A/N #1: So I'm like a week late posting this but I had a lot of shit go down that none of you really care to know. So without any more stalling, Chapter 13. Oh and the vote was basically unanimous for Aubrey and Stacie with that one person that voted for the other so sorry to you.
Chapter Thirteen – Practice Makes Perfect
Lexa
It was finally time for Lexa to start softball practices. They had been forewarned to start conditioning a month ago as they would be thrown right into an intense practice schedule. Lexa was currently headed into the campus Auxiliary Sports Center that was reserved for baseball, softball, wrestling, gymnastics, and all three rugby teams (male, female, and co-ed). She had gotten to see Clarke earlier today but only for a few short minutes again while her blonde bombshell was having her usual lunch date with Stacie. It bothered Lexa at first that Clarke had been spending so much time with the overly sexual confident Bella but Stacie, Chloe, and Beca had assured her that Stacie wasn't the "homewrecker" type. Lexa was glad Clarke had found Stacie because she needed someone on her level to study and work with.
Lexa's mind was clouded over with thoughts of Clarke that she practically face planted the door to her new locker room. She desperately needed to get her head in the game right now. Softball was her thing! She had been waiting of this day since she finally received her trophies from lacrosse. Yes trophies…as in more than one. Lexa had not only secured her team the championship before her injury but directly after the game they had announced her as this year's MVP. Anya had been the one to give her the small trophy that was a brass lacrosse net with a brand new, real ball sitting in it with her name, MVP, Barden Knights, and the year written on it. Before taking it home she had had the rest of her team sign the ball from her first year, it was now sitting proudly on her shelf above her bed in her dorm room.
She took a calming breath and pushed the door open. They had been given their locker assignments when they were told to start conditioning. Their weight room was in this building as well so it only made sense. She made her way over and flung her new softball bag onto the bench before her locker. Spinning the correct combination to the lock, she started to change into her practice gear. As she pulled her t-shirt off over her head leaving her in her sports bra she heard a voice come from down the row from her.
"Damn, I thought after all this time those bruises would have been gone." Lexa looked to her right a little confused because she had no clue there was another person there. Am I really that unfocused right now? You are doing it again Woods! HEAD IN THE GAME! The girl down the row was slightly larger than Lexa but not by much and still just as ripped, she could tell because they were very much in the same state of dress, though the girl had already out her practice pants on. Lexa took just long enough to take in her major features. Her hair was darker brown than Beca's and much thicker, she currently had it pulled up into a ponytail that was stick straight. Due to the distance she couldn't tell if her eyes were brown or hazel but they were defiantly darker than her own. After her initial interest had been curved she answered.
"Yeah, the doctor said they will take longer to heal than normal because of how deep the injury was. I can't really feel them though." Lexa thought about it for only a moment before slightly freaking out. "Wait how the hell did you know I had them and for how long?" The girl chuckled.
"Wait you didn't know I was your personal stalker? I'm kidding I swear!" The girl smiled again and Lexa felt herself relax as she began to change her lower half. "No I took it upon myself to know who else signed to play on the same team as me this year so I knew your name and everyone was talking about how you were basically leading the lacrosse team to victory. My curiosity got the better of me and I went to your last game. I really hope someone somewhere gives that Reaper girl what she deserves for that cheap shot she took on you." The girl pulled her practice t-shirt over her head with her back toward Lexa. Richards #13. "I'm Samantha by the way. Samantha Richards, but please call me Samm. With two M's."
"Lexa but I have a feeling you knew that…oh wait you are my stalker I almost forgot!" Lexa liked this girl, she was funny and easy to talk to. She understood her checking to see who all had signed to play this year and wondered why she hadn't done it herself. Samm sat down and started putting on her cleats once Lexa had pulled her shirt on as well. "What position do you play?"
"First base and outfield. Basically I can play any position that isn't the pitcher. I mean I totally have the arm for it but not the training." Samm answered switching to her other shoe. "You?"
"Same actually, thought I hope to play mostly first base, no offense if you take my spot though." Lexa bend down to grab her cleats and sat to put them on as well.
"Can I say you a personal question? You in no way have to answer it if you don't want to." Samm had stood up and was gathering her things to head out the front door to the field. Lexa only nodded at her. "Your last name is Woods. Do you have any relation to the Woods that was headed to the majors but was killed before his first official game?" Lexa's eyes widened as she stared into her locker. No one had ever flat out asked that before. Though, not many people followed baseball that closely that she knew of. What did she say? Did she lie? Not even answer? No she needed to answer this was her teammate and she honestly felt like she could trust this girl. Not as much as she trusted Clarke or Beca or even Chloe for that matter but she could put some form of trust in her.
"Yeah, actually he is…was my father." It still stung at times to use the past tense. Of course if you asked Lexa they will always be her parents, they are her parents. He is her father.
"Well if this is one of those 'like-father-like-daughter' things then you can have first base!" Samm laughed a little trying to lighten the mood, it actually worked. Lexa smiled as she pulled her bag onto her shoulder and locked her locker again.
"Only in the literal sense of the phrase, he literally taught me everything I know." They headed toward the field where only a couple other players were tossing a ball back and forth in warm ups. "Mind warming up together? I kinda want to see this arm you are talking about." Samm let out a huff of a laugh.
"Yeah I'm down for warm ups. Maybe we should make nice with the other kids too though." They made their way out after setting their bags in the home team dugout and grabbing their gloves. Samm nabbed a ball from the bucket beside the doorway out of the dugout leading to the field.
As they approached the other pair Lexa noticed the name on the back that was towards her. Green #22. A smile instantly plastered across her face and she felt her body fall into a relaxed state she always found when there was fresh dirt under her cleats. "Anya!" She caught the ball that had just been tossed her way before turning to face Lexa.
"I wondered when you were going to show up. How's the ribs?" Anya greeted her with a small hug.
"Great, still bruised as fuck but no pain. Abby said it will take longer to fade because of the depth." Lexa saw Samm move in her peripheral vision and snapped back to present time. "Anya Green, Samm Richards. Anya and I were on the lacrosse team together. She was our captain and my mentor."
"Not that you needed one! Nice to meet you Samm, this is Zoe Monroe. Monroe, this is Samm and Lexa. Octavia asked me to meet up with Monroe before practice today, she is in Sigma with her and Clarke." Anya finished off the round table. Lexa smiled at Monroe and her mind instantly went to the image of her girlfriend.
"Who is Clarke?" Samm was giving her a slightly mocking smirk. Apparently she wasn't Lexa's personal stalker after all.
"My girlfriend. She and her best friend Octavia Blake are sisters of Sigma Zeta Psi with Monroe here. Octavia was also on the lacrosse team." Samm seemed to follow fast and moved across the field to stand next to Monroe to start warm ups again.
