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Taking a much needed deep breath, I squared my shoulders and looked Gajeel straight in the eyes while trying to steady my trembling knees. I can see the confusion rising in his face the longer it took me to say what I had to say, so I just blurted it out. No longer wanting to keep him waiting and me as well.
"Why were you following me?"
His eyes got wide and his mouth popped open but then confusion spread across his face. "What are you talking about?" he asked.
"There were some things that weren't adding up, like you knowing where my classes where and what time and also where I lived. So, Lucy looked at the map that showed the route for the 5K run you were in and she saw that it didn't even come close to our building. I had suspicions but I brushed them off…until I started to piece things together."
He stood there with his eyes still wide and his jaw slack with the color draining from his face. Confusion no longer harbored his face, it was now the look of guilt. He looked like a kid who had just been caught sneaking out of the house by his mom. But he didn't say anything, just stood there limp, like he couldn't find the words to speak.
"I want you to tell me the truth, Gajeel. Did you follow me?" I continued, our eyes locked, neither of us unable to look away.
The air in the room was getting thinner as the silence thickened with anticipation. My heart was beating so rapidly and hard against my ribs, I'm pretty sure even he can hear it. I ignored the sensation in my stomach and the trembling of my limbs as I waited for him to speak.
"Say something! Please!" I begged ringing my fingers as I watched his head droop and a gust of air break free from his mouth.
Running his hands through his hair, he cursed. "Fine. Yes, I did follow you-but it's not what you think!"
"Then, what is it!? Why were you following me and most of all why didn't you just talk to me?" I asked watching him pace in front of me, avoiding eye contact as he stared at his boots.
"You wouldn't understand." He spoke softly.
"Just tell me and explain, then I'll understand."
"No."
No? No?! He has no right to say, no! The more he dodged my questions, the angrier I got. The nervousness and queasy feeling that was building up in my throat was now replaced with the heat of my rage and confusion. My fist balled up at my sides as I tried to calm down.
"Please, tell me."
"It's none of your business, shorty, so just drop it. Ok?"
"It's none of my business? Just drop it? Let me tell you something Mr. Redfox! It involves me, so it is my business and no! I will not drop it, so I suggest you start talking!" I yelled, hoping he didn't notice how my voice quivered as I spoke.
My anger was rising and I can tell his was too. This wasn't going to be good.
"I said, drop it." He growled, giving me a warning glare that made me flinch a little.
But I refuse to let this go! We were glaring at each other in a mental battle of who was going to give up first with neither of us wanting to. Nothing he can do will sway me from standing my ground.
"Don't talk to me like I'm a child. You either tell me or leave!" I demanded my voice rising.
"FINE! I'll tell you!" he bellowed, now standing in front of me once again. "I was following you, because there was a rumor going around."
"What rumor? Please elaborate." I stated crossing my arms over my chest in annoyance.
He huffed out a breath before speaking, "there was this rumor going around that a bunch fraternity guys were going to attack you, bunny girl and a few others. I don't like bullying, for reasons I'm not going to say but I was angry when I heard it."
"Was this before or after the stalking?"
"I wouldn't call it stalking; more like…surveillance or a distanced body guard and it happened before. I asked around about the group of girls they were going to get and most of them had boyfriends or even friends that were close enough to keep watch over them. So I warned their friends and told Natsu to stick with Lucy to make sure she doesn't get hurt. I didn't have to tell him this anyway, because they're always together but it made sure that she was never out of his sight. As for you…"
"As for me…" I said with a quirked eyebrow, hoping he'll continue.
"You're so small, those guys can pick you up and run away with you in a heartbeat! And you always run off somewhere by yourself and that made you an easy target."
If someone ever thought I was easy to catch, they're going to be highly disappointed when they realize I'm not going down without a fight. I can use my small stature as an advantage and that makes it easier for me to slip away.
I was silent, keeping my thoughts to myself but analyzing him as he spoke. His anger was dying down as he talked with sadness and fear cloudy his eyes. If he was that scared for me, why didn't he just come up to me and warn me or even did the same thing he did with the other girls? I'm pretty sure, Jet and Droy wouldn't mind keeping an eye on me.
So many questions swirled in my head, but I still remained quiet as he continued to speak.
"I followed you around for a bit just to make sure you were safe and it was good that I did. They tried to get you one night when you were walking from the library but luckily I was there and scared them off. They never tried again after that." He said slumping against my closet door that was close to my desk.
"Why didn't you warn my friends? Jet and Droy could've watched me?"
"They couldn't have done anything. It was best that I did it myself. Everything worked out, so why do you still look pissed?"
