Rey ran all the way back to the First Order, making it back to her room. Her knees crashed onto the white floor tiles as she used the force to slam the metal door shut behind her. The two of her hands, trembling, cold, clammy, feeling like the blood of the woman was on them.
She didn't think that this mission would go as far as it had gone. She knew that it was only the tip of the iceberg, and she did not want to see the rest of it.
Rey sulked in her room after her large panic attack, crouched down so that her head was between her knees so she wouldn't pass out from hyperventilating.
Kylo stood in the center of the village, feeling mixed about the raid. The only thing that illuminated the darkness was the bright burning homes around them. The area reeked of burnt dead corpses, making Kylo's stomach turn.
For once, in all of his raids, this one was the worst to him. He had done crueler things, but seeing Hux forcing Rey to shoot that mother was just terrible.
Meanwhile, Hux was ignoring Kylo's presence for abusing his rights and freedom like that. Kylo didn't regret a single thing he did. In fact, Kylo wanted to kill Hux right then and there. For the longest time, Kylo was annoyed by Hux, and vice versa.
Kylo swiftly turned around, trying to do-away with the idea and thoughts of the light side. He needed to go back and return his focuses to his grandfather, begging for Darth Vader to show him to the dark side.
Kylo walked back alone, feeling the night grow colder. It was strange being alone like this once again. He thought softly of Rey, wondering what she was doing. As he neared the base, he felt her cry out like a wounded animal. Her aura, her force, impaled by the spear known as guilt and fault. Kylo felt it too.
Kylo was nearly brought to tears by the intense feeling he had felt for Rey. On top of that, he kept thinking about what he could've done better and how he could've prevented Rey's feelings from being hurt.
Kylo rushed to his room, only a few doors down from Rey's, and enclosed himself.
Rey was calm after a few minutes but was still traumatized and horrified. She heard harsh footsteps rush down the hall. By the sound of it, she knew it was Kylo and expected to be scolded for leaving so soon.
She braced for it but was surprised instead when she heard him pass her door and go straight to his room. She flinched when she heard his door slam.
The scavenger was lonely in her empty room, all while Kylo was right down the hall.
An attempt to feel better, she peeked out of her room to see no one in the hall or by her door. Rey went into the bathroom to put ice cold water on her swollen eyes before blowing her nose with toilet paper since that was the only form of paper in her room.
Rey walked down the hall and heard a foreign sound.
Kylo quietly sobbed, yet was loud enough to be heard through his door. It was muffled, but Rey felt pitiful. Kylo sensed it and cleared his throat, before saying sternly "Go away."
"Kylo? Can we talk?" Rey questioned sweetly, an attempt to let him trust her.
There was a brief moment of silence before Rey heard "No... Not now…"
Rey was determined and persistent, hence why she opened the door anyways. She caught a brief glimpse of Kylo kneeling at the end of his bed, crying into the crease in his elbow as he depended on the mattress.
Rey took a step in, until Kylo stuck his hand out at her, throwing her against the wall, the door shutting immediately after.
Rey grew furious at the idea that Kylo thought that he was the only one suffering. "This isn't fair!" Rey argued, storming up to the door again. "I have problems too, Kylo. That doesn't mean that we both have to… stuff them inside of us until-"
The door opened slightly to reveal Kylo, his dark curls tousled and his eyes puffy and bloodshot. He stared down at Rey before taking in a brief sniffle.
"Humor me. What do you wish to talk about?" Kylo questioned with a sarcastic half-smile. "Do you wish to talk about the flowers outside? Or your friend, FN- Finn. Perhaps the training you have been lacking?"
Rey blankly stared at Kylo, finally seeing his true colors and his desperate manner. Rey took a deep breath before simply saying "I just want to talk."
Kylo didn't expect that reply. He was more so waiting for her to ask about his father's death, or how he came to the dark side, her flash back, something basic.
Kylo had no other choice but to open his door for once. No one ever came into his room. His door had only been knocked on every morning to someone walking him up to get work done.
Kylo's room was dark and plain. There obviously weren't any windows since they were underground. He had a queen bed with black blankets, sheets, and pillows. Even the floor was metal and silver, unlike Rey's room which was brighter and more modern. It showed the contrast between the two.
Kylo closed the door behind Rey, making sure no one heard their conversation or even knew Rey managed to make it into his room.
"You should really make this room more alive and cozy," Rey commented, observing the fullness of the room. She turned around, watching as Kylo shuffled over to his bed and sat at the end of it.
"Why should I?" Kylo asked. "The only thing I do in here is sleep. It's not like I spend all of my time in here."
"Well, technically you spend at least eight hours in here a night," Rey approached the bed.