Girls started to filter out of the locker room more frequently once the four had really gotten warmed up. Each time Samm made a rather impressive pass to Lexa she asked if that was the arm she was hearing about, it never was. Lexa tried to remember faces and numbers, then numbers and names, it was a lot harder than she thought. Maybe it will get easier with positions. She reminded herself. Their Coach had come out with their last player and called them all back to the dugout. Once they were all seated on the bench their coach addressed them.
"Alright team, let's get a few things straight right off the bat. First, I will refer to you all as a group mainly in the form of ladies, guys, team, or Knights so if you don't like it get over it now. Second, I don't like excuses unless they are genuine. If someone dies or is in the hospital and you can't make practice is an acceptable excuse. Third, you are all officially best friends, you will look like a team and act like a team in my presence. If something happens between any of you I need to know. Fourth, the position you had in high school? Yeah, well you have to earn it in college. That being said you also have a chance to earn a position you didn't get to play in high school. Lastly, don't complain to me about the line up or your assigned position. There are twelve of you total giving us three subs at any given time and I will make sure everyone gets to play at some point every game. Any questions?" Lexa looked around for anyone who thought they were brave enough to take the coach on, there wasn't. "Good now I saw most everyone got here a bit early and warmed up so let's dive right in. Laps, five of them, around the whole field. Move!" Gloves were dropped and the scraping of cleats on cement was louder than ever.
Lexa was up front in the pack around the field during laps with Samm, Anya, Monroe, and a girl wearing a shirt saying Harbor #8. They finished their last lap and coach told them all to grab their mitts and start with drills. They lined up as coach hit grounders, then pop-flies, and lastly line drives. After they went through their last drill coach sent them to stand in their preferred position on the field. Lexa went to first base, Samm stood on the edge of the infield near first base, Anya went to third base, Monroe surprised everyone and stepped behind home plate as catcher, and Harbor planted her feet on the pitcher's mound. There were a couple of girls that over lapped at shortstop and pitcher but most were either in a single spot or between a base and the outfield like Samm.
Coach made quick work of figuring out positions by testing each girl in the spot or spots they were stationed. Lexa and Samm started things off at first base. They were a perfect pair, you almost couldn't tell a difference in their playing style. Though Lexa was able to jump high enough to catch the wayward ball Anya was instructed to throw both of them. Coach ultimately had them both tested in the outfield as well and after one throw from Samm from deep center field to Monroe behind the plate (that was the arm she was talking about) their positions were decided. Though, they did agree to switch out at first base if one of them needed a break.
Coach made her way around the field assigning positions and back-up positions and once she was finished with a girl they were sent to the bench to wait. She headed from Anya at third to Monroe behind the plate. "Do you have your own catcher's gear?" Monroe nodded and was instructed to get suited. "Okay, so we have three pitchers this year which is great. Callie, you have been our go to for years now so I know how you pitch, we will work with Monroe on your signs and get you two together later. You still good with playing shortstop when not pitching right?" The senior named Callie, sporting the number 2, nodded with a smile. "Great you can sit. Kayla same for you. We will keep you at shortstop mainly but filter you into pitching when needed yeah?" Another nod from the (rather tiny for a pitcher) player and she was in the dugout. "Now you must be Luna Harbor. Alright Luna I won't lie, I watched you pitch and you are good but I will need to see how you are with a talented batter before I decided who our starter will be. Monroe you set?"
"Yes Coach." Monroe pulled her helmet on and switch to a catcher's glove before squatting behind home plate. Coach instructed them to warm up and for Callie to get a few pitches in as well. Lexa was sitting between Anya and Samm watching each throw intently. Coach was giving instructions on which type of pitch to throw and giving Monroe a sign for each. Lexa's focus never wavered, she watched each pitch and analyzed it.
"Okay you are starting to get creepy Lexa." Anya bumped their shoulders together but Lexa never even blinked.
"I thought you already had a girlfriend." Samm quipped.
"I do. I'm not staring at her for that reason. I am learning her pitches without having to hear what coach tells her or see the sign from Monroe." Lexa stated flatly, she didn't like people thinking there was anyone else for her but Clarke.
"You can tell all of that just from watching?" Kayla asked from her seat on the back of the bench beside Anya (they had both joined the team last year).
"Yes, watch closely to her feet and her ticks." She knew all their heads turned to watch as she spoke. Luna placed her left foot directly behind the rubber plate, perfectly perpendicular to it. She shook her right hand once before running it across the back of her neck and then down her thigh before gripping the ball in her glove. "Fastball." Was all Lexa had time for before the windup and the pitch. It was a fastball coach confirmed it.
Next pitch Luna lined her left foot up at an angle with her toes slightly over the rubber. "Curveball." Lexa stated before she got any further. There were two more fastballs and another curveball before she switched pitches again. Luna's left foot was back perpendicular to the rubber but this time she ran her hand across the back of her neck and then over her hair before gripping the ball. "Rise ball." They were all in awe of both Lexa's knowledge of Luna's pitching style and with Luna herself as a pitcher.
"Woods!" Coach snapped Lexa's eyes from the pitcher to her in question. "Batter up, I want to see if you are as good at bat as you were in the field." Lexa nodded and gathered her gear. She pulled on the gloves Clarke gave her for Christmas and placed her helmet on before pulling out her favorite bat. She took a few warm up swings. "The rest of you take your spot in the field. Richards, first base if you will please."
Lexa didn't let one pitch get by her and she knew where every hit would end up. She expertly hit one ball to each teammate out in the field. That didn't give Monroe much practice though.
"Alright Woods, switch." Lexa flipped from batting right handed to batting lefty. Nothing changed, she hit every ball to each girl. After her last hit to Samm at first their coach started laughing. "Damn Woods! I knew you were good I just didn't actually expect a professional! How did you do that? I think your team can learn a thing or two from you. Great job everyone, next practice we will start with batting everyone. Monroe, Callie, Luna, and Kayla get here early to warm up so we can start right away." The girls started to head back toward the dugout to gather their things before heading into the locker room. Lexa was stopped by the coach just outside the dugout. "You are very, very, very good Lexa. I need you to stay focused during these first few practices because I need you to teach the others how you figured out Luna's pitches so fast. She couldn't even get her Drop Ball past you." Coach shook her head laughing as she patted Lexa on the back and pushed her toward her team.
As practice ended early, Lexa shot a text to Clarke telling her to meet her outside after she showered. They were in desperate need of some couple time in Lexa's mind. Clarke had replied quickly and told her she was on her way. Lexa showered quickly and redressed herself, Anya's locker was between hers and Samm's and Monroe's was on Lexa's left and down a few. Luna had come to find her as she was just finishing pulling her jeans back on.
