I took a deep breath in and out. I wasn't going to stay in here to die anymore. I started running down the hallway but was stopped by a hand around my ankle, causing me to fall on my face. I kicked the hand away, "Leave me alone, Trevor! I'm not going to die in here anymore!" "I want you to stay down here and die!" He hissed. "But I want you to suffer before it all happens! You will stay down here and die, god damnit!" He got up and started kicking me, once he thought I was too hurt to move he started running for the exit.

Tears started coming out of my eyes as I tried to crawl my way down the halls. "God damnit. . . !" I muttered to myself. Frustrated I layed my head down on the carpet and kept crying. "There's Jade. . !" I heard a voice say. I felt myself being picked up and my arms being wrapped around two things. . they were necks. My vision was blurry with tears but the next thing I knew was that I was being shoved into the ground and hearing a loud explosion. "W-. . . What happened?" I whispered. My vision got better and I saw Dale and Andrea looking down at me. "You need your rest," I heard Dale say. I saw him notion somebody over here, it was Rick. "You're okay. . !" He pulled me into a tight hug, but I stayed limp.

He lifted me up bridal style, carried me into the R.V. and laid me down on the bed for me to rest. He tucked a strand of my hair behind my ear and gave me a light smile, "I'm really glad you're okay. . ." I smiled back at him, "Me too. . . Rick, listen I'm sorry about last ni-" "Don't worry about it, I understand. . Get some sleep you need to rest, you hear me?" I laughed a little, "Okay. . ." He ruffled my hair, "I'll see you when you wake up, okay?" I nodded and watched him as he left the R.V. and slowly drifted off into sleep.

I jolted up from a nightmare I had, I sighed in relief when I noticed I was in the RV. I got off the bed and made my way to the front seat of the RV. Shane and Andrea nodded at me and I nodded back in response. "How you feeling?" Dale asked as I sat next to him.

I sighed, "I-. . As good as it's gonna get I guess."

He didn't keep his eyes off the road, just in case, "You're a strong woman, Jade. You'll make it as far as you want to. Nothing is going to stop you but yourself."

I smiled, "You're so wise, Dale. Hopefully I can be a little like you someday. ."

He smiled and shook his head, "You probably will. . We all take a piece of somebody that we meet in our lives and put them into ourselves, making us more unique and. . . Oh no. ."

The RV started making weird noises so he pulled the RV over and got out, everybody else followed right behind him. Dale took off his hat and started fanning himself off, "I said it, didn't I say it? A thousand times. . . Dead in the water." Shane walked up to the RV, "Problem, Dale?"

"Well just the small matter of being stuck in the middle of nowhere while no hope of. . ." Dale looked around for a moment. "Okay, that was dumb."

"Can't find a radiator hose here." Shane sighed.

"A whole bunch of stuff we can find." Daryl informed as he looked through the back of a car.

"Cyphine more fuel from these cars for a start." T-Dog said.

"Maybe some water?" Carol asked in a worried tone. "Food?"

"This place is a graveyard." Lori said plainly. We all looked at her for a moment then looked around at all of us in silence. "I don't know how I feel about this. ."

"C'mon ya'll," Shane announced, "just looked around. Gather what ya can."

I watched as everybody started spreading out to look for supplies. I could feel a pair of eyes on me, I turned around to see that Trevor was glaring at me from a few feet away. I scoffed and walked away, trying to get as far away from him as possible. I opened a car door and began looking for anything that we could use for supplies. As I was searching the car something shiny caught my eye, it was a gun, but the problem was that it was in a walker's pocket. I slid out my knife and stabbed the walker in the head before I proceeded to grab the gun. When the gun was in my possession I checked how many bullets it had, only three.

I felt a hand on my shoulder, I turned around instantly and aimed the gun in that direction. I sighed to see that it was Rick. "How ya holdin' up?" He asked, leaning against the car.

"Fine." I replied.

He sighed, "I know that's a lie, Jade. ."

I scowled, "Why do you care anyways? You wouldn't care if I died in that explosion anyways. . ."

In a split second Rick was in my face, "Don't you ever say that, Jade! I care about you. . . I'm sorry that I left you. I thought you weren't coming out so I had to leave, I couldn't just leave my family without me. I promise I won't leave you alone ever again."

I looked at him with tears in my eyes but I held them down. "Trevor tried to kill me again."

Rick's eyes widened, "What?! When. . ?"

I leaned my head against the headrest and sighed, "Before the explosion. . . I realized that I wanted to make it in this world but Trevor tried to stop me. . Thanks to Dale and Andrea I made it out alive."

Rick was speechless.

"I'm going to kill Trevor." I said with a straight face.

"You can't do that, Jade. . We don't kill the living. We can just tell him to leave the group and if he doesn't we'll force him, okay?"

I shook my head. "No. I am going to kill him. Whether you like it or not. . You don't understand how much pain he has caused me. He killed Kira, Rick. . !"

Rick pulled me into a hug. I buried my face into his neck and started bawling. Rick made me feel comfortable and safe enough to put my defenses down and I knew he wouldn't judge me. He makes me feel things I've never experienced before, he makes my heart leap out of my chest and puts butterflies in my stomach. I'm in love with Rick but he could never love me. . He has Lori and Carl and I'm nothing special. .

