Answer to the guest question, yes, this was her only way to look like an adult for a one day.

Vows are spoken to be broken
Feelings are intense, words are trivial
Pleasures remain, so does the pain
Words are meaningless and forgettable

Depeche Mode – Enjoy The Silence

Chapter 29

My first kiss

No. Tears were coursing down my cheeks, my throat hurt because of the screaming and my hands were bruised and shaking violently for banging the door over and over again, there was nothing else I could do. I had no idea how long I had been here, it felt like hours. There was no way out and no one was going to open this door. I had screamed for papa to help me and I had even screamed that I wasn't Arianna, but obviously no one could hear me. I was going to die here and it was completely my own fault, I had been selfish and greedy. Slowly I walked next to the bed and sat down; there was nothing I could do anymore. I curled my legs up against my chest and cried, I thought that in these circumstances I had the right to feel sorry for myself. The worst part was that I wasn't the only one who was going to die; my selfishness would also kill my loan body. No, she wasn't just my loan body, her name was Arianna.

"I am so sorry," I muttered, although she probably couldn't hear me. Why had I been so stupid, why? I leaned my head on my knees and sobbed. Just one day, was it really too much to ask? This wasn't fair. Had I been fair when I had taken Arianna's body, no, but I hadn't planned to harm it, I had only wanted to borrow it. And that made me just a wonderful person… No, I didn't deserve this; I refused to believe that I did. I wondered how I would die and would it hurt. Probably.

New tears were forming in my eyes when I thought about papa, Rebekah, Klaus and Kol. Would they ever know what had happened to me? They would if I would have told someone about Agata and the spell, but I had been too stupid to do that. How long would they look for me before giving up? Months, years, longer? I felt a sting in my heart when I thought about the pain they would feel, all except maybe Kol, I had no idea how he would feel.

He had probably loved me like a little sister or something and I had ruined that by crossing the line. I had thought that he understood I wasn't a child and in some way he probably did, but how could he ever have any romantic feelings towards me when I looked like a child. Well, that wouldn't be a problem for much longer; soon I wouldn't look like anything anymore.

Maybe I should try banging the door again, what did I have to lose… Suddenly I heard something, someone was behind the door. I didn't have time to make a sound when the lock was gone and the door was kicked open. I jumped to my feet and instinctively took a step back, but then I saw Klaus. He marched in and stopped when he noticed me, I couldn't interpret his expression. For a brief moment we merely stared at each other, I was unable to speak.

"Eva?" he asked cautiously. "Is that you?"

Fresh tears filled my eyes; I ran to him and wrapped my arms tightly around him.

"I am sorry," I sobbed. "Please forgive me."

His body tensed at first, but he tried to clumsily tap my back.

"It's alright," he murmured. "We will get you out of here."

"We…?"

Then I noticed Kol, he was standing in the doorway, he looked tense to say the least.

"We have to go," he muttered, he avoided looking at me.

Klaus pulled away and touched my hair, although he seemed to be hesitating.

"I will have to carry you," he said, it wasn't difficult to see that he was uncomfortable. "I just…"

He bent down and lifted me up; his other arm went under my knees and he wrapped the other one around my back, he didn't seem to know where to put his hands. I frowned, surely he had carried women before, what was the… Oh. He found my loan body attractive, but it was still me, which made the whole thing weird to him.

"Just get over it," I snapped before I managed to stop myself.

He looked up, clearly surprised, but then he smirked.

"My apologies, sweetheart. This is just…"

"Yes, it is."

He smiled at me and I smiled as well, there was something strangely comical about the whole situation. Kol cleared his throat, he sounded annoyed.

"Are we staying here and wait for midget to die?" he snapped.

I looked at him, but he still refused to look at me, he turned his back and headed out. Klaus followed him after instructing me to press my face on his shoulder; otherwise I might have neck injuries. I didn't ask any questions, this wasn't the time or place for that. It was dark, which meant that the sun had set already, who knew how much time I had left.

"Hold on," Klaus whispered. I gasped when he used his vampire speed, it felt very unpleasant. I had to keep my eyes closed in order to stop myself from throwing up; a human body certainly wasn't meant to move so fast. He stopped few times and waited for something, but I didn't dare to open my eyes, I felt very nauseous.

"Damn Kol…" he muttered at some point, but I could barely hear him. "I said imperceptibly…"

I couldn't see what was going on, but I noticed how quiet the whole place was, I only heard some people chatting and someone laughing. There was no shouting or sounds of battle; it seemed that Klaus and Kol tried to stay unnoticed. That didn't sound like them, but they probably had a good reason. I didn't know how powerful Demetrio was, but I doubted that he was just any warlock and he would have definitely fought if he would have thought someone tried to kidnap his daughter. I shivered when I felt the cool night air on my skin.