"Care to share how you figured me out so fast?" Luna was eyeing her up and down with a rather seductive look in her eye. "I mean it's only fair so I can know what to work on." Lexa didn't like how flirty her tone was.
"If I told you what gave your pitches away you wouldn't be able to pitch anymore. You would be forced to learn how to throw each pitch from the exact same stance. I pay attention to every pitcher, after about three of each pitch I have them figured out." Lexa pulled her shirt over her head and sat to put her socks and shoes on.
"Well," Luna sat nearer to her. "Guess I will just have to be less obvious when I switch pitches. Nice ink by the way." She stood and gave her another once over before smirking and spinning on her heal. Okay Lexa wasn't so sure about her right now. She knotted her last shoelace and stood throwing her bag on her back before heading toward the door.
"Lexa wait up." Samm called following after her. "Hey, I wanted to give you my number in case you were ever interested in hanging out. I mean I know you are probably busy with classes and your girl but if you ever have time." Samm held out her phone for Lexa to take. They switched phones and added themselves as they walked out the front door to the Center.
"Hey babe!" They both looked up toward the voice, though Lexa didn't know that voice. Samm however had a Chloe worthy smile stretching across her face.
"Cam? Babe, I thought you had rehearsal late tonight?" Samm asked the girl who was now headed toward them rather quickly. She had wavy light brown hair that hung just to her shoulders and her eyes were way more green than Samm's but more brown than Lexa's. She threw her arms around Samm's neck and kissed her soundly.
"Got out early." She stated once she pulled back. "Like someone else I see. I was hoping to catch you before you headed back to the apartment, I wanted to take you out for dinner after your first practice."
"Aww thanks babe." Lexa smiled at the couple when they kissed again and felt a hand come to rest on her shoulder. She looked over to see Clarke had arrived and she eagerly attached their lips. "Shit, I'm sorry. Lexa," She pulled away from their kiss, knowing there was way more to come tonight, and wrapped her arm around Clarke's shoulder pulling her into her side. "This is Cameron James, my girlfriend. Cam this is Lexa Woods."
"Nice to meet you, this is Clarke Griffin, my girlfriend." Lexa laughed and introduced Clarke to the others.
"Great practice today Lexa." Luna had walked out the door and threw a wink at her as she passed between the couples. Well that was rude to barge between an ongoing conversation. AND DON'T WINK AT ME WHEN MY GIRLFRIEND IS RIGHT FUCKING HERE BITCH! Maybe she should have let that last part out.
"I don't know if I like her." Samm spoke up as she watched the pitcher walk away.
"I don't either, I mean she is a good pitcher but she is not very kind it seems." Lexa stated pulling Clarke deeper into her side wanting her to know that she was her one and only and that Luna was going to be disappointed.
"Give her a change Lexa," Clarke spoke softly beside her. "Maybe she had a rough time with her school before this, or she is just really bad at reading people and situations."
"She was the best person on her high school team according to her contract signing video and stuff." Samm was now holding Cam from behind with her chin resting on her shoulder. "Maybe she is having trouble falling to second place behind you." Lexa waved her off and they said their goodbyes with a promise to all four get together before their first game. Lexa was ready for her alone time with Clarke so as they walked back toward her dorm she let her hand slip from Clarke's shoulder to her waist. Then to her hip and as she was sliding just that last bit lower Clarke giggled.
"I was serious when I said STUDY date, babe. I have a quiz in a couple days and I need your help." Clarke pulled Lexa's hand from its journey and laced their fingers together.
Lexa huffed, "Fine."
Clarke
They had been at it for almost two hours now. Clarke was nestled between Lexa's legs, exactly like they had been on their first date and at Thanksgiving, with her Anatomy book propped open in her own lap. They were both currently taking Anatomy and Physiology 2 from the same professor but ended up in different time slots. Yet their class schedules ran the same so their quizzes and tests were on the same days. Their next quiz was over the muscles of the head, face, neck, and shoulders (yeah their teacher was a bit brutal). There would be fifteen questions and of course they were taught about one hundred different terms to know and not told which would be on the quiz.
Clarke was getting frustrated, Lexa knew this stuff way better than she did. "I don't understand how you know all these terms when the lecture was only a few days ago!" She felt the laugh shake against her back and she instinctively leaned into it. No Clarke, focus on your studies! You can have Lexa after you pass or at least after you know you will pass. Clarke took a deep breath and blew it out harshly though her mouth.
"I forced Beca to help me study. Here look at my book." Lexa pulled her text book and flipped to the bookmarked page where there was a picture of the muscles draw with lines to each muscle, but where the terms were printed there were strips of sticky notes covering them. "The idea was to learn what was where and you won't be able to see the terms when it comes to the quiz. So now I will point to a line and you will tell me which one it is." Clarke nodded and closed her book. It was a very good strategy, plus with the added incentive of not having the names in front of you it would cause your brain to actually focus.
They did this method a few times until Clarke had most of everything down. "Okay one more time I think I have it now." Lexa close the book. "Hey no, seriously I need to do it again!" Clarke was trying to grab the text book back but Lexa was faster and stronger than her.
"You won't be looking at a picture when you are given the quiz, Clarke." She was right again. Damn the way she says my name…No focus Griffin! It may have been weeks since you both got a good make-out session in and everything but you have classes to pass! The couple had recently talked about how they would go about their relationship with classes being a bit harder this semester and Lexa having more practices before the start of her season. Clarke was ready to move forward in their relationship and it seemed that Lexa was too but, Lexa had told Clarke that she wanted to do right by her and part of that was making sure her grades stayed in the 'above average' range. Though Clarke couldn't get it out of her mind.
Ever since seeing Lexa that first time in the hospital in her sports bra (yeah, she was only momentarily distracted by the fact that there was huge bruise or that their families were there) she had wanted to touch, scratch, kiss, bite, and lick Lexa's perfectly chiseled eight pack of abs. They had haunted her dreams, she remembers the feeling of them under Lexa's leather jacket, how they rippled when she finally put the gown back on in the ER, and how right now their warmth could be felt against she small of her back. She craved to have the feeling of the skin against her fingertips, have them flex unwillingly, and cause at trail of goosebumps to form behind her path.
DAMMIT, CLARKE ABIGAIL GRIFFIN FUCKING FOCUS!
"Fine how am I supposed to study when we don't have a model to look at?" She could do this, she could sit here and study and then maybe take a break between subjects for a few minutes for some stolen kisses. Lexa hadn't tried anything since Clarke took her hand off her hip, maybe she didn't want to anymore.
"You can be our model." Lexa stated flatly.
"What?"
"Close your eyes and I will trace my fingers across a muscled and you will name it. For every one you get right you will get a reward." Lexa shifted so they were no longer flush together.
"Mmm, what is my reward?" Her mind was slipping again but there seemed to be no use in fighting it any longer.
