Chapter 18
Tris' POV
Fuck!- Is the first thing I think of when I wake up in the morning. My lower abdomen hurts like a bitch and all I want to do is die.
Cramps. Fucking hate cramps. For me, it hurts like hell when I get them. It's so bad I'm not physically capable to go to school those days. To make matters worst, I think I'm sick.
"Mom!" My voice is raspy and cracks when I try to call for my mom.
"Mom! Mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, mom." I repeat like a chant. When is she going to hear me, dammit!
"WHAT?!" I can clearly hear the agitation in her voice.
"Cramps!" Fuck this. I have a headache. "Can you give me Tylenol?"
"Okay!" My body is face downwards with my face buried in my pillow. My arms are at my side. I must look like a dead worm.
I hear soft knocks on my door moments later. I turn myself over and see my mom holding a tray.
"I'm assuming you won't be going to school today. Oh god, are you sick? You look terrible." She places the tray on my night stand.
"I feel terrible."
"Aw my poor baby." She sits down on the edge of my bed and feels my forehead. "You're heating up. Do you want me to stay home today? I can skip work."
"No, no, no. I don't want to be a bother. I can take care of myself. I'm probably going to stay in bed the whole day anyways."
"You sure because-"
I smile. My selfless mother. "Don't worry, Ma. I'll be fine." She smiles warmly at me before kissing me on the top of my head and leaving the room. I'm such a child. But who cares? I sometimes love still feeling like one.
"Okay I'll excuse you from school. I'll see you later baby."
"Thanks Ma. I love you."
"I love you too sweetheart."
I eat the breakfast my mom prepared me- French toast and bacon. Pigs are cute and all but I don't think I'll ever be able to survive without bacon. It doesn't help to the fact that I'm eating oily foods especially having my period and all. Whatever.
After feeding my empty stomach, I pop two Tylenol pills and wash it down with a large sip of water.
My laptop is on the other side of my room. God dammit. I force myself out of bed ignoring the stabbing pain in my lower abdomen and drag myself out of bed and walking towards me desk to retrieve my laptop. It's so far and I'm so lazy. Going back to bed, I go on Netflix and watch TV.
Mid way through my episode of Supernatural, my phone buzzes. Groaning loading, I swing my arm in an upside down 'u' shape and search for my phone on my night stand. I unplug it and see a text message notification.
Where are you?- It's from Tobias.
Home. I reply. I'm sick.
Guys tend to get weirded out when you mention anything with periods. Maybe it's the thought of blood flowing out of your lower region. Such wusses.
Oh. I hope you feel better. I'm sad you're not at school, I miss you.
He literally saw me two days ago. We even face timed last night.
Oh boo hoo. I'm sorry Mother Nature deceives me. She likes to mess with me every month.
Maybe he will understand what I'm insinuating.
I'm not following. His reply causes me to roll my eyes.
Never mind. I'll see you later, probably tomorrow.
Not in the mood to continue our text because I'd rather watch TV, I turn my attention back to my laptop and un-pause the show.
My phone keeps buzzing. Again and again and again for like five minutes straight.
"WHAT THE HELL DOES HE WANT?" I seem to yell at no one in particular.
WHAT? I text him.
Who pissed in your cornflakes this morning?
You are so ridiculously annoying. What the hell do you what? I angrily text him. A girl needs her damn space.
I just want to talk. I don't even bother reading his previous texts he spammed me with.
And?
Are you feeling better?
Yeah. Cramps aren't as bad. Headache is gone. Fever is still there but not as bad as this morning. I text him.
Huh. That must have been one hell of a morning.
Yeah, it definitely was.
Hey look. I'm really tired and I think I'm going to take a nap. I'll talk to you later?
I don't wait for a response, so I get up. I charge my laptop, and close the curtains so it becomes dark in my room. I turn off the lights and tuck myself into bed.
Okay, sleep well beautiful. I fall asleep with a smile on my face.
I wake up with a damp layer of sweat over my body. I really hate fevers.
Despite my lightheadedness, I go to the bathroom and pee. I change my pad and wash my hands. Washing my face, I notice my skin is paler than usual. Funny, because I never thought I could be paler than this. I guess wrong. I'm pretty darn pale, so it never surprises me when I burn. I don't tan, I burn.
Noticing the time, I realize that it is already three thirty. Last period of the day ended at puns fifteen minutes ago.
