Chapter 8

Tobias' POV

(Part four of four)

Three years ago...

"Okay, you pop the popcorn and I'll make the smoothie. Ready? Go!" I make my way to the upper cabinet and grab the box of popcorn bags. I watch as Tris grabs the necessary ingredients to make the smoothie she wanted.

Strawberries, blueberries, banana, yogurt, juice...

"What?" She asks when she catches me staring at her.

"Huh? Oh, nothing." I turn my attention back to microwaving the popcorn bag.

I don't know what's happening to me. It's like my brain is noticing all the small details about Tris. Her long blonde hair, her enhancing blue eyes. The way her eyebrows furrow whenever she's concentrating hard on something like right now. All the cute curves on her body...

Stop it!

"Why do you keep looking at me like that?" She stares at me.

"Uh, what? I don't- I'm not, what?" I stumble. Wow, Tobias.

"Oh ok. Well I finished the smoothie. Here try it." The takes a spoon full of the drink and shove it in my mouth for me to try.

I smack my lips together getting a better taste of the drink. "Wow, that's really good."

"Okay, good. This is for you." She hands me a glass full of the smoothie."

"I have the popcorn, now let's watch the movie." I put in the movie The Breakfast Club and Tris and I sit next to each other on the couch.

"Can you hand me that blanket next to you?" I grab the blanket and lay it over the to of us. "Or you can just do that."

Inch by inch, my body goes closer to hers until he are side by side together. What surprises me the most is when she places both her legs on my lap.

"Hey, Tobias? What's that on your lap?" I lower my head to see what she was talking about and when I do, she slaps the bottom of my face and laughs. "I got you!"

"Ha-ha, very mature, Tris. What are you three?"

"No, I'm-" She shrieks loudly when I tickle her stomach. "St-stop!" I laugh at her when she falls off the couch but instantly stop when she pulls me by the arm and makes me land on top of her. I stare into her eyes for a while until something clicks.

I like Tris.

My arms hold me up from the ground as I start to lean in. Her eyes stare into mine until my lips meet hers.

My lips meet hers! I am kissing Tris. Oh my-

"Mm. You're a good kisser." I laugh at her awkwardness. "Tobias-" She sighs. "I don't, I don't want a relationship right now."

"I'll wait."

"No, don't. You probably don't even have feelings for me. It was in the spur of the moment."

"But-"

"Don't, let's just watch the movie, okay?" I nod.

It was in the spur of the moment.

I kept telling myself that for a while, maybe that's why I lost her. I could of had her in seventh grade, I had lost my chance then.

I'm an idiot.

Present Day...

My gaze in fixated on Tris as she quick she quickly scurries of the stage and walks back to her friends.

"You look so depressing. Go dance with someone." Zee hits his shoulder against mine.

"I really don't want to."

"One girl and we can leave." He bargains. "And plus, it looks like you have a fan club over there." He points to the group of girls that are looking towards us.

I groan loudly. "One dance."

"Have fun, Toby!" He calls.

"Shut up, Ezekiel."

"Tobias!" Christina sees me. "You want to dance?"

"Uhh..sure." I place my hands on her sides.

"You are too obvious." She laughs.

"What do you mean obvious?" I ask her.

"I see you looking at her all the time. It's like your undressing her with your eyes." She teases.

"Am I really that obvious? I actually thought I've been hiding it pretty well." I lower my voice.

"I've known since like seventh grade. So yes, you are pretty obvious. You know she has a boyfriend right?"

"I've known for like eight months." I sigh.

"Ask her to dance." My eyes find Tris dancing with another boy. The sight almost makes me burst out laughing. Tris is looking away from the boy, anything from meeting their gaze.

"That's not a good idea." I really don't want to.

"Please?"

"No."

"Please?" She whines again. "If you don't ask her, I will personally tell her myself the thing that happened in eighth grade when you-"

"Alright, alright! You don't need to remind me. I'll ask her." I give in.

"Okay good." She pulls away. "Look, go ask right now."

I make my way through the crowd looking for her. God knows where she went. I crash into a small body and my hands grip onto who I crashed into to makes sure they don't fall.

"Ouch." I mutter to myself really softly.

"Oof, sorry!"

I stare at her for a while. "Oh uh, it's fine."

"I'll get going-"

"Do you want to dance?" I lick my lips.

"I have to-" She starts.

"Tris, I know the song was about me. I'm sorry, but just, if you won't forgive at least give me one last thing to remember you goodbye." I stare into her eyes and she her after a few seconds modding her head, slowly.

I gently takes her hand and drags her into the crowd of people on the dance floor. My arms wrap around her waist and I feel hers snake around my neck.

I never thought that you'd be the one to hold my heart.

But you came around and you knock me off the ground from the start.

You put your arms around me and I believe that it's easier for you to let me go.

You put your arms around me and I'm home.

I sing softly to the song swaying us both. I smile a little when I feel her inch closer to me leaning her head against my chest and mine against the top of hers.

I tried my best to never let you in to see the truth.

And I never opened up I never truly love till you put your arms around me and I believe that it's easier for you to let me go.

I hope that you see through my walls. I hope that you catch me cause I'm all ready falling.

I'd never let our love get so close.

You put your arms around me and I'm home.

It feels so natural, doing this. The way my body perfectly fits against hers. How the curve of her body fits to mine like a puzzle piece. I've missed this.

I never want this moment to disappear.

I feel my head inching closer to her, reminding me of what I did three years ago.

She was my first kiss.

Just as our lips are about to meet, she pulls pack from our position wide-eyed. I scold myself.

What were you thinking? She has a boyfriend, Tobias!

Before she walks away, I hear her say, "I never said I didn't forgive you."

I find Zeke and Shauna sitting next to each under our school's fountain. They smile as they whisper things to each other.

"Hey." They both look up.

"You looked even more depressed than before. What happened?" Zeke can read me so easily.

"Well, when you told me to dance with someone, I did. First Christina found me and she asked me to dance. She ended up talking to me about how obvious I show my feelings for Tris." I am cut off.

"To be fair, you are pretty obvious." Shauna tells me.

"Anyways, she then blackmailed me into asking Tris to dance. So, I did. We crashed into each other, literally, and then I asked her. We slow danced, and I almost kissed her." I ready myself from scolding that will come from Zeke.

"YOU WHAT?!" He jumps up. "She has a boyfriend Tobias! You can't just. UGH. I give up! I flipping give up!" He sits back down. "Just- what happened next?"

"She pulls back from me, and then she said something along the lines of 'I never said I don't forgive you', well something like that. What is that supposed to mean?"

Shauna and Zeke share a puzzled look. "I don't know, honestly. I've had a long night, let's go home."

I send Shauna home first and then Zeke. When I arrive back to my house, I mutter my mom a soft 'hello' and drag myself up the stairs into my room.

I let myself fall asleep in a matter of seconds lulling my body into a welcoming pit of darkness.

I've fallen for Tris, and I cannot get up.

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