Chapter 6
Tris' POV
Day of the dance...
(Part two of four)
Zeke was right. Tobias did end up going to the dance. It's not like I care anyways. What is he going to do, like go up to me and kiss me?
Ha, yeah right. The least I can do is try my best to ignore him. But maybe Uri is right. There are times when you should just forgive and forget.
Maybe...
I'm going to kill Christina later for this. But at the same time, I don't understand how she changed so quickly into a dress.
I have to drag myself up to the stage. "So if you guys see a dead body in a few hours, it may or may not be Christina. And I may or may not have been the one to kill her." I hear a soft crowd of laughter. "I have a song that really expresses my feelings. People do stupid things and you have to learn to forgive them. But this is what I felt last year, and it may be a little harsh. But you have to let your feelings out at some point, right?" I out the mic into the little stand thing as take a place in front of the piano.
I start:
No more second chances, no more plastic lies
No more giving me reasons to make me have to say goodbye
You only live once, no second chances
She says I go from The Hulk to Mr Romantic
They call me saying
I've been Ghost and I pull up in the Phantom
I'm bout to get the money moving, I can't sit still, I'm a leave you standing
Everything we had is all gone
Not one more chance, I moved on
I'm doing me so you do you,
You do you
Cause this is my only life
So I've got to let you go
You should've been only mine
So I'm walking out your door
Singing no more second chances
No more plastic lies
No more giving me reasons to make me have to say goodbye
She only want my Ricotta
Ace of spades and vodka
She trying to be my flame like Waka Flocka what the fucka
GPS in my phone, the bug in the house like she a stalker
She trying to lock me down with a pie like she's some Betty Crocker
No more games, no old news
Putting new words to an old tune
Just get out the box will I love you
I love you yea
Cause this is my only life
So I've got to let you go
You should've been only mine
So I'm walking out your door
Singing no more second chances
No more plastic lies
No more giving me reasons to make me have to say goodbye
Uh, trying to say I'm crazy
But it's you that chased me
Ain't no black and white,
This gray's a different shade of shady
Remember when I caught your fingers creepin' on me
Texting her at midnight, boy you test the phone geek
And I looked right past it
Like it was old news
And I told myself
Why should I doubt you?
About to turn the tables on you
I'm bout to turn the tables on you
Singing no more second chances
No more plastic lies
No more giving me reasons to make me have to say goodbye, bye, bye
Baby please don't go
Is there anything I can say
No no no no no, baby, please don't go
Yea, I'm begging you, say goodbye
Tell me is it a crime of mine
To change my mind
No more giving me reasons to make me have to goodbye bye bye
Say goodbye
My eyes find Tobias' sitting in a table with Zeke and a few other guys.
I got to let go.
"You did really well, girl! That was such a sad song though. Did something happen to you and Tyler?" Chris asks worriedly.
"Uhm, no. It wasn't about him." She doesn't ask anymore questions so I'm assuming she knows who I'm talking about.
Christina and I meet Marlene and Uriah at a table. I sit myself besides Uriah.
"That was great, Tris!" He exclaims.
"Thanks." I mutter. "I'm going to get something to drink, be right back." I excuse myself and make my way to the food table grabbing myself a cup of juice.
The gym is crowded with people dancing with friends or their girl/boyfriend. The air is humid and I can already feel myself sweat.
If only Tyler was here.
It's hard to get through the crowd having to push my way through it. I mKe my way back to my friends and join in on their conversation.
"Hey Tris, do you, uhm, want to dance or something." A tall light brown headed guy approaches me with a sweet smile. I don't want to be rude so I accept his request and I make my way with him to the dance floor. You know how when guys ask you to dance, and you slow dance to a song, but it's incredibly awkward? I sway to the beat of the song with the boy, Will, and we stare at everything but each other's faces. Every time we make eye contact, we instantly turn our gaze to somewhere else. My arms drop down from being on his shoulder and his let go of my waist.
"I'll see you around." He says awkwardly.
"You too." I quickly scurry off relieved from having to dance with him. Don't get me wrong, he seemed nice and all, I'm just very awkward sometimes. And what was I suppose to do? Tell him a joke?
"Hey Tris." I see Shauna, Zeke's girlfriend wave at me.
"Hey what's up?"
"Not much, you look so lonely. Where is that hot hunk of man you have?" She tease.
"He's sick, unfortunately." I reply with a sad smile.
"Oh sweetie, that sucks. Well go dance, have fun!" She ushers me into the dance floor right as another slow song comes on. She pushed me harder than anticipated and I crash into someone.
Tobias.
Well, damnit.
"Oof, sorry!"
He stares at me for a while. "Oh uh, it's fine."
"I'll get going-"
"Do you want to dance?" I stare as he licks his lips, slowly."
"I have to-"
"Tris, I know the song was about me. I'm sorry, but just, if you won't forgive at least give me one last thing to remember you goodbye." His eyes stare into mine and I reluctantly agree.
Tobias gently takes my hand and drags me into the crowd of people on the dance floor. My arms wrap around his neck and his snakes his arms on my waist.
I never thought that you'd be the one to hold my heart.
But you came around and you knock me off the ground from the start.
You put your arms around me and I believe that it's easier for you to let me go.
You put your arms around me and I'm home.
He sings softly to the song swaying us both. I inch closer to him leaning my head against his chest and his against the top of mine.
I tried my best to never let you in to see the truth.
And I never opened up I never truly love till you put your arms around me and I believe that it's easier for you to let me go.
I hope that you see through my walls. I hope that you catch me cause I'm all ready falling.
I'd never let our love get so close.
You put your arms around me and I'm home.
It feels so natural, doing this. The way my body perfectly fits against his. How his long arms drape around my waist like it was meant to fit around his grasp. How the crook of my neck was made just so his head can be rested against.
No. No!
But, it's like a million emotions are running back to me cursing ever mean thought I ever thought about him. Every bad things disappear and is being replaced my something different.
Something different...
Coming back to reality, I see his face inching closer and all I want to do is close the gap.
Close it. Close it, Tris!
I pull back and stare at him wide-eyed. What is wrong with you Tris!
"I never said I didn't forgive you." I walk away before anything can happen, no run away.
The only thing I can think is; you put your arms around me and I'm home.
What were you thinking? He was going to kiss you!