the titan look like? That took my sister?!"

"I-It was 14 class. I-It had short brown hair and big brown eyes. And-and it has over grown teeth…y-you'd know it when you see it."

Kiwi then took out her swords and started to walk off, but was stopped by Levi's hand before I could even stop her from going.

"Kiwi…" he said just above a whisper.

"Let me go."

"Don't be stupid. There's nothing you can do now."

"Yes there is," Kiwi said in the sternest tone I've ever seen her have.

"And where do you think you're going exactly?"

"To find my sister."

Levi gave her a cold stare, but his eyes softened. He let go of her arm and looked down at his own feet.

"Don't you understand? I know you have to. What you are thinking now is impossible."

I've never seen Levi like this. He seemed off.

"No it's not," she said through clenched teeth.

Hanji then walked forward.

"Levi…" she tried holding back her own tears as well, "she doesn't-"

"DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND?! SHE HAS TO UNDERSTAND THAT SHE'S DEAD!...and she's not coming back."

"You're wrong." Kiwi said facing Levi.

"Being in denial is worthless. Don't let your sister's sacrifice be in vain by going out there being careless!"

"SHUT YOUR MOUTH!"

Everyone was then quiet. Even Levi seemed shocked. Kiwi was known to be a quiet, sweet, and bubbly girl. She would probably be the last person to scream or even argue to her superiors. Ever.

"SHE'S ALIVE! AND I'M GOING TO FIND HER!"

"No she's not brat!"

"SHE SAID SHE'D SURVIVE!"

"It doesn't matter what she said! She was eaten by a titan. There's no way she'd survive."

"You wouldn't understand. And you don't need to…all I know is she's alive and I have to find her because NONE OF YOU WILL!"

Kiwi then looked down at her feet and continued saying, "You don't know my sister…she never goes back on her word."

Without another word she ran off and went on her impossible search for Catori.

"Kiwi wait!" I said running after her.

Levi then put his hand in front me.

"This is something she has to do on her own. She has to find out for herself on her own terms."

Removing his hand from my chest, he then walked over to the chimney coming out of the roof we were standing on. He took a few short breaths, appearing to try and calm himself, but it didn't work and he proceeded to punch the side of the chimney. He was angry…very angry. I was surprised to see him let some emotion slip through. After taking a more few short breaths he started to talk to himself.

"UGH!...you idiot….why didn't you just stay behind…and did what you were told….just for once…"

He then clenched his fists and looked to the side.

"You're the last person we need to be dead….Why do you have to be so stubborn….and look where it got you…"

I looked over at Hanji and she seemed to be shocked instead of angry like Levi. There were small streams of tears rolling down her face as she clenched her fists. But of course she would be sad. Catori and Hanji were friends from the start. They always got along. Levi on the other hand was not always on friendly terms with Catori, but you knew he cared as she did as well. She saved his life after all.

And then there's me: the very person who was supposed to keep her safe…and look how that turned out. I felt awful…like someone smashed my heart.

And Kiwi…poor Kiwi actually believes she can still find her sister.

Today has to be a dream. A boy turning into a titan and now hearing that Catori's…..dead

Catori would be the last person anyone would expect to die. It's like saying that Levi died. It almost seemed impossible. She was the person who was usually saving people from dying….

This is all so wrong. WHY?! Why did she have to die? It's just not right…And…I never got to-

"Someone has to go after her. Make sure she won't do anything too stupid."

Looking up I saw Levi, who was now standing with both swords in hand. He seemed to have gained his composure.

"I made a promise to keep her safe. As did you," he said nodding towards Hanji. "And I don't intended on breaking that. She'll haunt me in my sleep if I do."

Hanji then straightened up and said, "I'll go after her. You and the others take care of things-"

"No," I said interrupting her, "I will."

"I….I couldn't keep her safe," I said holding back a sob, "so that least I can do is keep Kiwi safe…."

"Very well. Get to it," Levi said nudging his head in the direction that Kiwi went.

Nodding, I ran off the rooftop and went after her.

I'm so sorry Catori….but I promise you….I'll keep Kiwi safe…even if it means my own demise. I won't let you die in vain. You taught me to protect others even if it meant putting yourself at risk. So I'm going to do just that, because someone has to carry on what you did. And I'll start by keeping your sister safe. I promise.

Awww poor Roy~. Well sorry to leave it here but I have to leave it somewhere! And if you don't mind doing so, leave a review and tell me what you think! I'd love to hear how you think it's going so far. And as always any comments or suggestions are always welcome! ^-^ Oh and just an FYI, while you wait for the next chapter you can always check out my other current fanfic "Iwatobi Drama Club" from the anime Free!. And if your not interested I have other fanfics as well...if you want to check them out that is XD... ANYWHO~ enough of my rambling~ C U in the next update!

Cly****