Renesmee's POV
"I'm going to kill him!" My dad says and starts to move towards the door.
"Dad, please don't!" I say running after him, after I toss off my toe shoes.
"WHAT THE HELL!" Dad yells at Jacob, and I can barely look at him without the tears running to my eyes. "DO YOU JUST WANT TO KILL HER EVEN MORE? ALL YOU'VE DONE IS HURT HER AND NOW YOU THINK THAT YOU CAN COME BACK HERE!"
"Dad, just let him go. I don't want to see him anymore. He doesn't even think of me as anything other than his second chance at being in love with a half-version of Momma." I say and I can't look at Jacob, since I know the tears will be showing up soon.
"Nessie-" Jacob tried to get my attention.
"JUST. LEAVE. HER. ALONE." My dad says through clenched teeth, my mom holding on to his arm, trying to keep him from hurting Jacob, because she knows that if he does it will hurt me.
"I lied." He said ignoring my dad, and my eyes shoot up to look at him.
"Don't do this to me! You may think it's a joke, trying to make me think that you lied just so that I will come back to you so you can have your chance with mini-Bella once more, but I won't go through with it anymore. I get it, you made yourself clear. You could never love me, I get it. Just don't lie and give me false hope." I say as the tears spill over. "I can't do this. Not again." I turn about to leave, when warm arms grab me.
"I'm not lying to you like I did over a year ago. Nessie, I didn't mean a word I said the last time we spoke."
"Stop. Stop. Stop. Stop." I say as calmly as I can, not wanting him to say the things that he had told me a million times in my dreams since he broke me. "I can't deal with the pain again. I just got back to being ok with living without you. I finally got over the fact that you never really loved me other than because of my mom, so don't give me fake hope." I try to pull my arms away from him, but he holds me tighter.
"I. Lied." He said trying to prove a point. My breath speeds up along with my tears.
"Don't say it. I can't deal with it!" I say tears streaming down my face.
"Take your hands off of her dog, and leave." Aunt Rose says from behind my parents.
"Nessie, I know you don't believe me right now, and you may not ever believe me, but I had to let you know that I lied." I couldn't even make myself look at him, it hurt too badly. It had taken me a year to start to feel alright again, to feel that I could make it through the pain and feel ok living. It had taken me a year of reminding myself that I wasn't worth it to him, and now he wants to tell me that he lied? My heart had gone through a shredder and I had to take glue and slowly piece it back together. I had found a new thing to love, and that would let me live semi-happily, and that was ballet. I couldn't let myself believe him, because glue can only work so many times before you can't fix something. If I even let myself believe for a second that he had lied, there would be no turning back when he hurts me again. My heart wouldn't be able to survive the hell that it had already gone through once if it had to do it again. "Nessie, I love you and I never should have said otherwise. I just had to tell you." He said before letting me go. I stood there for a moment trying to keep myself from losing all control. But instead of being able to calm down, my tears flow stronger and my legs don't let me stay standing as I sink to the ground and wrap my arms around my legs, the pain ripping my heart apart. My mom is by my side in a moment and she wraps an arm around me in support.
"Please. Just leave me alone." I say crying, needing to be in pain by myself. She takes her arm away and walks slowly to where my dad is.
"You see what you did to her? You hurt her, and I will never forgive you for that." My dad says to Jacob. "If killing you wouldn't hurt Renesmee, then you would be dead right now-"
"Why?" I look at Jacob and he knows I'm not talking to my dad. "Why did you say it, if it is a lie?"
"Because I wanted you to get your chance. You told me that one of your reasons that was making you think of saying no to Julliard was me. I didn't want to keep you from getting your chance at getting the best you can. I knew that if you thought I didn't love you, you would go and then I wouldn't be holding you back." I look into his eyes and they look truthful, but how can I trust him at all anymore? "If I had known any other way to get you to take the chance, I would have."
"You mean like, I don't know, telling her that she should go for it instead of hurting her?" Aunt Rose says threading her sentence with anger. Jacob ignored her and walked to where I was once more.
"I am so sorry Nessie; I never wanted to hurt you, I swear."
"But you did hurt me, and now I'm all glued back together and you want to break me again?" I say with tears running down my cheeks. I look into his dark brown eyes. "I can't let my heart be ripped out and torn apart again." He cups my face in his hands and wipes a tear from my check.
"I'm so sorry Ness; I just want the best for you." He looks into my eyes. "I'm so sorry."
"I don't know if that's going to be enough." I say, still hurting.
"I understand if it's not. I just wanted you to know the truth. I just hope one day you will know that I am telling you the truth right now when I say I love you for you and that I didn't mean anything I said that day. I'm sorry."
"It's not enough. I have to guard my heart from being hurt again. I don't have enough glue to fix the pieces that will be rebroken if I believe you."
"Then I'll leave you alone, I just wanted you to know," he says before getting up and leaving. And I wrap my arms tighter around my legs as I cry some more.