I am so sorry for the very long absence but i kinda lost my inspiration for writing anything. It was the final days at uni and then i started working and i barely had time for writing but as this is one of my passions i just had to write something and i hope that you will like it. Please enjoy.

Chapter 4: Almost

Reenie walked home more angry than hurt. "How dare he think so low of me" Reenie thought. Reenie was raised in the club just like him and she knew that loyalty was above everything else and she was always loyal to her family and to this club. The club was her life and she will protect it and the people within the club with her own life if it came to it.

Reenie wiped the angry tear that fell from her face and shook her head when she heard a growl of a bike engine. She stopped to look at it and surely it was Jax. He stopped before her and Reenie just started to walk away angry at him and not wanting to speak to him.

"Reenie please stop." She heard Jax call after her but she just speed up. She did not want to speak to him at the moment.

"I said stop, don't be difficult." Reenie just scoffed and kept walking. She heard footsteps and felt her arm being tugged.

"Let go of me or i will scream." Reenie said between her teeth looking at Jax with a death glare that could rival Gemma's. Jax felt shivers down her spine and let go of her arm but caught her once again when she wanted to walk away.

"Reenie please stop. Please let me apologise." Jax said in a small voice feeling like the biggest asshole in the world.

"For what for basically calling me a slut or for questioning my loyalty to the club. I was raised in this club just like you and i would never do anything to harm the club or the people. They are my family just like they are yours and the only slut i see here is you." Reenie said her chest raising up and down with anger. She was shaking all over seh was that angry and to Jax she never looked so beautiful.

Jax was an asshole to her, he admitted it but when he saw Capitan America with her he felt this primal rage within him because she felt that Reenie was his and she belong to him and it scared him. Scared him that he may be developing feeling that went beyond friendship and brotherly love. He was scared that he was attracted to her but not only that she wanted to be with her but he knew that it could never happen. He would die first killed by Opie and Piney before they will let him close to his daughter so being an asshole was the best approach but when he saw how much he hurt her he wanted to blow his own brains out for making even one tear leave her eye on his account.

"Look i know i should never question you about you loyalty to this club. I know you love it just like i do. I was just stressed Reenie and that asshole wants nothing more than to get rid of the club and i don't want him to use and hurt you. You are like my little sister and i will always protect you. Please say you forgive me. I can't have you angry at me." Jax said and Reenie looked at him with tears in her eyes. The comment about being his little sister hurt her. More than she wanted to admit. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath. She did not want to fight with. She loved him not like a brother but more and even when it was buried deep inside her it never died and when she saw him it crept back up at her and she hated herself for it but it was life. She will have to work hard to suppressing it again. Even with his handsome face in front of her all the time.

"Okay i forgive you just don't be an asshole again or i will punch you. Hard. In the nutsack." Reenie said looking up into Jax's eyes.

"I will never make you cry again. I promise." Jax said wiping the tear that fell unknowingly to Reenie and her breath hitched. His thumb left a train of blazing fire as it moved to wipe the tear from her eyes. It affected her so much that she started to tremble. Reenie looked up back at Jax and he was staring at her lips licking his own and Reenie wanted nothing more than to feel them on her own.

Jax heart was beating frantically in his chest. Reenie was looking at him from under those long eyelashes, her green eyes dark with emotion. She looked like a Godess and all he wanted was to claim those full lips of hers. Fuck the club. Fuck his life. He would gladly give it away just to kiss her at this very moment. When he touched her face to wipe her tear he felt like he was being electrocuted in the most pleasurable ways possible and now to have this woman in font of him breathing heavily and trembling was more than he could handle.

He needed to feel her lips, he needed to taste her, to claim her. He needed her right now and he was going to have her. He moved his head down to kiss her lips. He craved it so bad and now that he was so close it was so sureal but he was going to do it. He had to.

Reenie saw his head bowing and his lips moving toward her and he heart was beating so fast and her stomach was alive with butterflies. She had waited so long for this to happen and the fact that it was happening right now made her feel light headed but she was not going to fuck this up. She stood on her tiptoes, his lips inches way from hers car horn got them back to reality making them jump away from each other trying to look into any direction then each other. Reenie looked at her feet and put her hair behind her ear before looking at Jax who was staring at her with a distant look.

"I think i should go now. Do you need a lift home." Jax said taking his eyes away from Reenie and looking anywhere else.

"No i am all right Jax don't worry. Go on ill be fine." Reenie said her mouth dry but there was a happy feeling inside of her that almost made her drunk. He wanted her. He wanted her just like she wanted him and it will be hard to get him to admit it but he will eventually. He has to. Sooner or later he will be hers and he can run and hide but she will eventually catch him so with one last wave at Jax she turned around and walked away from Jax giving her hips that extra sway fully knowing he will be watching her.