"Because! You could've just warned me instead, so why didn't you? And why did you continue to watch me after they you knew they gave up and why not just come up to me and tell me? Just why, Gajeel!" I blurted out stumbling over my words as my rage increased along with my questions.
His eyes darken and his body went rigid as he pushed himself off the wall. His face scrunched up in a confused scowl as if to ask, 'why are you mad at me? Shouldn't you be mad at them?' Even though I am upset over those losers trying to attack a bunch of girls, I'm even more upset at the guy who was standing in front of me as if I had no right to be mad at him. He did me favor, yes, but he could've still came up to me. I would've taken special precautions. Made sure I was around people and never by myself or even change up my routine to keep the guys always guessing. I could've avoided this without him scaring them off.
"I don't understand why you're still mad at me. I helped you and I answered your damned questions now just be happy." He said with a deep frown on his face.
"Yes! You helped me but you didn't answer all of my questions so answer them!"
"Ok! I didn't want to warn you because I didn't want to scare you and you think it was me who was trying to attack you and I continued to follow just to make sure you were safe. And there was no way I can come up to you and say, Hey! You don't know me but I've been keeping an eye on you just make sure a group guys don't snatch you up like a falcon grabbing a Pomeranian." He yelled the last bit, throwing his hands in the air.
I frowned as deep as he did, not liking how he compared me to a small dog that's easy to kill and that sarcastic tone he used. He huffed out a few breaths, trying to calm himself down but I can tell it wasn't working.
I squinted my eyes at him, feeling like something wasn't right about his choice of words. He has to be lying about something, I know that he's lying about something. If our time together didn't show me anything, it definitely showed me when he lied.
"You're lying about something." I said my eyes still analyzing him. His jaw ticked and that only proofed me right. He was lying about something, but what was it?
"Can we just drop this?"
"No! We're not going to drop this! You followed me around for who knows how long and didn't even dare to tell me, just because you feel like I'm unable to defend myself!"
"Of course you can't, look how small you are!" he said holding his hands out to me to proof a point. "These guys were almost as big as me and you wouldn't even last a sec-" His words were cut off by my hand smacking him hard across the face.
I don't know when I walked over to me or what came over me but all I know and can feel was my fingers and palm stinging with pain and my eyes burning with tears. My breath came out in heavy pants, due to my anger spilling out at the moment. My heart was clenching and slowing breaking but my brain begged for me to apologize.
'Say you're sorry,' it said but my anger clouded my thoughts switching to auto-pilot.
"You know nothing about me! I may be small but I can put up more of a fight than anyone. And don't ever talk to me like that again." My voice quivered with tears daring to spill from my eyes, but I kept them in place trying to make my voice as stern as possible.
His face was stuck in a stunned expression with his cheek showing a bright red in print of my hand on it.
His silence only fueled my rising swirl of emotion and I desperately wanted to be alone. With him being close to me not saying anything only made me hate my short stature even more. His overbearing presence seemed to loom over me like a kid looking down at an ant. The warmth that pooled from him and his entire existence suffocated me and confused me. I desperately wanted to bury my face in his chest but I also wanted to yell and scream at him.
Why does this keep happening? I need to be alone, I need him to go, so I can clear my mind and think without him being here.
"Please, leave." I said pointing towards the door.
"But-"
"Just go!" I yelled squeezing my eyes shut afraid that just one look into his eyes may change my mind.
A deep rumble left his lips as he spoke. "Fine. I'll go. You won't have to worry about me or my stupid mouth ever again." He said. I heard him take a few things before slamming the door behind him.
'Go after him you, fool!' my mind begged but I was too busy wallowing in self-pity to do anything.
When I finally opened my eyes, I looked around to see that Pantherlily was gone. Gajeel took him and he was gone too…for good. A sob broke free as my knees gave out causing me to collapse against the wall. I leaned my heavy head against the wall as I cried uncontrollable while my heart shattered in my chest with his words replaying in my head like a catchy song you can't get out of your head.
I didn't know it was possible to feel every muscle of you heart tear itself apart, because of one person. I felt hollow and empty, like there was a piece of me missing that I didn't realize was filled until it left.
I ruined it, I ruined everything.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." I chanted in between sobs as if he could hear me.
The sound of someone pounding on the door startled me but didn't unstick me from my position on the floor. The door opened with a snap and light feet rushed towards me.
"Oh! Levy! What happened?" Lucy asked falling to her knees, instantly pulling me into her.
I just shook my head soaking her tank top with my flood of tears, mumbling incoherent words. She didn't question me after that, just sat there with me, rubbing my back and patting my head.
I messed up so bad and now I can't fix it. What am I going to do now?
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