"You will find out, now close your eyes." Clarke obliged and she felt Lexa move some of their other study materials from the bed to the shelves and floor. "Okay, let's start off easy. What is here?" Clarke felt a long finger run from her forehead over the top of her head to the base of her skull.
"Epicranius." Clarke sighed like she always did when Lexa ran her fingers through her hair.
"Good, Clarke." Lexa turned her chin back toward her and then she felt soft, warm lips against her own. She liked this reward A LOT! Lexa let up and trailed her fingers down her chin to her neck. Clarke swallowed thickly trying to refocus her mind.
"Platysma." Lexa only hummed in the affirmative before tracing her mouth over the same path her finger just trailed. Clarke moaned deep from in her throat wanting and needing more from Lexa. She tapped another muscle right behind her ear. "Sternocleidomastoid." It came out broken and in a whisper as Lexa's mouth was still on her neck, though it now moved up along her jaw and latched on the skin where the muscle was lying underneath. Then Lexa's fingers trailed from the curls at the base of her hairline down her neck and out toward her shoulders. "Oh shit." Slipped from Clarke's lips and Lexa was off of her in an instant.
"Wrong answer, Clarke." She could hear the smirk on her face, blue eyes sprang open with the amount of husk in Lexa's tone. The lids flittered on the click of the 'K'. Screw studying! This was no longer about their quiz this was about their relationship.
Clarke flipped herself up on her knees to face Lexa and grabbed a fist full of her shirt, pulling her forward so they were nose to nose. "The only anatomy I want to study is yours." She watched as the green in her girlfriend's eyes faded into black as her pupils blew.
Their lips met in a clash that was filled with desire and passion. Lexa's fingers gripped into the back of Clarke's thighs and pulled her down to meet her own leg that Clarke had startled when she flipped to her knees. She pressed against a toned chest with her fist still full of fabric forcing Lexa down toward her back. Before they were lying down completely Lexa used the leverage she had on Clarke and flipped their positions putting Clarke on her back and then sitting up off of her. Clarke opened her eyes again to see that Lexa's pupils were still blown with pure lust but the glint in them told her she was concerned. She felt her heart throb with the knowledge that Lexa wanted to make sure this was the right thing, that Clarke did indeed want her this way, and that it was the time to take it in some way. Clarke gave her shirt another firm tug but Lexa didn't budge this time.
"Clarke…are you sure?" The green started to enter her eyes again, something was running in her mind and Clarke didn't know why or what was holding her back.
"Lexa, I want this. I want you." The second it was out the truth of the statement set in. Clarke wanted Lexa and not just sexually. She wanted to be with her completely forever. Then another truth flooded her mind, she had never done this before. She had never gone farther than making out with a female before, and Finn had only ever touched her.
Clarke was, in fact, a virgin.
Her face must have given away her slight panic. Lexa had taken her hand that was clutching her shirt in her own and pulled it up to her lips. "I want you too, Clarke. I can tell that what you said is true but I can see your hesitation as well. We haven't talked about our sexual pasts…" There was a long pause. Clarke could practically see the thoughts behind those forest green eyes. She yearned to know what they were. "We need to talk about that first before anything happens further. I want more with you Clarke, I'm honestly not sure if I can ever get enough when it comes to you, but this is important to know about each other." Lexa sat up completely and pulled Clarke up so they were sitting side by side.
Clarke had never had anyone be this concerned with how she felt or what she wanted before. Given the fact that Finn was the last person she had gotten farther than heavy petting with could be part of that. This was a good thing though, this was her chance to be honest with Lexa, and it wasn't like Lexa would run screaming for the hills when she found out about her virginity right? Please tell me she won't run screaming for the hills when she finds out! Clarke silently begged. "Okay, you are right. Plus I am curious about you. NOT in a bad way or anything – I mean it's whatever – life was lived and shit but… UGH okay can you start please so I can stop sounding like an idiot?" Lexa let out a very small laugh and smiled at Clarke before pressing their lips together in a very soft chaste kiss.
"Sure I can go first." Clarke felt her palms start to sweat as Lexa took a deep breath. They both reached for the other's hand before she began. "I'm not a virgin. Well, I guess in the literal sense because I have never been with a male but, I have had sex. I have basically done everything, I mean how detailed do you want me to go?" It was a genuine question that Clarke was now asking herself. Did she want to know all the things Lexa was experienced in? It was obvious that she had done at least done oral and all things hand related, but could there be – for lack of a better term – kinkier things? Clarke was looking at their joined hands where Lexa's thumb was rubbing soft circles. "Okay I can tell what you are thinking by your face and it's not anything crazy like that. I mean, yeah I've done the basics, and a few stereotypical lesbian things but that is really where I draw the line. I'm not a sex-crazed maniac! Though I think that might be your other study partner." Lexa's joking was actually helping this conversation. Clarke needed to say something.
"I am." Why did she have to squeak at that moment? She dropped her gaze back down as she spoke.
"Clarke? I don't understand." Lexa's voice was a little overly concerned for her telling her she was a virgin. Then the words sex-crazed maniac ran through her head again. Oh god, no that was not what she meant!
"I mean, I'm a…" She looked back up to understanding eyes and saw a small smile pulling at Lexa's lips. Her whole face screamed 'tell me because I will understand and nothing will change'. "I am a virgin." The face before her never changed. "I mean I'm not innocent or anything but…yeah…virgin thy name is Clarke." She waited for Lexa to say something or for her face to change but it never did.
"Can you tell me what you have done? Maybe with how many different people?" Lexa spoke slowly. "If you don't want to that is fine and I have only ever gone past getting felt up and returning the favor with Costia. I just want you to know that. This kind of stuff has always been important to me and it wasn't to Costia, she never forced me or anything but I broke my own rules to please her and I've never forgiven myself for it. That is why I want this talk to happen Clarke, this talk is important to me."
Clarke's whole body shuddered. She had never had anyone ask about this, or even fell how she felt about this. Yes, she was a virgin and yes it was by choice. Clarke had yet to find someone worthy of being her first, though she was starting to think she had now. Lexa wanted honesty, loyalty, and all things consensual. That was the holy trinity for Clarke. "Finn and I got to touching but that was and is the farthest I have ever gone. I mean I've made out with and been groped by many different people, both male and female. Oh and there was that one time Bellamy and I got drunk and started making out and we woke up topless but I still had my bra on and he said that we stopped things before it got any further because I was like his little sister and 'I would never sleep with O and this felt really wrong'. He really can be a good guy but I hated myself in the morning and when I told Octavia she actually laughed at me for feeling bad. Turns out Raven actually did sleep with him at one point, Octavia told her she was desperate but understood why she did it." Lexa was looking rather confused at all of the information flying out of Clarke but that didn't stop her. "It was a rebound slash make-Wick-jealous fuck. Another of Raven's suitors from high school."
