Jacob's POV

There should only be so many times you're allowed to make dumb decisions before the Universe fixes everything and lets you live happily. The dumbest decision of my life though was hurting her. As much as I don't normally like her, Rose was right. I could have just told Nessie to go for it, or that I would follow her anywhere, but I thought the only way to get her to go was to tell her that painfully, awful, and as far from the truth as possible statement- that I was only with her as an attempt to have had Bella in my life. But I told her that because there wasn't any other way, she wouldn't listen to me otherwise. The sight my brain kept replaying though was Nessie, crying her arms wrapped around herself. "I don't have enough glue to fix the pieces that will be rebroken if I believe you." Her words played like a broken record that I wish would just scratch itself so I don't have to keep listening to it. I can't figure out how to fix it though, how can I show her I lied? How do I fix the heart that I shattered into a million ragged pieces? Could I even fix it?

My thoughts were stopped by a knock on my door. It was light and for a moment my heart wants to believe that it's Ness, coming for some explanation, but the smell alone tells me it's not. I open the door to see the person who I at one point considered my best friend and wish I still could, though I doubt she would ever consider me even just a friend after I destroyed her daughter. "Bella, I'm so-"

"Stop." Bella's voice is cool and sharp, reminding me of Edward in a way. "Why the hell did you do it Jake?" The question hissed through the air. "You saw what Edward's lying did to me. How could you put her through that?"

"Bells," My nickname for her slips out without a second thought.

"Don't even. Explain before I kill you for hurting my daughter."

"Every time I tried telling Ness to go for it, she kept telling me that she didn't want to leave me, but she also knew I had a pack to run here and she didn't want to be the reason that I abandoned them. I told her that didn't matter, that her happiness was worth so much more than my pack. As that summer drew closer to when she was supposed to be leaving for New York, she started to make it clear she was willing to give up Juilliard, her dream school, to stay here in Forks while I led my pack. I couldn't let her do that, so I decided that I wanted- no I needed to make sure that she got her chance, even if it meant taking myself out of the equation. Do you remember the first time that you and I talked about imprints?" Bella nods sharply. "I would do anything to make sure she got the best things in life, even if it meant I didn't get to be a part of her life. She could tell me she fell in love with someone else and I would gladly walk away from her to let her have her happiness. But to see that she was just as willing to give up her dreams and her possible happiness for me? I didn't want her to do that. So I did what I thought I had to." I take a breath before continuing. "Bella, it was the dumbest and worst decision I ever made and I know that now. It's the only thing in my whole life that I regret. If I could make it up to her, or go back and change it I would. Do you think she will ever be able to forgive me?"

"Jake, you did a number on her worse that Edward did to me." The words stab through my heart like a knife. "We didn't hear from her the first semester she was at school other than a weekly text message telling us she was alive and what she was learning in school so we didn't come check up on her. During break, she asked if the family would come to New York so that she didn't have to risk coming here. And even being there she could only manage to hang out with us for a few hours at a time because, and I quote, 'this is as normal as I can pretend to be at a time without breaking down'. When we left at the end, she asked Edward and I to visit every so often because she wanted her parents in her darker moments. It took so many visits to even convince her to consider coming home for her break because she didn't want to risk seeing you. Jake, telling her you only saw her as a quote 'mini-Bella' confirmed her darkest thoughts that you only imprinted on her because you couldn't on me." I try to inject what I had always said, that I had never imprinted on Bella because I was waiting for Ness, but Bella doesn't let me speak. "I'm not guessing on that statement; Edward told me that's the thought that went through her mind so many times. So I don't know if she will ever be able to forgive you, because you confirmed her darkest thoughts, and that's something that is too hard to disagree with." My heart sinks deeper. "But, I'm not going to say no. I took Edward back after everything, because deep down I knew he never stopped loving me. If Ne-Renesmee gets to that point again, who knows what could happen."

"Renesmee…?" I ask softly, wondering why Bella stopped herself from saying the nickname Nessie had grown up with.

"When we came to visit and more importantly when she came home today she asked that we call her by her full name. She cringes any time anyone calls her your name. You gave it to her, so when you broke her, she stopped using it." Bella looks at me with what could only be described as pitty written on her face. "I'm not trying to hurt you Jake, but I want to be honest with you for Renesmee's sake."

"I appreciate it Bella, I do. Could you pass a message to her for me?" Bella bites her lip as she thinks for a moment.

"I can't promise that she will want to hear it but I'll try."

"I'd like to explain everything to her, more in depth and I'll answer any questions she has, and then leave her be for, well for forever I guess if that's what she wants, but if she doesn't even want any explanation then that's ok too. But even if it's years from now, I'll always be here waiting for her because an imprints never wrong. Make sure to tell her that part ok?"

"I'll try Jake, but no promises. She's stubborn and I don't know if she'll want to hear any of it."

"That's all I'm asking. And thanks Bella. Thank you because I know you owe me nothing at all."

"You were there in my darkest moment Jake, I owed you an attempt to try and be here in yours." And for a moment I saw the girl that I called my best friend, before the mother of the girl who's heart I broke was back again. "I should go."

"Bye Bella."

"Bye Jake."

Author's Note: Sorry I've taken so much time away from writing. I have finally finished this story- two more chapters and an epilogue will be posted in the nearish future!

-Lizzy