We walk up to Tim. He told us to be careful some people were running around trying to start fight for no reason. I did not believe him at all. He told us that the RK were trying to get back at the Shepard's gang. That was more like I thought but we had to be careful because we were all close with Tim gang. I also knew Pony and Curly were good friends. I told the guys I did not want them to stay out past ten. Steve looked at me like I was crazy but I told him he would be grounded if he was going to be out past curfew. He was surprised but let it go. I knew he was going to have to adjust to being told what to do.
Tim wanted to talk to me alone. I told the guys and Darry go into the house. I had a feeling Darry was not happy about it. He and Tim sometimes get along but other time they did not. Tim then ask if I ever think about Dally. This threw me for a curve ball. I told him sometimes. He ask me if I had been by his grave yet, and I said No. I was too scared to go there by myself. I thought about asking Darry. I told Tim I was not sure if I was ready to face this yet. He told me it only going to get harder with time. He also mention the headstone look lovely, and he knew I had paid for it. I knew I was going to start crying so I told Tim he could go home.
Darry walked out onto the pouch with me and ask what is wrong. I told him that Tim had start to talk about Dally. I knew this was going to hit me eventually. I was really upset and I think Darry was scared to see me back down like that. He told me tomorrow we were going to visit Dally gave. He think it would be good for me to deal with this. I just keep crying and Darry had eventually pick me up and carry me inside. The guys were all quiet about what was going on. Darry carried me to our room and laid me down on the bed. He kick off his boots and climbed into bed with me. I laid my head on his chest and he put his arm around me. I felt safe when I was with him. I knew it was late.
Darry told me he would be right back and I gave him a look. Then he promised me he would be back right away. He was going to make sure the guys were in bed they had work in the morning. He then came back and crawled into bed with me. We went back to cuddling together. I knew tomorrow I was going to have to talk to him. I thought I had dealt with this but I had found another way to stay busy. I guess being back was going to get to me eventually. I then fell asleep but not for long.
Pony work me up when he scream during one of his nightmares. I walked into his room to make sure he was alright. Soda was trying to get him to wake up but he was having trouble. I shook Pony and try to get him up in a soothing voice. He eventually woke up and said he was sorry for waking us up. I told him it was fine. He hate those dreams and he cannot every remember them. I ask him if he wanted to talk about it in the living room to let Soda sleep.
We walked out into the living room and he was very upset. He said he wanted for it all to stop. He told me he was having a hard time without Jonny and Dally. I told him that it was difficult to get over something. It was best to talk to people about what was going on. Feeling were not something I was the best at but I was getting better. Pony start to fall back asleep. I knew both of us needed to talk to someone but the thought of talking to a stranger scared me. Darry was there to help me but we had the kids to think also. Pony decided he was going back to bed. Then he stopped and decided to go outside and smoke. I went with him. he passed a cig over to me and I light it. he knew I did not smoke to often but he knew I had been upset about a lot of things.
We finshed smoking and went back inside. He told me he was going to go get some sleep and he look about dead to the world. I hope I was going to able to talk to someone hopefully Darry about what I was feeling about Dally. I knew I had to do something. I missed Dally a lot and I just kept things to get me busy and not think about it. One thing I was going to do tomorrow was visit his grave and hopefully that would give me some closure. I was going to ask Darry to go with me and I wonder if we should bring Pony with us or not. After we did that I was going to find a professional to talk to and possible have Pony go as well. He still seemed upset about losing them. I then went back to bed and curl up with Darry. Darry threw his arm over me and pulled me close and I knew this was he was of protecting me. He told me everything would be alright.
A/N: Sorry this was difficult chapter to write. I hopefully will have the next one wrote by the end of the week. I hope to get one review by the end of the week to post the new chapter.