"Okay, so Finn has been the only one to touch you under your clothes?" Lexa asked as though she was talking to a five year old. Clarke giggled a little.
"Yes Lexa, everyone else was over." Lexa let out a breath.
"Okay same with Costia and I. So now that we are past the easy part…I get tested regularly because of sports and stuff so as of January, I'm clean and have always been." Her voice wavered a little giving away her shyness but Clarke knew what was happening.
"I am too, I just got tested again last month." Clarke leaned into Lexa's side wanting to feel more of her girlfriend after this rather intense conversation. As she laid her head on her chest she could hear Lexa's rapid heartbeat. "Your heartbeat is giving you away. What are you thinking about?"
"How jealous I am of every single person that has ever gotten to touch you. Oh and how much I want to slaughter Finn for getting to be the first person to please you." She giggled at her honesty but swelled with the knowledge.
"Well I never said he did that." Clarke let Lexa have a small victory, it was true though Finn wasn't that good. He didn't last that long either, sad excuse for a man if you asked her.
"Oh thank God!" Lexa was back moving her to lay beneath her again. Their lips meet in another heated clash of lips and teeth. Lexa ran her tongue along the plump bottom lip between her own begging, pleading for entrance. Before Clarke could grant it she pulled away. "We will still go slowly, move from base to base at a mutual pace, but tonight I want to be on that list of people that have gotten to touch the one and only Clarke Griffin. That is if you will let me." She gave her girlfriend a small nod while teasing her bottom lip between her own teeth. "Let me show you what it means to be pleased." Lexa gave her a final overly confident, but not cocky, smirk before attaching their lips again.
This time Clarke threaded her hands into brown locks, pulling Lexa closer to her. Then something sprang to the forefront of her mind. "What about Beca?" This was not something she wanted anyone walking in on. Lexa panicked slightly and pulled out her phone. After a few minutes Lexa showed Clarke her phone.
Commander: Status?
Tiny Demon: Staying with Chlo. You getting some?
Commander: Bellas sleepover or? And no but we will talk later.
Tiny Demon: Aubrey isn't going to be at the Bellas house tonight. Chloe insisted a sleepover was needed but she failed to tell any other Bella but me. IDK what will happen with us either. Let you know before I head back though.
They had said their goodbyes and that was the end. "Are you going to tell her?" Clarke honestly was going to tell O and Rae, they were her best friends and she needed someone to brag to.
"Well I need someone to brag about you too." Damn they could read each other's minds and Clarke loved it.
"Good because depending on how much you please me will depend on how much I brag to O and Rae." That was all it took for Lexa to be back on her and begging for entrance again. Clarke finally obliged and their tongues met in a soft caress, learning and feeling before fighting for dominance.
Lexa wouldn't submit to Clarke so she back down and let her explore her mouth further, and was she damn glad she did. The way she pulled her tongue with her own into her mouth was crazy talented and forced Clarke's closed eyes to roll back in her head. Then Lexa pulled her bottom lip in sucking it slightly before biting down hard enough for pleasure without hurting Clarke. There was no longer any way for Clarke to stifle the moan that followed the action. Lexa released the now swollen lip and they both panted for air with their foreheads together before Clarke opened her eyes to see Lexa studying her face closely. "God, you are impossibly beautiful." Before Clarke could reply Lexa's mouth moved to kiss her lips again before going to her cheek, then along her jaw, back to her ear where she sucked and bit lightly on the lobe. She was forcing moans, sighs, and whimpers from deep within Clarke.
In return Clarke was running her hands though Lexa's hair pulling her toward that muscle just under and behind her ear again. Once she felt her there she groaned in pleasure and felt Lexa smirk against her skin. She pulled a hand down to the back of Lexa's neck and played with the baby curls resting there, with her other she roamed and scratched at the rippling muscles that she could see on the t-shirt clad back before her. She felt fingers trail down her sides to grip into her waist above her hips, she arched her body up into Lexa's begging for more. The pressure of the kiss on her neck got rougher and she felt teeth nip at the skin all too lightly before a tongue ran over the area. "Leave a mark, please Lexa." She was above begging but she wanted people to know she was with Lexa and Lexa was with her.
"Only if I get one from you too, babe." A deep throated moan was all she gave in answer before Lexa was back in the same spot sucking and biting hard before soothing the pain with her tongue again. Clarke had both of her hands gripping into Lexa's back forcing their fronts flush together. Lexa's fingers had found their way to the hem of her shirt where she was teasing the skin just above her jeans. Clarke instantly reached for the same spot on Lexa's shirt and started to pull up as Lexa removed herself from Clarke's neck.
"I have been dying to see these abs again." Lexa smirked and allowed Clarke to pull her shirt over her head and throw it toward Beca's half of the room. As soon as the article was out of her grasp she ran her fingers over the defined muscles tracing each one, feeling them flex and seeing the bumps rise on the skin, knowing the air had been forced out of Lexa's lungs. She trailed her hands around her sides and up toward her oh so perfectly sized prize. She snapped her eyes back to green only to be met with black again. "Can I?" Lexa nodded and Clarke cupped her over the sports bra she always seemed to be wearing. The girl just got out of practice though what did she honestly expect? Silk? Lace? It didn't matter, they fit in her grasp perfectly and hearing Lexa moan and sigh her name was all it took for Clarke to flip them and pin her girlfriend down to the bed again.
They met in a kiss again that was as heated as it should be in this situation. She ran one hand down Lexa's side to grip her hip while the other stayed in it's new favorite location. She trailed her kisses in the same path that Lexa had but continued down the column of her throat before finding the one spot that gave her the best reaction out of Lexa. The hollow of her collar bone near her neck. The first kiss caused a curse to fly from her lips making Clarke extremely proud. This was where Clarke would leave her mark.
The first bite forced Clarke's name out in a harsh groan that was definitely not in a whisper. Lexa's hands were gripping and feeling and roaming over her sides and hips. Clarke couldn't take it anymore, she wanted to feel Lexa's hands on her again. "Clarke, can I?" She felt a tug on her shirt and her heartstrings. She sat up and her shirt found itself with Lexa's. Lexa had followed her when she sat up. Clarke was now sitting in her lap. Lexa kissed her chest higher than Clarke wanted her but close enough for it to cause the goosebumps to explode across her skin. Clarke was watching as nimble fingers moved to trace along the underside of her bra. Thank God I wore one of my good ones! Clarke nodded when Lexa looked up again and finally threw her head back with a sigh when Lexa kneaded her.