I check my phone again and see three new texts.
Heard you're sick. I'm coming over to bring you food. -Christina
You awake? -Tobias
Bea, do you want anything from Panera Bread? Heard they have good soup. -Caleb
I respond to all three of the texts. I am so bored. There is literally nothing to do here. Ironic, because whenever it's the weekend I seem to always have something to do, even if it's literally nothing. If on have nothing to do, I always keep busy with the TV. When I'm sick, I watch TV but I still am super bored. Where's the logic in that?
I finally decide on checking the schools website for homework that I missed for today.
But before, I take another two pills and chug it down with water. My cramps still hurt but it isn't as bad. I can actually move. Usually when I get them, I can barely move a limb. It hurts way to much plus the fever and all.
I hear the doorbell ring and go downstairs to answer it.
"I brought you soup!" Christina holds be a brown paper bag.
"Thank you so much, Chris." I go in for a hug. Thank god she's here. I am so ridiculously bored.
"Oh okay. Now I know you are definitely sick." She slightly pushes me off of her.
"I have really bad cramps." I whine.
"Aww my poor girl. That's why I came prepared. My mom when I first got my periods, my mom told me that red raspberry leaf tea helps. Don't drink caffeine because it doesn't help at all, it just makes it worst. Go herbal." She goes to the kitchen and I follow her. I love how she knows exactly where everything is and always makes herself at home here.
She turns on the stove and puts a kettle of water over it.
"So-" she starts. "You and Tobias. He kept trying to text you today." I groan.
Ever since we started building our relationship back again, he starting to sit with my friends again. When he was dating Lauren, he would starting sitting with her and all the guys she hung out with. That bitch, always flirting with guys behind his back. Anyways, he would start hanging out with the other school jocks. After our fight, he sat with them completely.
"I don't even- ugh, it's complicated."
"Psh. I doubt it. You like him, he likes you. It's not complicated, Tris. It's convenient. I say you two go for it."
"But, I don't want to. I literally just got off from a relationship two weeks ago. I need space. I don't need to rely on boys to make me happy. I am an independent girl and don't need boys in my life to achieve true inner happiness. Wow, I don't even know what I'm saying right now. Point is, I don't want to jump into a relationship right away especially since I was just in a long one." I conclude.
"Okay fine then. I understand. Anyways, you look like crap, no offense."
I smile. "None taken. I totally agree. I have to take a shower. I've been sweating a whole bunch and I feel really hot right now." Although I am only wearing a tank top and sweatpants, I feel like I'm burning up."
"I should go. I'll see you tomorrow hopefully. If not, then I'll see you soon, girl." She gives me a hug.
"Thanks Chris for the food and all. You truly a great friend."
"I know."
I head back to my bedroom after she leaves and bring a new set of clothes into the shower along with a towel. I set the water hot and set my used clothes aside. Stepping into the shower, I let it drench my body.
I am such a hypocrite. Huh, wow.
Though the water is pretty hot, I turn it up higher because that's what I find myself doing a lot when I'm sick.
I let my thought run wild and they eventually land on Tobias. Oh my god, that dude needs to learn what the word "space" means. Better yet, he should have secure what "personal space" mean. I mean seriously. Sure I like him and all. But bruh. Like bruh. Personal space, dude.
When I realize I've been in the shower for too long, I turn it off and walk out. Grabbing a towel, I wrap it around my body and dry myself off. After doing so, I put in a new set of clothes which consist of a black t-shirt and the same pajama pants I was wearing today.
Talk about personal space. I pick up my phone.
Whatcha' doing?
Oh my gosh Tobias, what do you want?
You doing anything right now? He texts me.
I'm about to watch TV. I text him while walking to the living room when the TV is.
I turn the TV on and click on the Netflix app. I thank the wonderful person who create Netflix in the first place. Bless them. I have no idea what I'd do without Netflix. Gosh, I need to start working out more.
Ah, I see. You feeling better?
Yeah, a lot better. Thanks for asking. Still have them craps, though.
Seriously? That's a freaking long crap. Why is that?
You're so clueless. I'm on my period you, silly.
Oh.
I think I must have freaked him out because he doesn't say anything after that. Boys and they're idiocy. Us women are a lot more tougher than they are. Like one, we have to go through menstrual cycles and two, we have to push like a six pound body out of a tiny thing. What man has the strength to do that?