Kylo scoffed, watching as Rey sat beside him. "Eight? More like four…"
Rey managed to smile a little, staring at the ground as she remembered the village. "That may be me tonight."
Kylo glanced over and wanted to see what was in her mind. He didn't want to ruin the moment by invading her privacy, so he just looked away.
"Thank you."
Kylo's head popped up and looked at Rey again with interest. Rey continued to say "I wasn't ready to kill anybody. I'm… upset that Hux forced me to do that…" Rey choked up, before looking up at the dim light barely illuminating Kylo's room.
Kylo solemnly stared at Rey, not knowing what to do in this sort of situation. Kylo was never really compassionate. Hell, he felt weird by even saying 'Thank you' or 'I love you.'
"You know, you're going to have to warm up to it sometime if you want to be a Sith Lord," Kylo told Rey frankly, completely oblivious that she didn't want to be a Sith Lord.
Rey sniffled, wiping away her falling tears before trying to force a smile again, acting like something she was not. "Yeah. I know. I was just caught off guard this time." Rey decided to switch the topic onto Kylo. "So why were you crying, if you don't mind me asking?"
Kylo felt embarrassed. He took a hard swallow before saying with all seriousness "Your aura overwhelmed me when I had arrived back. It was almost like your emotions transferred to me. It was strong and harsh."
Kylo expected Rey to smile or laugh a little, but instead she just quietly said "Oh. Sorry…"
Kylo pressed on his sore eyes, moving them around behind his lids. He took a deep breath, wondering what he was going to do with this girl.
Rey and Kylo had heard Hux shout down the hall "Has anybody seen that damn girl?!"
Rey got up, but Kylo took her wrist. Rey turned back and looked at Kylo. He gently spoke. "Stay for a little while longer. I believe we both need to calm down a little after the events that took place tonight."
Rey nodded and sat back down beside Kylo. For at least five minutes more, they discussed their favorite foods and their future training plans.
They stopped when there was a harsh banging on Kylo's door, leading to a frustrated Hux shouting "Kylo, open up!"
Kylo sighed, before whispering to Rey "Hide under my bed. I'll leave the door open and you can go back to your room until Hux and I find you."
Rey quietly laughed and nodded, before easily sliding underneath Kylo's dusty bed.
Kylo stood up and approached the door, opening it to find Hux, enraged and exhausted.
"Have you seen the girl? Snoke wishes to see her briefly," Hux questioned.
"Do you mean Rey? Because I haven't seen her yet either. I'll assist you," Kylo told Hux. Hux didn't protest, so they both left his room.
Rey crawled out from under his bed and went straight to her room. She washed her face in the cold water again, and both Kylo and Hux "ran" into her.
"See? You just don't look hard," Kylo degraded Hux.
Hux rolled his eyes before telling Rey that Snoke wished to see her. She agreed and left her room into Snoke's conference room.
She was face to face with the large hologram of Snoke.
"So…" he slowly drew out the word. "I heard that you killed only one person. Why is that so? You wish to be apart of the dark side too, correct?" Snoke pestered small Rey.
"Yes, but I didn't have the strength. Forgive me," Rey looked down and away from Snoke. Oddly, she felt disappointed in herself for not killing more or even doing more damage.
"I'm not angry at you yet," Snoke paused before 'yet'.
Rey tilted her head slightly in question. "Yet?"
Snoke tapped each of his fingers onto the arm of his chair before leaning down towards Rey. "Let me enter your mind, girl. I shall show you the ways of the darkness."
Snoke penetrated Rey's thoughts, making the sensation slow and painful. Rey screamed, trying to force him out. She was sorely unsuccessful. She felt all of her pent up rage rise up again. Her mind became filled with lies and false beliefs.
Is this what Kylo feels too? Why can't I prevent it like I can with him?
Rey collapsed onto the floor in the mix of her brutal screaming. Suddenly, she got a prediction.
It was almost midnight and she was at another village. It was cold and lonely. She saw a father holding his child, and Rey positioned her gun to shoot the father.
Snoke pulled away, and Rey's entire demeanor had changed. It was almost as if she had been possessed. Rey's eyes met with Snoke's small squinty ones.
"Now you know what you must do, and I assure you, you will be successful at it…" Snoke began to fade out in an echo before his hologram disappeared.
Even though all of that happened, Kylo was outside of the room. He heard and saw every single bit of it by looking into Rey's mind.
He knew that Snoke was trying to replace him.
AN: Heyyyy! So I'm taking a week break because I'm done with college but I'm a little behind on story writing. So thanks to everyone who reviewed, but hang on to you're seats for a little while longer, because these next few chapters get HEATED.