They shared a few more kisses and Clarke made a point to leave a second hickey on Lexa's abs claiming them completely. They stopped things there for tonight, Lexa being satisfied that she was finally only behind Finn on the 'who has been with Clarke' scale, and Clarke having to have gotten to study those muscles closer and with her tongue. Lexa was currently lying on her back with Clarke tucked under her left arm with her head on her chest. Clarke was tracing her fingers over the tattoo on Lexa's right bicep thinking about the other one she had seen tonight. "That tattoo down your back? Why did you get that one?" Lexa's left hand started trailing soft circles around her shoulder blade, neither of them had put their shirts back on (not that Clarke would let Lexa anyway).
"My mom was always a singer but she needed to pay the bills as well. She was an astronomer. I used to love looking at the stars and planets with her. It is basically an abstract version of the solar system, I told the artist that I wanted something like that and this is what he drew. I fell in love with it the moment he finished drawing it on paper." Clarke smiled and placed another kiss on Lexa's chest. Clarke glanced at the clock across form her on Lexa's shelf, it was close to midnight now. "You are staying right?" Clarke looked up to see Lexa following her gaze.
"Yes, but you are not allowed to put your shirt back on. I forbid it!" Lexa laughed but agreed and soon they were changed into more of Lexa's shorts and Clarke had stolen her shirt off the floor so she really couldn't put it back on. They got back into their previous position and were soon fast asleep, and Clarke was dreaming about waking in this spot by a child or two jumping on both of them.
Beca
For some unknown, other worldly reason Beca had arrived early for Bellas rehearsal today. She came directly from her shift at the radio station where she had given Luke yet another flash drive of mixes. She had yet to hear any feedback from him on anything, nor had she heard anything on the air. Not that she cared or anything, Beca didn't need to know that people liked her mixes. She had Chloe, Clarke, Lexa, and all the girls on the lacrosse team telling her they were good. She didn't need to hear them on the radio, she didn't need someone to say she was doing a damn good job…but she wouldn't lie and say she didn't want it either.
She was sitting in a corner with her laptop open in her lap working on yet another mix for Lexa's softball season. She had already uploaded one playlist but she wasn't exactly happy with it. Plus with the fact that Lexa now had Clarke in her life, Beca had new material to work with for motivation. Sometimes when she heard songs she could still hear the sound of Lexa's voice as it used to sing them. She did miss the sound but understood the pain it caused her sister. Recently she heard a song that was totally and completely the couple so dubbed…Clexa. Quickly finding a song that went well with it and gave it a much more upbeat vibe, Beca mixed an "Ultimate Power Couple" song for the two. She may have to make sure that Lexa doesn't play this one before a game so her head stays in the right place.
After what felt like an hour, she sensed a presents sitting next to her. She glanced to see Chloe smiling at her. She quickly hit save and pause, being mostly pleased with the current arrangement, and slipped her headphones around her neck. "Hey, babe." Chloe said and leaned in placing a kiss on her lips. Beca sighed into the feeling then stiffened remembering where they were. She hated this feeling! Every time Chloe got all mushy in a Bellas location Beca tensed up knowing they would get caught. She didn't want to have to feel that anymore, she wanted to kiss Chloe in front of everyone. She almost had multiple times, but Chloe always saw the look in her eyes and pulled farther away from her. It was insufferable! Not to mention that Beca was not one to actually have these feelings…ever! It irritated her that she had to basically hide in the closet about her relationship, it irritated her that she cared that they had to hide it, it irritated her that she wanted people to see how happy this ginger made her! So she stayed in true Beca fashion and pulled back from their kiss and got ready to scoot away before a hand fell on her arm.
"Chlo, you said it yourself. We can't let the Bellas find out." Beca couldn't look at her, either she would see pain or her own would be revealed.
"No one else is here, Bec. I'm sorry I know you hate this. I hate it too but I think Aubrey is coming around to you since New Year's. She hasn't called you 'Hobbit' in like a week!" They both giggled and Beca finally looked into those clear baby blue eyes that she was constantly finding herself drowning in. The honestly alone made her want to melt, but the passion and slight lust is what sent her back in for another kiss. This is going to be a long practice. Beca thought. They broke when the need for fresh oxygen became great and rested their foreheads together.
"How is your throat?" Beca figured they should actually stop kissing and start trying to look less couple like before Bellas began to arrive.
"Hurts, a lot. I'm starting to get worried. I mean I don't sing unless we have practice but the whole not talking thing is nearly impossible…as you can tell by the fact that I can't shut up!" She let out an exaggerated huff and crossed her arms over her chest and slammed her back into the wall like a toddler that didn't get her way. It. Was. ADORABLE! Beca giggled at her antics and kissed her cheek. "What are you working on? Oooohhhhh is it something else for me!?" Now she was bouncing in her seat like a toddler that just got told they were about to get a present.
"Sorry, Chlo. This is for Lexa, but it is inspired by her and Clarke's relationship. Wanna hear?" Chloe eagerly nodded and Beca slipped her headphones off and handed them to Chloe. She had no issue with her girlfriend handling them, she was the one that purchased them in the first place. Once Chlo was set she gave a small nod and Beca pressed play. The music line for Miss Independent by Ne-yo began to play and layered over the top soon came the lyrics to Burn by Ellie Goulding. Towards the middle of the song they flipped seamlessly. Chloe didn't even realize they switched until the chorus of Miss Independent.
"Beca, that was so cool! It was different from your others but it still works perfectly! I'm sure they will love it!" Chloe gave her one last kiss before they finally put space between their bodies, the others would arrive soon. "Hey, Bree is going out tonight after practice so I am having a mandatory Bellas sleepover." Beca let out a groan. Did Chloe really take their one chance to spend alone time together and turn it into a group thing? And why is Beca so upset about that? "But I conveniently forgot to invite all of the others so it will just be us." The door opened across the way and Stacie and Aubrey made their way in laughing and standing very close together. Chloe stood and gave her a wink before heading toward the new arrivals. Beca watched as Aubrey's eyes followed Stacie as she walked away from her, New Year's Eve just ten seconds before midnight flashed in Beca's mind and she smirked knowing she finally had dirt on them both.
Chloe's voice cracked on her last note causing her to fall to an octave below where she should be. Beca mentally winced at the pain she knew it caused her girlfriend. She kept her emotions in check as they finished their run though. After Aubrey broke so did everyone else, Fat Amy was first to speak. "I should have taken that cardio tip more seriously." Came as a breathy groan while she was taking deep gulps of air.
"How much have you done?" Of course the General would ask such a thing and not check to make sure she was actually okay.
"Well I did about a week's worth the other day when I walked into a spider web so I figured I was covered." Most of the girls laughed tiredly, but not General Posen.
"Chloe you have to be able to hit that last note!" Aubrey stated as she passed her best friend toward the piano. I'm getting real tired of your shit Posen! Beca seethed inside her head.
