Chapter Fourteen - Love-Hate (but Kinda a Little More Love Than Hate)

"Urushihara?" Maou asks, his head resting on his pillow. "Are you still alive? Maybe lost in a vortex?"

"Umm, no.. Not lost in a vortex..."

"Oh. Okay. Good. You kind of zoned out there for a while. I was starting to get worried."

You? Worried?
I feel as if I've said that way too many times.

I let out a shaky chuckle.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing."

"How long have I known you, Lucifer? Literally forever. I know when something is wrong with you, and now is one of those times. Now tell me, what's wrong."

Oh, you know, just that fact that I was thinking about that time we had sex.
That time I realized that the 'feelings' I had for you were actually true.
That time I discovered that I'm always the one to be abandoned and picked on, regardless of where and who I am and what I do.

"It's nothing."

"Your 'nothing' says a lot more than you think it does. Tell me."

"No."

"Tell me."

"No."

"Why not?"

I don't want to, but I snap. "Because I don't want to, okay? Just leave me alone."

Do I end up telling him?
Of course I do. He wouldn't shut his trap.

He always gets what he wants and that pisses me off.
Though, he did once want me, and he got me.
The fact that I still want him even though he's done with me?
That also, obviously, pisses me off.

Anyways.

"I told myself I would forget that night," I say, lowering my head in great shame. "But.. I couldn't... And I still can't... I don't think I ever will."

"As weird as this sounds," Maou says, staring at the ceiling. "It's about the same here."

Slowly and full of disbelief, I look back up at him. "Oh?"

Please please please tell me the excitement didn't slip through any cracks.

"Yeah. I don't know why, but I just can't seem to forget. No matter how much I want to."

I get a weird sinking feeling in my chest.
This happens to people, right? I'm not the only one?
Please tell me I'm not the only one.
I mean, I shouldn't be, yeah? Every human experiences what they call 'heartbreak', right?

Right?

Hell, they should.
I may or may not have been the one to think of that to happen...

What? I like being a jerk.

Well, I guess I can't get too upset at this situation, since, like I said, I'm the one who gave the feeling of pain to everyone.
Damn.
I'm almost tempted to apologize.
Almost.

I nod in a half-hearted understanding.

"It's weird, huh?" Maou asks, turning his head to look at me. "How two people who've one of the strongest love-hate relationships can't seem to find out how to forget their damned past relationship?"

"Which was still technically love-hate," I nod. "But it was strong as hell."

"I don't think we can beat our past selves."

"I think we can."

(A/N): Like always, I hadn't any idea what to do with this chapter.
But I really wanted to update around Valentine's Day, and that's what I did so I deserve some credit, right? As short as the chapter is?
I do believe I'm finally to where I can build up this plot, though, so maybe it'll finally get kind of interesting. Kind of. Hopefully.
-cough- Also, you should -cough- Totally -cough- Tell me what -cough- You thought -cough- About this chapter -cough cough-
Anyways, I'll try to get back onto updating a bit more frequently. I'm still pretty busy, and this writer's block (which I am slowly overcoming) hates my filthy guts, so...
But yeah.
I love all of you. c:
Until next time~