Jax looked at her retreating from and wanted to kick himself for her rock hard dick he was sporting just from looking at her ass. Fuck he almost kissed her. He almost kissed Reenie who was his best friend's sister, his father figure's actual daughter. He was ready to say goodbye to the club just to kiss her. Jax shook his head angrily.

"Think with your big head for once not the little one." Jax said to himself as he sat on his bike and took off. He needed to get what he was feeling under control. He could never have her. He was a mechanic, a convicted criminal, there is no way Piney would ever allow her to be with him. She had a bright future ahead of her and he was not going to mess it up. Besides the club was his life and he will not let any pussy get in that way no matter how much he wanted her, not just for sex but as an old lady.

Jax drove to the clubhouse where the party was taking place. Patches were already so drunk but he did not care for this. He was horny and he needed to fuck so when he saw the familiar face of Wendy he grabbed her and dragged her to his room, fucking her so hard ad fast making her scream loud dreaming that it was Reenie who he was making scream.

It was days since the almost kiss that she shared with Jax and he barely has seen him at all. It was like he was purposely avoiding her and as much as she tried not to admit it it hurt her but she needed to wait this out. She needed to be strong cause she will make Jax hers one way or another.

She just entered the clubhouse where Gemma was sitting at the bar with a cold drink in her hand and talking to Bobby.

"Well look who the cat dragged in. I was thinking you were too good to come to the clubhouse." Gemma said and Reenie shook her head.

"Aunt Gemma please i was just busy with moving here. I still need to find a house to live in i don't wanna impose on Opie more than i have to." Reenie said kissing Gemma's cheek and moving over to kiss Bobby in his hairy cheek and earning a big hug fro him.

"Don't mind her she's just cranky today. Must be the time of the month." Bobby said and Gemma gave him a death glare to which the other two started to laugh at.

"You've been only here for two weeks and you already want to move out of Opie's house." Gemma asked and Reenie sat down beside her taking a drink as well.

"Yeah school starts in two weeks and i want to be out of there by that time. As much as i love my niece and nephew i will need peace and quiet." Reenie said.

"I was talking to a guy that came with his car and he was moving to Seattle for a job and he was asking if someone needed to a house for rental. I can call him and ask if you are interested. Its in the good neighbourhood and the price is decent." Bobby said and Reenie perked up at this.

"Please do Uncle Bobby. I would really appreciate it." Reenie said and Gemma looked at her.

"As long as its not that far away from here so we can have an eye on you i am good with that." Gemma said and Reenie looked at her aunt and smiled.

"I will be fine Aunt Gemma don't worry so much about me." Reenie said and Gemma shook her head.

"You and Opie are like my own and i will always worry about you two just like i do about my son." Gemma said and Reenie shook her head.

"Oh we have the taste of Charming next week and you are helping me you hear me." Gemma said pointing a finger at Reenie and all she could do was nod.

Just then Jax came to the clubhouse smiling ad laughing but he was not alone. He was holding hands with a very sexy woman who was hanging off him and kissing his neck. Reenie had not seen Jax in a weeks time when he almost kiss her and to see him now with another woman hurt her. It hurt her deep but she was not going to show it to anyone. She needed to keep her dignity on this clubhouse. After all she was the Princess of SAMCRO or that was what the sweetbuds and croweaters were calling her behind her back.

Reenie looked down in her drink her back stiff not wanting with this woman. She was angry and hurt and she needed to get out of here but she will wait until they were out of here.

Jax did not even see anyone in the clubhouse. She was busy with looking at Wendy's tits to see that his mother and Reenie were there. Wendy practically dragged him to the dorm room to get her way with him.

Reenie stood up and took her handbag of the chair.

"Well i need to go. Need to do some shopping before the kids come from their day out." She said kissing Bobby and Gemma on the cheek, she practically ran away from the club.

Both Gemma and Bobby sighed shaking their heads and looking at each other.

"When will that asshole see that what he needs is in front of him." Gemma says and Bobby nods.

"I think he is in denial an he will admit it when something happens and that scares me." Bobby said and Gemma nodded.

"We need to do something." Gemma said with narrowed eyes and a shiver ran through Bobby. He closed his eyes and hoped that no one will lose their lives.

Well there we go. What will the next chapter bring? I am very sorry for grammatical error but i really have no time to look and i am so exited to let you have it that i am giving you a raw piece. I will check it over later on and repost it but please feel free to review and let me know what you think.