"I CAN'T! It's impossible! It's because of my…"
"Nodes." All of the Bellas answered in some form or another. Beca moved just behind Chloe knowing she would at least provide some level of comfort. The last thing she expected was for Aubrey to tell her to give her solo to someone else. Scratch that….the last thing was for Chloe to say that Beca should be the one to take it.
"Yeah Beca may be excellent, but maybe someone else might be just as equally as excellent." Amy had a point and Beca made a gesture to show she was okay with someone else wanting and having the solo. Sure Beca wanted to sing a solo it was just that that particular song was not going to help them, she would much rather try something else.
"Well if Beca doesn't want a solo…" Aubrey started. This was her one shot.
"I'd be happy to do it if I got to pick a different song and do an arrangement?" Her voice rose in slight question as she hoped it wouldn't cause a puke bomb to go off.
"Well that's not how we run things here." Her fake smile was enough to send Beca's mind reeling. It was Chloe who spoke up this time.
"Aubrey maybe Beca has a point. Maybe we could try something new…"
"Aca-scuse me?" Oh and now we are starting with that again. Beca saw Chloe try and give her best friend an innocent smile but it faltered as she continued. "You can sing Turn the Beat Around and that is the last I want to hear of this." Okay not only did Beca want to pull Aubrey's head out of her ass, she wanted to defend her girlfriend without, you know, giving anything away. She was still trying to get along with the General for Chloe's sake. The others started to disperse around the room and Beca took her chance. She approached the piano slowly keeping, her voice just above a whisper.
"That song is tired, we aren't going to win with it. If we take songs from different genres and layer them together we can…" Of course Aubrey cut her off. Beca didn't even bother listening to the reprimand this time. How is it just okay for her to treat everyone this way? She treats her best friend like shit, she treats her team like shit, and they all just fucking take it! FUCK! Beca was pissed and she almost slipped up when 'Alt-girl with her madlib beats' game up. "Crystal, I won't solo." With that she left. She couldn't stand by anymore and watch this all happen. She knew they would lose. Their set was boring and no one was going to even pay attention to them.
It didn't matter what she said or how she said it, everything that came from her was wrong. She was wrong. Aubrey would never get past the way she looked the first time she met her at the activities fair. She would never see how much Beca actually wanted them to succeed in competition. Aubrey had a heart of stone and she felt sorry for Stacie as she knew that deep down she actually had feelings for the General. Not everything was about sex for Stacie, Clarke might have given away her secret one night, and Beca found herself seeing her as a real friend and now she was going to get hurt by Aubrey just like Chloe was. Yet Chloe was letting this happen. Chloe was half in charge as well. She needed to take a stand and finally knock some sense into her so called best friend.
A hand on her shoulder caused her to jump as she gathered her things to leave. She spun to see Chloe giving her a sad smile. Beca rolled her eyes and shook her head, it was not okay for this to be happening. I was not okay for Aubrey to do this and it was not okay for Chloe to come and try to make her feel better. Even if she was the only person here who could. Beca just wanted to go home, she wanted to throw her headphones on and mix the night away, even if she was supposed to spend it with Chloe. Okay now you are just lying to yourself, Mitchell.
"Hey, I know what you are thinking. Leaving is only going to make it worse, please don't leave Bec. We have to run it again with Amy singing the solo at least once." Chloe gave her a pleading smile and Beca was putty in her hands. "You did great by the way, you kept your cool and you were nice to her. Everyone could see it. Thank you for sticking up for me. I'll repay you later." She gave a wink and turned back to learn her new choreography. Beca felt her face flush and took a long drink from her water bottle trying to cool herself down. It will be a long practice indeed.
Chloe
"God that was awful!" Chloe groaned as she plopped herself down on the couch next to Beca a few hours later. They had both gone home and showered (Beca grabbing an overnight bag) and met back at the Bellas house for their sleepover. Chloe was glad Aubrey was staying out tonight, she had her theories about where she was actually going but she was glad to be alone with Beca for a very long extended period of time.
"I am not going to argue with you on that." Beca had already pulled her laptop out and was working again. Chloe watched as her fingers twitched over the keys and flicked the switches changing the tune flowing out of the speakers. Chloe drew her bottom lip between her teeth, getting helplessly turned on. If Beca's fingers can make those sounds, what sounds could they pull from me? Chloe was in trouble. They had yet to talk about much, they had definitely moved forward in their relationship physically with how often Chloe found Beca groping her ass. She didn't give a single care to the fact, she kinda liked it.
It was painfully obvious that Beca was still reeling from practice. Chloe hated making her feel this way. She was causing her pain and she needed to make it right. She inched closer to Beca's side and rested her head on the small shoulder. Beca wasted no time in moving to place a kiss on the top of her head. The warmth of it flowed from the sight of the kiss all the way to her toes and it brought a smile to her face. Her heart sank knowing no one else could see this side of Beca, granted she didn't really want anyone else to see this side but herself, but she wanted people to know that this was the Beca she spent all of her time with. This was the Beca that she fell head over heels in love with and she can't even bring herself to tell Beca exactly how much she felt for her. They really needed to talk more to each other, about everything.
"So, how are things with you Bec?"
"It's okay, Chlo. We can talk about it. I'm just sick and tired of Aubrey treating you as though there is nothing else you can do for the Bellas. I mean you are the one that knows all of our strengths and what makes us…well…us! She needs to get off her high horse and listen to people or we won't get farther than Regionals." Beca closed her laptop as she spoke. Chloe lifted her head as she leaned forward to set it on the coffee table before them. Upon leaning back she wrapped her arm around Chloe's shoulders. Chloe laid her head back down and scooted closer to wrap her arms around Beca's middle.
"I hate it too. She has stopped listening to me all together. No one seems to be able to get through to her anymore. I miss my best friend." Chloe sighed and nuzzled her head into Beca's neck, kissing it briefly.
"Well someone can get through to her." Beca laughed with a smirk on her face. Chloe looked up at her confused. "Where did she say she was going tonight?"
"She said she had something to do and that she probably wouldn't be home tonight." There was a smirk and a knowing look in those stormy blue eyes. "What? Why?"
"Because I'm pretty sure that is code for she is sleeping with Stacie. I saw them at our New Year's Eve party and I'm sure they ended up kissing at midnight. When I saw them walk into practice today and that is the first time I have ever really seen Aubrey smile like that."
"Really? Do you think they could be?" Chloe sat up off of her to talk face to face. "She never mentioned anything to me about liking women. She has always known about me being bi." She felt her face fall as the hurt set in. Why would Bree keep something like that from me?
"Is this reaction just because she never told you or are you upset because it is Stacie and not you?" Beca asked while casting her eyes away from Chloe's.