"Hold on," Klaus whispered again. I clung to him even tighter when I felt him moving faster than before, I barely managed to muffle my scream when we were suddenly in the air, he was taking a long leap over the fence. When we landed, the force of the impact emptied my lungs; I tried desperately to gasp for air. Being human was much harder than I had remembered; I didn't like it at all.

"It's alright," Klaus said and stroked my back.

"Come on!" Kol's voice said, I heard a horse nickering. I felt terrible, my body hurt, I was nauseous and I still had some trouble breathing. Somehow I managed to open my eyes when Klaus lifted me on a horse and mounted himself to sit behind me. Kol was next to us riding his own horse; he looked just as tense as before. I tried to catch my breath and calm myself down when we rode away from the villa, the full moon looked just as bright as last night.

"How are you feeling, sweetheart?" Klaus asked.

"I am not sure," I muttered. "How did you find me?"

Klaus was quiet for a moment; I tried to turn in order to see his face.

"Klaus?"

"We found your journal," Kol replied for him. "And you should be damn grateful that we did, that was the most reckless, most foolish…"

He gritted his teeth; it seemed that he was too angry to continue. I felt the blush rising in my cheeks.

"My…journal?"

"Yes," Klaus muttered, unlike Kol, he actually seemed embarrassed for reading my private thoughts. "It was good that you had written down the witch's name, otherwise we might not have found you in time."

"But…how did you know where I was?"

I felt Klaus' body tensing.

"The witch recognized this body you brought with you."

My eyes widened.

"What? She did not say anything…"

"Of course she didn't," Kol huffed. "She hates Demetrio."

I turned to look at him; his attitude was starting to annoy me. Yes, I had been stupid, but he didn't have to act like a jerk.

"How was I supposed to know that?" I snapped.

"Perhaps you should have found that kind of little details out before making deals with strange witches."

"Enough, Kol," Klaus huffed. "I believe she has learned her lesson."

I didn't say anything, I felt even more stupid than before.

"Two of my witches are in her cottage now," Klaus continued. "They will undo this spell; you will be back in your own body in no time."

I wasn't sure what I thought about that, I wanted to get out of this weak human body, but…

"What about Agata?" I muttered. "Is she…"

"She is alive," Klaus replied, he didn't sound very happy. "She said that she was planning to honor your agreement, if you would have returned to her cottage in time and since my witches can't undo the spell without her, I now owe that old hag a favor."

"I am telling you, you should have just let me torture her," Kol huffed.

"Yes, I am sure that would have worked out," Klaus replied coolly. "Unfortunately we were in a hurry."

"I am sorry," I muttered. "About everything, I just wanted…"

"I know, sweetheart," Klaus sighed and touched my shoulder.

I bit my lip and looked at the moon.

"How long…when will the sun rise?"

"No need to worry, we have time, at least five hours…"

"Please stop," I said. "I want to stop."

"Eva…"

"Please."

Klaus hesitated for a moment, but he pulled the reins, making the horse to stop. Surprisingly Kol didn't say anything, he simply stopped and dismounted. Klaus followed his example and lifted me down; it was good to feel the ground under my feet. I was cold, so I wrapped my arms around me; Kol mumbled something about lighting a campfire.

"Is that safe?" I asked. "Are we far enough…"

"Yes, I believe we are," he interrupted me and started to gather some sticks.

"Strange," I muttered and looked at the moon. "I had forgotten what coldness feels like."

Klaus moved next to me and started to rub my arms.

"Yes, those kinds of things are easy to forget."

I leaned my head on his shoulder and allowed him to wrap his arm around me, it felt much more natural now, he wasn't tense anymore. We stood there silently for a while, even though his body wasn't really warm, I felt less cold when he was next to me.

"This day hadn't been like I expected," I mumbled, although I didn't want to complain, Klaus and Kol had just saved my life.

"I can believe that," he replied. "Did you…did you at least get that kiss?"

I laughed bitterly and shook my head.

"No, I suppose I am not meant to…"

I didn't have time to finish my sentence when he suddenly pulled me against his chest and pressed his lips on mine. I was stunned; it took me few seconds to understand that this was really happening. His arms tightened around me and I felt him shaping my lips with his, slowly tasting every inch of my lips. It was different than I had expected, there was no demand or claiming, his kiss was very gentle, almost respectful. It was a perfect first kiss. My heart was beating faster and my skin felt warm when he pulled away.

"Thank you," I managed to say.

He smiled and caressed my cheek.

"You are welcome."

"I…I am sorry if I was terrible."

He looked amused, but not in a mocking way.

"You weren't. I am glad I could do at least this one thing for you."

He tapped my shoulder and walked to the horses, I felt that I was floating in the air. I touched my lips and smiled, everything felt perfect. Then I looked up and saw Kol. He was standing next to the campfire, staring at me. I had never seen that kind of look, that kind of darkness in his eyes before, I couldn't understand it. What was wrong with him? I swallowed when he was suddenly in front of me, his eyes getting darker and darker. I had a bad feeling about this.