I pulled away from him and wiped my eyes, "I have to do it, Rick. I'm sorry."

Rick gave me a sad look that made me feel guilty, "When are you going to do it. . ?"

I shrugged, "Don't know. But it has to be done soon."

He sighed, "Can't we talk to him first. . ?"

I shook my head, "No, Rick! I want to hurt him like he has hurt me and Kira! He needs to pay."

He laid his hand on my shoulder and looked away from me, "Do what you think is right, Jade. ." He moved his hand off my shoulder and walked away from me.

I watched as he left, each step he took father away from me made the pit in my stomach go deeper. I sighed in frustration as I got out of the car. I leaned my elbows against the roof of the car and ran my fingers through my hair, trying to think about what I should do. I was snapped out of my thought by sounds of loud growls in the distance, "Oh fuck. . !" I whispered to myself. I tried looking for the others in the distance but didn't see them.

I crouched down to the ground and quietly made my way towards the RV, I had to make sure that everyone was okay. On my way to the RV I noticed that everybody was under the cars, I sighed in relief and decided to go under one myself. "Hey." I heard a voice say so quiet I could barely hear, I turned my head to see Trevor, he was giving me a menacing look. My eyes widened and I started crawling my way from under the car but Trevor grabbed my hand. I managed to pull away from him and get up from the ground, I started running away from him and hid behind a car, hoping I didn't attract any walkers.

I peeked over the car and sighed in relief when I didn't see any walkers coming my way. I was pulled up from the ground from someone pulling at my hair, I yelped in pain. "You're finally goin' to die today, you bitch." He whispered in my ear. "Let me go." I said through my teeth." "Not gonna happen. ." He coed in my ear.

He yanked me along closer and closer to the hoard of walkers. When we got close enough Trevor started whistling, trying not to attract too many of them. About 4 of them came towards us, Trevor held both of my wrists together with one hand and my hair with the other, pushing me towards the walkers. I tried to fight back but it didn't work, tears started come out of my eyes. Did no one want to help me? Or did they not see. . ? I heard the sound of a gun shot in the distance and soon after the sound of Trevor groaning in pain. I looked around to see Rick holding his sniper rifle, Rick instantly went back down into hiding and I stepped away from Trevor, hiding in a good spot to watch the walkers eat him.

I got out from under the car when I thought the coast was clear, I stabbed the walkers in the head that were still eating at Trevor, he was still alive. He looked like he was in so much pain, this was too perfect! I started kicking him in the stomach and laughing hysterically until he died. "Wouldn't want him to turn into a walker. . ." I smirked as I kneeled down to his level, sliding out my knife. I lunged my knife through his skull and it felt amazing. I kept stabbing him in the head over and over again until I was stopped by a hand around my wrist, "That's enough, Jade." Rick said firmly.

I yanked my hand away from him and before he could say anything we heard a scream coming from a certain direction. "Sophia!" Carol yelled. Rick grabbed his gun and began running after Sophia, "Sophia!" He called. A few minutes later Rick returned, "Shane, Glenn and Daryl come help with me." They nodded and and followed Rick into the woods. I walked up to Carol who kept her eyes on the woods. "They'll find her. . ." She looked at me with a worried expression, "What if they don't, Jade?" I rubbed her shoulder, "They will. . ."

In the distance we saw Glenn and Shane come back. "We should start moving cars to get the RV ready to turn around when they come back with Sophia," Shane informed. Everyone nodded and started moving them. I started walking around to see if I could find more supplies, as I was walking around I saw Carl reaching inside a car. "Whatcha got there, Carl?" I asked, peeking over his shoulder.

He jumped "Don't scare me like that!"

I laughed a little, "Haha, sorry!"

He grinned and began pulling out and object. As he pulled it out the dead walker snapped and fell over a little, causing Carl to scream. As Carl fell backwards I caught him, "You okay?" He nodded and set the object on the floor and unrolled it, "Woah. . ! It's an arsenal!" Carl exclaimed. He pulled out something, "Woah, look it's a machete, Jade!" "Be careful with that, Carl." He nodded, "I'm going to go show mom!" I smiled, "Okay, sweetie." I rubbed his head and watched him as he ran over to Lori. I sighed and leaned against the car, I didn't have anybody.

A few minutes later Carl came back to me with a disappointed look on his face, "What's wrong, Carl?"

He sighed, "Mom and Shane got mad at me and told me to give the weapons to Dale. ."

I rubbed his back, "That sucks. . . Maybe when you're older your mom will let you use them. Just know that they're not toys. . They can hurt people."

He leaned his head against my shoulder, "I know. . Thanks for talking to me, Jade."

I smiled, "Let's go to everybody, okay?"

He nodded, "Okay."

When we got over to everybody they were listening to a radio. "What's goin' on?" I asked when we got close enough. They all hushed me and listened to the radio carefully. "Please do not venture out. Remain calm. Help is on the way." Shane sighed and turned off the radio, "Asshole." He looked around at everybody, "Okay, let's get back to work those cars aren't gonna move themselves. . ." I stood there in place while everybody was moving back to their spots, was there actually going to be help? I doubted it but a very tiny glimmer of hope was sparked inside me.