"No Bec, I've never been attracted to Aubrey like that." And she hadn't been. Sure Aubrey was a beautiful girl but there was never a nagging pull toward her like there was with Beca. "For the record, no one has ever made me feel the things you do." Chloe felt her face flush as she saw the same shade of red creep up Beca's neck. She was worried about the way her girlfriend would respond to that, it was the first time Chloe had let some insight to how she really felt. Beca looked back into her eyes and Chloe saw something shift the longer they held their gaze.
"It's the same for me, Chlo. I swore off people after my mom died, I figured if I didn't let them see me then they wouldn't get attached – that I wouldn't get attached and they couldn't hurt me." Steel blue eyes looked down at Chloe's hand and pale fingers wrapped around her own. "You don't understand how much power you have over me. You got in, you were getting in regardless of if I wanted you there or not. I'm really glad that you are in there now though, I'm much happier this way." Beca smiled and looked back into her eyes. Chloe closed the remaining distance between them and captured her lips in a slow, soft kiss trying to pour her emotions into the action.
"I really like being there." She whispered the words against her lips and felt them pull at the corners. With her eyes still closed she moved her hand to cup the side of Beca's face and run her thumb across her cheekbone pulling them back together. She felt fingers drag from knee up her thigh, she squeezed the ones still being held tighter, Beca's fingers were trailing so lightly she could hardly feel them. She desperately wanted to feel them. Wanted them to be everywhere all at once, wanted them against her skin, wanted to feel them burn with just the sensation of their touch. Then Beca pulled back bringing a whimper from Chloe's throat with her. "Too much?"
"No not at all. I just – I mean I thought – maybe we should, I dunno like, talk about things…and…stuff." Beca withdrew her hands from where they were touching Chloe, the cold was bone chilling where they had been. "I mean, I want to talk about it. I know that we both have pasts and I want to make sure we are both comfortable with those pasts before moving forward." Her eyes widened in sudden shock, Chloe didn't understand why this was a normal thing that happened with couples right? You are supposed to make sure both are comfortable with pasts and that there is no chance for anything to get passed. Right? "It's not that I don't want to move forward because I really do, I just want you to know like how many people I have been with, and that I get tested regularly and that I take birth control even though we are basically in a lesbian relationship and there really isn't any need for you to know that…" Beca continued at an alarming pace while Chloe stretched a smile across her face, giggling internally. God she is adorable when she rambles!
"Bec, babe, stop!" Her jaw snapped closed, Chloe giggled again. "It's okay, Bec. I want to talk about it too. I think it is healthy." She could still see Beca's embarrassment. "And if it will make you feel less embarrassed about what you just said, I'm on birth control too." Beca's shoulders relaxed as she let out a breath with a small chuckle in it. She still wouldn't hold her gaze. "Look at me Bec." Worry, that was what she saw in those dark eye and she felt the need to make it go away. "I will go first if you are okay with that?" Beca gave a small nod before she spoke.
"Nothing will change right? I mean – it won't be different between us when we know?" The worry deepened.
"I'm not worried about this talk, unless you spring on me that you have a child or that you were treated in a way that can be considered unlawful, this is going to be no big deal." She tried to keep her voice calming and soft, both for Beca's benefit and that of her nodes (she needed to talk to Beca about that too).
"Well now I feel better and I really mean that." Beca laced their fingers together again, Chloe was glad for the contact. "I'm ready now."
"Okay, so, I lost my virginity when I was sixteen. It was my boyfriend, Kyle, it was okay but my first time so it wasn't like pleasant or anything. Umm…so I've basically done everything with guys. My first time with a female was when I was eighteen. It started with experimentation and well I ended up really liking what was happening. So yeah, I've done everything there too." She sighed and thought back to Beca's rambling. "Oh and I get tested and I'm clean, last test was last month." She smiled and wriggled into Beca's side some more.
Beca sighed and ran her hands down her face before taking Chloe's fingers back and starting her own story. Chloe tried to listen the best she could. "I was fifteen…it was the year after the accident and after I found out that mom had cancer. I was really angry and I didn't really give a shit about anything and my parents had never really had a good relationship so I never saw it as something important. We weren't even really like labeled or anything. Umm…I slept with a girl when I was sixteen, again not really important to me and the whole liking girls thing was again like never a big deal because of Lexa being gay and all that. Yeah, I'm clean and all that too, and I don't have cancer either – just in case you were wondering – and since I word vomited earlier and can't seem to stop now." She gave a sheepish smile and looked back down. Chloe was studying her face as her eyes seemed to cast over and she spoke again. "I've been with three guys and four girls." She winced at the end, Chloe just pulled her body closer in her grasp.
"I've been with four guys and six girls, three of those times I was drunk and don't remember a thing about it." She laughed hoping to lighten the mood a little. It worked for a moment but then Beca tensed up again. "What is it Bec? You can tell me anything, trust me it won't change the way I feel…"
"I haven't had sex since I was seventeen and I know you have had it recently and I don't exactly want to be terrible or anything." She was blushing again and Chloe couldn't help but kiss her face.
"We aren't jumping right into bed now, babe. We can move at our own pace." Beca nodded and kissed the top of Chloe's head sighing contently. The feeling flowed down her body again warming her from all angles. She basked in the feeling for once not even feeling the pain in her vocal cords. That reminded her of the other thing she wanted to talk to Beca about. "Umm…so Bec, there is something I wanted to talk with you about. So I went back to the doctor the other week and he said that my nodes are still bad and they haven't really gotten any worse, but they are starting to scar. It is looking like I am going to have to have surgery if I don't want to be in pain or the rest of my life."
"Nodes removal surgery?" Beca asked with only a little shock.
"Yeah why?"
"My aunt had that surgery just after Lexa and I turned thirteen, she didn't have any complications and she was able to sing like a week later. Since she was so seasoned in singing and all that she didn't lose any of her range, it actually got a little better. I know there are a lot of side effects and a lot of risks but if you want or need to have it done then I will be there and I will support you with your decision. Chlo I will always be there for you weather we are together or not." Chloe grabbed the back of her neck and pulled her into a harsh kiss. She had never had anyone be on her side completely like this before.
She flipped herself up to startle Beca's lap putting both of her hands on either side of her face pulling her closer, desperately trying to feel everything. "Thank you Beca. Thank you for being there for me and making me feel like I have nothing to fear. I don't ever want to find out what it would be like to be without you." They kissed again softer this time and with more feeling. Beca moved her hands to the small of her back pulling their bodies flush together.
"Hopefully you won't ever have to." With that Chloe closed the distance between them again ready to take another step forward with Beca. When she felt cold fingers teasing the skin above the waistband of her jeans she knew that Beca was ready too. Chloe couldn't be happier to know that Beca was always going to be in her life.
A/N #2: So I'm toying with the idea of writing smut but idk...let me know if you are interested, or even if you are still reading this story. Okay cool so yeah introduced a couple original characters here don't worry there won't be much on them.