I lay in the couch on my sides with my hands tucked underneath my head while staring at the screen. I continue the movie, The Godfather.
Around seven-thirty Caleb walks in through the front door.
"I'm home!" He yells.
"Woah dude, I'm right here. No need to yell." I say.
"Where's Mom and Dad?"
"Still at work. They said they'll be here around eight." I tell him while still looking at the screen.
"Oh okay. I bought food if you want. I'll leave it in the fridge." I thank him and he walks up to his room. I continue watching the movie until I hear the bell ring.
"Bea! Get the door!"
Gosh damn it. I roll myself off the couch causing me to fall into the floor.
"Ow." I say out loud. I sand up and sluggishly walk to the door.
When opening the door, I am taken aback."
"Uhm...what is this?" I see a giant teddy bear, I swear it is literally larger than the size of me standing right in front of me.
"You like it?" Tobias steps the the side. Oh my god, of course it's him.
He holds a bouquet of variety of flowers with a spectrum of colors and a box of chocolate with the box shaped in a heart.
This is so adorable.
"When you told me you had a crap and was on your period I immediately rushed to the nearest Costco to buy you these things. I knew they would have these ginormous teddy bears so I went to buy one for you. So here." He hands me the flowers and chocolates. He lifts the fifteen pound or so stuffed animal and carries it into my house. I'm so speechless. Like what the fuck? He's so sweet. What? Fucking what?! I don't understand how he can be so incredibly romantic. Like what the heck.
I stare at him. Who knew Tobias had the biggest soft side ever.
"Oh my god. You don't like it? Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry. This is awkward."
"No, no, no! I'm just, I don't know. You're so adorable. This was so cute. I'm sick, you're treating me like I just got hit by a car and am now in the hospital. Wow, I'm making no sense. Ugh, Tobias. What the heck." How can someone this tuff be so caring and ughhh.
"So you do like it?"
I smile. "Yes, I do. Of course I do."
"Good. Oh, I also bought you you're favorite ice-cream. He pulls out two pints of ice-cream. One is mint chocolate for myself and the other is cookies and cream, his favorite."
I bite my lip as I watch him put too much concentration into opening the lip of the ice cream. Ben and Jerry's- I love Ben and Jerry's ice cream.
He takes a spoon from the kitchen drawer and hands it to me and then takes one for himself.
"Do you want to watch a movie with me, well I'm watching one right now though. You want to stay for a bit longer?" I ask him.
"I was sort of planning to."
We walk back to the living room and the first thing I see is the giant teddy bear. Great, my Dad will sure ask my a whole bunch of questions regarding to that now that I think about it.
Tobias lays on his side on the inner side of the couch and motions to me to lay right next to him.
"C'mere." He pats the spot next to him. I lay next to him and he hugs my waist and brings me against his body.
Instead of facing to the TV, I turn to my other side and look at him. His eyes drop down to wear my face is and he furrows his eyebrows.
"What?"
"Nothing. It's just-" I stop myself from saying anything else. My face tips upwards and I lean and kiss his lips gently. I feel his lips pucker and I pull away and bite my lip. Turning back around, I rest my head against his chest. I can't seem to fight this stupid smile that makes its way to my face.
So yes, I'm such a hypocrite.
But gosh damn, he has such soft lips.
"Oh fuck." I say realizing something.
"What?" I can feel the stupid grin that is probably on his face right now.
"I probably got you sick."
A/N: I'm sorry if I freaked some of you out about periods and all (for those of you who don't have it, or if you're a guy and you are uncomfortable with the idea of it, if guys even read this fanfic). Oh my gosh, now that I think about it, are there actually any guys who read this? Tell me if you do because then I'd be pretty shocked.
Do you guys have a snapchat? I realize that it would be pretty cool if I got to know some of you. I have no friends, I'm just kidding. But it's really cool getting to know people who have the same interest in you. Mine is kat1678 if you want to add me. But please tell me who you are (like comment your snapchat if you do) otherwise I'll think you are some weird random stranger and I don't want to think that. I hoped you enjoyed. My friend, she's a senior and she's dating a HAPA (lucky her) and when she got her period she had a bad cramp, and they happened to be texting. So what he did was he bought her flowers and chocolates that's where I got the idea from. The main purpose of this chapter was just so I could write that, LOL. (I can't put a laughing emoji). I hoped you enjoyed and I will see you guys later. Bye!